by J. M. Barrie
CHAPTER XVIII
THE AUDACITY OF ROB ANGUS
Colonel Abinger had allowed the other sportsmen to wander away from him,and now lay on his back on Ben Shee, occasionally raking the glen ofQuharity through a field-glass. It was a purple world he saw under a skyof grey and blue; with a white thread that was the dusty road twistinground a heavy sweep of mountain-side, and a broken thread of silver thatwas the Quharity straggling back and forward in the valley like a streamreluctant to be gone. To the naked eye they were bare black peaks thatoverlooked the glen from every side but the south. It was not themountains, however, but the road that interested the colonel. By and byhe was sitting up frowning, for this is what he saw.
From the clump of trees to the north that keeps Glen Quharity Lodge warmin winter, a man and a lady emerged on horseback. They had not advanceda hundred yards, when the male rider turned back as if for something hehad forgotten. The lady rode forward alone.
A pedestrian came into sight about the same time, a mile to the south ofthe colonel. The field-glass lost him a dozen times, but he wasapproaching rapidly, and he and the rider must soon meet.
The nearest habitation to Colonel Abinger was the schoolhouse, whichwas some four hundred yards distant. It stands on the other side of thewhite road, and is approached by a straight path down which heavy cartscan jolt in the summer months. Every time the old dominie goes up anddown this path, his boots take part of it along with him. There is astone in his house, close to the door, which is chipped and scarredowing to his habit of kicking it to get the mud off his boots before hegoes inside. The dominie was at present sitting listlessly on the dykethat accompanies this path to the high road.
The colonel was taking no interest in the pedestrian as yet, but hesighed as he watched the lady ride slowly forward. Where the road hadbroken through a bump in the valley her lithe form in green stood out assharply as a silhouette against the high ragged bank of white earth. Thecolonel had recognised his daughter, and his face was troubled.
During all the time they had been at the Lodge he had never mentionedRob Angus's name to Mary, chiefly because she had not given him a chanceto lose his temper. She had been more demonstrative in her love for herfather than of old, and had anticipated his wants in a way thatgratified him at the moment but disturbed him afterwards. In hispresence she seemed quite gaily happy, but he had noticed that she likedto slip away on to the hillside by herself, and sit there alone forhours at a time. Sir Clement Dowton was still at the Lodge, but thecolonel was despondent. He knew very well that, without his consent,Mary would never give her hand to any man, but he was equally aware thatthere his power ended. Where she got her notions he did not know, butsince she became his housekeeper she had impressed the colonelcuriously. He was always finding himself taking for granted her purityto be something so fine that it behoved him to be careful. Mary affectedother people in the same way. They came to know that she was a very rareperson, and so in her company they became almost fine personsthemselves. Thus the natural goodness of mankind asserted itself. Oflate the colonel had felt Mary's presence more than ever; he believed inher so much (often to his annoyance) that she was a religion to him.
While Colonel Abinger sat in the heather, perturbed in mind, and tryingto persuade himself that it was Mary's fault, the pedestrian drew nearrapidly. Evidently he and the rider would meet near the schoolhouse, andbefore the male rider, who had again emerged from the clump of trees,could make up on his companion.
The dominie, who did not have such a slice of the outer world as thisevery day, came to the end of his path to have a look at the persons whowere nearing him from opposite directions. He saw that the pedestrianwore an elegant silk hat and black coat, such as were not to be got inthese parts. Only the delve with which he walked suggested a man fromThrums.
The pedestrian made a remark about the weather as he hurried past thedominie. He was now so near the colonel that his face could bedistinctly seen through the field-glass. The colonel winced, and turnedwhite and red. Then the field-glass jumped quickly to the horsewoman.The pedestrian started as he came suddenly in sight of her, and at thesame moment her face lit up with joy. The colonel saw it and felt apain at his heart. The glass shook in his hand, thus bringing thedominie accidentally into view.
The dominie was now worth watching. No sooner had the pedestrian passedhim than the old man crouched so as not to seem noticeable, and ranafter him. When he was within ten yards of his quarry he came to rest,and the field-glass told that he was gaping. Then the dominie turnedround and hurried back to the schoolhouse, muttering as he ran:
'It's Rob Angus come home in a lum hat, and that's one o' the leddiesfrae the Lodge. I maun awa to Thrums wi' this. Rob Angus, Robbie Angus,michty, what a toon there'll be aboot this!'
Rob walked up to Mary Abinger, feeling that to bid her good afternoonwas like saying 'Thank you' in a church when the organ stops. He felthimself a saw-miller again.
The finest thing in the world is that a woman can pass through anything,and remain pure. Mary had never been put to the test, but she could havestood it. Her soul spoke in her face, and as Rob looked at her the soundof his own voice seemed a profanation. Yet Mary was not all soul. Sheunderstood, for instance, why Rob stammered so much as he took her hand,and she was glad that she had on her green habit instead of the blackone.
Sir Clement Dowton rode forward smartly to make up on Miss Abinger, andsaw her a hundred yards before him from the top of a bump which the roadclimbs. She was leaning forward in her saddle talking to a man whom herecognised at once. The baronet's first thought was to ride on, but hedrew rein.
'I have had my chance and failed,' he said to himself grimly. 'Whyshould not he have his?'
With a last look at the woman he loved, Sir Clement turned his horse,and so rode out of Mary Abinger's life. She had not even seen him.
'Papa has been out shooting,' she said to Rob, who was trying to begin,'and I am on my way to meet him. Sir Clement Dowton is with me.'
She turned her head to look for the baronet, and Rob, who had beenaimlessly putting his fingers through her horse's mane, started at themention of Sir Clement's name.
'Miss Abinger,' he said, 'I have come here to ask you one question. Ihave no right to put it, but Sir Clement, he----'
'If you want to see him,' said Mary, 'you have just come in time. Ibelieve he is starting for a tour of the world in a week or so.'
Rob drew a heavy breath, and from that moment he liked Dowton. But hehad himself to think of at present. He remembered that he had anotherquestion to ask Miss Abinger.
'It is a very long time since I saw you,' he said.
'Yes,' said Mary, sitting straight in her saddle, 'you never came to thehouse-boat those last weeks. I suppose you were too busy.'
'That was not what kept me away,' Rob said. 'You know it was not.'
Mary looked behind her again.
'There was nothing else,' she said; 'I cannot understand what isdetaining Sir Clement.'
'I thought----' Rob began.
'You should not,' said Mary, looking at the schoolhouse.
'But your brother----' Rob was saying, when he paused, not wanting toincriminate Dick.
'Yes, I know,' said Mary, whose intellect was very clear to-day. Sheknew why Rob stopped short, and there was a soft look in her eyes asthey were turned upon him.
'Your brother advised me to come north,' Rob said, but Mary did notanswer.
'I would not have done so,' he continued, 'if I had known that you knewwhy I stayed away from the house-boat.'
'I think I must ride on,' Mary said.
'No,' said Rob, in a voice that put it out of the question. So Mary musthave thought, for she remained there. 'You thought it better,' he wenton huskily, 'that, whatever the cause, I should not see you again.'
Mary was bending her riding-whip into a bow.
'Did you not?' cried Rob, a little fiercely.
Mary shook her head.
'Then why did you do it?' he said
.
'I didn't do anything,' said Mary.
'In all London,' said Rob, speaking at a venture, 'there has not beenone person for the last two months so miserable as myself.'
Mary's eyes wandered from Rob's face far over the heather. There mightbe tears in her eyes at any moment. The colonel was looking.
'That stream,' said Rob, with a mighty effort, pointing to the distantWhunny, 'twists round the hill on which we are now standing, and runsthrough Thrums. It turns the wheel of a saw-mill there, and in thatsaw-mill I was born and worked with my father for the greater part of mylife.'
'I have seen it,' said Mary, with her head turned away. 'I have been init.'
'It was on the other side of the hill that my sister's child was founddead. Had she lived I might never have seen you.'
'One of the gamekeepers,' said Mary, 'showed me the place where youfound her with her foot in the water.'
'I have driven a cart through this glen a hundred times,' continued Robdoggedly. 'You see that wooden shed at the schoolhouse; it was my fatherand I who put it up. It seems but yesterday since I carted the boardsfrom Thrums.'
'The dear boards,' murmured Mary.
'Many a day my mother has walked from the saw-mill into this glen withmy dinner in a basket.'
'Good mother,' said Mary,
'Now,' said Rob, 'now, when I come back here and see you, I rememberwhat I am. I have lived for you from the moment I saw you, but howeverhard I might toil for you, there must always be a difference betweenus.'
He was standing on the high bank, and their faces were very close. Maryshuddered.
'I only frighten you,' cried Rob.
Mary raised her head, and, though her face was wet, she smiled. Her handwent out to him, but she noticed it and drew it back. Rob saw it too,but did not seek to take it. They were looking at each other bravely.His eyes proposed to her, while he could not say a word, and hersaccepted him. On the hills men were shooting birds.
Rob knew that Mary loved him. An awe fell upon him. 'What am I?' hecried, and Mary put her hand in his. 'Don't, dear,' she said, as hisface sank on it; and he raised his head and could not speak.
The colonel sighed, and his cheeks were red. His head sank upon hishands. He was young again, and walking down an endless lane of greenwith a maiden by his side, and her hand was in his. They sat down by theside of a running stream. Her fair head lay on his shoulder, and she washis wife. The colonel's lips moved as if he were saying to himself wordsof love, and his arms went out to her who had been dead this many ayear, and a tear, perhaps the last he ever shed, ran down his cheek.
'I should not,' Mary said at last, 'have let you talk to me like this.'
Rob looked up with sudden misgiving.
'Why not?' he cried.
'Papa,' she said, 'will never consent, and I--I knew that; I have knownit all along.'
'I am not going to give you up now,' Rob said passionately, and helooked as if he would run away with her at that moment.
'I had no right to listen to you,' said Mary. 'I did not mean to do so,but I--I'--her voice sank into a whisper--'I wanted to know----'
'To know that I loved you! Ah, you have known all along.'
'Yes,' said Mary, 'but I wanted--I wanted to hear you say so yourself.'
Rob's arms went over her like a hoop.
'Rob, dear,' she whispered, 'you must go away, and never see me anymore.'
'I won't,' cried Rob; 'you are to be my wife. He shall not part us.'
'It can never be,' said Mary.
'I shall see him--I shall compel him to consent.'
Mary shook her head.
'You don't want to marry me,' Rob said fiercely, drawing back from her.'You do not care for me. What made you say you did?'
'I shall have to go back now,' Mary said, and the softness of her voicecontrasted strangely with the passion in his.
'I shall go with you,' Rob answered, 'and see your father.'
'No, no,' said Mary; 'we must say good-bye here, now.'
Rob turned on her with all the dourness of the Anguses in him.
'Good-bye,' he said, and left her. Mary put her hand to her heart, buthe was already turning back.
'Oh,' she cried, 'do you not see that it is so much harder to me than toyou?'
'Mary, my beloved,' Rob cried. She swayed in her saddle, and if he hadnot been there to catch her she would have fallen to the ground.
Rob heard a footstep at his side, and, looking up, saw Colonel Abinger.The old man's face was white, but there was a soft look in his eye, andhe stooped to take Mary to his breast.
'No,' Rob said, with his teeth close, 'you can't have her. She's mine.'
'Yes,' the colonel said sadly; 'she's yours.'
