by Lauren Wood
“You sound like you're trying to convince yourself, more than me.”
I was baiting her a little bit because I wanted to get her riled up. I wanted to see the emotions and the woman that I knew from before. She wouldn’t let me talk to her that way and it didn't take long for Candy do the same. While she liked to think that she wasn't that girl anymore, it wouldn't be long until she was.
“I don't have to convince myself of anything Colt. If you didn't have such a huge ego, maybe you would see what is right in front of your face. I am not delusional one. I know exactly where the two of us stand, but you don’t seem to.”
That stung a little bit and I have to say that it made me smile as well. This was well more familiar with the woman that I had first came in contact with. The one I’d met at the airport was far too uppity and far too proper. The Candy I remember was not proper at all.
I notice that her bottle of wine was almost empty, and I asked her she wanted something else to drink. I wasn’t trying to get her liquored up, but the idea of something to dull her tongue wasn’t the worst idea I’d ever had.
“Do you have any more wine?”
“I do downstairs. Do you want to come down to the cellar with me and we can pick one out?”
Candy told me that she didn't like the sound of that at all.
“I am not going down into a cellar with you or any other stranger. I think there is a poem about that. It does not end well.”
She made me laugh and I just shook my head. Of course, you would see it as a way to get herself in danger. I was trying to get alone time with her and I did like the idea of taking her into the dark damp place. But I certainly wasn't thinking about hurting her. I was thinking more about how good it would feel to hear her scream for mercy again. She had a way of saying my name that still made me shiver when I thought about it and that was all I was thinking about. Nothing to do with an Edgar Allan Poe poem.
“Well, all I have up here is some whiskey and some vodka you turned down before. Do you want me to go down there and get some myself?”
“No, vodka will be fine.”
She said it in an offhanded way and I was smiling inside. Maybe we would get the old Candy that I remembered so well back a lot quicker. I went to the cabinet and got her a glass. All I could think about was what was going to happen next. All of a sudden there was optimism again.
A few drinks later and Candy was getting hot. It was much like it had been at the bar when I’d first met her. When she started drinking, it seemed like there was an inferno burning inside of her. She took off her outer shirt, leaving only a little tank top left on, and it was getting my attention. If it was any other woman I would think that she was doing it on purpose, but I knew that Candy wasn't.
She's actually doing the opposite, leaving her hair up in a bun on top of her head and wearing no makeup. She had not been dressed to impress. If anything, she was dressed as uncomplimentary as she could be. It was done in such a way that it had to be on purpose. I knew that the hotter she got, the more she would want to take off your clothes.
When she went towards her pants, I knew that I had to draw the line. We had matched a few shots, but she was a lot smaller than me and it didn't appear like she was used to it as I was.
“I think you might want to leave those on Candy.”
She finally looked at me and asked me why. The problem was that I was dumb. Why the hell was I trying to get her to keep her pants on? Wasn't the whole point of this to get into her pants?
“I'm hot, Colt. If you would turn down the heat, I wouldn't have to do this.”
“The air conditioner has been nonstop for the last hour. I'm starting to get frostbite over here, so I think it is just you. I think you need to slow down on the vodka.”
She agreed, at the same time she took a gulp of the rest of the clear liquid in the glass. I had to move the bottle away from her and I started some coffee. What was once friendly conversation, was now something else altogether. At the moment, I just felt like I was being massively teased and she didn’t even know it.
“Why don’t I help you to your room so that you can sleep it off? I don’t think that coffee is going to help you right now.”
She smiled at me and told me that I was such a gentleman, but the truth was that she really had no idea. The fact of the matter was that I was doing this for my own survival. I wanted to be with her so badly and if she took off any more clothing off, I wasn’t going to be able to handle myself. It wasn’t going to be good if I lost my cool, so I was trying very hard not to. That meant, that I had to get her the hell away from me and in bed was the most obvious place to dump her. There she wouldn’t be calling to me like a woman that I couldn’t have.
“No, I am really not that tired yet. I wanted to stay up for a while, drink some more.”
I told her that it wasn’t a good idea and even though she said she wasn’t tired, the last thing that she needed to do was to drink a little bit more. She’d had enough. It was already hard to understand her because she was slurring her words so well and I just shook my head. What the hell was I doing? I should have done something more to push us closer to the direction that I wanted us to be in.
“Do you really think I should go to sleep? Am I embarrassing myself Colt?”
“No, not at all.”
“Then why are you taking me upstairs?”
“Because I can’t keep watching you dance around, taking your clothes off and still be a gentleman. You have to see that, right?”
She agreed but I could tell that she was rather shocked by my words. I hadn’t meant to say it like that, but she was so close, and I was breathing in her perfume. It was certainly a bad thing for me because I was already on the edge of all reason. She was driving me crazy by just being there and there wasn’t much that I could say or do to stop it. I just had to focus on getting her to the bedroom, so that I could breathe again. How different this was playing out.
“Fine Colt, but I’m telling you that I’m not going to be able to sleep. I’ve never been good sleeping alone in strange places. That’s why I hate travelling for work.”
“It’s not a strange place, you have been here before Candy. And I’m not a strange man, I’m your husband.”
“Is that why I feel this way right now?”
“What way?”
“Like I want you to kiss me.”
I was stunned by her admission.
“I know that it’s wrong. I have a man at home, but I can’t help it. It just feels so wrong to want you.”
“There is nothing wrong about what we’re doing. I need you Candy. Surely you can feel that, too?”
She said that she could, but I wasn’t so sure. I wasn’t sure if she understood me at all, even though I liked to think that she could. If she knew how I was feeling, she wouldn’t be teasing me as she was right now. It was like she was torturing me, but I knew that it was innocent.
“If this isn’t wrong Colt, then why are you shooing me away right now?”
I didn’t have much of an answer for that because I was thinking about what it would be like to be with her. She sure seemed to be with it enough, to give her consent. Why did I have to wait?
“Because I don't want it to happen like this. I want it to happen to completely different way and nothing else will do.”
Chapter 10
Candy
The memory of how I acted the night before was not something that I wanted to relive. I had acted in poor taste and I was thankful that I’d woken up alone. It certainly wasn’t because of me. I had tried my best to get Colt to lay with me, but he’d told me that he was going to leave as soon as I was asleep. He hadn’t wanted to lay with me at all, but there was nothing that I could do about it. I had been so horny, so drunk, I don’t even know. What I did know, was that Colt had been the voice of reason and I owed him for it. I almost didn’t something that I would have surely regretted.
At the end of the day, I knew that I was lucky that he hadn’t taken
advantage of me like I knew he could have done. It was very clear to me that I was lucky. It became even more apparent when my phone started to ring, and I could see that it was Jax on the line. What would I have said to him if Colt wouldn’t have been the way that he was? How would I have been able to explain myself?
I picked up the phone and said hello. My head was pounding from the night before, and I hadn't really opened my eyes that much, but after talking to Lisa, I knew that I had to take the call.
“Hey Candy. I was wondering when you're going to answer the phone. I was worried that you didn't want to talk to me.”
“Why wouldn't I want to talk to you?”
“I don't know, it's just weird not talking to you. I think this is the longest we've ever went without talking since we've met.”
Of course, Jax remembered things like that. Sometimes I really think that I didn't deserve him because he was so romantic, when I wasn't. I said that he was perfect, and I meant it, but that didn't mean that I was. I knew that I was far from perfect.
“I know baby, it has been weird here without you.”
“So how is it going? Do you like the hotel?”
Again, he was putting me on the spot and I didn't know what to say.
“The place I'm staying at alright, but it's cheap, so what can you expect?”
“You should get you a nice place and have some fun. You’re in Vegas after all.”
I suppose if he knew what I was doing last night he wouldn’t be telling me that. I wasn't much into drinking and I had gone way over my limit the night before. I could still feel it in the throbbing of my head and the fact that I still couldn't even open my eyes that much. It was just too bright, and my head was killing me.
“I'm not here to have fun Jax. You know what I'm here for. And as soon as I am done with that, I will be back home to you.”
“I know Candy. I just miss you and wanted to hear your voice. I didn't get to talk to you last night, so I wanted to talk to you this morning. You sound like you just woke up. This is kind of late for you, isn't it?”
Considering the fact that I didn't even know what time it was, I nodded my head to nobody in the room. Pulling my phone from my ear, I looked at the time and it was almost noon. I don't know what I had been doing, but it was Saturday and I had to get things taken care of. While I was trying to convince myself that I was here for the right reasons, if I didn't get it done, then that wouldn’t be true.
“I didn't just wake up I'm just, I don't know little tired. Probably jet lag from the trip. You know that I hate to fly, especially if there isn’t a beach on the other end.”
“Well, I'm about to go to the meeting. If you need anything just call me and Betty will answer. It won't be long until I'm out and I'll give you a call when I'm done, okay?”
“Okay, baby. I hope everything goes well with the meeting.”
“It will be fine. Although I am glad that you told me to go. The firm really needs this client and I don't know why but they wanted me here.
I told him that it was because he was so talented, and I know that I was stroking his ego a little bit, but at the end of the day, he was one of the best lawyers in the city. Everyone knew of him and I was happy that nothing else was going to be messed up because of my mistake. The last thing I needed was for him to lose a client, a very good client, over the mess with me being married.
“Just tell me that everything is going to be alright.”
“Everything is going to be fine Candy. Take care of what you have to take care of and then come home to me. That is all that matters.”
I told him that I would, but there was a part of me that wondered what was going to happen next. I couldn't very easily forget what had happened between me and Colt the night before. I had been horny as hell and he was the one that I was looking for. He had been the one that has stopped it from happening, but that didn't mean that I wanted it to happen. At the time I did, but now, thinking back, I'm glad that he had his mind about him and not me. It was sort of strange though, because I knew that's what he wanted.
Jax told me that he loved me and told me to hurry up and come home. Just the fact that he was being so sweet made me feel bad and I felt worse as I took a shower and got dressed for the day.
I did have a max-match of clothes with me, but there was one outfit in particular that wasn’t like the rest. It was a little tight on my curves and I were too impressed. I had just gotten off the phone with Jax, but I was getting dressed up for Colt. I knew that I was wrong in so many ways. but that didn't stop me from going down the stairs and giving Colt a smile. It wasn’t hard to see that he liked what he saw.
“Good morning.”
“Good morning. I am sorry that I slept in so late. I didn't realize that. I usually don't do sleep so late. I have to get up early for work most days.”
“I can tell by the way you handle your liquor. It is starting to seem like I am a bad influence on you.
I agree with that wholeheartedly and I knew that it was easier to blame him than to play myself. I don't know what the hell is going on with me lately, but I need to get my head on straight so that everything will be taken care of. I was here to get a divorce, nothing else. I said that in my head, at the same time I was smiling, hoping that he noticed me.
“Yeah, sorry about last night. I don’t know where my head was at.”
I could have mentioned the fact that I was sorry I came on to him the night before. That wasn't me at all either, but I was getting sick of saying it and I wanted to pretend like I didn't remember. We wouldn’t have to have a conversation if I didn't remember, because I didn't think that he would bring it up himself.
“It's no problem Candy. It was good to see the old you again. I told you that she was still in you.”
While I knew he was kind of being a smart ass, part of me knew that what he said was true. He seemed to bring out a side of me that I hadn't been in a long time. While I like to think of that time as a crazy time, a time where I made a lot of mistakes, which was true. It was also true that I had learned a lot about myself and about the world. I had a freedom back then, no expectations and in a way, I missed it. I missed only having to make myself happy instead of everyone else. It was a lot easier that way.
“Your right. she came back for the night, but don't expect to see her again. I'm not...”
“I know, you're not like that.”
I giggled at him and told him not to be so upset about it.
“You make it sound like it's a bad thing.”
Chapter 11
Jax
We were both dancing around the issue of last night. The fact that she was so awkward around me told me that she remembered just fine what had happened. I was trying my best to not say anything, be the bigger man, be a gentleman, but it was getting rather hard. I almost regretted the fact that I was such a gentleman the night before. Everything would have been different if she had woken up next to me, though there was a part of me that wondered if it would have been the same as before.
“So, what are we doing today?”
I had thought about it a lot and I decided just to take her out as a tourist. She said she'd only been here once and that was for a Bachelorette party. Considering that I was with her most of the night and into the day, I knew that she hadn’t went and seen many sites. We had met in the bar at the Blanko and then went back to my place not too long after that.
“We can do whatever you want, there is a lot to see here. We can go gamble or we can go to Lake Tahoe that's not too far from here, or a number of other things. Just tell me what you like.
She smiled at me and said that she wasn't sure.
“Do you want to just go around and check things out? These casinos have done some pretty awesome things to bring in tourist. Why don't we be a tourist for a day?”
The smile that went up on her face was enough for me. I think that she was feeling the pressure of it all, much like I was, and it was easier if we were doing something to keep our mi
nd and body occupied. All I could think about was taking her back to the house and into my bed, but that was to be at the moment, I had to do something to keep my mind off of that. If not, I was going to walk around with a hard on all day and that was going to be rather uncomfortable.
“I really like the sound of that. Do you think this will be okay to wear out, or should I go ahead and change?”
What she was wearing would draw a lot of attention, but then again, I had a feeling that she was going to draw attention no matter where we went. The woman was right about her hair, it made her stand out about as much as it was possible to and the red dress just brought it to another level. No, she wasn't just studied because of her red hair like she thought. It was her banging body as well.
She looked like sex on a stick and I couldn’t keep my eyes off of her. I knew that no one else was going to be able to either. But I wasn’t going to say all of that out loud. She wouldn’t take it as the compliment that I would mean it as. So instead of saying anything, I just told her that it would be fine and willed my cock to follow direction and calm the hell down.
When she told me that she was ready, I told her that I was as well. I called up the driver and he pulled the car around for us to get in. I could see by Candy’s expression that she wasn’t expecting the driver again. Maybe she thought that last night was a one-time thing. I don’t know.
“Don't you ever drive yourself?”
“Not too much anymore. The traffic around here is a bear and it isn't as enjoyable as it is on some of the highways. I just got sick of driving around in deadlock all of the time. I was losing a lot of time in my car, when I should have been at least answering calls. Now I can do both.”
She told me that she could see that. Sometimes it would be easier to let somebody else drive, but I really like to drive, and I don't know if I can give it up.”
“If you lived here with me, you would reconsider. It just isn't fun here.”
