Angela, you did a solid job on the editing, and I loved working with you. Let’s do this more often, shall we?
Last but not least, a special thank you to my GBF and his BF. The fact that you guys are both reading my books makes me giddy…and proud. You’ve always believed in me, so thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Bonus Chapter No Shame
Note
What follows is a bonus scene for No Shame that’s not part of the original book. This scene is unedited.
Bonus Chapter No Shame
Miles woke up in his favorite position: with Brad curled around him on one side and Charlie on the other. Both were still asleep, Charlie’s breaths inaudible and Brad with a cute little snore every now and then. Miles’ heart was as full as his arms. They were his. These two wonderful men were his.
Charlie had been amazing last night at his show. Fearless, funny, and fucking sexy as well. Miles had wanted Charlie to fuck the living daylights out of him when they got back, but he’d refrained. They had different plans today where Charlie’s stamina was needed, and nothing was more important than giving Brad what he wanted so much. Needed, even.
The fact that he’d almost lost Brad again had broken Miles’ heart. He’d known of his issues, and still, he’d fucked up badly. It wasn’t intentional by any means, and he did cut him some slack there, but he’d been careless with Brad’s deep insecurities. It would take a long time for him to feel more secure there, years probably.
He’d reassured Brad before they’d gone to bed that yes, it was gonna happen. Brad had looked at him with an almost quivering bottom lip when he asked if it was dependent on him not fucking up. He’d been so scared of losing this reward, that it had hung like Damocles’ sword above his head. Miles had assured him that it was guaranteed, that nothing he did or said would make this go away. He’d been rewarded with a lap full of his boy, who’d been hugging him like he never wanted to let go and a heartfelt, “Thank you, Daddy.”
It was a miracle Brad had even managed to fall asleep, he’d been so jacked up about it. But here he was, snuggled up against Miles and still deep asleep. How had Miles ever gotten so lucky to have these two fall in love with him? He vowed to never take it for granted, ever.
They stirred at the same time, completely in sync as always. First, Charlie opened his eyes and shot Miles a sweet smile. Then Brad woke up and let out an appreciative hum. He shifted his head a little bit so his mouth was close to Miles’ nipple and started licking and sucking. He did that sometimes lately, and Miles wasn’t even sure of it was something he simply liked or if it was some deep craving to suckle. Brad definitely liked to suck in general—as evidenced by his great enthusiasm for giving blow jobs—but this was an interesting little thing he did more and more.
“Good morning, love,” Miles said to Charlie and bowed his head toward him for a soft kiss.
“Good morning, sweetheart,” he told Brad, who let go of his nipple for a wet, deep kiss. Hmm, someone was feeling needy. Good.
Then Brad let go of his mouth and leaned over his chest to kiss Charlie, and of course those two couldn’t stop. They never could. How they had slept in the same room for weeks and not fucked each other silly was beyond Miles.
“I love you,” Charlie sighed into Brad’s mouth, and Miles’ heart went all soft again. Charlie’s sweet love was so healing for Brad.
“I love you, too,” Brad mumbled back.
He finally let go of Charlie’s mouth, and the two exchanged a look that promised something naughty. Miles envied them that sometimes, the ease with which they read each other’s mind, courtesy of years of being friends. He was becoming better and better at reading Brad, but Charlie was still a mystery to him sometimes.
Two mouths assaulted him at the same time, licking and nibbling their way down from his chest to his… Oh, dammit, that felt amazing. Two warm, wet mouths on his cock, two tongues teasing him and licking him and… He moaned loudly, already on the verge of coming. Then Charlie’s mouth took him in and Brad rolled his balls in his hands, and Miles was gone. He came with one hand on Charlie’s head and the other in Brad’s soft curls.
Both men crawled back into his arms and he kissed one, then the other. “I love you both so much,” Miles sighed, completely content.
They stayed like that for a few minutes, until Miles felt the restlessness in Brad’s body. “Okay, let’s go,” Miles gave in.
Brad was already on his feet like an eager puppy and Miles smiled. He slowly got up, stretching languidly. “Let’s go get cleaned up, get some breakfast, and then we’ll retreat here again…sound good?”
Charlie got up as well, muttering something about lack of respect for lazy Sunday mornings, then disappeared into the bathroom.
Miles put on a pair of jogging pants and a shirt. He didn’t even bother with underwear, knowing it would be short lived anyway. Besides, everyone else was completely used to him walking around with a boner all the time, so he’d decided he was gonna be relaxed about it. It wasn’t easy to let go of the shame he’d had for so long, but he’d damn well try.
Brad stood quietly watching him. “What’s on your mind, sweetheart?” Miles asked.
For a few seconds Brad struggled with answering, the internal debate clearly visible on his face. Finally, he stepped forward and Miles automatically opened his arms. Brad hugged him tight, rubbing his cheek against Miles’ shirt until he’d found the mental safety to speak. “You forgot my morning spanking, Daddy,” he said softly.
Miles mentally cursed himself. Dammit. “I did, and thank you so much for reminding me, sweetheart. Were you afraid to speak up?” He kept his voice carefully soft and kind.
“I thought you’d get upset and that…”
He didn’t need to finish his sentence. Miles understood perfectly. Brad had been afraid Miles would withhold his reward. He reminded himself Brad’s wounds were deep and that it would take a long time for him to truly believe he was worthy of being loved.
Miles gently grabbed Brad’s neck and pulled his head back so he could make eye contact. “You were right to say something. I did forget, and I’m sorry. This is new for me too, and while that’s no excuse, I’m gonna need your help reminding me until it’s become a habit for both of us, okay? I promise I will never, ever get upset with you over saying anything about this, okay? Not even if you say it in a snappy way.”
Brad’s face lit up in a rare smile. “Thank you, Daddy.”
Miles pulled him toward the bed. “Come here, you. Let me show you how much I love you, sweetheart.”
Seconds later he’d positioned Brad across his lap, his pants pooling at his feet. He put one hand in his curls, an affectionate grip he knew Brad loved. His other started rubbing Brad’s ass. “Are you looking forward to today, sweetheart?”
“Yes, Daddy. Very much.”
Miles circled that perfect little pink hole with his thumb. “Me too. I can’t wait to share this with you and Charlie. It’s not just for your pleasure, you know. It’s gonna feel amazing for me and Charlie as well.”
Brad let out a little groan.
“The sounds you make…they’re so fucking addictive.”
Miles’ hand rose, then came down with a resounding smack.
“I wanna hear you today, boy. Your pleasure is my reward, and I want to hear every little sound you make.”
Another slap, and Brad sighed on a whimper.
“Let me hear you, Brad. Don’t hold back. Show me how much you need this.”
He didn’t count them, completely tuned in to Brad’s body now, soaking up every groan he emitted, every sigh and cry and beautiful moan. He stopped when Brad’s body was jelly on his lap, all the tension gone. He gently lifted him and set him on his lap. “How’s that feel, sweetheart? Better? You feel how much I love and see you?”
Brad nodded, his eyes tear stricken and his face red and blotchy. He was so damn beautiful, so vulnerable and precious. Miles kissed him gently, not giving a flying fuck about getting some of
Brad’s tears, saliva, and probably snot on him. Brad melted into the kiss, one of those moments where he was completely pliant and would sink into Miles entirely.
“Fuck, look at you two…” Charlie said, then snuggled close to them on the bed. Miles loved that he wasn’t afraid to simply butt in and demand Miles would kiss him, too. Charlie’s hand stroked Brad’s pink ass. “Do you feel good now, love?”
Brad nodded.
“I can’t fucking wait to get this party started,” Charlie said. “But I do need some breakfast first. I’m starving.”
Brad smiled. “I know, I can hear your stomach grumble.”
“Let’s go then,” Charlie said. “We’ll kiss and cuddle and fuck the shit out of you later, I promise, but I need some sustenance…Calories. I need calories.”
With one last kiss, Miles put Brad on his feet and pulled his pants back up. “Let’s eat. Then fuck.”
When Charlie walked into the kitchen, Brad and Miles close on his heels, the other four were there already. He smiled when he saw Noah and Connor silently exchange sections of the newspaper they always seemed to be reading on Sunday morning. It was like a weekend ritual for them they both seemed to enjoy greatly.
Josh and Indy were at the counter, making breakfast. Another weekend ritual.
“Good morning,” Charlie said.
“I didn’t even expect to see you guys here,” Noah said with a big grin.
“And Brad can still walk, so obviously you guys haven’t done anything yet,” Connor remarked.
“What, you guys took a fucking ad out to announce what we’ll be doing?” Brad muttered, taking his place close to Noah and Connor.
Connor slapped him on his shoulder good-naturedly. “Word travels fast, my boy. Especially where it concerns sex.”
It was Josh, of course, who made Brad feel better. “It’s okay to be excited. I would be, too.”
Charlie’s eyes widened. “You have…” He gestured to Connor, then to Indy.
Josh blushed, a lovely red flush creeping up his cheeks. “No! I didn’t mean that. Fuck, no. Connor alone is…yeah. He’s…enough.”
Connor looked distinctly uncomfortable now. Brad slapped him on his back. “Not quite so funny when the tables are turned, is it?”
Charlie couldn’t help but chuckle, and everyone else but Connor joined in. Brad had a point there.
“Fuck off,” Connor said, but there was no bite to it.
“I would,” Brad sighed. “But apparently these two need food first.”
“We do. On that note: what can I get you, sweetheart?” Miles asked.
“Can I have some yogurt with granola and strawberries please, Daddy?”
“We’ll be out of your hair right after breakfast…or brunch, I should say,” Indy said when they were all seated and had food in front of them.
“Where are you guys going?” Charlie asked.
“We’re hanging out at Blake and Aaron’s today… We figured you guys could use a little privacy for the first time.”
Brad’s hand with a spoonful of yogurt stopped halfway to his mouth, then he slowly returned it to the bowl. “You’re leaving because of me?” he asked.
“This is a biggie for you,” Josh explained, nestled close to Indy even as he ate. “We wanted you to feel free and safe for this experience and not worry about what we would hear or think.”
Brad visibly swallowed. “Thank you.”
Josh and Indy nodded simultaneously.
“Of course, afterward we’d like a detailed report, please,” Noah joked.
Brad’s answer was a raised middle finger. Charlie loved the teasing, and he knew Brad did too, even if he reacted a bit miffed at times. He wasn’t used to it, since he and Blake never had that kind of relationship. Charlie had grown up an only child as well, but he’d imagined this was what having brothers had to be like. Nosy, teasing brothers who loved to mess with you.
True to their word, the others were gone soon after breakfast, leaving the three of them sitting in the kitchen. Brad was trying not to be impatient, Charlie noted with a smile, though he kept sighing ever so softly and sending these looks at him and Miles that spoke volumes.
Charlie opened his mouth to make a joke, but then caught Miles subtly shaking his head at him, and he closed it again. Right. Maybe not the best timing to tease Brad. He really couldn’t take much more. He got up and parked his butt on Brad’s lap.
“You excited, baby?” he asked.
“So much…I can’t even find words.”
As he spoke, Brad’s lean body was trembling under Charlie’s, and a wave of warm gooeyness rippled through him. He knew Brad had been looking forward to it, but to see him physically react this strongly? It reinforced how much this meant to him.
He straddled him and fused their mouths together. This was Brad’s day, and he’d do anything to make it the best day ever for him. Brad delved into the kiss with desperation, while still holding Charlie like he always did, with the utmost care and tenderness.
He slipped his hands under Brad’s shirt to play with his nipples. A few pinches and tugs had Brad gasping into his mouth, and Charlie fucking loved it. He was gonna drive him insane with want today, and he couldn’t wait.
He took his mouth off so he could drag Brad’s shirt over his head. “I’m super excited, too… It’s gonna be so good, baby. You’re gonna be so full of cock…”
Brad moaned, his eyes glazing over. Charlie dipped his hand underneath the waist of Brad’s loose jogging pants to find his cock rock hard. “You’re so fucking hard already…and so am I. You wanna take the edge off for me, baby, so I can fuck you long and hard?”
“Yeah…anytime.”
Charlie scooted off his lap backward, then shot him a sultry look. “On your knees, then…and fucking beg for it, because I love it when you get all slutty on me.”
Without a second hesitation, Brad sank to the floor. Charlie made quick work of his clothes, his cock jutting free, already leaking. Brad looked up at him from between his lashes. “Please let me suck you off, Charlie…”
Charlie stepped closer, taking his cock in his right hand and batting away Brad’s hand when he reached out. “Uh uh. You’ll take what we give you, won’t you, baby?”
“Anything. Everything.”
“Open your mouth.”
From the corner of his eye, Charlie caught Miles undressing as well. He stepped even closer to Brad and gently slapped his cheek with his cock head, then smearing his juices over his cheeks and his lips, before allowing Brad a lick.
Brad closed his mouth around the head, but Charlie pulled out immediately. “Did I say you could close your mouth? Keep it wide open.”
Brad’s shoulders came down and some of the tension disappeared. Charlie smiled when he noticed. The dirty talk was helping Brad relax, as were the small commands. He put his cock back in Brad’s mouth, slowly but deeply fucking his mouth.
“You’re such a good cocksucker, baby. I could fuck your mouth for hours…but I won’t. I just need to get the edge off so I can fuck that gorgeous ass of yours. I love fucking Miles because he’s so damn tight, but you, baby, on you I can feast…”
It wouldn’t take long now, as he was fucking Brad’s mouth and throat with deep thrusts. The guy had zero gag reflex and the little suction thing he could do in his throat was simply amazing. He had his eyes closed now, a blissed out look on his face.
“I love that I can fuck you as hard and as long as I want to, and you can take it all…you want it all. That perfect little hole of yours is insatiable, and I fucking love it.”
Miles stepped in as naked as Charlie, and gave him a little nudge. Charlie understood what he wanted and pulled out immediately. Without a second delay, Miles shoved his cock in. Brad’s eyes flew open and he moaned a sexy, low moan that made Charlie go weak inside. He truly loved being used, didn’t he?
They fucked his mouth in tandem, alternating with teasing him, then fucking his mouth. Drool and precum was dripping down his ch
in, but he’d never looked more beautiful to Charlie. They’d better not come down his throat, because two early morning loads might be a bit heavy on the stomach, considering everything else they had planned. But once again, he and Miles were in sync and they both pulled out of Brad’s mouth to jerk themselves off for the finish, painting his face with cum.
“Doesn’t he look fucking perfect?” Miles asked Charlie, once they’d both caught their breaths. Brad sat still, his eyes still closed, his face raised towards them, strings of cum all over.
“He does…” Charlie sighed. Someday, he’d have to take a picture of Brad like this, just so he could show it to him, to see how blissed out he looked. He was so beautiful like this. Well, he was always beautiful, but his face got this relaxed look when he was in his sexual element that was hard to describe. It just added a dimension.
Miles swiped a few globs of cum off Brad’s face and fed it to him, Brad eagerly sucking his fingers. Charlie walked over to the bathroom to grab a washcloth. He’d clean Brad’s face because dried cum got itchy and that was no fun.
“Keep your eyes closed, honey,” he said when he got back into the kitchen, Brad still sucking on Miles’ fingers.
He cleaned his face tenderly, dropping a soft kiss on his swollen lips when he was done. “All set, pretty.”
Brad’s eyes opened, radiating love and gratitude. His earlier anxiety was gone. Charlie pulled him to his feet, but before he could say anything, Miles lifted Brad up as if he weighed nothing and carried him into the bedroom. “It’s time, sweetheart. We’re gonna make you feel so good.”
Brad’s heart was still racing, but that nervousness in his head that had plagued him before was gone, and all that was left inside him was a deep longing. An anticipation. Finally, he would take both his men. And it would be fucking perfect.
Miles gently lowered them both to the bed, pulling Brad on top of him. Brad hadn’t even realized he was still half-dressed, but while Miles claimed his mouth, Charlie dragged Brad’s pants and underwear down.
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