Chapter 7
Misunderstandings
It seemed absurd to see me involved in a situation like that I would never have imagined because over the years, I discovered a model of fidelity in myself that I had matured. I was convinced that Eleana, once the anger faded, she would have realized that he had misinterpreted what he had seen. I waited for the moment of her return home so I can explain.
I was sure that she would be back soon because she could not live without her things. Her world was all here, but I felt cold and still without her. I was waiting, the days went by, Eleana did not return. I have accumulated in the head feelings of anger and fear for her. I was very jealous and did not even know where it can be searched.
Every now increased my guilt. I thought I had to talk Verter while avoiding to reveal to him the reason for Eleana's absence. "She's gone" I said. "What?" "I was selfish, I should be more understanding, and it is my fault." "You had to understand it has passed tough times" he said.
Almost the middle of March I was still alone, I began to take some of his sleeping pill. I woke up with a start, and for a moment I had the impression of having lived a bad nightmare instead the reality was before me with all its harshness. I was beginning to wonder why I was so unable to really understand his suffering yet Eleana was for me the light of dawn. Everything had gone forward so rapidly that I no longer knew who I was. I needed help, but I did not even know what kind. Meanwhile, I also had to carry on my work.
One day I had to go to the fair and had arranged the collection of precious backseat. I proceeded to drive on the highway, but when I entered the fog, I noticed a dog in the street, at the last. I swerved to the side, and did a spin, I pushed on the brake, and the car slid down among the reeds by the bank leaning on the side in the ditch.
I banged my head, a two, three times, but I have not lost my senses. I tried to untie the belt, but I had one arm locked, and the other I could not lift it, I made a terrible evil. I tried to remove the phone from his pocket, but he was crushed beneath me. Meanwhile, I could see the slime that came in and I went up to her knees, felt the cold and rotten smell and taste of iron in my blood that I went down on her mouth.
The navigator told me: "Hello and he repeated it every second. I have reviewed my useless life in a selfish moment, I pressed against the backrest. "If I come out alive, I swear, I will change" I said, and I fainted.
After a week I found myself housebound. A rich cast was blocking his right arm across your chest and had a bandage over his left eye. I could not drive, nor stand in jewelry. I had the time to look into my heart.
One day Verter called me and tells me that no one had seen Eleana and that he would have gone to see me to talk about it. I settled a little in the afternoon and expect it sitting on the couch in front of the empty space left by the glass table.
Verter was sitting in a chair and looked at me without saying a word and read the question on the lips: "Why did she go?" Instead I told him that I could not open the store that the sample could not be found valuable. "You're so you do not do anything?" "I looked in vain, I hope you decide to come back" I said.
Verter he leaned forward toward me. He said: "Is it possible that you do not know where she might have gone?" The fact that he had hit the mark has caused me a nervous as if he had used one of her needles instead of words. "You're absolutely right, but it is so" I said. He looked around. "At least you looked through her things, I do not know, an address, a few phone number" and told me he was altering. I felt even more miserable in telling you that in its agenda of this year there were only numbers.
Verter meanwhile got up and moved around the shelves of the library. "Have you looked here, sometimes you keep notes in the books" he said, and he took one and began to leaf through it. "No, I do not think" I said and I saw wits back and forth without knowing where to put your hands. "Those are not books, they are photo albums" I said, seeing that he had stretched his neck up and I decided it was best to distract him because I was not ready to tell him everything and he was not going to let go easily.
I said "But what if you want to take the red cover is there anything that concerns you, you know Eleana has the habit to keep everything." I remembered that also contained photos of us. He came back to sit with the album in hand. It was one of the oldest. "What?" He said and thinned her lips trying to remember. "Browse it" I said, but it was useless because it was already doing. "Ah, the fishing huts!" And said it melted in a warm smile.
"We were sitting in front of the net clear of shrimp waiting for the signal from the rocker" I said. "It's true, and as usual you've started talking to me about the beauty of the natural diamond unlike the artificial one" he said. " Actually, my speech was about the fact that the false are not authentic to criticize, rather they are ingenious work and should not be confused with the aesthetic problem that statement" I said and he listened to me with the typical attitude to take back the word as soon as possible.
He said: "What do you care if the fake diamond is beautiful and misleading if the woman who will bring you will be granted, gave an equally good result." "Ah, that's another matter" I said, and I thought to my youth and I could not understand how he could go without realizing it. "Yes, indeed another matter" he said. "Good times eh?" I said, and I saw him distracted to browse the album.
Then he stopped the page. "Look, there's also a piece of newspaper, and there are too" he said and showed me the yellowed clipping with the picture taken in the jewelry store the day that the press had interviewed me on Ele. "By the way, at what point are the investigations?" I moved my shooting arm in the cast; the excruciating pain did not stop me to grab the album and jump up and move back and forth to the salon as bitten by a tarantula.
Verter looked at me impressed, but I still could not talk to him about what was just a feeling that with each passing second I became a certainty. I almost yelled "Do you see this?" He frowned and approached the nose to the picture. "Is he an Eleana friend?" She asked. "No" I said and thanked her for having preserved in thought the article. I said: "I am sure; this man was often in jewelry before disappeared Ele, but after that, I have not seen."
I phoned immediately to the head of the investigation. He took a little to remember the event; I asked him information at regular scans to hoping to get the good news. I had to ask you to accompany me to do Verter witness, and he agreed willingly.
The manager and the assistant looked at each other and at the yellowed clipping and in the end, one has made a nod to another. "Yes, we think it's him" he told the manager. "That's always involved in scams" added another. "I think we will soon have good news" he said. Verter took me back home. He told me that he was happy for me and I thanked him and came home. "Eleana" I said and immediately went back into reality, my heart was not happy; nothing could make me happy, only you, only to have her close.
I left home, I was angry and desperate, and I leaned against the pillar of the porch and wept. I looked down at the city and I remembered what she had said to me one day. "I do not believe that further up the street you can find more easily?" I did not understand the practicality of certain concepts, but suddenly I felt that was true, all this pain had brought me up and I began to see the way in of me. Wind was almost vernal and I looked up. The sky was full of stars and the absence of the moon made me more beautiful.
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