“God, you guys really did keep her in the dark about everything. Didn’t you?” Mason says to the other two men and looks back to me.
“As you can see, we had other shit to deal with.” Bishop says. “And we thought it best that maybe Jacin should be the one to explain it to her.”
“Well fuck that idea, time is up.” Mason says to Bishop and moves forward towards me. “Let’s give you a quick lesson, shall we?” Mason says to me. “Come sit.” He gestures towards the small lounge Jacin has in his room.
I look down at Jacin, his hand still firmly planted in mine. I don’t want to leave his side, but I know I have to. I know this is one of the times where I will actually get some information that my brain and soul are craving.
I move to sit where Mason indicated for me to sit, Hades takes the seat beside him and Bishop continues to stand.
“So, this will be easier if I just tell the entire story and then you can just use it to fill in what you don’t know.” Mason starts off by saying.
“Fine by me.” I say and I’m giddy about the fact that I might learn something new.
“Okay then. Each of us hold within us some sort of monster or being, perhaps a purpose that holds great weight over the worlds.” Mason explains. His phone vibrates in his pocket before he can continue, he reaches into his pocket and cancels the call.
“Um question?” I say to him.
His eyes shoot up to meet mine. “Yes? What is it?”
“What monsters do each of you have?”
“Need and want, Natalie.” Mason says and then replaces his phone in his pocket.
“Yeah, yeah so you told me.” I grumble out.
“Right so, each monster has a designated mate. One that complements them, gives strength to them and most importantly, offers a balance.” Mason explains. “You balance out the darkness that is Jacin.” He says and before I can challenge that statement, Mason continues. “Yes, your race is from the darkness, enchanters are powerful witches. But that doesn’t mean your soul is dark. I can assure you; you balance the darkness that is Jacin. And he, brings out the darkness in you.”
“Okay, so then what did you mean by its going to happen any day now.”
“We did not stumble into each other and decide it would be a hoot to join a brotherhood and link our essence together. Our paths are so intertwined with each other, so dependent on each other that there was no other option. We balance one another’s purpose, where our mates will balance the monsters in us.” Mason says and I take as much information in as I can.
“Your mates are coming.” I whisper out when I realise where he is going with this.
“Yes, Jacin met you, so ours will start to follow and once the last of us is mated, the war for balance will be fought.” He says out and I’m in shock. Like what now?
“Sorry what?”
“A massive war, that will change the leaders of worlds and realms, it will change the key players that keep the balance. From Lucifer taking Jacin, we know he is one of them, one of the ones that want the change, want the war, who wants to rule.” Mason explains.
“So why don’t we just go after Lucifer, end it before a war can begin.”
“Because, another will just replace him and always keep in mind, the balance, Natalie. Always.” Hades warns me from beside Mason. Mason nods in agreement.
Jacin moans again and I jump up to rush to his side. I lightly grip his hand, letting him know I’m here and I hear the other three men shuffle closer to the bed.
He moans again and then he goes quiet.
His hands start moving, one leg that was laying straight on the bed, bends.
I want to let out a cry hoping beyond hope that he will wake up, he will come back to me.
I grip Jacin’s hand harder. Letting him know that I’m here for him. That I haven’t left his side. But I’m suddenly pulled down by Jacin’s strength, his green eyes open and latch onto me. I want to let out a sigh of relief, to jump for joy that he finally woke up. But I’m thrown back.
Into something, hard, cold and unyielding.
Chapter Twenty-Nine
“I’m the one for you, and no one else.” - Natalie
~Natalie~
Jacin slams me up against the wall before I can understand what’s happening. At least he woke up. But clearly in a really shitty mood. I can’t escape. I’m wedged between Jacin and the cold hard wall. Normally this would not worry me. But I can tell this is under completely different circumstances. Something is wrong.
Something is definitely very, very wrong.
Jacin has a grip on my throat, which he doesn’t let up and I feel as if I’m dangling from a height. I’ve been lifted off the floor. He has me and I don’t think he even realises it. I try to bat his hand away from my neck. My nails dig into his hand and the only reaction I get is the unearthly growl he lets escape.
My eyes snap to his.
It’s not Jacin who is in control.
“Stay absolutely still Natalie.” Mason says to me from across the room. “Hades get in there. It’s not Jacin.”
“Get between the beast and his mate, and here I had the crazy idea we were trying to survive this and not kill each other.” Hades grumbles, but he doesn’t make a move to come closer. They are afraid of what the beast inside Jacin wants to do. I’m not.
I stop my struggles, as now I know what stands before me, what has me in this vice like grip. I’d waste my energy trying to break free. Everyone in the room remains dead still. No one dares to move a muscle or dares to breathe to heavily.
Jacin leans in closer, his stubble scratching my cheeks as he does so. I feel his naked chest expand against mine as he smells me, as if he is absorbing my smell. His nose runs against my collarbone and he smells me again. As if the beast inside him can’t tell it’s me he has in a choke hold.
“Jacin.” I say softy. But it goes unnoticed. His beast is in a trance as he continues to smell me. His nose runs against my neck and I tilt my neck to give him better access. His low growl, that vibrates from his chest against my own chest, is the only sound I get. I’m hoping it’s an approving one.
My eyes dart to the three men that are standing near the bed, their heads nod at me in acknowledgement that I did the right thing. Jacin’s hand moves up to cup my jaw. His grip is hard, but not brutal and he turns my neck even more to the side as he takes another deep breath in. He again lets out the low growl. My nails dig more into his skin, but he doesn’t seem to notice. I know I have to wait it out.
Jacin runs his nose up my neck again until it’s under my ear, another deep breath in and his tongue darts out and licks me back down to my base. Shivers rack my body at the feel of him, my nails dig further into his skin at the feel of him. It’s been too long since he has given my body what it needs, and it craves the feel of him. I’m an addict. I want to pull him in close to me. I want his tongue on my tongue. I want to taste him again. I never want his taste to leave my mouth. It’s been too long. Way to long.
His hold on me tightens some more and he tilts my head again to give him more access to my smell. His chest expands and contracts against my own chest, my hearts erratic beating continues, but I can’t slow my heart rate down. I know it’s mine and his mixed as one, I feel him inside my heart, inside my soul. I know I need to wait out whatever the beast is trying to understand.
I let out a whimper as his grip tightens around my jaw. It’s now brutal and dominating. Again, why are these men so rough!
My cry must have somehow penetrated the beasts trance, as his now black eyes snap to mine and I no longer see Jacin lurking beneath the deep pools of black. There is no shine of red behind the deep pools of ink. There is just darkness. Madness. His eyes move over my face and still there is nothing behind them.
Was I wrong all along about the monster that lives beneath Jacin? Or did the bond really break. Shatter into a million pieces that he doesn’t even know who I am anymore. I want to try pleading with him. Try make him understand who I am. H
is grip barely lets me move my jaw; my words start to come out as utter nonsense. But I keep going, keep trying to soothe the beast.
“Did he fuck you?” The beasts unearthly voice comes out over mine, as his fingers around my neck sharpen. I know a warning when I see one. But I don’t understand him. His brutal grip loosens a fraction, enough for me to have use of my jaw. But the sharp claws under my chin are still a reminder to me. They graze my soft skin in warning.
“Wh – What?” I stammer out. I’ve never really dealt with the beast, Jacin has always been there behind the mask, but this time he isn’t.
“Did he fuck you.” He growls out to me again and I’m still not following him. I haven’t been with any man, not since that night Jacin had me. I feel his now sharp claws around my neck digging into my flesh, but they don’t break my soft skin.
“I don’t understand. I haven’t touched anyone.” I say out to him while trying not to whimper out as his grip tightens around me and securing me more to the hard, cold wall.
“I fucking saw you two. Did he deceive you? Or did you just fall on his cock, thinking what fucking difference would it make?” The beast barks out at me. His face is now so close to me, I feel his breath fanning my cheeks.
But my mind can’t understand what he is saying, and I want to cry out at the painful grip he has me in, but I know it won’t make any difference. I don’t understand why the beast is being so brutal with me. I remember him, he wants me just as much as Jacin does, if not more. I am his mate, yet he seems to think otherwise.
But then it hits me, like a ton of bricks hitting me at once. I saw the look of betrayal he gave me. The sadness in his eyes almost broke me. I never understood why he would look at me like that. He thinks I was with Dax. My dream walk coming back to me now clearer. Where I was more worried about his safety, all he saw was me and Dax dream walking together. Clearly, I’m not the only jealous one in this fucked up relationship. I don’t want to deal with him in front of all these men, they need to go.
“Everyone, get out!” I order. The men don’t move, they shuffle their feet, but they don’t move.
“Now!” I scream at the lot of them.
“Natalie, you have never dealt with him before, I don’t think it’s a good idea if you are left alone with him.” Bishop says from behind Jacin’s back.
“I am fine, now leave!” I order them again, but once again, they don’t move.
“So, fucking sure that you are fine? I want to fucking rip you apart! You will soon fucking learn what really lies beneath Jacin’s fucking mask.” The beast shouts in my face. I just smirk at him. Which most probably wasn’t the best idea I have ever had.
“You think I won’t?” The beast growls into my face. His mouth so close to mine, I feel his breath on my lips, and I can’t help but lick my lips at the taste of him. He pulls back before I get the chance and his hand smashes into the wall next to me, a cloud of white plaster floats into my line of vision.
“Jace, man calm down. She is your mate. You don’t mean that.” Hades says.
Jacin’s beast flinches when the sound of Hades voice penetrates his crazed state. “How the fuck would you know? Did your mate fuck your brother?” Jacin barks out at him.
“Brother, I think you are wrong there.” Bishop tries to intervene.
“What makes you so fucking sure!” He growls out at Bishop, but his eyes never leave mine as he removes his hand from the dent in the wall to tightly grip my ass, pushing me even closer to his now hard erection. “I fucking saw them!” He growls back. I’m just hanging out her. Trying to figure out a way to calm Jacin’s beast down.
“All you saw was that they dream walked together. Shit the moment she woke up; we were called in Jace. Calm the beast down, get control, you don’t want to live with regrets Jace.” Bishop tries to explain to the beast, but it doesn’t work, the words fly right passed him.
“Fuck you, Bishop. I know what I saw.” He growls back at Bishop and his grip on me continues to tighten, I know I’m going to have bruises after this, hell maybe I won’t even survive this. I should just kick him where it hurts. But I opt for another tactic.
“You were wrong.” I simply state and peel my eyes from his seductive mouth and lock with his eyes. I bring my dangling leg up and hook them around his waist. Which only earns me another growl from deep within his chest.
“I saw you two. Don’t fucking deny it. I wasn’t that out of it.” Jacin says to me. His hand on my ass tightens, squeezing it like I’m so used to him doing to me.
“I’ll prove it then!” I say out to the beast, while grinding my core against his erection. Which only earns me another growl from him, but my body doesn’t seem to care, and my mind doesn’t bother to get on board with the idea either. I’m not afraid of Jacin. So, what makes his beast any different?
My lips slam against his. His mouth willingly opens to allow me entrance. Our tongues mix with one another, but instead of me sucking his tongue into my mouth, he sucks mine into his. His taste sends shivers through my body. I never knew how much I craved him. How much his taste sated me, kept me sane. When will he realise, I’m an addict and he is my drug? As I pull my tongue from his mouth, I give his tongue one more lick which earns me another growl, only this time, it’s one I know too well.
“Satisfied?” I ask Jacin. His beast just growls back at me. I see the control he has over Jacin starting to falter.
“That proves nothing!” He says to me and his grip tightens on me just to prove a point.
“No?” I ask him and I rub myself against him again. Whatever he is saying, is a complete contradiction to what his body wants. The beast just lets out a frustrated growl and pulls back from me but not enough that his erection leaves my stomach.
“Did he fuck you!” He barks out at me again and I slam my answer into his mouth again. Our tongues meet each other once more. The beast inside Jacin lets out his unearthly growl I know so well. Our kiss is soft this time. The anger he was holding onto has started to fizzle out with each tangle of our tongues. I start to pull back from our kiss. My teeth latch onto his bottom lip that I love to bite, and I give a light nip on his lip.
“That still proves nothing!” He grinds out to me, but his eyes tell a different story as they are now glued to my swollen lips. His beast has lost the small amount of control he was allowed and Jacin now holds all the cards.
“You would have tasted if I had been with another man, don’t try pretend that you can’t.” I argue back with him and I see the corners of his beautiful mouth turn up slightly but disappear once he realises what he is doing.
“Yeah and how the fuck would you know?” He whispers out over my mouth, his hot breath fanning over my sensitive skin, I lick my lips again, I want more of Jacin, his taste, his touch. Everything he gives me and then I want more.
“You once told me you could. Now did you taste another man or what?” I push him. Once my mind has come back to the situation before us.
“Weyland I can fucking smell on you. He bit you. And fucking Hades, but he just does shit to piss me off.” Jacin says and my eyes flick to Hades who doesn’t seem the least bit worried about Jacin knowing and winks in my direction as he sips his tea.
“You still want to rip me apart?” I ask him, as my eyes connect with his and the darkness flicks over them once more, the beast is always present, always waiting.
“Don’t fucking tempt me. I saw you and Dax walking together in a dream, that fucking means he was sleeping with you or at least touching you while you did sleep.”
“We were on the damn couch and feel asleep. Can’t believe you’d think I’d fall onto your brothers dick.” I grind out to Jacin, maybe if I hit him over the head with something, it will knock some ever-loving sense into the man. Beast. Whoever is not on board with my answer.
“Twin brother and you had a little memory problem, so who the fuck knows.” Jacin simply states, but his eyes are latched back onto my lips. I slowly bite my lower lip and move ever so slightly
over his erection. Only earning me another growl from Jacin, which I don’t think he even knows he is doing.
“You gave me that memory problem and we are forgetting an important thing!” I push at him some more. I’m not going to let this go if that is what he thinks.
“Yeah and what’s that?” He pushes back at me this time. His eyes have finally left my lips for the moment and we lock eyes with one another.
“I can find your fucking soul, anywhere!” I shout at him, slap his rock-hard chest just to get my point across, which stuns him into silence. When will this man get it? It’s only him! “And the next time you fucking hide from us, you will be sorry and that is not an idle threat either!” I warn him, but his only reaction to it is the slight lift of his mouth and then it’s gone again.
And I watch as his eyes flick over my face, landing briefly on my lips again, which I can’t help but lick once again. I want his taste in my mouth. I never want it to leave. Jacin’s eyes flick back to mine once I’m finished licking my lips and I see the red glow beneath the never-ending pools of darkness.
“You are an infuriating woman; do you fucking know that.” He finally says out defeated.
“We all fucking know that!” Bishop and Hades say together and Jacin stills at their voices. The beast clearly forgot to let him know they were here.
He cocks his head to the side to look at the group of men that are behind us. “Get the fuck out.” He says, but he is not angry, his voice is tired.
“Sir, yes, sir!” Hades barks out and walks off with his teacup, followed by the rest of the men.
Once the room is empty, Jacin turns back to me, his eyes are the green I fell in love with all those years ago without even realising it. His grip on me loosens and I groan at the loss. His fingers move to my lips and I playful nip at his tips.
“You are mine.” He simply states. “Do you remember that?” He asks me.
And I nod my yes in response.
“Everything?” He asks me and my eyes latch onto his once more and I smile to myself. His words echo in my mind. And I could have them on repeat for the rest of my life without every tiring from hearing it.
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