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by H. P. Davenport




  Beautifully Scarred

  H. P. Davenport

  BEAUTIFULLY SCARRED

  Copyright © 2020 by H.P. Davenport

  ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, businesses, and events portrayed in this book are fictitious in every regard. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author. Any trademarks, service marks, product names, or named features are assumed to be the property of their respective owners, and are used only for reference. There is no implied endorsement if any of these terms are used.

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  Without limiting the rights under copyright reserved above, no part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in or introduced into a retrieval system, or transmitted, in any form, or by any means (electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise) without the prior written permission from the author, except for the use of brief quotations in a book review.

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  Editor: Mo Sytsma

  Cover Design: Shower of Schmidt Designs

  Table of Contents

  Books by H.P. Davenport

  Quote

  Playlist

  Praise For Beautifully Scarred

  1. Chapter One

  2. Chapter Two

  3. Chapter Three

  4. Chapter Four

  5. Chapter Five

  6. Chapter Six

  7. Chapter Seven

  8. Chapter Eight

  9. Chapter Nine

  10. Chapter Ten

  11. Chapter Eleven

  12. Chapter Twelve

  13. Chapter Thirteen

  14. Chapter Fourteen

  15. Chapter Fifteen

  16. Chapter Sixteen

  17. Chapter Seventeen

  18. Chapter Eighteen

  19. Chapter Nineteen

  20. Chapter Twenty

  21. Chapter Twenty-One

  22. Chapter Twenty-Two

  23. Chapter Twenty-Three

  24. Chapter Twenty-Four

  25. Chapter Twenty-Five

  26. Chapter Twenty-Six

  27. Chapter Twenty-Seven

  Epilogue

  About the Author

  Author Note

  Acknowledgments

  Books by H.P. Davenport

  THE UNSPOKEN LOVE SERIES

  Unspoken Words

  Unspoken Promises

  Unspoken Vows

  Unspoken Fears

  Beautifully Scarred

  H.P. Davenport

  “Life leaves us with scars.”

  A scar simply means you were stronger than whatever tried to hurt you…

  Playlist

  Breathe by Through Fire

  Stronger by Through Fire

  Believer by Imagine Dragons

  Reason to Hope by Ron Pope

  Black Honey by Thrice

  Bulletproof by Godsmack

  Waking Lions by Pop Evil

  I Fall Apart by Post Malone

  Hold On by Derek Hough

  Every Part of Me by Godsmack

  Headstrong by Trapt

  Naked by Brielle Von Hugel

  About This Book

  With her past firmly behind her where it belongs, Juliette has made a career out of turning her scars into art. She uses her skills to help others cover the evidence of their pain, too.

  But some scars are too deep, too painful for anyone to hide completely.

  Juliette has everything she could ever need--great parents, her dream job, the best friend a girl could ask for, and a new body to warm her bed whenever she wants. With her focus firmly on the here and now, she never expects a kiss from a stranger to throw a bomb in the middle of her carefully constructed life.

  Every wound leaves a scar.

  Every scar tells a story.

  Her story left her beautifully scarred.

  Praise For Beautifully Scarred

  “Lee and Mills crawled inside my soul and stayed long past the last page. I immediately knew I’d stumbled upon storytelling genius. Couldn’t. Put. It. Down!” – Author Michelle Kemper Brownlow

  “Beautifully Scarred was a phenomenal tale of finding comfort in your own skin, learning to overcome your past, and finding true happiness where you never thought it could exist. Juliette’s story was intriguing and full of messages of encouragement and healing.” – Sarah Arndt

  “The title to this emotional, heart-gripping story is perfect for a story such as this. It was painful. It was hurtful. It was tearful. It was survival. It was beautifully scarred and I loved it. These gut wrenching stories are my favorite to read. Beautiful story. Beautifully written. – USA Today Best Selling Author, Kathy Coopmans

  “Highly emotional. Sexy. Edgy. Beautifully Scarred has it all!!! – USA Today Best Selling Author, M. Never

  “From the prologue, I knew this was going to be different than any other romance. From the first chapter, I fell in love, and by the end I laughed, I cried, and I never felt so complete. H.P. Davenport gives you all the feels and, more importantly, makes you feel like you are part of the story.” – Heather McLaughlin

  “Beautifully Scarred takes us on an emotional journey of pain, love and healing. It’s a story that will forever live in my heart.” – Franci Neill, Franci’s Fabulous Reads

  “This author will captivate you with her beautiful words and leave you reeling until the very last page until she puts the broken pieces of your heart back together.” – @jensbooks247, Instagram.

  Chapter One

  Juliette

  As I laid in my bed, a loud crash echoed from the living room, waking me up. I rubbed the sleep from my eyes and listened to see if I heard it again. I knew I couldn’t go downstairs. I wasn’t allowed. My daddy’s number one rule once he put me to bed was I had to stay in my room. “Stay up here, Squirt, don’t come down those steps. Do you understand me?” I gave my daddy the same response every time he told me that. “Okay.”

  I didn’t understand why it was a rule. Why did I have to stay there? What if I had to pee? What if I got thirsty? He seemed to have a party every night when I went to bed. Sometimes there were loud voices downstairs, voices I didn’t know.

  I went downstairs once after my dad put me to bed, and a lady with long red hair sat on my daddy’s lap on the couch, rocking back and forth. When she noticed me, she didn’t stop, the lady kept doing it, but she closed her eyes and made a funny noise. I never saw the lady before, so I asked, “Who are you?”

  My dad turned his head and saw me. “What did I tell you, Jules? Get back to bed. You know the rule, do not come back down once I put you to sleep,” he yelled.

  My daddy never yelled at me. But why was that lady here? What was she doing to him?

  The next day, my dad told me if I didn’t follow the rules, I was going to get spanked. I never went downstairs again.

  My hands shook as I clutched my fuzzy pink blankie to my chest. I didn’t know what to do. If I went down, my dad would be really mad. But I was scared.

  People yelled at each other, then I heard our front door slam shut. I tiptoed over and eased my door open as slowly and quietly as I could to make sure I didn’t make any noise. I leaned my ear against the cold wood. The house was quiet.

  I walked softly down the steps, so no one heard me, and my eyes bounced around the room. It was all dark, and no one was there.

  Someone laid on the floor, and there was a lot of red stuf
f around them. My eyes widened when I saw it was my dad.

  “Daddy, wake up!” I screamed and pushed against his arm. Blood came from his belly—so much blood.

  “Daddy, wake up, please,” I begged, but he didn’t move. I pushed my hands against his belly and tried to stop the blood. I jumped up, ran to the bathroom, and grabbed a box of band-aids. That should help. Daddy always put band-aids on my boo-boos.

  When I got back, I lifted his shirt and wiped his belly with my blankey. I put the band-aids over his cut, hoping they would make him feel better. Maybe he needed some rest. Maybe when he woke up, he would be all better. When I didn’t feel good, daddy would tell me to take a nap, and when I woke up, I’d be as good as new. That’s what he needed. He needed to sleep.

  The sun was shining through the windows when I lifted my head off my daddy’s chest. He was still sleeping.

  “It’s time to get up,” I said as I pushed his shoulder. He didn’t move.

  I jumped to my feet and ran through the living room to the front door. I pulled it open and ran down the steps, across the lawn to the house next door. I banged on the door. “Mrs. Keller. Mrs. Keller,” I yelled.

  The old lady who lived next door gasped and grabbed her chest when she opened the door. “Oh my goodness, are you hurt, Juliette? Honey, what happened?”

  “My daddy won’t wake up!” I cried.

  She bent down and lifted me into her arms and rushed into her kitchen. She pulled out a chair from the table. “Sit here, Jules. I’m going to call for help, okay?”

  I nodded as I twisted my hands in my lap.

  Gentle hands lightly shake my body side to side. “Hey, wake up,” a groggy voice next to me says.

  I struggle to emerge from the dream. My eyes finally open to find myself in a dark room.

  Gripping the sheets wrapped around my body, I tremble. My chest aches as I think about that horrible night. The night my entire life changed.

  A hand touches my shoulder, startling me. “Are you okay?”

  “Get out,” my voice breaks as I pull the sheet tighter.

  “What?” His hoarse whisper breaks the silence in the room.

  “I said, get out. Get dressed and get the fuck out of my apartment,” I growl as I snatch the sheet off my bed. I stand to reach for my robe on the chair, and once it's secured around my naked body, I reach for his clothes and throw them at him.

  “What part did you not understand? Get the fuck out. Now!” I yell.

  Whatever his name is moves quickly off the bed, dressing as fast as he can. “What the hell is your problem?” he snarls at me. “You were screaming in your sleep. You were having a nightmare, so I woke you up.” He turns toward me with palms in the air. “I swear, I didn’t do anything.”

  “Shut up.” I run my hands over my face. “Please stop talking. Just leave,” I plead, letting out a few long breaths.

  He snatches his jacket off the chair, opening my bedroom door with such force it slams against the wall. “You’re some crazy bitch, I’ll tell you that.”

  Following this prick out of my bedroom, I scream, “You haven’t seen crazy yet.” I pick up the closest thing I can get my hands on and throw it at his head. My black combat boot hits him with such force, he stumbles forward, losing his footing. He turns toward me, chest heaving up and down.

  “You’re one fucked up bitch,” his blue eyes meet my gray ones.

  I close my eyes and inhale a deep breath, taking an abrupt step toward him. “You have no idea how right you are. Now get out!”

  He turns on his heel and strides to the door. Yanking the door open, he slams it shut behind him. I flinch.

  A laugh echoes through the apartment. “Jules, you are crazy,” my roommate and best friend, Quinn, says.

  I met Quinn when I was ten years old. It was my first day in a new school in Philadelphia. I remember the day vividly. The teacher, Mrs. Lee, introduced me to the class, and Quinn stood and said I could sit next to her. When I sat down, she leaned over, introduced herself, and told me she’d be my first friend in the school.

  I hadn’t spoken a single word to anyone in weeks. I wanted to be left alone. I wanted to continue to feel numb. I wanted to be unseen to the world. She had pointed to my arm and wanted to know what happened. When I didn’t answer, Quinn never pushed. She invited me to sit with her friends at lunch, and we’ve been inseparable since. New friends, new beginnings.

  I didn’t even notice her lying on the couch. I didn’t know I had an audience to this shit show. I don’t have the strength or patience to deal with her right now.

  “So, what’s this one’s name?” she asks as she sits up, patting the cushion next to her.

  Sitting next to her, I pull a corner of the gray throw blanket she’s using over my bare legs and shrug my shoulders.

  Quinn’s eyebrows raise. “You don’t know it, do you?” Her mouth quirks with humor. “Did you bother to ask before you left the bar with him?”

  “I think it was Dave, but I’m not sure.”

  Quinn reaches for the bowl of popcorn on the coffee table, popping a piece in her mouth. “He was cute. After the way things just ended, I don’t suppose he’ll be back.”

  My expression holds a note of mockery. “They never come back. I don’t do repeats.”

  “I thought maybe this one would be different.” She pastes on a smile of nonchalance.

  My fingers curl into my palms as I get the urge to get up and walk away. “You know how I am.”

  “I know, but I was hoping one of the men you parade through here would make you happy, and you’d want to change your way of thinking.”

  My eyes widen. “My way of thinking?” I raise a challenging brow. “What’s wrong with what I do? I fuck. I have orgasms and move on. I don’t ask for anything from them, and I sure as hell don’t promise to give them more than one night.”

  A small chuckle escapes Quinn as she stares at me for a long moment. “You know, you sound like a prostitute.”

  “A prostitute gets paid. I don’t get paid. I have one goal, a good time. Let me ask you something, how come a man can screw as many women as he wants, yet when a woman has sex without being in a relationship, she’s a whore? Can you explain that to me?” I reach over and grab a handful of popcorn from the bowl.

  I know Quinn doesn’t approve of my lifestyle. She thinks I should be in a committed relationship, and I mask the pain from my past with the pleasure of sex. Maybe I do, but it’s my decision to make. Not hers.

  I don’t promise these men anything, and I don’t ask for anything in return. Am I uncertain what the guy’s name is who I tossed out tonight? Yes. Does it make me a bad person? Absolutely not. My lifestyle might not be for everyone, but it works for me.

  “First of all,” Quinn turns toward me. “I don’t think you’re a whore. I think you fuck all these men to try to hide the pain you feel.” Quinn throws some more popcorn into her mouth. When she’s finished chewing, she raises a brow. “I don’t think it’s purely for the pleasure you receive from an orgasm, as you politely just said. You have an entire drawer of toys that can give you an orgasm. So stop bullshitting yourself.”

  I tilt my head and look at her. The muscle in my jaw ticks. I don’t want to have this conversation with her, not with my nightmare still fresh in my mind.

  Quinn stretches her arms out to me. “Come here.”

  Scooting across the cushions, I settle my head in her lap as she plays with my hair. The calming strokes of her fingers suddenly have me feeling less angry.

  “Sorry, I didn’t mean to upset you. You know I’m not judging you. I never would, Jules.”

  I stay quiet for a long time. When I finally speak, my voice is low. “I know.”

  “Why the sudden exit of tonight’s conquest? Another nightmare?” Her voice is laced with concern.

  I nod.

  Quinn continues to run her fingers through my hair, soothing my panic from the nightmare. “Do you want to talk about it?”

  I shak
e my head, and my hand rubs mindlessly against my left arm over the intricate artwork decorating my body.

  “Are you sure? Maybe talking about it will help.”

  “You’re one of the few who knows everything. The good, the bad, and the gruesome. I don’t want to rehash it.”

  Quinn doesn’t push any further. It’s one of the many qualities I love about her.

  We are an odd couple, and our friendship was one I least expected. Quinn is all prim and proper with manicured nails, the perfect amount of makeup, azure eyes, and long, beautiful blonde hair. She’s about five foot six with a runner’s body, all toned and fit. I am the complete opposite, sticking out like a sore thumb with my head buzzed short on the sides, leaving my hair longer on top to blow out and style with piecey definition and texture. My hair color changes frequently, usually depending on my mood. The guys at the shop never know what color I will walk through the doors with. It could be peach one day, bleached out to be silver the next.

  Quinn and I came into each other’s lives when we both needed a friend the most. She is my person.

 

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