by BJ Harvey
“I would never do something because I thought you’d expect it. I didn’t even do it to sweeten you up.” His cheeks blush, and by God, it’s endearing. “I went to the florist and looked through all of the bouquets until I saw that one. It was all yellows and reds and it smelt like summer. It was you,” he says. We pull to a stop at a red light, and when he turns toward me and our eyes meet, his face softens. “God, you’re beautiful when I say something you like.”
“I look different?”
“Your features go soft and you take my goddamn breath away.”
Oh, fuck. Woman down.
“You know what I’d really like?” I flex my fingers on his thigh. We sit there, staring at each other. I match my breathing to his, and the air turns thick. He quirks a brow.
“S.E.X,” I whisper.
He chuckles and shakes his head, squeezing my hand and returning his attention to the road as the light turns green. “No can do, Barbie. We’ve got places to see and things to do.”
“What about people to do and places to do it?” I watch a sexy smirk curve his lips.
“So not going there while I’m driving. I’m already hard and you being so close, thinking about me when you’re all I can think about, is making it near impossible to concentrate on anything other than kissing and doing other things that aren’t on the schedule today.”
“Schedules should be flexible,” I say, leaning closer to whisper, “just like I am.”
“Fuuuck,” he curses, banging the back of his head on his seat a few times.
I sit up straight, deciding he’s had enough torture for one car trip. “Okay. Let’s talk about something else other than sex, kissing, the way I smell, and how flexible I am.”
“Not helping.”
“Okay. How’s the studio design going? Are we getting closer to painting?”
His brows lift. “I told you I would take care of that room we messed up,” he says, reminding me of that mind-blowing gesture and even better afternoon. The photos I took came out even better than I could have imagined, and Jax has given me permission to use whichever ones I want. Thankfully none of them show our faces but that makes them all the more intimate. I’ve done a few different studio shoots with a bunch of random models since starting Jax’s course, but that one will forever be a firm favorite.
“I know. But I love painting,” I say. He quirks a brow, his lips tipping up. “I definitely enjoyed that kind of painting, but I mean it. I’d love to help you guys wherever I can. I change my color scheme in my condo at least once a year.”
“I like your condo. It’s you.”
“It’s very me. But different colors give me inspiration, so when the mood strikes, I change it up.”
“You want to help me pick colors for the pink lady?”
“Oh my God, are you serious? I’d love that. We could do blue–greys downstairs and move lighter upstairs. Then there are the bathrooms, where we could. . .”
Jax starts laughing. At first, it’s a chuckle, but the more I get lost in all the options and color combinations, the more he loses it.
“What?” I ask.
“So fucking cute,” he murmurs, flicking the turning signal and driving into a parking garage wedged between two city buildings.
He parks the truck and turns the engine off, then spins in his seat to face me. “Come here,” he says, reaching over and releasing my seat belt before grabbing my hip and sliding me closer. Then my face is in his hands, and he’s brushing his lips against mine in barely-there touches before opening his mouth and caressing my tongue as he deepens the connection. It’s a slow-burn kiss, one that I feel warming me up from the tips of my toes all the way through my body.
When we finally pull apart, the windows are starting to fog up and Jax’s eyes are blown. “We need to get out of here before we give the security cameras a good show.”
I pout and he grins, but I know he’s right.
“Okay then,” I say, moving back and putting some much-needed distance between us. “Where are we going?”
“Circus school,” he says, like that’s an everyday activity.
My eyes go wide. “Say what now?”
He chuckles. “There’s a company that does circus classes and training, and they have a taster session on Sundays for anyone who wants to come along and give it a go.”
“Okay…”
“And they have silks. I remember you mentioned you had always wanted to have a go on them.”
I smile at him, biting my lip as a lump grows in my throat. I reach up and rest my palm against his jaw. “Those silks take years of practice and a lot more flexibility than I have, but I can’t wait to have a look. Thank you.”
He leans into my hand. “You’re welcome. I told you, I like putting that look on your face. The look that says you really, really like me.”
I nod, my lips stuck in a permanent beaming smile. “That’s because I really, really do.”
“Good. And hopefully after today, you’ll never forget it.” He leans forward, giving me a hard and fast kiss before letting me go and reaching for the door handle. “Now, let’s get going. Who knows? Maybe I can go to clown school if this photography/teaching/house-flipping gig doesn’t work out.”
I giggle. “I think you’d make a great clown. You’re already halfway there.”
His head jerks back. “How?”
I nod down to his shoes. “Big feet.” My smile is lascivious, and his eyes dance at the implication.
“Well I am the bigger twin, remember?” He closes the door and rounds the back of the truck to help me out of the passenger side. I’m still laughing when he reaches me.
Two hours later, you can’t wipe the grin off my face, and if his look of stunned wonder is anything to go by, Jax has a new appreciation for circus arts.
If I was excited about our day date before, I’m buzzing now. “What’s next?” I ask, walking hand in hand down the street towards the parking garage.
He glances my way, his lips twitching. “I’m not sure I can top that now.”
“There are plenty of ways you can top that.”
He drops his head and groans, moving our joined hands to my hip and pushing me up against a building. He crushes his mouth to mine and kisses the life out of me. I’m in a haze when we finally pull apart, his eyes full of heat when they meet mine.
“Are you hungry? I thought we could take a walk and get a hot dog in Millennium Park.”
“That sounds perfect.” I thread my fingers into his hair and tug his face down, giving him a soft, slow kiss this time. “Lead the way.”
Thirty minutes later, we’re standing by the Bean, having just demolished a classic Chicago hot dog each while watching swarms of tourists walking around and under it, cell phones in hand, in selfie heaven.
I pull my phone out of my purse. “I want to take a photo with you,” I say, shaking my phone in front of him.
He screws his nose up. “Not exactly the kind of equipment a professor of photography should be encouraging a student to use.”
I shoulder bump him. “C’mon. You’re not my professor today. Unless you want to role-play later, of course,” I say, loud enough to earn a gasp from a middle-aged woman I knew would be eavesdropping. “But only if you bring that hard wooden ruler again. That leaves a mar—”
He covers my mouth, his eyes wide as he shakes his head. “I’m starting to think you don’t know how to behave in public.”
“You have no idea how bad I can be.”
A sexy smile curves his lips. “I look forward to many years of finding out.”
Straight out. No second-guessing. Not a sliver of doubt in his expression when he says it. Years.
God, I’m totally head over heels for Jaxon Cook.
One year, ten weeks after first laying eyes on him. Ten weeks, one day since I laid a trail of breadcrumbs and hoped he’d follow my lead. Six weeks of surprises—him—and chasing—him again—and I can�
��t even try to play hard to get because it’s taking everything I have not to give myself up to this.
He doesn’t have to work hard because he’s already in so far in there I don’t ever want him to get out.
“Ronnie?” he asks, knocking me from my thoughts. “You disappeared on me again.”
I run a hand over his shoulder and bring it to rest on the back of his neck. I meet his amber eyes and decide then and there I want to spend a lifetime looking into them. I want to make babies with his eyes so I can spend a lifetime looking at them too.
I want it all, and I want it all with this man.
“This may freak you out, but I vowed to live my life with no regrets.” I lift up on my toes to bring us closer. I quickly flick my cell camera on and hold it up between us.
He looks to the camera, scrunching his brows together in adorable confusion. “What is it, beautiful?”
I take a deep breath and on the exhale, I say my truth. “I’ve fallen in love with you,” I whisper, pressing my thumb down to snap photo after photo of his wide eyes, his parted lips, and then the hungry kiss he gives me after the words leave my mouth.
It’s the best kiss of my life, so good I’m forced to wrap my arm around his back to stay standing. When he lets me up for air, he drops his forehead to mine and we stand there, just breathing each other in.
“I love you too. It’s crazy, it’s fast, but it’s so damn true.”
I kiss him again. This time, it’s soft and slow and full of meaning.
Then he jerks his head back and quirks a brow. “Did you just take photos of my reaction?”
“Yep,” I say, beaming up at him.
“You’re one of a kind.”
“I know. And so are you.”
He tilts his head. “Why’s that?”
“Because I could never fall in love with someone who wasn’t.”
He bites his lip, his eyes so warm and bright. “Ronnie. . .”
“Now can we take a photo with the Bean?”
He nods, shooting me what can only be described as a panty-melting grin. “Only if I can do it while kissing you. Fair’s fair.”
I hand him my phone without a second thought. “Deal.”
Suffice to say, Jax’s plans for the rest of the afternoon are all but forgotten. His promise was to only be inside me again once he knew he’d won the chase. Which leaves only one question left to be asked, which I do as soon as we’re sitting back in the truck.
“Your place or mine?” I ask.
“But we still have a few things left to do on our date.”
“I have one thing I want to do and that’s you. So, your place or mine?” I ask, leaving no doubt in my determination to end the date early. “You’ve definitely won the chase. Now it’s time to claim your prize.”
“Your place it is.”
Ronnie
We hold hands the entire drive back to my condo. I didn’t dare start something in the truck. I’m so on edge, I’m likely to spontaneously combust, and if I’m reading Jax’s body language correctly, he’s struggling too. So much has led us to this moment and now that it’s here—now that we’re actually going to do this—I’m kind of nervous. I’ve never had sex with a man I’m in love with. Is it different? Does it feel different? I’ve had good sex, bad sex, and absolutely regrettable sex, and then there was the one time I had absolutely unforgettable, mind-blowing, life-altering sex with Jax… will it be just as good this time? What if we’ve built it up for so long, denying ourselves for a big, giant over-anticipated disappointment?
I fell in love with Jax without sex clouding my judgment. Now, I’m worried about everything and nothing and overthinking it.
Is performance anxiety a thing for women? Shit. Maybe it is. I read an article once about anxiety manifesting itself in your pelvic-floor muscles. What if mine clamp shut and refuse to let me even have sex? All this waiting would’ve been in vain.
“Ronnie?”
I slowly turn my head toward the man of the hour.
“You’ve gotta stop spacing out on me. It gives me a complex,” he says with a gentle grin.
“Sorry, just being a typical woman. Overthinking stuff and scenarios and wasted opportunities.”
His brows bunch together. “Care to unravel that for me?”
“Here?”
“Why not?”
“Now?” I squeak.
He gives my hand a squeeze, not breaking eye contact. “Yeah, beautiful. Because I have a feeling once we get inside, there won’t be much talking going on. You’re wound up so tight, I’m scared you’re going to explode into a million tiny pieces.” He lifts his fingers to run down my face. “I’d kind of like you whole. I have lots of plans.”
I lean toward him, gliding my hand up his arm to wrap around his neck. “What kind of plans?”
He shifts back so my hand slips down. “Plans I’ll tell you about after you explain what you’re overthinking and why?”
I cross my arms over my chest with a huff, pouting and looking at his gorgeous profile. He quirks a brow but doesn’t budge. Dammit.
“I was just having a freak-out over what happens if the sex we’re about to have is bad.”
He shoots me a questioning look. “Was it bad the first time?”
“Well, no…”
“And that morning when you seduced me and we ended up—”
“Hell no. That was hot.”
His mouth quirks up. His hand comes to rest on the top of my leg, his fingers stretched out over the inside of my denim-covered thigh. “So… do you think, after all this time, and with you turning me on at just the thought of getting you naked and underneath me again, that there’s even a chance it will be anything other than mind-blowing?”
I bite my lip, my breathing faster now. “You’re not worried?”
“The only thing bugging me is why we’re still sitting in my truck and not naked in your bed?” His eyes flash with so much heat, I’m surprised I’m not scorched here and now.
“Then what are we waiting for?” I ask, my breath hitching when his fingers curve in and glide between my legs.
His other hand curves over my hip and slides me across the seat so he can cup me, his mouth going to my neck. He presses his lips to my sensitive skin and bites; my head dropping back as a low moan escapes me. He can mark me head to toe if he wants, I’m his completely now. Moving to my ear, he sucks the lobe between his teeth before whispering, “I think I’ll make you come on the floor just inside your condo. Then I’ll lay you out on the kitchen counter and taste you all over again…” He groans against my skin as my palm finds the straining bulge in his jeans. “Then I’m chaining you to the bed until we both get our fill.”
I drag a hand through his hair and jerk his mouth to mine, meeting his hooded gaze. “Promise?”
“You bet your ass.”
I grin against his lips. “Plenty of time for that later.”
“Upstairs. Now,” he growls, and I feel it right down in my toes and everywhere in between.
Then we’re moving, jumping out of the truck and near-on running up the path to the front door of my building.
He presses me up against the elevator wall as soon as we’re inside. With a groan, he’s kissing the life out of me with his hand toying between my legs when we reach my floor.
I struggle to get the key in my lock when we reach my apartment. He’s hard and heavy behind me, groaning against my neck as he grinds himself against my hips.
I sigh and sag into him when he takes over, opening the door and walking me through it. As soon as we’re closed off from the outside world, the air turns electric.
I spin around to face him, throwing my purse in the direction of the couch but not looking—or caring—if it lands. Instead, my hands go to the hem of my tee. Jax nods and I cross my arms and ease the piece of clothing over my head before meeting his eyes and letting the top slip from my fingers to the floor.
“That’s a good start,” he rasps, stalking me slowly.
“Your turn,” I smirk, toying with the waistband of my jeans.
“I believe I had plans for when we got inside.”
“My plans are flexible.” I turn around and rip my jeans off before bending over, taking my time to untie my sneakers and pull them and my socks off. His hips meet mine from behind, his hands gliding up the side of my legs, lifting the fabric with them. He roams the bare skin of my ass cheeks, a finger hooking under my thong at each side and dragging it down achingly slowly until it drops at my feet.
I move to straighten.
Jax’s flattened palm in the middle of my back halts me. “Stay like that. Stay just like that and spread your legs a little.”
My breath quickens as I follow his command, stopping completely when he shifts and his tongue trails a line up the inside of my thigh. Then warm air rushes over my center and his mouth is there, his lips covering me, his tongue flicking over the engorged nub with a dedication women dream about.
I reach an arm out, grabbing hold of the back of my couch and gripping it tight as he relentlessly devours me, one hand moving in. He spears me with first one finger, then two. The sounds coming out of my mouth are wanton and desperate. It’s been far too long since I’ve felt Jax’s mouth on me. Definitely too long since I’ve had an orgasm at the hands of someone other than myself. Luckily for me, the star of my flick reel is the leading man ravaging me right now.
“Jax…” I moan, my fingers biting into his scalp as I grip his head and rock my hips against his hungry mouth.
“Get there, beautiful,” he mumbles against my skin. His heavy breathing and my strained whimpers are joined by the sound of a zipper being pulled and a low growl that vibrates my clit as Jax rocks back and forth. I don’t need to see to know he’s stroking himself.
