“Not particularly. But let’s see how you like this. Josh, come here.”
Josh dropped the sponge immediately and walked out of the shower stall, dripping wet. What was Connor’s intention?
“You did good, babe, asking me for permission. As a reward, I’m gonna let you suck me off now.”
Josh's eyes grew big. Was Connor serious? Hell, yeah, he was. Oh, damn, payback was a bitch. His answer came swift and definitive. “Yes, Connor. Thank you, Connor.”
He sunk to his knees on the plush bath mat, unbuckled Connor’s belt and unzipped him. Seconds later, he held that beautiful cock in his hands. Noah gasped behind him, but Josh ignored him. He took a tentative lick from the base to the tip, licked his lips at the delicious salty taste.
He dragged Connor’s pants farther down so he had full access. He dropped kisses on the massive shaft poking in his face, then licked Connor’s balls, making sure to tongue the hypersensitive area between his balls and his hole. Connor loved that, and he proved it by moaning loudly when Josh put his wet tongue there, swirling it around. Damn, he tasted so good. Sweaty. Musky. All male.
He licked Connor’s testicle again, lapped it like a dog, then switched to the other one. Josh dribbled saliva on Connor's cock to create lube, then jacked off at the base while he licked around the crown. He tongued the slit, extracting another obscene moan from Connor.
Connor spread his legs wider, pushing his cock in Josh's face. The message was clear. He wanted more. Josh lived to please. He sucked on the crown, scraped it ever so lightly with his teeth.
“Oh, fuck,” Connor groaned. “Damn, you’re so good at this, baby.”
He’d just gotten started. Josh took him into his mouth and sucked. He teased him a little, but when Connor’s hands dropped to his head and pulled him closer, he obliged and went to work. His mouth opened wide as he took him in and sucked hard. His head bobbed as he slid back and forth on Connor’s cock, taking it as deep as he could. As always, he held the base to protect Connor from jerking in too deep.
His head found peace even as his own body surged with desire. God, he loved giving head. It was so perfectly dirty, with the kind of discomfort that would’ve made him rock hard if not for the cock cage. He hummed around Connor’s dick, knowing that drove his man wild.
Connor moved with him, fucking his mouth with deep thrusts. Josh's eyes watered, but he had enough air, so he ignored it. Spit dribbled out of his mouth, onto his chin, but he didn’t bother wiping it away. It wouldn’t take long anyway since they hadn’t fucked yet this morning. The first orgasm was always fast with Connor.
Behind him, the water shut off and the sounds of someone jacking off were unmistakable. It seemed Noah was enjoying the show.
“Babe,” Connor growled.
Josh pulled back, and a big squirt of cum painted his throat. He swallowed happily, waited for more. Connor moaned again, then erupted in another prolific surge of fluids. Before he’d swallowed it all, Josh was yanked up under his arms and Connor kissed him deeply. Josh closed his eyes, moaning at the dirty kiss. Behind him, Noah groaned and sighed, presumably coming.
Finally, Connor broke off the kiss and pushed Josh back, turning him sideways with one strong hand on his shoulder. He slapped Josh on his butt, hard. “Towel Noah off and get him dressed so I can carry him downstairs. Make sure he has everything he needs because we’re not done yet.”
“Yes, Connor.”
With a triumphant look at Noah, Connor strode out of the bathroom. Josh turned to face Noah, who hung against the handrail. The shower wall was painted with his cum, and his cock had gone soft.
“You weren’t kidding about his size,” Noah said.
Josh grinned. “Told you.” He stepped back into the shower and turned it on to clean off the wall. With quick, efficient moves he cleaned Noah up again.
“I hadn’t pegged him for the type who’d let others watch,” Noah remarked.
“He’s an exhibitionist, but he’s only starting to discover and accept it. Secretly, he loves it when others get to watch us.”
Josh toweled Noah off first, then grabbed another towel for himself. He shivered. Time to get dressed. Or get busy.
Noah leaned on him heavily as they made their way back to the guest room where he lowered his friend on the bed.
“Let me get some clothes for you.”
He came back with boxers, a shirt, and jogging pants.
“Only the boxers right now. I’m gonna take a nap,” Noah said.
Josh didn’t even bother putting anything on himself, not with what Connor had planned.
“Connor,” he yelled downstairs. “He’s ready for you.”
He could help Noah downstairs, but it was way easier for Connor, who carried him without breaking a sweat. It had to be embarrassing for Noah, but if it was, he didn’t show it. Instead, he thanked Connor once he was settled on the couch in the living room. Josh brought him a glass of lemonade and a bottled water, set out some nuts and baby carrots with ranch dipping for him.
“You need anything else?”
Noah shook his head, smiled. “Go, obey your man. Have fun. I’m gonna take a nap.”
On impulse, Josh bent over him, kissed him on his lips. “He’ll come, Noah. He loves you. I don’t know when, but Indy will come back.”
* * *
Indy sighed as he stepped back into the house, coming in through the back door. He kicked off his sneakers, hung his jacket in the closet near the back door and walked inside. The house was quiet, at first. When he listened a little harder, he picked up rhythmic noises from upstairs. Connor and Josh, in all likelihood. Would Noah be upstairs as well? Indy didn’t think the cop was the type to let someone watch, but you never knew with people.
Familiar smells tickled his nose. The lemon-scented cleaner Josh always used. The vanilla from the scented candles on the kitchen counter. Cinnamon, left over from something Josh had cooked. Fresh herbs, from the cute little pots in the kitchen window.
Home. This was what home smelled like.
He’d stopped by the jiujitsu studio. Kent had handed him the documents from DA Merrick about Connor. As Indy had expected, his story checked out. It had cleared the way for him to come home. Even more, Merrick had informed Connor he was still patiently building a case against the Fitzpatricks. He had found some secondary witnesses willing to testify. Indy shuddered. Fuck, he hoped they’d be safe. And the DA himself, too. Taking on the Fitzpatricks wasn’t for the faint of heart.
He’d asked the PI to call the Army JAG Corps. She had affirmed what he already knew: the appeal had been withdrawn. Beaufort, Moloney, and Winters were going back to jail for another three years. After that, he might have to pay them a little visit to make sure they’d behave. But that was for later. Now, all he wanted was Noah.
The sounds from upstairs were increasing in tempo. Indy smiled. Someone was about to be ecstatic. Hopefully both. He made his way into the living room and spotted Noah, deep asleep on the couch. His head was turned toward Indy, his face peeping out from under a soft blanket.
He kneeled beside him on the floor, studying the face of the man he loved so very much. Noah still looked pale and tired, which sent a fresh wave of guilt though Indy. He should have been there for him.
Indy’s heart stuttered, then fell all over again as he watched his man sleep. How had he ever been able to get a man like this to like him, let alone love him? No matter his fears and insecurities, he didn’t doubt for a second that Noah loved him. It was too obvious, too clear to miss, even for someone like Indy who had so never encountered love before.
He cocked his head to listen to what Josh and Connor were doing upstairs. It seemed they were gearing up for another round. Perfect. Besides, it wasn’t like they would be shocked if they caught him and Noah. Not in this house.
Within seconds, Indy had stripped naked. He lifted the corner of the blanket up and lowered himself on top of Noah, making sure to stay away from his wounds. Almost immediately, Noah’s a
rms came around him, pressed him close. Indy inhaled Noah’s scent, reveling in the feel of naked skin on skin.
Half-asleep, Noah’s hands trailed his back, then lower to his ass, cupping both cheeks. Indy smiled as he brought his mouth to Noah’s and delivered a soft kiss. Noah’s lips opened, and Indy teased him with his tongue, sucking and biting until Noah’s eyes flew open.
Recognition was instant, and Noah’s face lit up. The pure joy he displayed brought tears to Indy’s eyes. If he had ever doubted he’d be welcome after running away, here was his answer. Noah’s hands came up and tenderly held his face as their kiss deepened.
“I love you,” Noah said, his voice broken, after they had kissed for what seemed hours. “I missed you so much. Please, Indy, please, don’t ever leave me again. I can’t do this without you. I need you by my side.”
Indy nodded, his eyes teary at the love he saw in Noah’s eyes. “I love you, Noah. I’m so sorry for running off. I fucked up. I’m scared, but I want to be with you more than anything.”
Noah’s eyes welled up, and he brought their mouths together again for another deep, hot kiss.
“I need you,” he said with desperation when they broke off the kiss, almost gasping for breath.
“I’m right here, baby,” Indy comforted him.
Noah found his mouth again. His tongue explored every inch of Indy’s mouth as if he had to internally map it all over again. Indy’s heart softened. His tough man had suffered without him. There was no doubt how much he’d missed Indy.
Indy traced Noah’s bottom lip, then nibbled on it. Noah let out cute little sounds, indicating how much he loved it. He kissed Noah’s eyelids, still slightly wet from his tears, then proceeded to cover every inch of his beautiful face with little licks, kisses, rubs. Their eyes met, and Noah’s hand rose to caress Indy’s hair.
“I love you,” he said as if he wanted to make sure Indy knew for certain. How could he not when the love was radiating from those gorgeous green eyes?
Indy found his mouth again and kissed it wet, deep, long. He wanted to keep doing this for hours. It had been too long. But he wanted more than mere kisses. He needed Noah, longed for him to claim him, fill him.
“Can you…?” he asked.
Noah nodded. “If you do most of the work and we’re careful with the stump. I need you, Indy.”
Indy kissed him again, drowning in his man’s mouth. “I need you, too. I need to feel that you’re alive, that we’re still here.”
Lube. He needed lube.
“Stay where you are. I need lube,” he whispered to Noah. Noah’s face broke into one of those smiles that made Indy go all weak inside. He gave him one last kiss, worked himself off the couch without touching Noah’s stump. A quick search in the living room and kitchen revealed no lube. Dammit. He’d have to go upstairs, then.
He ran up the stairs. The sounds were coming from the master bedroom, so he checked the guest bedroom first. There was still a bottle, but it was empty. Indy swore. The guest bathroom yielded nothing. He’d have to barge in on Connor and Josh. Damn, he hated doing this to them, but what choice did he have?
He knocked on the door. “Guys? Sorry to disturb you, but could I have some lube please?”
“Indy!” The joy in Josh's voice was palpable. A wave of love rolled over Indy. God, he’d missed Josh something fierce as well.
“We’re indisposed at the moment, but feel free to come in and grab what you need,” Connor’s strong voice rung out.
Indisposed. Indy grinned. He bet they were.
He opened the door and peeked around the corner. Connor was sitting on one of the sofa chairs, Josh draped across his knee. Josh's ass was bright red, but he turned his head to send Indy a big smile, so Indy assumed he was enjoying himself.
“Glad to see you back safe and sound,” Connor said.
Only then did Indy realize he had gone upstairs naked, and it was the first time the cop had seen him like that. Much to his surprise, it didn’t bother him. How could it, with what he was witnessing from them?
Indy stepped inside, then spontaneously decided to kneel next to Josh so he could kiss him.
“I’m so glad you’re back,” Josh said, appearing not in the least embarrassed.
“Me too.” Indy rose again. He eyed Connor for a second, who was watching him with kind eyes, then included him as well. He bent over and kissed him on his cheek. “Thanks for taking such good care of Josh.”
Connor looked surprised, then composed himself and smiled. “You’re more than welcome. Lube’s on the nightstand. Take it. We have another bottle in the bathroom.”
Indy waved at Josh before he closed the door behind them and made his way downstairs. He threw the bottle to Noah, who caught it with his right hand. He took his spot on the couch again where he watched as Noah lubed his fingers.
They both turned on their sides, Indy with his back toward Noah. He pulled up his leg, resting his foot between Noah’s legs so his ass was open. Without preamble, Noah’s index finger pushed against his hole. Indy sighed and let him in. Within seconds, Noah had him squirming. Fuck, he was hornier than he had realized. Noah’s finger grazed his prostate, and he groaned.
Noah’s mouth came close to his ear, and he first licked the sensitive spot behind Indy’s ear, then nibbled on his earlobe. It sent delicious trembles through his body.
“You will not believe what happened in the shower this morning,” Noah whispered in his ear, his breath tantalizing hot. He added a second finger. Indy closed his eyes, focusing on the whirlwind of sensations in his body. “Connor made Josh suck him off, right in front of me.”
Indy’s eyes flew open. “For real?” His words transformed into a moan when Noah teased his sweet spot.
“That man has the biggest cock I’ve ever seen. And fuck, Josh loves every inch of it.”
“I’m perfectly happy with your cock.”
Noah fucked his ass with three fingers now, slowly pushing in and pulling back. “Not as happy as I am with your ass.”
“Noah, please.” He was ready, so ready.
Noah pulled out his fingers. Indy pushed back his ass, opening his legs as wide as he could. Noah’s tip found his entrance, and he pushed in. Inch by delicious inch, Noah slid in until he was buried to the hilt. Indy laid back his head so it rested against Noah. So perfectly full. A shiver tore through him.
“Make love to me, Noah,” Indy whispered. It felt different this time, so much deeper than mere fucking. Their souls were as deeply connected as their bodies.
Noah’s arm came around him as he moved his hips to slide in and out. “Indy…” he breathed, “Oh, my sweet Indy…”
Their rhythm was gentle, slowly building up the tension in Indy’s body. Noah’s arms never left him, holding him close to his body and his heart. Indy didn’t touch himself, wanting to last as long as possible. Anything to feel like this. So loved. So precious.
Noah’s face was buried in Indy’s hair when he came silently. A sob escaped Indy as he came, too, painting his own torso.
“I love you,” he said, his voice thick.
“Don’t leave me. Please, Indy, please, don’t ever leave me.”
Indy’s heart rested in his chest, his worries gone for now. Still, he couldn’t promise him that. He’d give him the words he could. “I love you so much, Noah.”
Together, they went to see the house Connor had proposed. Snow was twirling down, decorating the barren landscape with a fluffy blanket.
“We’ll have a white Christmas,” Josh commented from the back seat.
Connor didn’t care if Christmas was white or not. It could fucking rain for all he cared, as long as they were together. It was the first Christmas as long as he could remember that he was looking forward to.
“I love Christmas,” Indy said. “But I didn’t get you guys any presents… I’m sorry, but—”
“Don’t you dare apologize,” Josh interrupted him. “We don’t need presents. We’ll have a nice, quiet Christmas a
t home, the four of us. You and I, we’ll cook, and we’ll all watch Christmas movies.”
His voice was dreamy, and Connor smiled. Josh was so happy Indy was back home. Connor hadn’t realized how much Josh had missed him until he’d seen the pure joy on his face when Indy stepped into their room.
“We’ll also have sex,” Noah added. “Lots and lots of sex.”
“Noah!” Indy tried to go for indignant but couldn’t quite pull it off.
“We’re here,” Connor announced. He’d contacted the realtor, had asked her to set up an appointment. He’d hinted they were highly motivated to buy and wouldn’t haggle over the price. He figured that would help smooth the way and keep other potential buyers at bay. The owners had sold it before, but the sale had fallen through, so they wanted to get rid of it quickly.
“It’s gorgeous,” Indy commented as they drove up the long driveway. “I love that red color.”
Connor parked the car behind another car, which had to belong to the realtor. She got out as she spotted them.
“Mr. O’Connor, nice to meet you in person,” she greeted him with a handshake. He didn’t introduce the others, figured he’d keep Indy’s identity safe. He was dressed like a guy this time, which was exceptional.
The realtor opened the door with a code on a keypad lock. “You indicated you wanted to look around by yourself first, so I’ll be in my car waiting. Let me know if you have any questions.”
Connor nodded. They didn’t need some stranger to watch them, judge them. “Thank you.”
He got the foldable wheelchair out of the back of the car while Josh helped Noah get out. He could walk using crutches, but he was still weak and tired, so they’d rented a wheelchair for the first few weeks. Noah lowered himself into the chair, and Connor grabbed the handles. Josh opened the front door, and they all went inside, closing the door behind them.
One of the things Connor had loved about the ranch was that it had an open floor plan. The living room, family room, dining room, and kitchen were all connected, creating a huge open space. Because of the big windows on all sides, light streamed in from every angle.
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