The Many Sins of Lord Cameron

by Jennifer Ashley

  Prario regarded Cameron with deep brown eyes and a proud tilt to his head before he drew Phyllida away. Phyllida had her claws into him all right, poor sod.

  Cameron watched them walk away, Phyllida swaying into the body of the large man. Phyllida Chase, who loved her comfort and social position above everything else, was ready to throw it all away to run off with a young opera singer. The world was becoming a strange place.

  Still more bizarrely, Cameron was becoming more and more entangled with the young lady in red who crashed through the palm fronds next to him, breathless and pink- faced.

  “Did you get them?” she asked.

  Chapter 13

  Cameron’s eyes betrayed his anger, but he didn’t growl at Ainsley for not waiting in the anteroom. He must have known that she would never be that patient.

  Ainsley held out her hand for the letters, but Cameron didn’t give them to her. “I’ll keep them for now. I don’t trust Phyllida not to waylay you and try to steal them back.”

  Ainsley kept her hand out for a moment, her fingers itching to feel the letters in them. “My friend will be most grateful for what you’re done.”

  “Your friend, Mrs. Brown? Dear God, Ainsley.”

  Ainsley lowered her arm, eyes wide. “I asked you not to read them. I remember distinctly.”

  “I did it to make certain Phyllida wasn’t holding anything back. I’ve got them all, even the one with the missing page.”

  He was so tall and solid. And angry. “Cameron, for heaven’s sake, please don’t tell your brother. Hart Mackenzie is notorious for opposing the queen’s policies. I can’t think what he’d do with letters like these.”

  “Probably toss them onto the fire.”

  Ainsley blinked. “What? But he could embarrass her, sway people’s opinion of her, turn those on the fence to his side.”

  “If you think that, you have a wrong view of Hart.” Cameron closed his warm hand over her cold one. “Hart wants to win by proving he’s right—about everything—not with tittle-tattle and bedroom gossip. Hart wants to be God Almighty. No, he already thinks he’s God Almighty. Now he wants to prove it to everyone else.”

  Ainsley ran her thumb over Cameron’s fingers, which were calloused and rough from his days working with horses. These weren’t the well-kept hands of a gentleman who lifted nothing heavier than cards or a glass of brandy. Cameron worked alongside the other men in the stables, doing whatever jobs had to be done.

  She kissed one broad, blunt finger. “Please,” she said. “Don’t tell him. Just in case.”

  “I don’t intend to. This is none of Hart’s bloody business.”

  His eyes sparkled with heat, and Ainsley lifted herself on tiptoe and kissed the corner of his mouth. “Thank you.”

  Cameron scooped her up to him and caught her mouth with his in a full kiss. As she kissed him back, Ainsley wormed her hand inside Cameron’s coat and touched the letters in his pocket.

  Strong fingers clamped her wrist. “Devil.”

  Ainsley reluctantly let go. “When do I get them back?”

  “When you leave Kilmorgan. I’ll hand them to you when you get into your carriage.” Cameron closed his arms around her. “Now, stop playing. I’m kissing you.”

  He was in a playful mood himself, she thought. He nipped and kissed her lips, and she nipped and kissed back, but when she looked into his eyes, she saw stark need. No playfulness at all.

  She drew a breath, steeling herself for what she’d decided. “I want to spend tonight with you,” she said.

  Heat flared in his eyes. “I hope so.

  How could he sound so casual? “But not, I think, here.”

  “Good God, no. We’ll go somewhere far more comfortable and far less sickening.”

  She tried to match his light tone. “I thought you said comfort was the last consideration.”

  “Minx. I meant I want you to be comfortable.”

  “While you thoroughly debauch me?”

  “Damn you, don’t look at me like that. Or I won’t be able to stop myself, no matter where we are.”

  Ainsley’s heart beat faster. Why did such declarations excite her?

  Cameron brushed another kiss to her lips. “Walk out with me, and I’ll hunt down my carriage. I don’t want you out of my sight.”

  Ainsley didn’t much want to move from his sight either. Not in this house. “My shoes are in the anteroom.” She wondered whether they could rush back and fetch them without encountering Rowlindson or anyone else, but her thoughts cut off when Cameron swept her up into his arms.

  Cameron’s strength took her breath away. He didn’t waver under her weight and the drag of her skirts, cushions and all, as he strode for the door at the end of the conservatory and out into darkness. The night was cold, but Ainsley would never be cold tucked up against Cameron.

  “You’ve done so much for me,” she said, touching his face. “I’m not sure how I can—”

  “If you start talking about repayment, I will drop you in the bushes.” His breath fogged in the chill. “I don’t want the money back, or your gratitude, or payment with your body.”

  “If you won’t even accept gratitude, then what do you want?”

  His voice lost all humor. “What I can’t have.”

  Ainsley started to quip that surely a Mackenzie could have anything he wanted, but something in his face made her stop. Ainsley had lived in the queen’s houses long enough to know that money and position were no guarantee of happiness. They made life more comfortable and less desperate, but there could still be grief, anger, emptiness.

  “I want to do something,” Ainsley said. “I am obliged to you—” She broke off and squealed as Cameron pivoted and strode straight for a line of rhododendrons. “Very well, very well. I will do nothing.”

  Cameron lowered her to her feet on a patch of grass. “The business with the letters is concluded. I don’t want it between us.”

  “No, I see that.” Ainsley didn’t want it between them either. “But you can’t stop me from being grateful. Thank you for your help, Cam.”

  She half feared he would make good his threat and drag her to the nearest clump of bushes, but Cameron only cupped her face with a gentle hand.

  He hadn’t had to help her. He could have demanded the price Phyllida had said he would before he’d even lend Ainsley the money. But he’d fought this battle for her, and now he’d turned back to what was between them.

  Cameron’s coachman must have been alert, because a carriage circled the drive not far away, its coach lights bright. Cameron picked up Ainsley again and made for it.

  Stars were out in profusion, the night dry and cold. “I miss this sky when I’m in London,” Ainsley said. “It’s breathtaking.”

  “It’s bloody freezing.”

  “I notice most Scotsmen complain about the weather while we’re surrounded by beauty.”

  “Right now, I’d rather be surrounded by warmth.”

  They reached the carriage. A footman materialized out of the dark as the carriage rolled to a halt and opened its door.

  “In you go.” Cameron lifted Ainsley inside, where she sank onto comfortable cushions.

  Cameron dropped a tip into the footman’s hand, glanced up at his coachman, and made a circling motion with his finger. “Right ye are, sir,” the coachman said cheerfully.

  Cameron folded the steps and pulled himself into the carriage as it jerked forward. He slammed the door and dropped onto the seat next to Ainsley, smelling of the night and the good scents of the outdoors.

  Without a word Cameron pulled off her wig and mask and tossed both to the opposite seat. Cool air touched Ainsley’s face, and her head felt suddenly light.

  “That’s better,” Cameron said. “My little mouse is back.”

  “Hardly flattering to call a woman a mouse, you know.” She knew she was babbling, nervous, but she couldn’t still her tongue.

  “You hide behind my curtains and scuttle around my rooms. What else should
I call you?”

  “You said ferret, once. But you wouldn’t give a diamond necklace to a mouse or a ferret. Well, not unless you were very silly. They’d try to eat it or use it to line their nests.”

  “I don’t give a damn what you use the diamonds for.” Cameron slid his arm around her shoulders and kissed the top of her head. “As long as you like them.”

  “I do. They’re lovely.”

  “No more talk about giving them back or not accepting them?”

  “I wouldn’t accept them from any other gentleman, no,” she said in a decided voice. “But for you, I will make an exception.”

  “You’d damn well better not accept them from any other gentleman. Any other man tries to give you jewelry, and I’ll pummel him. Right after I pummel Rowlindson for letting you come here tonight.”

  She shivered. “He is rather strange.”

  “He’s disgusting. He understands only crudity. Not beauty.”

  Ainsley touched the velvet wall of the coach. “This is a very comfortable carriage. Quite large and warm.”

  “I travel a lot during the horse season. I like a big traveling coach, especially if I have to sleep in it.”

  “You could take trains, surely. Even with the horses.”

  “The horses don’t like the train, and the coal smoke is bad for their lungs.”

  He sounded like a worried father. “You are very kind to your horses.”

  Cameron shrugged. “They’re expensive animals, and they give me all they have. Idiots ruin them by not taking care of them.”

  “You take good care of Jasmine, even though she’s not yours.”

  “Because she’s a damn fine horse.”

  His voice held longing. “You truly want her, don’t you?” Ainsley asked.

  “Yes.” Cameron’s fingers under her chin tilted her head back. “And I truly want you.”

  “I hope not for the same reason. I don’t gallop very fast.”

  “You have a lot of the devil in you, Ainsley.”

  “So I’m told—”

  Cameron silenced her words with a kiss.

  Soft lips, trembling and nervous, but determined at the same time. Cameron tasted her need to be held and touched, her laughter. He’d never, ever met a woman like her.

  His heart beat faster, his body beginning to perspire in the coach’s heat. Whenever he seduced a woman, Cameron was calm and cool, knowing the steps it took to reach the brief part of coupling that brought him alive. The spark lasted only a short while, but it was heady when he got there.

  He always made sure the ladies enjoyed great pleasure, his gift to them for releasing him from numbness. He reflected that the women often had a much better time with the whole thing than he did.

  Tonight he was impatient, clumsy with need. He tugged at the waistband of Ainsley’s skirt. “I want this off.”

  Pins that held skirt to bodice tinkled to the carpet. When Ainsley reached forward to catch them, Cameron unfastened the clasps on the skirt’s back. The velvet folds came away, so many yards of them.

  Cameron knelt on the floor in front of her as he pulled away the last of the skirt. Underneath the skirt’s smothering fabric he found—sofa pillows. He burst out laughing.

  “We didn’t have panniers,” Ainsley said. She pulled a cushion out from the sash that tied them around her waist. “It was Morag’s idea.”

  Cameron pulled the pillows away and plumped them behind her. “There, now there’s your comfort.”

  He laughed again, the sound of it grating, because Cameron had never had the velvet tones of his brothers. Working in the cold outdoors had broken his baritone long ago.

  Ainsley lolled against the old sofa pillows in her white stockings and plain cotton pantalets. Cameron’s laughter died away as he put his hand to her bodice. “How many buttons, Mrs. Douglas?”

  “They’re clasps.” Her breath was warm on his face. “I suppose that doesn’t sound as enticing.”

  “I didn’t ask you what it sounded like, I asked you how many.”

  Ainsley’s mischievous smile flashed. “All of them, I think.”

  Cameron was already undoing the clasps until the old- fashioned bodice and stomacher came loose in his hands. Ainsley, being her modest self, wore a small corset under it, and under that, her combinations, its lacy straps on her shoulders.

  Cameron ran his hand down the corset. “I want this off too.”

  “It would be a relief, yes.”

  Ainsley shivered as Cameron spread the corset’s laces, as he had that long-ago day in his bedchamber, his big hand like fire on her back. He lifted the corset away, and there Ainsley sat, in nothing but her combinations, undressed in front of a man for the first time in years.

  And what a man. Cameron knelt in front of her, his big body filling so much space. His coat followed her corset and bodice to the seat behind him, then his waistcoat and cravat. He unbuttoned his shirt, and she beheld him as she had the night she’d crept into his room looking for the letters—the brown of well-muscled chest, kilt hugging narrow hips, Cameron folding back his loose cuffs to bare his arms.

  The scars on his thick wrist came into view, those burns that someone had given him long ago, pain deliberately inflicted. Ainsley hated whoever had done that. From her brothers, she knew that young men at school sometimes tortured each other, she supposed to prove how masculine they were. But Cameron didn’t seem the type to let bullies shove him down and press lighted cigars to his skin.

  Ainsley caught his hand, lifted his wrist, and kissed the burn marks. His skin was smooth, the scars puckered.

  He pulled away. “Don’t.”

  “I dislike to see you hurt,” she said softly.

  Cameron rested his hands on either side of her. “Stop being kind, Ainsley. Not while I’m ravishing you.”

  Ainsley smiled. “If you’d like me to be unkind, I certainly can be.”

  “I doubt that. What I’d like is for you to wrap your legs around my waist.”

  “But I’m still wearing my combinations.”

  “I know, devil woman.”

  Cameron slid his hands under her thighs, lifted her legs, and eased them around his hips. Ainsley felt him through the fabric of her pantalets, warm wool of the kilt and the hardness beneath it.

  “That’s my girl.” His hands were hot on her legs, moving around to her buttocks while he rocked against her.

  Ainsley felt shivery and hot at the same time, nervous and happy. This was going to happen. She was a wanton courtesan tonight, like her imaginary lady who held salons in Paris and had the most handsome men in France after her. But she didn’t want handsome Parisians, she wanted Cameron, her hard, powerful Scotsman.

  “Stop laughing,” he said against her mouth.

  Ainsley cupped his cheek. “Not laughing. Wondering how you plan to ravish me in the close confines of this carriage.”

  The answering heat in his eyes fired her blood. “I don’t know yet. I’ve never had a lady in this carriage.”

  “Never?” Ainsley’s heart beat faster.

  “Never until you, vixen.”

  “Good.”

  Cameron slid one hand through her hair, dislodging pins, letting tendrils tumble to her shoulders.

  “I love your hair,” Cameron said. “I’ve always wanted to see it down.”

  “A bit difficult to tame, I’ve always found.”

  “I don’t want it tame.” Cameron fisted a lock of hair, kissed it. “I want it wild. I want you wild, Ainsley. I know it’s in you.” He put his hand between her breasts, right over her heart.

  “Wild? Me?” She contrived to look innocent.

  “I work with horses all day, every day. I know which ones are happy to plod along and which ones are bursting to throw off their fetters and run free.”

  “Like Jasmine.”

  “Exactly like Jasmine. I look at you and see fire, love. You hide it behind drab clothes, and you pretend to be so dutiful, but that fire wants to burst out of you. You’r
e a woman of passion, wanting to run.” Cameron’s voice softened but was still rough, still deep. “Why not let yourself run?”

  “No one wants me to,” she said. “No one but you.”

  Cameron closed both hands over hers. “Reconsider my offer, Ainsley. Come to Paris with me. I’ll take you to Nice, to Monte Carlo, to Rome if you want. I’ll dress you in beautiful clothes and put you in a carriage behind the finest horses, and you’ll eclipse everyone we see.”

  Ainsley couldn’t stop her happy sigh. “Wouldn’t that be grand? Me a sophisticated and glittering lady.”

  “Say you’ll come with me.” His smile was sudden and wicked. “Say you will or I’ll have my coachman stop, and I’ll put you out into a Scottish meadow in your combinations.”

  “As though such a thing would frighten me, my lord. I’d fly home through woods and dance lightly across bogs, unhampered by my confounded corset and false panniers.”

  Cameron’s laughter filled the carriage. “Ainsley, you have to come with me. Say you will. Promise me.”

  She touched his face. “Cameron.”

  “Damn you, don’t say no.”

  Ainsley started to speak, but Cameron put his hand to her lips. “Not now. Don’t refuse me now. Think about it. Be on the train from Doncaster to London after the last St. Leger race—I leave from there for the Continent. If you want to go with me, tell me then. Now, stop talking, woman, and let me ravish you.”

  Chapter 14

  He was going to have her, touch her, taste her. Everything he could of her.

  Tonight if no other time. He’d do everything he could to persuade her to come away with him, but right now, he was going to enjoy this.

  He undid the pretty bow that tied the top of her combinations and slid the lacy fabric from her shoulders. Her breasts came into view, round globes, firm and tight. Not the small breasts of a virgin, but the wonderfully full ones of a woman who’d grown into her body.

  Ainsley was as beautiful as Cameron had dreamed. He cupped one breast reverently before he leaned forward and licked it.