His Blue gave him a frowny face. “Like what? What can she say that will upset me?”
“Baby, you know she will tell you shit about her and I. Shit that’s not true but is going to sound like it is. It’s best not to talk to her at all.”
The frowny face was gone and a full on pissed off look took its place.
“Is there something I should know? Don’t hide anything from me, Ice.”
Fuck. He didn’t want to talk about how his dick had been hard around Emma at first. It had been a sort of knee jerk reaction to what they’d had in the past. It definitely wasn’t how he felt about her now. And it definitely hadn’t happened in a long damned time. Sucking in a breath he explained.
“Okay, but I want to assure you it was a reaction fuelled by what we used to be to each other. When she first appeared I was confused as to how I felt and I did get hard but I did not do anything about it and it disappeared very, very quickly.”
“Was this before or after we met?”
Fuck. There had been that one instance and he knew it would hurt his girl. What the fuck was he supposed to say? He wanted to be totally honest with her but this was something that would hurt her needlessly. It had been a knee jerk reaction of his body to stimulation and it hadn’t lasted longer than a few seconds. Then again, he told her about it when he had laid it all out for her.
So truth it is.
“Mostly before, Blue, you know about the only other time. And I explained that shit.”
His woman sighed and slumped in her seat. “I hate the thought of you with her, especially after I saw you together at the restaurant. You didn’t look like you didn’t like what she was doing, and I think that’s what bothers me the most. I know I sound like one of those women who goes on and on about something that’s in the past and refuses to let it go. But I keep comparing you and her to us.”
Jesus, this wasn’t good. His old lady was so confident and self-assured and this Emma shit seemed to be undermining her confidence and her confidence in him specifically.
“Blue, what you saw was an act. What you and I have together is not an act. I’m so fucking into you I can’t think straight. I can be sitting in a fucking meeting and remember your scent and I’m instantly hard. I think about your smile and I’m instantly hard. I think about going down on your perfect little pink pussy and I’m so fucking hard I can’t fucking think straight. All my blood is in my cock instead of in the rest of my body. And I stay hard for you, always.”
And then he decided to confide in her, to tell her the one thing that used to worry the shit out of him while he had been with Emmie all those years ago.
“I need to tell you something. But remember this happened in the past. It does not happen now, I swear on my life it doesn’t.” He glanced at her before looking back at the road. “While I was with Emma I got turned on by other women, not only her. Strippers, dancers, a nice ass on the street, great hair, fucking anything would set it off. It felt as if I had no control over my damned cock and was being unfaithful. I think my dad realised I was struggling and gave me a talk about how some men had a higher sex drive and that it was okay as long as I didn’t act on it.” Ice tapped his fingers on the steering wheel. “I hid it from the bitch, pretending it was her turning me on when sometimes it wasn’t. She had this way of talking down to me when we were arguing and it turned me off for fucking days, sometimes weeks. But I still got turned on by other women, just not by her. Until she accused me of fucking Jane. The accusations killed my sex drive for a while.”
He quickly glanced at her again before he looked back at the road. She was watching him.
“After she left I lived my life as a single man and I had some women. Nothing like Hawk and some of the other brothers at the club, but still quite a few. Years before I met you I realised it was visual stimulation that turned me on. I learned how to either use it or ignore it, until it no longer ruled me. It worked perfectly until the first time I saw you. Every bit of control I had flew right out the fucking window. Like I said, I only have to think about you and I’m so fucking turned on I need to jerk off over and over. You now rule my cock. It’s yours, Blue, only yours. Never doubt that.”
He glanced at her again and his woman smiled at him and his heart settled.
“Thanks for explaining it to me, Ice.” She gave a little laugh. “And giving me your cock. I promise I’ll take very good care of it.”
He laughed. “I know you will, baby.”
During the drive home Ice hadn’t once stopped checking for a tail. He had Sam and four brothers escorting them and so far he hadn’t noticed anyone following them. But he would not let up on his vigilance. His family was at risk.
Hell, he loved saying it, thinking it. His family. His woman. His children.
His family.
CHAPTER TWENTY TWO
River
Earlier the same day.
I was bent over an engine when DC stormed into the workshop. Her eyes were wide and my heart immediately started racing.
“What’s wrong? Did someone get hurt? Is Ice okay?” I asked anxiously.
“Everyone is fine. They’re all doing whatever the hell they’re supposed to be doing. I freaking hate being the president’s old lady. Especially today.”
Now I was confused. What the hell was she talking about?
“Why? What’s going on?”
She stalked around the workshop poking at the bikes being worked on not saying a word and I looked at Wrench and mouthed ‘what’s going on?’ He lifted his shoulders and pulled an ‘I don’t know’ face.
“DC, stop wandering around and tell me what’s got you so wound up.”
She sighed and plopped down on the couch. “Everyone in the club has a job. You know this, because this isn’t your first stint at being an old lady. Hawk takes care of everyone and as his old lady I’m supposed to take care of and support the old ladies. And control the club sluts, that’s supposed to be my job as well. Not that I give a shit about them, they can damned well rot down in the dungeon for fucking ever as far as I’m concerned.”
What? There were sluts in the dungeon? What dungeon?
She slid down into a slump. “And now I have to go do the supportive shit for one of the old ladies. She’s in hospital and due to have her baby this afternoon. I’m supposed to go to the hospital and support her and her man until Hawk can get there later. I fucking hate hospitals. They smell funny. And the nurses wear squeaky shoes. Can’t stand that chie-chie-chie noise they make.”
I couldn’t help it, I burst out laughing and so did Wrench. And shortly after so did DC.
“I’m being such a wimp.” She wheezed through her laughter.
“Yes you are.” I grinned. “But so what? I’ll go with you and the first chie-chie footed nurse that comes close I’ll trip. How’s that?”
DC grinned and held her hand up for a high five, I didn’t leave her hanging. Smacking our palms together with a wide grin.
Wrench clapped a hand over the side of his face as he kept one eye on us. “You two are a scary, scary combination.” He said mock seriously.
We both grinned at him before I turned back to DC. “So who’s in labour and who is her old man?”
DC made a face. “I don’t think she’s actually an old lady yet. She’s Rider’s girlfriend and no she’s not in labour. There are some complications and they’re doing a caesarean at two this afternoon.”
That sounded serious. “What kind of complications?”
DC shrugged. “I don’t know, and bad me, I didn’t ask.”
“Okay, that doesn’t matter right now. Let me get cleaned up so we can get to the hospital. Wrench, will you tell the guys we’ll be leaving soon please?”
And now here we were, sitting in the waiting room outside the Maternity Ward, reading really old magazines and drinking vending machine coffee. I hate vending machine coffee. Especially decaffeinated vending machine coffee.
The surgery which had been scheduled for two had to
be pushed back because the doctor was caught up in an emergency surgery. So Rider’s girl was only being operated on at six. The poor boy was about to lose his mind. He had been in and out of the waiting room keeping us updated throughout the afternoon. And the later it got the more anxious he became.
At about five the swing doors opened again and Rider strode through, a very determined look on his face.
“We’ve decided on an epidural, I’m going to be in the theatre with her. I’ll be out as soon as I can to let you all know how it went.”
He didn’t give anyone a chance to say a word, just swung around and disappeared back through the doors.
Throughout the afternoon the waiting room had slowly started filling up with rough looking bikers as they came to support their brother. The civilians had quickly separated themselves from the dangerous looking men, to DC’s amusement. Six came and went and by six thirty the men were starting to look anxious and I wanted to laugh.
What did they think? That the doctor zipped her open, took out the baby and that was it? These guys had so much to still learn about women and having kids. Poor bastards.
“What the fuck is an epi-whatever-the-fuck he called it?” One of the guys asked.
And everyone looked at me. The pregnant one in the room.
“They insert a needle in her spine and then they administer drugs so she can’t feel a thing from the waist down. It means she’s awake while they do the operation and can see her baby when it’s born.” I explained.
“Are you fucking with me?” He asked with shocked eyes.
“No, not at all. People do it all the time.”
“That just creeped me the fuck out.” He muttered. “She’s awake while they cut her open and take out the kid. That’s just not fucking right. Fuck, I don’t think I could do what Rider’s doing.”
DC grinned at me and winked slyly.
“I didn’t think you’d be a squeamish one, Dollar. But remember this day when you think of getting into my little sister’s pants again. She will definitely insist on an epidural, she can’t stand pain.” DC teased.
The young guy looked about ready to start running as he gave her a look and shook his head.
I looked around as a heavy hand settled on my shoulder. While we had been talking Ice, Hawk and Kid and a brother whose name I didn’t know had come into the waiting room.
Ice bent over, kissed me softly as he dropped his hand to cover my bump. “Hey, Blue, how are you and my prawns doing?”
“Your what?” Hawk gave us a confused frown.
Ice, DC and I burst out laughing. “It’s my friend Krissie’s fault.” I explained. “She started calling the babies ‘the prawns’ and now everyone does. Even Duncan, but only after I assured him they wouldn’t have ugly feelers and we wouldn’t eat them.”
There were bursts of surprised laughter and DC shook her head. “That boy is so damned funny.”
The laughter stopped when Hawk bent over and whispered something to DC. And her face changed. It became watchful as she looked up at him and nodded. I didn’t have to wait long to find out what he had said to her because Ice did the same. He whispered instructions to me.
“Stay here until we get back, Blue. Do not leave under any circumstances. Promise me, baby.”
I nodded. “I promise.”
Then they were gone. And DC and I went back to waiting.
We were wolfing down pizzas when the swing doors burst open and Rider came storming through dressed in blue scrubs. His face alight and with the biggest smile on his face.
“It’s a girl! I’ve got a baby girl. She great and Penny is great. There were some scary moments with her blood pressure but she’s good. She’s in recovery and soon they’ll settle her in her room. I’m going to the nursery to bath my baby girl now. Sorry, brothers, they’re very strict here. You can’t come in to see Penny, only fathers and grandparents are allowed. But you can see my baby girl through the window of the nursery. I’ll come back and let you know when she ready.”
His brothers surrounded him, hugging and smacking him on the back and not once did the wide smile disappear. I nudged DC and motioned towards him with my head and she got up with a sigh and went over and gave the guy a hug. I followed, hugged him and wished him and his lady well with their new baby. He just grinned and nodded.
And then he was gone again.
One of the brothers across from us gave me a sneaky grin before he looked around the waiting room. The name on his kutte said he was Jagger.
“I hope Ice and his freaking super sperm made boys because every single fucking brother so far has had girls. It looks like the next generation is going to be made up of girls. At least River is bringing us a boy and I’m hoping the prawns turn out to be boys as well.”
A sly smile slid over the guy at the end of the row’s face. Glancing at his kutte I saw his name was Ziggy.
“The betting book is open. So far we’ve got 5 to 1 they’re girls. You want in on the action?”
“Hell, yes. I’m putting R50 on them being boys.”
I smiled as I watched the men debate how likely it was that we would have boys not girls and Ziggy jotted it all down in a little notebook he’d pulled from the inside pocket of his kutte.
We were laughing when Rider came back out.
“Okay, who wants to go see my baby girl?”
I immediately got up. I definitely wanted to see her and I grabbed a very reluctant DC and dragged her along with me.
Rider stood behind the glass holding his tiny little baby girl in his arms and showed her off to us. The look on his face was a mix of love and pride. She was so precious and cute. And because she hadn’t been through the birth canal she looked perfect. I could only imagine what the guys would have said if she had been all squished after hours of battling to be born.
After a lot of oohing and aahing DC and I made our way back to the waiting room. She was strangely quiet.
“What’s wrong?”
“I don’t think I could ever do that. Have a kid. I didn’t grow up like other kids and I think I’ll just screw up any kids Hawk and I would have.”
“Nonsense. You’re great with Duncan and you said you helped raise your little sister and she’s a perfectly nice girl. Stop worrying. None of us know what the hell we’re doing when we have our first one. That’s why we have family and friends. And you have a secret weapon, you have me. Hell, by the time you and Hawk decide to take the plunge I’ll have three running around.”
And then the number hit me. “Oh, shit, I’m going to have three little maniacs running around the house. And if the prawns are boys I’m going to have three dicks to worry about when they start chasing girls. Can you imagine how many condoms I’m going to have to buy?”
DC cackled with laughter. “What if they’re girls? Imagine them at fifteen surrounded by hot bikers. Lots of hot problems, Mumma.”
“Ugh, don’t put that image in my brain.” I gave a tiny grimace.
“What the fuck are you two talking about?” Ice suddenly asked behind us.
“Nothing really. Just the sex of the prawns.” I quickly explained but I should have known DC wouldn’t leave it alone.
“We were just trying to imagine how many condoms you will have to buy with three boys. But if they’re girls you will have another problem. Two pretty girls surrounded by hot bikers.” DC gave Ice an evil smile and I held my breath for the eruption I knew was coming.
I didn’t have to wait long.
“The first fucker who lays a finger on one of my girls dies. Problem solved.” Ice snapped.
“Nope, not solved. Teenage girls are hell on wheels. You were there when I dragged Deena off Dollars’ cock. Prepare yourself, Pappa Ice.” DC still had the evil smile on her face.
My man was about to explode so I stepped in like a good old lady should.
“This argument is pointless. We don’t know the sex of the prawns yet, so there’s no point in getting all hot and bothered about it.”
“We are finding out the sex as soon as possible.” Ice snarled while Hawk looked on with a wide grin.
“I have an appointment for Wednesday, but we can’t tell anyone because it will upset Ziggy.”
“Good on the appointment but what the fuck does Ziggy have to do with anyone knowing if they’re boys or girls?” Thunder clouds gathered in those eyes of his, suddenly looking more yellow than green. Oops.
Hawk quickly explained and I sighed with relief that he knew about the damn betting going on.
“Brother, Ziggy has been running a betting book on the sex of the babies. When I put my money down it was at 4 to 1 on the babies being girls. I agree with River, you need to keep the sex quiet for a while so I can make some money.”
Ice frowned at him. “What, you think I’m having girls? It might be like Gail’s, one of each.”
Hawk grinned and shook his head from side to side. “Nope, those are boys, have to be, I put money down on them.”
“Jesus.” Ice muttered.
Shaking his head Ice pulled me up and into his arms. “You look tired, Blue, we need to get you home.”
After saying our goodbyes Ice led me down the stairs with a prospect and four brothers following us. He carefully helped me into the SUV, closed the door and then rounded the front of the vehicle and got in behind the wheel. As the bikes rumbled around us I realised one of the prospects was on his bike. My man was driving me home instead of having the prospect doing it.
Once we were on the way I saw something was worrying him but I stayed silent, giving him time to work through whatever it was. Then he started talking. What he told me was shocking on the one hand but on the other it made me so damned angry.
The slutty bitch needed to be dealt with. She tried to drug my man and who knew whatever the hell she would have done to him if she had succeeded.
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