by Karen Deen
My first step and it happens.
Fluid runs down my legs and a pain grabs me in the lower stomach and across my back.
My eyes meet my husband’s.
“Kane,” I plead to him quietly. All my sassy is gone, now pure fear in my voice.
“I’ve got you, baby. I’ve always got you.”
Everything around me is now moving fast-paced and all I can concentrate on is the pain and his voice. Trying to keep me calm.
“Remember to lean on me, baby, that’s our rule. I will protect you and our little one. I’ve got you.”
No matter the pain, my heart flutters.
This is my life.
Kane
I don’t even remember many details of the trip in the car to the hospital.
Xavier drove. Alesha talked non-stop.
Lilly screamed…loud…a lot.
The labor’s quick, and by the time we arrive on the ward it’s time for our baby to be born.
The nurses laugh at Lilly screaming at me with every swear word she can remember. Smacking my arm. Punching my chest with clenched fists and digging her nails in so hard she’s drawing blood. I don’t give a fuck what she needs to do as long as she and our baby are safe. I need this over. It’s starting to stress me out. I hate when I can’t fix things for her. I told her I’d always fix it.
“Here comes the head, that’s it, one big push, Lilly,” the doctor tells her.
“Kane, I can’t do…” She’s busy screaming when we hear the first cry of our little one. Lilly stops making noise and we both look at each other in awe of what has happened.
“We have a very loud, healthy little girl. Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Boston,” the doctor announces. We both start crying as I’m kissing Lilly, trying to tell her how much I love her and how proud I am of her. They place our perfect little girl on Lilly’s chest. Covered in muck, blood and all squished up. She is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen besides her mom who will always be the love of my life.
“Look at her, Kane, our little girl, just look at her,” Lilly says between tears of happiness.
“I love both of you, my Boston girls. I will always protect you both and keep you safe. That is my new rule.” We both have our little girl wrapped in our arms and take this moment to enjoy that first time of being a family. How could I have ever thought I should give up this chance. Thank goodness for Lilly who brought me the light.
After a few hours, the three of us are enjoying the quiet time in the hospital room, just staring at our little miracle. Lilly starts to drift off to sleep so I take my daughter and stand looking out the window at the city just holding her tight and having a little talk just the two of us.
“I promise you, just like I promised your mom. Every day I will protect you and will do my best to come home again to you, every night.
“I can’t promise you tomorrow, but I will give you everything of me today.
“I love you, Alina Lilly Boston, more than I know how to handle in words, but I will never stop showing you.”
THE END
Table of Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
EPILOGUE
