by Martin Amis
I said uneasily, ‘There’s no second front yet. And the Allies might bust up with Moscow. And, Boris, don’t forget we’re making wonder weapons.’
‘So are they. With our scientists. Let me give you a little lesson on war, Golo. Rule number one: never invade Russia. All right, we kill five million and take five million prisoner, and starve to death another thirty million. That still leaves a hundred and twenty-five million.’
‘Quieten down, Boris. Have some alcohol. You’re too sober.’
‘Not till afterwards. Listen. Even if you raze Leningrad and Moscow, then what? You’ll have a boiling insurgency right down the length of the Urals for ever and ever. How do you pacify Siberia? Which is the size of eight Europes.’
‘Come on, we did it last time – invaded Russia.’
‘Not comparable. That was an old-style cabinet war against a dying regime. This is a war of pillage and murder. See, Golo, the Red Army’s now just the vanguard. Every Russian will fight, every woman, every child . . . Until October, until Kiev, I thought murder-war was winning. I thought massacre could do the impossible.’ He passed a hand over his face, and gave a wondering frown. ‘I thought night was winning, Golo. I thought night would win and then we’d see.’
I said, ‘And then we’d see what? . . . Well I’ll have another finger or two, if I may.’
He appraised me with a friendly sneer. ‘Mm. I suppose you can’t wait to be breathing the same air as Hannah . . . Take that look off your face, Golo.’
‘I only do it when I’m with you.’
‘Well only do it when you’re by yourself. As I told you, it’s absolutely nauseating.’
In our greatcoats we hurried down Cherry Street, heading for the motor pool. In the middle distance the new Topf crematories, I and II (there would soon be III and IV), were being test-fired. How did the flames force their way up those towering funnels and come sprouting out into the black sky?
‘An unsympathetic observer’, said Boris with his teeth clacking in brief spasms, ‘might find all this rather reprehensible.’
‘Yes. Could make it look quite bad.’
‘Ooh, we’ve got to fight like very devils now. We’ll need all the victors’ justice we can get. And they’ve got me here rotting with the fucking Viennese.’
Cherry Street forked left and became Camp Street.
‘Prepare yourself, Golo. Esther Kubis. This afternoon I gave her a long lecture. And she heard me out and said, I’m going to punish you tonight. Why, Esther, why?’
‘She’s got very intransigent eyes. And she does have her grievance.’
‘You know what’ll happen, don’t you, if she’s thought to have failed? Half an hour later, she’ll be flogged to death by Ilse Grese. That’s what.’
I contemplated the hooded sidecar, and prepared myself for a freezing and deafening half-hour . . . The war is lost. This had momentarily sickened me – because for the last week at Buna I had been a witness to the ferocious innovations of Rupprecht Strunck. But now I stiffened. Yes, it was necessary to go too far, to overfulfil and superabound – anything, anything and everything, to make sure that night wouldn’t win.
‘In you get then,’ said Boris as he straddled the driver’s seat. Before attaching his goggles he took one last look at the skyscraping beacon of the firestack. ‘It’s all France. None of this would be happening if it wasn’t for France. It’s all France.’
The subcamp of Furstengrube was famous, hereabouts, not only for the self-defeating lethality of its coal mines (where the average slave lasted less than a month), but also for the venerable tonnage of its theatre (in contrast to the fabricated Playhouse at Kat Zet I). It was a churchy redbrick rotunda with a squat black dome – requisitioned from the town for our exclusive use in the summer of 1940.
We milled about in the courtyard, officers, noncoms, privates, chemists, architects, engineers (all of us with metre-long plumes of vapour billowing from our mouths), and then gradually filtered up the steps and through the oak portal. Within, the soft reddish light had the damp sheen of gauze and worn silk; and it bore me off on a kind of memory cascade – Saturday-morning pictures in Berlin (me and Boris all bright-eyed and innocent and clutching our sweets), amateur theatricals in titivated town halls, sore-lipped necking sessions that lasted the length of whole double bills (plus newsreel) in the rear seats of provincial cinemas . . .
In the foyer I checked our coats, and by the time I caught up with Boris in the murmuring auditorium he was crooked over Ilse Grese, who had installed herself near the centre of the front row. As I approached he was archly saying,
‘Everyone knows the uh, the nickname or title they have for you here, Ilse. And I’m sorry but I think it’s slightly malapropos. Half of it’s all right. Half of it’s dead on.’ Boris turned to me and said, ‘You know what they call her? The Beautiful Beast.’
I found I was gazing at Ilse with all the freshness of discovery: the strong legs mannishly wide-planted, the hefty trunk in a black serge uniform gullibly studded with signs and symbols – lightning flash, eagle, broken cross. And I had kissed those crinkly lips, and sought favour from the voids of those borehole eyes . . .
She said tightly, ‘Which half, Hauptsturmfuhrer?’
‘Why, the adjective, of course. The noun I angrily repudiate. You know, Ilse, I would go before a court of law and argue under oath that you’re basically humane.’
A spotlight was roaming over the blue velvet curtain. ‘It’s filling up,’ I said.
‘In a minute. Ilse,’ he said intently. ‘An investigator here from Berlin told me you set your dogs on a Greek girl in the woods, just because she wandered off and fell asleep in a hollow. And you know what I did? I laughed in his face. Not Ilse, I said. Not my Ilse. Good evening to you, Oberaufseherin.’
A cracked electric bell was distantly sounding when they entered – the Commandant and his wife. He too was in dress uniform (with a rack of medals), and she wore a . . . But Hannah was already in shadow, and now was lost in darkness.
First, the cobbled-together chamber orchestra (two violins, guitar, flute, mandolin, accordion), and a lengthy ‘medley’ intended to appeal to the softer side of the praetorian heart (early Strauss, Peter Kreuder, Franz von Suppé). The stage cleared, darkened, and the players regrouped. Lights. There followed an hour-long operetta based on The Sorrows of Young Werther, the Goethe novella so beguilingly forlorn that it provoked an avalanche of suicides, not just in Germany but throughout Europe: the anomic hero in the bucolic village, the orphaned lass, the doomed love (for she is betrothed to another), the self-inflicted pistol wound, the slow death . . .
Curtain, and judicious applause, and silence.
An SS sergeant not yet in his twenties, tall, thin, fair, pale, and chinless, mounted a little spotlit dais and for the next forty-five minutes recited memorised verse, his face and voice grimly or gaily reenacting all the emotions that the poets had in fact mastered and formalised; while he spoke I could hear much thumping and wheeling and whispering from backstage (as well as Boris’s heaving and swearing). The Unterscharfuhrer’s chosen writers were Schiller, Holderlin, and, bizarrely and ignorantly, Heinrich Heine. It was an ignorance his listeners shared; the handclaps, when they came, were weary and scanty, but not because Heine was Jewish.
During the brief intermission Paul Doll took an apparently sober but curiously wobbly stroll in the theatre’s chancel, head back, lips out, and with his nose twitching censoriously as if verifying a smell . . .
The lights dimmed, the audience stopped muttering (and started coughing), and the curtains drew slowly asunder.
In a parched and childish voice Boris said, ‘There Esther is at last . . .’
It was the middle act of a ballet I had seen before, Coppelia (music by Delibes).
A magician’s lush workshop: scrolls, potions, wands, broomsticks (and the two violinists, dressed as clowns, one in each far corner). Old Dr Coppelius – played with restrained agility by Hedwig in frockcoat and grey peruke
– was preparing to animate his life-size marionette. Surrounded by lesser dolls and dummies (half completed or partly dismembered), Esther sat rigid on a straight-backed chair, immaculate in tutu, spangled white tights, and bright pink slippers, reading a book (the wrong way up: Coppelius corrected her). She stared downwards sightlessly.
Now the wizard began casting his spell, with flinging gestures of the hands, as if freeing them of moisture . . . Nothing happened. He tried again, and again, and again. Suddenly she twitched; very suddenly she jumped up, and threw the book aside. Blinking, compulsively shrugging, and noisily flat-footed (and often falling over backwards like a plank into Hedwig’s waiting arms), Esther clumped about the stage: a miracle of the uncoordinated, now flopsy, now robotic, with every limb hating every other limb. And comically, painfully ugly. The violins kept on urging and coaxing, but she swooned and swaggered on.
Probably nobody could have said how long it lasted, in non-subjective time, so vehement was the assault on the senses. It seemed, at any rate, as if the whole of January was coming and going. We reached the point where Hedwig – after a final few thrusting flutters of her fingers – simply gave up, and stopped acting; she put her hands on her hips and turned to her mentor in the front row, who was tipping forward in her seat. Coppelia clockworked madly on.
Boris gasped, ‘Oh, enough . . .’
Enough. It was enough. Now the charm took hold, the glamour took hold, the magic turned from black to white, the scowl of inanition became a willed but still blissful smile, and she was off and away, she was born and living and free. On her first tour jeté, not so much a leap as an upward glide – even at its zenith all her sinews shivered, as if trying, needing to fly even higher. The audience warmed and murmured; but I was asking myself why her movements, whose liquidity now caressed the eyes, seemed no easier to bear.
A wet snort exploded to my left; Boris was on his feet and heading for the exit, bent almost double with his arm raised to his face.
Very early the next morning, he and I crept drunkenly to Cracow in a Steyr 220. Up ahead, thanks to the Schutzstaffel’s gift for Organisation, we had a Last-Kraft-Wagen carefully leaking sand and salt into our path. We hadn’t slept.
Boris said, ‘I’ve just realised. She was apeing the slaves. And the guards.’
‘Was that it?’
‘Staggering, strutting, staggering, strutting . . . And later, when she really danced. What was the accusation? What was she expressing?’
I eventually said, ‘Her right to freedom.’
‘. . . Mm, even more basic than that. Her right to life. Her right to love and life.’
As we climbed from the car Boris said, ‘Golo. If Uncle Martin fucks about, I’ll’ve already gone east when you get back. But I’ll fight for you, brother. I’ll have to.’
‘How’s that?’
‘In the event of defeat,’ he said, ‘no one’ll think you’re good-looking any more.’
I held him close with my hand on his hair.
At the post-performance reception, standing in a group with Mobius, Zulz, the Eikels, the Uhls, and others, Hannah and I exchanged two sentences.
I said to her, I might have to go on to Munich and look in the files at the Brown House.
She said to me, nodding in the direction of Paul Doll (who was in marked disarray), Er ist jetzt vollig verruckt.
Boris, looking utterly beaten, sat at a table with a carafe of gin; Ilse was stroking his forearm and ducking her head down to smile up at him. At the end of the room Doll suddenly wheeled and started back towards us.
He is now completely mad.
I got in around midnight; and from the Ostbahnhof I groped my way through the chilled and blackened city (other people were just shadows and footsteps) to the Budapesterstrasse and the Hotel Eden.
2. DOLL: KNOW YOUR ENEMY
Cracked it!
. . . Solved it, grasped it, fathomed it, unravelled it. Cracked it!
Oh, this brain-twister cost me many, many nights of concerted cunning (I could hear myself lightly panting with guile), down in my ‘lair’ – as, fortified by the choicest libations, your humble servant, the stubborn Sturmbannfuhrer, outfaced the witching hour and the hours beyond! And, just minutes ago, illumination and then warmth came flooding in with the first lambent beams of morning . . .
Dieter Kruger lives. And I’m glad. Dieter Kruger lives. My hold on Hannah is restored. Dieter Kruger lives.
Today I shall call in a favour, and seek official confirmation – from the man who, they say, is the 3rd most powerful in the Reich. It’s just a formality, of course. I know my Hannah and I know her Sexualitat. When she read that letter in the locked bathroom – it wasn’t the thought of Thomsen that made her Busen ache. No, she likes real men, men with a bit of sweat and stubble, a bit of fart and armpit on them. Like Kruger – and like myself. It wasn’t Thomsen.
It was Kruger. Cracked it. Kruger lives. And now I can go back to my old MO: threatening to kill him.
And when at last the harsh smell of cordite dispersed, I wrote on the lined notepad, 14 warrior-poets lay sprawled in the . . .
‘Oh what d’you want, Paulette?’ I said. ‘I’m composing an extremely important speech. And by the way you’re too short and fat for that smock.’
‘. . . It’s Meinrad, Vati. Mami says you’ve got to come and look. He’s got all this goo coming out of his nose.’
‘Ach. Meinrad.’
. . . Meinrad is a 1-trick pony and no mistake. First mange, then blister-beetle poisoning. And what’s his latest stunt? Glanders.
On the credit side, this means that Alisz Seisser’s Sunday visits – the nutritious lunches, the leisurely ‘soaks’ – are becoming a family tradition!
It’s not enough that a chap should be constantly traduced and provoked in his own home. Certain people have seen fit to call into question my professional correctitude and integrity if you don’t bloody well mind . . .
In the office at the MAB I received a delegation of medical men – Professor Zulz, of course, and also Professor Entress, plus doctors Rauke and Bodman. Their gist? According to them I’ve got ‘worse’ at deceiving the transports.
‘How d’you mean, worse?’
‘You don’t deceive them any more,’ said Zulz. ‘Well you don’t, do you Paul. There are very unpleasant scenes nearly every time.’
‘And that’s all my fault, is it?’
‘Keep your hair on, Kommandant. Hear us out at least . . . Paul. Please.’
I sat there seething. ‘Very well. What, in your view, do I happen to be doing wrong?’
‘Your inductionary address. Paul, my friend, it’s . . . It’s very basic. You sound so insincere. As if you don’t believe it yourself.’
‘Well of course I don’t believe it myself,’ I said in a businesslike manner. ‘How could I? You think I’m off my head?’
‘You know what we’re getting at.’
‘. . . The business of the barrel, mein Kommandant,’ said Professor Entress. ‘Can we at least do away with that?’
‘What’s wrong with the business of the barrel?’ The barrel: this was a wheeze I dreamt up in October. Concluding my speech of welcome, I’d say, Leave your valuables with your clothing and pick them up after the shower. But if there’s anything you especially treasure and can’t afford to be without, then pop it in the barrel at the end of the ramp. I asked, ‘What’s wrong with it?’
‘It stirs unease,’ said Entress. ‘Are their valuables safe or aren’t they?’
‘Only the juvenile and the senescent fall for that 1, Kommandant,’ said Zulz. ‘All we ever find in the barrel’s a jar of blood-thinners or a teddy bear.’
‘With respect, Sturmbannfuhrer, give the megaphone to 1 of us,’ said Dr Bodman. ‘After all, we’re trained to reassure.’
‘Bedside manner, Sturmbannfuhrer,’ said Dr Rauke.
Rauke, Bodman, and Entress took their leave; Zulz ominously lingered.
‘My dear old friend,’ he said. ‘You sho
uld take a rest from the ramp. Oh, I know how dedicated you are. Go easier on yourself, Paul. I speak as a physician. As a healer.’
A healer? Ja, pull the other 1. But why did I swallow, and why did my nose itch, when he said my dear old friend?
So much for the smaller picture. On the macro scale, I’m overjoyed to report, the canvas is blindingly bright!
It’s a good time – as autumn becomes winter, and as 1943 impends – for us to ‘take stock’, to have a bit of a breather and look back on the past. We’re not all of us superhuman, not by any manner of means; and there have been moments, during this great Anstrengung of ours (like the terrifying reverse before Moscow), when I succumbed to an almost dreamlike vertigo of weakness and doubt. No longer. Ach, vindication is sweet. Wir haben also doch recht!
The Deliverer made it clear in his major oration of October 1 that the Judaeo-Bolshevik stronghold on the Volga was approximately ¾s overrun. He prophesied that the city would fall within the month; and although this proved overly optimistic, nobody doubts that the swastika will be rippling over the ruins in good time for Christmas. As to the remaining population, Hauptsturmfuhrer Uhl tells me that the women and children will be deported, and all the menfolk shot. And this decision, whilst stern, is surely correct – due tribute to the scale of the Aryan offering.
Triumphalism tempts me not in the slightest, for National Socialists never boast or crow. We unsmilingly turn, rather, to a mature assessment of the historic responsibilities. Eurasia is ours; we will purify even as we pacify, whilst also fanning out, as acknowledged suzerains, over the resistless nations of the West. I raise my glass to General Friedrich Paulus and his valiant 6th Army. All hail our ineluctable victory in the Battle of Stalingrad!
Szmul finally came up with a body count for the Spring Meadow.
‘That’s a bit steep, isn’t it?’
