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by Ranjit Hoskoté


  Flits from

  gunship to fractured gunship.

  Ash of lead, ash of zircon,

  ash only can the land afford.

  Ash only

  I could rake from my brother’s pyre.

  Pyre that white-hot, hollowed

  skull

  of a bull, pyre that glows,

  throbbing glows between the torpid

  arms

  of drowsy rivers, throbs above

  the gore.

  Blood no longer but coarse shroud

  smouldering on the long lines of pyres

  our wakes

  sluggish, numbed, unruddered, our wakes

  we reeling ships.

  Prows snapped off, reeling ships

  that have beached here in sooty dunes,

  beached here, run aground miles away

  from brothers, from brothers’ pyres.

  In a tree-hung village

  ships reeling, ships trying to reel in

  what’s left,

  straightening their keels,

  trying to

  escape

  vertigo memory.

  II

  How long must we bleach our hulls

  on these sooty dunes, pitching at

  a sunrise that won’t cauterize

  our barnacled backs? Pitching,

  waiting to forget. Waiting

  like shiftless tramps.

  Even where the fine cracks are free

  of flitting ash

  no drop drips.

  No drop drips

  to lease a little sea to landlocked lips.

  The wind’s a dry and hacking cough.

  On walls that have trudged

  to this village to die,

  a fire’s dried grief

  has left its carbon ghost.

  Wolf Rain

  In the dark, we saw workmen shovelling mud

  into shallow pits. But the guards were watching

  and we drove by quickly.

  *

  Rain-hit my eyelids shuttered and rain-hit

  my shoulder receded into its shell,

  and from watching the tracks spooling into the past,

  I drew back, wrapped myself into the train, rain-hit.

  Tried to write. The drizzle nosed its way in

  through the grille, the pen slipped.

  The ink slurred across the page,

  blurring dates, blotting out centuries.

  I have not seen the stars for centuries,

  it has been raining.

  *

  Time dances best at night, when no one’s watching:

  century segues into century in our sleep.

  When a hundred years meet a hundred years

  by daylight, on paper, they explode.

  I got off in a rain of ash and scorched leaves,

  powdered glass settling on bridges and cars.

  The crannies between blasts

  filled with memories:

  the shards of a wedding under the trees,

  the groom smiling, the bride hidden

  by marigold blotches.

  The wolf knows when it is time

  to cross the steppe

  and breathe on our windows.

  *

  Danger swarmed up the stairs but at every turning

  as you came to meet it, slunk away

  like wet sand sucked into a crab-hole.

  It slipped down the steps like the hair of the bride,

  floating serpentine down the canal.

  The groom, I think, ended his journey

  in the salt mines: that page in the records

  is badly smudged.

  *

  I went out to the bridge in this city of canals.

  The wolf waded out, fixed me with phosphor eyes.

  I trod water, sank; eyes closed, felt his paw

  on the fine hairs of my nape,

  smelt gunpowder on his fur.

  I splashed through the thick rain

  he’d brought with him,

  never looked back

  as he threw his mask away, shouting.

  Since then, I have seen neither fireworks nor stars.

  I ride trains, I write.

  Icarus Insurgent

  All night they fished the sound for his bones:

  the clanking gossip of their hooks,

  drawn and thrown over the sides of coracles,

  killed the quail’s black sleep.

  In the morning

  they set his mother’s creaky brown table

  in the garden

  and threw his big bronze wings on it.

  now Icarus, they said,

  you drink up your milk

  and tuck in tight.

  That night, fishing: their nets

  dragged along the glinting shelves

  of the nymphs, weighed down

  by big bronze wings.

  They rode hard home on hooves that cracked the darkness,

  trailing their tattered nets behind;

  shadowed by the dry wind in the wake

  of flapping big bronze wings.

  Horse Hymn

  No shelter from your foaming drives, the night

  offers no respite.

  You break the axles of dreams,

  mud-splash the sacrifice.

  Was it for this the milk ocean spawned you

  and gave you into these, its impatient churner’s hands?

  The fire god has given notice. My hermits chant

  at flame-pits stripped to faggot-bone

  by his absence. The sparks, absconding rebels,

  leap to the stoking of your silver tail:

  charred pastures chart the bite of your breath,

  the campaign of a mane that is wind.

  My voice has never reined you. Unquestioned,

  you have reigned in my name. My seal

  means nothing; it’s your hoof-print

  that cowherds brand their cattle with

  in all the villages of the flood-plain.

  Even the river in spate is allowed

  some anger, some ferocity it can force

  from the snow’s long ride to the swallowing sea.

  My fate is patience: that, and the drumming of hooves,

  the swishing of a mane that is wind.

  Not once have I climbed into your dun saddle.

  Not that I would try. I like my crown,

  dislike the thought of my face falling

  in the mud of my subjects’ laughter.

  Like an angry god’s bowstring,

  your throat shafts its arrow:

  a neigh vaned on my complicit silence.

  Even Ganga shivers in her flowered bed

  and sleep is a fugitive, crouching under blue trees.

  Bring me, as I survey these acres of trampled corn,

  the hundred-stringed harp. Let iron bells clang

  in the chilled air above shrouded slopes.

  I shall leave no account of triumph or compassion

  on the contemptuous faces of cliffs that know better,

  no strata of hieroglyphics

  for digging grandsons to puzzle over,

  no riddles in three unknown scripts.

  Only this my music.

  Tiger Poem

  In this green dream, language and I

  face each other alone.

  Language is forests and hills;

  I, tiger.

  River flaming up from the crouching dark,

  I make bloody incursion upon thicket and slope.

  Ravines and gorges grow from the mauling

  of my paw.

  Then string and horn call to each other

  across the thick mud at the edge of language:

  the creek ripples with the din of drums

  and gods track me with torches and guns.

  My spoor fades in the rain, above broken branch-traps.

  I fasten my cliff against riding gods and rooted hills,


  call slope to heel and light to order.

  Then whoever would grasp blade and clamber up

  should wither in the amber blast of my eyes

  and the leafy hate of this way that I have come

  should plunge the gods in a whirling of lost cries.

  When, damned vespertine omen on the skyline,

  a temple found by the failing light

  explodes in the craters of my eyes,

  as if, on that horned and jutting headland,

  nothing else could have flashed and stopped

  my stride.

  As if the clap of rock met with ray,

  alone of all this land’s voices could have stayed

  the certain death of my prey,

  stayed my leap

  over the ashy sun.

  Thwarted, a target chased down the howling night,

  I roar still into the wilds this anthem of war.

  Leonardo

  Sun-drunk Tuscan air and the blue glaze

  of Virgin’s robe and Infant’s gaze:

  the brush fleshes the impossible

  as it lands from what could not be

  on the strand of what has been made.

  Now come out to this burial of wind,

  to these damp cacti and cypresses:

  support my drugged head, my fantasies as they

  get buffeted on these rocky shores.

  Vulture, risen from amber earth,

  misheard bird, omen of my miscalculated birth,

  fluttering at my mouth, suspect index of my

  irrationality:

  Come, let your talons strop their guardian anger

  on my cold still silverpoint, strip the grand

  designs that cloak my deluges.

  Or fan your wings

  on the red chalk in which my strident face

  is cooled, tempered, offered as axiom

  to disciples of reason and its corollaries.

  This is a face of etched lines, hard

  and confident as history.

  Fan it so the particles are sifted and rub away

  ingrained determinations.

  Fan it so the nose

  is fractured, and the eyes peer to suit

  a prodigal presbyope.

  Set doubt aquiver in the wrinkles of the cheeks

  and let the thin lips loosen

  to ask the mirror’s left-hand code

  if anything was ever done.

  Let history be a little afraid. Let it peep

  from behind a tree, with a child’s eyes,

  at the immensity of your black wings

  when they eclipse the sun.

  Noche Triste

  in memoriam: Ricky, Sona, Scamp

  The tree has come of age this spring.

  It has burst the roof, full-blooded, to let the sun

  fall through its limbs on dead arches.

  Thickening through bricks and crevices, its roots

  spread like Christ’s arms, sap drained

  by centuries of chill.

  Dawn and the dying night play chess

  in the courtyard. Standing in the atrium

  where the pool slept after the rain,

  squared by four hazed margins,

  my ship run aground, my crew broken up,

  I have stopped believing the world is round.

  The world is what lies broken within these walls.

  Feathers consecrate the theatre

  where cannibal eagles whirled:

  masked gladiators,

  moments tinctured with blood

  flaking around them on the rising steps.

  Notching creaky doors and clotted ponds in passing,

  the feathered snake yawns. I throw the dice,

  wait for the bitter wind to make its move:

  against the ruffling of scales,

  the dice strike together,

  sparking annual complaints.

  *

  The rock’s long-dragged battery brunts up

  in whirring dust and hobbled walls. Noiseless,

  a boat whisks its wake across the plateglass sea;

  noiseless, a blue net trawls the tiles of the church.

  Outside the fort a charcoal wave sends

  a shoaled catch up to the gunmetal air:

  what can this gesture mean, on the cloudy morning after

  the gods have fallen?

  From the turret, I watch the bird-crowned prince escape

  over the creek-bridge, weighed down by wagons of gold.

  Musket and pike meet helmet and mace. Turning to face

  the enemy, half-hearted, the prince is hit

  by the punctual boomerang of prophecy.

  The eye

  follows the bird-crown,

  which crosses the creek

  alone.

  A smoking citadel and seven sinking pylons

  are left behind. And though my turret is greased

  with yestercentury’s torching,

  all this might have been a weather report

  from another planet.

  *

  The fisher’s arm as it heaved the catch today

  was iron-hard like the arm

  in a cold scabbard in the conquistador’s grave

  near the thick-lipped well.

  Its pulleys tripped by creepers, this well is a mouth

  that the jungle cannot cry through;

  even the kissing twin-trees that twined as they grew

  are caged apart now, under the mind’s curfew.

  That mind, a marble veined with conceptions,

  exerts itself to hold motionless this frieze

  of quays, this dodging flotilla of waterfronts,

  this serration of terraces. But a figure escapes

  the mind’s shaping punch and point,

  dives below its strangling reefs.

  Then the mind, freed from its own sepulchre,

  becomes a horse, with the escaped figure for rider.

  Clattering by an inn of a winter’s night, its hooves ignite

  memories on the cobbles, memories that are not

  the marble thoughts of a marble brain.

  The horse brings back its rider

  to a stable neither can forget:

  home is an empty house;

  the garden brims where we buried the dog,

  a candle burns for the buried cat.

  When the need aches and steers like a fever

  and I must see my friends again,

  I go to the excavation,

  find them among those who hover

  above the harvest of the heads of men

  whose lives had been gentle,

  whose only ambition had been to grow

  trees that would ripen the summer with lyric:

  senators with clear eyes and dull fortunes.

  *

  Bilious oracle of the full still air,

  turn the key in the door of foretelling,

  let our eyes smart with vatic vapours.

  Before the uncial epitaphs on these deadshells can be

  reckoned over by another orthography,

  tell us what the eclipsed fort and enfeebled sea

  can hope for, tell us when the thermal armies

  that roost among the palms

  will come out in combat.

  And when the acid beaker of combat is poured out,

  what can quench our retching throats?

  I see fins on fire threshing in charcoal sludge:

  for the foundering rayfish,

  for the sunbird trailing its tattered wing

  over snapping tides,

  will there be place to beach or glide,

  to come to rest with a degree of grace?

  Coagulate with retting leaves, the crypt

  where Christ lies has been veiled

  from fishermen’s stolen stares.

  The marble, waspwarm with desire,

  drugs itself with form:

  lymph seeps, hard
muscle curves and marrow sets

  inside the half-breathing stone.

  But doused with limefire,

  the thermal armies sense none of this.

  Threat and answer,

  the sarcophagus for the moment maintains

  a sibylline silence.

  Vector Geography

  On a giant prowl, the gaunt hills rake

  earth’s carapace, its towns and lakes:

  theirs is a slow race with clouds

  that, becalmed, sag like dried udders.

  The surveyor’s laws of stamp and signature

  cannot sentence these apostate hills.

  The earthquake of their going shakes history:

  neither dead nor germinal, that squat god

  on a burnt mound. His four eyes stare at creation,

  his heads gather bee-hive.

  Incontinent crows

  metronome his meditation.

  *

  Earth has been a crab: patient, pincers prickling

  to answer those who clipped the hills’ wings

  and whittled the moraine banks to slope-strung skeletons;

  who pin moths in black albums, pepper-spot atlases

  with clusters of maximum ore.

  Half-Hannibal, dissenting conquistador in scholar’s robes,

  I translate earth’s anger, the march of the hills:

  reversing the shocks of census and seismograph

  with cursive phrase, I work in a tongue

  that speaks for the sierra, a script remote

  from the surveyor’s scrawl.

  *

  Baking in a buff oven of sky-sealed sand,

  earth swells from crab to turmeric scarab

  rounded from sun’s hot breath, hot flesh of hills,

  itself its journey’s amulet. But even this miracle

  and the hills springing, swaying-sacred

  in the dance of light are less than what

 

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