I stared at him. He grinned some more and then shrugged magnanimously.
I mean, fair enough—you came after me like your arse was on fire, so you probably didn’t have time to have a good look around, he said.
But, I said.
And you were well asleep while me and your dad were still up talking by the fire, he said. So you don’t really know what deals were done. Do you?
Dad would never have given up Jess, I said. Jess is my dog.
Sure about that, are you? he said. Sure your dad would never make a deal where he sacrificed one thing to save a bigger one?
Jess is mine, I said. She’s not anyone’s to trade.
Okay, he said. If you say so.
Liars lie. That’s what they do. That’s what he was doing. Lying, and in so doing trying to make me lie to myself. Trying to make me not trust my family. Liars lie by cutting you loose from what you thought was so and persuading you this other thing they are waving in front of you is the new truth. You will have come across many liars in your crowded world. I expect you knew this from the get-go. I imagine you were prepared for them, and knew how to deal with them. I hadn’t met a liar until Brand sailed into our lives. But I already knew this about how they work and what they feed on. Liars want you off balance and alone, so you can drown in self-doubt.
Brand already had me halfway there before I noticed what he was doing.
If you’re doing so well, I said, what are you doing in here?
That, he said, is a good question. But before I answer it, you answer my question. Man to man. Are you going to try and kill me?
What? I said. His directness had again winded me.
You’re glaring at me like you are going to leap at me at any moment and it’s a small enough space we seem to find ourselves in, and we should get this out of the way, otherwise it’s going to be exhausting. So I’ll ask again. Man to man. Are you going to try to kill me?
You’re bigger than me, I said. And violence is stupid anyway. And you stole my dog. You didn’t kill my family.
I paused for a moment and wondered if they had recovered. I had after all left them distinctly vomitous and grey-faced.
So? he said, blue eyes glittering.
So, I said. Man to man? I won’t kill you.
He nodded.
Okay, he said. Well, that’s reasonable if we’re to be locked up in here for a while.
Especially if you give me back my dog, I said.
He didn’t quite know what to make of that. He decided to hang a smile on it, but it hung a little more lopsided than normal and I had the satisfaction of knowing he wasn’t quite sure of me.
So what are you doing in here? I said.
It’s as they said, he said. A lone traveller, a Freeman came through carrying a disease that raised boils in the armpits and killed three of them after he left and went north.
This had to be the same traveller John Dark had told me about. The one who caused la pest, the Freeman whose key I wore round my neck.
So the Cons have decided anyone from outside has to sit in quarantine and not be ill for a month before they let them into the compound, he said. That’s why they were wearing the masks and scarves. They don’t want to breathe our air until they know we’re clean.
The Cons? I said.
Conservators, he said. It’s what they call themselves. They’re not the nicest people in the world. They don’t have much of a sense of humour. They have a mission instead. But though they don’t travel much now, they are great traders for the few of us who go about the world.
What’s their mission? I said.
They want to conserve the human race, he said. They want to repopulate the world. They want to fix what has changed because they think that “changed” is the same as “broken” and that the glories of what once was must always be better than the excitement of what might be in the future. Great breeders they are, and they want to put the clock back, and there’s no telling them it can’t be done. They’re stubborn—like you. But with less heart.
That was typical of Brand. Unsettle you and then slide in a compliment to make you trust him a little bit.
And that was never a good thing to do. As I was about to find out. Again.
Forewarned is not always forearmed. Sometimes you spend so much effort looking out for the trap you know is there that you miss the other one you didn’t know about.
Chapter 32
Visitors
I had to tell them about Jip. I figured he would be all right for a day maybe even two, but the pan of water I had left him wouldn’t last, and it would be better for them to have him than for him to die a long nasty death of thirst. And then the packhorse had to be unhobbled too, taken in or allowed to roam free.
I decided, however, that I would wait out that first day in case I could find a way to escape, that Jip would forgive me this. I did, after all have my Leatherman. They hadn’t searched me because they had been scared to touch me.
Have you tried to escape? I said to Brand.
Why would I? he said. They’ll let me out eventually. I haven’t got the plague. They feed me well here. It’s quite restful. I catch up on my sleep, nothing to worry about. And they like me.
So they don’t know you very well, I said.
Again that flash of white parted his beard, the little grin that now put my teeth on edge.
They’ve stopped travelling, he said. They used to. But then the three best sailors among them went off on a fine summer’s day, dropped over the horizon into a dark storm that lasted a day and a night and never came back. My guess is the sea took them. And now those that remain, they think it’s too dangerous. So they like me because I can go out into the world they’re scared of and bring them back useful things.
Like my dog, I said.
Well yes, he said. They like the idea of being able to breed guard dogs. And then he sighed. There have been wolves around that attack their sheep and they worry that one day the wolves might attack them, which is stupid, because wolves don’t attack people. I read that in a book.
I didn’t tell him he was wrong. Maybe one day he’d trust a wolf, believing the lie he’d read, and that would be as good a way for him to get the nasty surprise I wished on him as any other.
I’m going to try and escape, I said.
Don’t, he said. It’ll just make them angry.
If I escape, that won’t be my problem, I said.
You won’t, he said. Why don’t you just sit down and tell me about your journey? I like a good story.
Me too, I said. But this one hasn’t finished yet.
So we had some more silence, which I didn’t mind and he didn’t like.
I passed the time looking out of the three different cell windows on the sea side of the bunker. I could see the top of his boat’s sails. And there was a smudge of smoke, about the size of a cooking fire, beyond that which marked the Conservators’ settlement. I could see some movement beyond the trees that screened it, but just flashes. The bigger movement was the sails, which kept dropping and then rising.
What are they doing to your boat? I said.
He came across the hall and into my cell, and looked out of the window next to me. I was uncomfortable having him this close to me. I don’t know why. He smelled of sea and woodsmoke. And he had something about him that was always dangerous, like the dark pull of a cliff edge.
I stepped aside.
He sucked his teeth and made a snapping noise with his tongue. It sounded like he was swallowing some irritation.
I’d say they’re monkeying around with it, he said. I’d say one of them is trying to learn how it works.
Maybe they’re not all scared of the sea, I said. Maybe when they learn to do what you do, they won’t like you
so much.
He watched for a while. I could see he wasn’t too happy with people touching what belonged to him. Ironic, that.
They’re all scared of something, he said. It’s how they work.
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bsp; How many of them are there? I said.
Now you want to talk, he said.
I watched his back.
I’ll trade you, I said. I’ll tell you how I got here if you tell me about them.
He turned and looked at me.
I want to know about them, I said.
You don’t, he said. Really you don’t. It won’t make you happy.
I’m already not happy, I said. I haven’t met many people. I’m interested. I was told there was no one left living on the mainland.
And if you found there were other things you were told that aren’t quite true, you’d be even more unhappy, he said.
No, I said. I’d be less ignorant.
You want to know about them because you’re planning something, he said. And it’s pointless. Just wait. What’s going to happen will happen.
How many are there? I said.
You don’t give up, do you? he said, and sat back down on the concrete ledge.
No, I said. Not really.
I think there are nine, he said. But they keep some of them away in another locked place.
A bunker like this? I said.
No, he said. Not like a prison cell. Like a private area. Behind a fence.
If there aren’t any people left in the world, who are they trying to keep out? I said. They can’t have built a fence just for you.
It’s not to stop people getting in, he said. It’s to stop them getting out. I think.
Why? I said.
It didn’t make any sense to me. It’s not like there were so many loose people on the planet that you could waste any useful bodies by locking them away.
Because that’s where they protect the breeders, he said. That’s where they keep the girls and the women.
Breeders? I said.
Their word, he said. Not mine.
I felt a coldness in my gut. It made me feel a little sick. I sat down and looked at my feet until it passed.
I guess I was wrong. They weren’t wasting any useful
bodies.
I felt his eyes on the back of my neck.
Feeling happier yet? he said.
You said they were great traders, I said. What do they like to trade?
People, Griz, he said, and there was a kind of sadness in his voice, as if he were telling me this for the second time, as if it is something I should have gathered from what he had already told me. They like to trade for people. Especially girls.
And then he made me tell him about the first part of my journey, chasing him from the chapel to the pier where he’d burned the Sweethope. I told him the bare bones, and though it was the last thing I wanted to do I did it for two reasons. Firstly because he refused to tell me more until we’d “traded”. And secondly as I remembered and spoke about it, I was able to take my mind off what he had told me.
I stopped my story at the point he’d burned my boat, and told him it was his turn. And in this way he gave me the story of the Cons, and I told him about my journey south across the mainland. I didn’t tell him about the wolves or about John Dark. I don’t expect he told me everything about the Cons either, but in the give and take of it all, this is what he told me.
As far as he knew, the Cons were the only people left living on the mainland. They were the largest group he’d come across on his travels. They believed their mission was to repopulate the world, as he had told me. And they believed the mission was so important that it justified them in doing things that were not good. Brand thought that if there had been more of them they might have gone raiding and rounded up entire families, bringing them back to what they called the Conservatory, forcing them to live and work there like slaves. But thankfully there weren’t enough of them to do that, so instead they did something else. The ones who could sail went on journeys, and when they found families they would offer to trade. No one normal would trade a child, but they always offered because they saw themselves as good people doing a good thing, even if others didn’t understand it. Then they would come back, preferably in the dark, and steal the child if they could and disappear over the horizon before dawn. It was a theft, but it was for the greater good. That’s how they justified it.
And then their sailors had set off and never come back. Maybe the storm Brand talked about is what got them. I thought it was just as likely they’d tried to steal a child from the wrong family, and had been caught and dealt with. That was a happier ending, to my way of thinking.
After that, the Cons had stayed home, fearful of venturing further to sea than was necessary to fish the shallow waters around them for food. Instead they relied on what Brand called Sea Tinkers. He was one, he said, and he knew of two others, though had only met one of them. People like him, moving back and forth across the waters, looking, trading, restless, yet always happy to barter stuff they’d found for food or other things they couldn’t find on their own. Like companionship.
Companionship sounded like a word loaded with more than one meaning. I didn’t push it, and he glided past.
The Cons had a supply of pre-Gelding medicines that still miraculously seemed to work for the most part. That was valuable and worth trading almost anything for. They also grew a plant that could be smoked or cooked with, which made the world lighter and eased pain and worry for a while. They told the Sea Tinkers they wanted girls for their mission, and would pay well for them. They didn’t mind if it was trade or theft that brought them to the Conservatory, and they tried to smooth everybody’s conscience by pointing out how well looked after the girls were. Treated like family.
Brand saw my face.
I know, he said. And for what it’s worth, Griz, I never took them up on the offer. But I know at least one of the other Tinkers did. And you know what the worst thing about all this is?
Right now, it sounds like a long list of things, I said.
He nodded.
The worst thing is that the Cons still think they’re good people.
And then we heard a noise outside the window and got up to look at what was coming.
It’s food, he said. They’ll feed us well. You’ll see.
There were three of them. I recognised one from his gas mask, but the others were new. One was wearing a different kind of gas mask; the other had a scarf across the face and a pair of goggles.
They had old plastic baskets on the end of long poles. They came close enough to push the baskets against the bars of the window and then moved away fast, as if even touching the building we were in with the end of a long stick was potentially dangerous.
How are you feeling? shouted the man I recognised.
Fit as a fiddle, shouted Brand. He made his voice light and cheery, as though he had not a care in the world.
I hope you stay that way, shouted the man, like he was a friend.
Well, we’ll know soon enough, said the other. He didn’t sound as if he liked Brand as much as the other. Tomorrow night’s the inspection.
That reminds me, said Brand. Would you be kind enough to bring me my fiddle from the boat? It’s at the foot of my bunk. Black case, you can’t miss it.
We’ll bring it later, said the friendlier man. And look forward to hearing it.
Well, said Brand, we can at least share music without fear of infection.
Indeed, said the man.
Oh, said Brand, just one thing… who is monkeying around with the sails on my boat?
Oh, said the man. That’s Tertia. She just wants to see how it works. I can tell her to stop if you like.
That’d be good, said Brand. My boat is my home. I would not like it broken.
Of course, said the man. She’s too inquisitive for her own good anyway. But she’s doing a fine job of looking after your dogs.
Thank her for me, said Brand, glancing quickly at me.
They walked away and Brand, who was taller, reached out and brought the food and the water inside.
I won’t have people jiggering around with my boat like that, he said.
Tertia, I said. N
ever heard a name like that.
It’s old language, he said. A number. They use numbers to name themselves.
Why? I said.
I told you, he said. They like the past. That’s why they’ll do anything to make it happen again. But I reckon giving you a number instead of a proper name makes people feel they’re things, not people, if you ask me. That one speaking is Quintus. Means five.
What does Tertia mean? I said.
He shrugged.
I don’t know, he said with a shrug. Four? Three? Doesn’t matter. The women’s and girls’ number names end in an a. That I do know.
He looked at me.
What’s the inspection? I said.
Oh, it’s nothing, he said. They just stand and look at us and see if we’ve got boils yet, to see if we’re infected.
Where? I said.
Over there, he said, pointing to the bars at the end of the passage. We just stand there, turn around, show our armpits and our crotches. It’s no big thing. They do it every night.
So we have to take our clothes off? I said.
Yes, he said, but they don’t prod you around or anything. They just stand back and have a good look to make sure. Now cheer up. Let’s eat. The food’s good, and everything looks better on a full stomach. They’re not going to poison you.
Chapter 33
The truth will set you free (and other lies)
Some poison goes in by the mouth. Other poisons go in at the ear.
And Brand was always a good talker, able to sweeten his words with a grin or a joke to make you miss the tell-tale taste of something that was going to eat you up from the inside later on.
The food was good: bread, potatoes, some green leaf that was pleasantly bitter and mutton—salt marsh mutton, he said. You could taste the sharp tang of the sea in the meat, as well as an underlying sweetness. It tasted a bit like the sheep did at home, and for a moment I went back there in my head, wondering what they were eating and what they were talking about as they sat round the table. And even though Mum would not be joining in the conversation, I had such a pang of longing just to be next to her and holding her hand by the fire that I stopped eating.
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