by Mira Grant
I knew I was the only man in her life. It was time to make sure that she was the only woman in mine.
The bleach cycle was followed by one more rinse, and a fine citrus mist intended to keep the bleach from doing too much damage to my skin. Dr. Abbey didn’t hold with blood tests every five feet or constant monitoring of where people went once they were inside, but she kept her sterilization systems fully operational. That was essential. Bleach dried people out, and dry skin could split and crack, creating an infection risk that went way beyond Kellis-Amberlee. Without lotion and citrus sprays to rehydrate people, staph infections would have run rampant, and things would have become a lot less pleasant.
Foxy was waiting in the hall outside. Like me, she was clean and dressed in fresh clothes, with the scent of strawberries and lime hanging in the air around her. She was barefoot, and kept rocking from her heels to her toes, an anxious expression on her face. I had never seen Foxy look nervous before—not like that.
My heart sank, and somewhere on the edge of hearing, phantom laughter echoed. I swallowed, trying to moisten my suddenly dry tongue. “Hi, Foxy,” I said. My voice sounded high and strained, the voice of a man who was barely keeping it together. “What’s going on?”
“Shannon said I was supposed to come and get you, and that I should be really normal and casual about it, because she doesn’t want you to freak out,” said Foxy meekly.
“I’m not going to freak out,” I said, without pausing to think about whether or not I was lying to her. “Did she tell you why?”
Foxy shook her head.
“Did she tell you where you were supposed to take me?”
Foxy nodded.
“All right. Did she tell you whether Georgia was alive?” That was the real question: That was the only question that mattered. Because the first time George had died, I’d been in the position to avenge her. There had been people I could hit, people I could blame, and when that was over, there had been people I needed to survive for. This time…
There was no one I could hit. If Georgia was dead, Dr. Abbey hadn’t killed her; Dr. Abbey had simply failed to save her, and I wasn’t so far gone that I couldn’t understand the difference. Dr. Abbey deserved my thanks, not my vengeance. And there was no one else. All our enemies were either dead or so nebulous that I couldn’t fight them. George was the one who saw ignorance and public misunderstanding as things to battle and destroy. I needed jaws to break and noses to punch. I couldn’t do this alone. If she was dead, then I was done. I was going to turn around and walk back out the door, into the green, violent world of the woods. Kellis-Amberlee couldn’t kill me. Its creations still could.
The dead had always given me a reason to live. It was only fitting that my life should end with them.
Relief washed over Foxy’s face. “Gosh, no,” she said. “You mean your sister, right? The one who keeps having oopsies?” She fluttered her fingers near her lip, like she was miming a bloody nose. “Gosh, no, she’s not dead. I mean, she’s not fine, that would be a little untrue, since she’s really sick and all, but she’s not dead.”
I moved without thinking, sweeping Foxy into an embrace that lifted her off her feet and pinned her arms to her sides. “Oh, thank God!”
She was stiff as a board against me. I realized abruptly that I had picked up another human being without asking. I looked at her face. Her eyes were wide and glittering bright, filled with a calm, still breed of terror that I normally saw only in the very young.
“Please put me down,” she said. Her voice was level and steady. She sounded like every teacher I’d had in elementary school, prepared to tell me, at length, why roughhousing was never acceptable. “If you don’t, I’m going to cut off your balls and your thumbs and anything else that looks like it sticks out more than it strictly needs to, and I’m not going to be sorry.”
“But I’m sorry.” I lowered her back to her feet and let go. She promptly scurried backward, stopping when her shoulders hit the wall. She stayed there, watching me warily. I sighed. “Foxy, I’m really sorry. I was just so relieved that I didn’t… I shouldn’t have touched you without your permission. It won’t happen again.”
“Shannon told me about what Georgia is to you, and what you are to Georgia.” She was still using that calm, measured teacher-voice. I’d never heard her sound so lucid. Somehow, that made her seem even more frightening. “I know you’re worried about her, and I know you were probably scared that something had happened. But you don’t get to touch me. No one gets to touch me. I’m the Monkey’s girl.”
“Foxy… the Monkey’s dead. We saw him die.”
“I know. Sucks, don’t it?” The corner of her mouth twitched, like she was trying to smile. “When I’m really lucid, I know I’m no one’s property, especially not a dead man’s, and especially not a dead man who used drugs to rewire my brain so that I’d have to love him. But it doesn’t change things. He made me. He owns me. Just because I’m here and he’s not, that doesn’t make things any different. No one gets to touch me but the Monkey, and the Monkey’s never going to touch me again. Now, come on. Dr. Abbey is waiting.”
She turned and padded off down the hall. Still shaky from adrenaline, and sorry to have grabbed her the way I had, I followed.
The door to George’s treatment room was open. I stepped into the doorway and stopped, eyebrows raising at the scene in front of me. Dr. Abbey leaned against the wall, her hand resting on Joe’s head, the massive black dog leaning against her leg. A tall blonde woman sat next to the bed, talking earnestly with George—at least, she was until I entered. She stopped then, and they both turned to face me. George managed to find a smile, although it was strained, colored with pain and weariness. Dr. Kimberley didn’t bother. She just looked at me, expression neutral. She had a poker face that could have ended dynasties, and in a way, it had—it was her infiltration of the CDC that had allowed George to get out before they killed her, and without George, the EIS would never have been able to succeed in their coup.
“Shaun,” she said, after a few seconds had passed in silence. “You’re looking surprisingly well for someone who went to live in a place without reliable electricity. Have you lost weight?”
“A few pounds,” I said. “You’re looking good for a scary neuroscientist who may be working for the enemy. Dr. Abbey…?”
“Danika is here as my guest, and you’d do well to remember that I have rules against murdering my guests,” said Dr. Abbey. “They’re even written down these days.”
“That’s because of me,” said Foxy. I glanced to the side. She was slouched against the hallway wall, picking her fingernails with the point of a scalpel. I couldn’t decide whether that was intended to be a warning or a harmless fidget. There wasn’t any reason it couldn’t be both.
I looked back to Dr. Abbey. “Why didn’t you tell me she was coming?”
“Because I asked her not to,” said George. I turned to her. She looked so tired, and so small, like that bed was in the process of swallowing her alive. “Dr. Kimberley is the only person we have who really understands my neural programming. We needed to be sure it wasn’t coming undone. And if you’d known she was coming, you would have pitched a fit, and we would have wasted time trying to make you understand why this was necessary. Silence was the fastest way.”
“You’re getting way too good at lying to me,” I said. There was no heat in my words. I couldn’t be mad at her for long.
George smiled again. “Only through omission, and only when I absolutely have to. She’s here because I needed her. Can’t you play nice for that?”
“I can try,” I said.
“You’ll be glad to know that her neural programming is holding,” said Dr. Kimberley. “That was one of the primary reasons I needed to be involved.”
My George existed because the people who had cloned the original’s body had also been able to clone her brain. I wasn’t sure what would happen if the neural programming failed, but I was willing to bet that I wouldn
’t like it. “What was the other reason?”
Dr. Kimberley stood. “Why don’t you sit down?” she said.
Three
Shaun stood there for a moment like the world’s biggest lost kid, hands hanging slack at his sides and face trapped in that look of flummoxed confusion that usually came right before he punched something. Then he shuffled over to take the seat that Dr. Kimberley had abandoned. I reached out and took his hand, squeezing it with all the strength I possessed. My grip was still good: The problems ravaging my body weren’t affecting my hands. Not yet, anyway.
“Cloning is a complicated science,” said Dr. Kimberley. “Some people still think it should be impossible, for both moral and logistical reasons. It takes a human body nine months to grow in the womb, and another twenty years to finish maturing. We condense that process into the span of less than a year, using hormones and growth stimulators and yes, controlled cancerous cells. The cancer is why this sort of thing would have been impossible before Kellis-Amberlee: We need the potential and power of tumorous growth to force a cloned embryo to adulthood, but without the virus to come in and shut it down, it would result in a completely unusable outcome. That being said, there’s a lot of strain on the maturing clone body. Things our bodies did over the course of years, theirs did over the course of weeks. There’s no time to slow down, or recover, or adjust for weaknesses that might otherwise be missed.”
“What the fuck are you talking about?” demanded Shaun. I squeezed his hand and he turned to look at me, eyes bleak with terror and despair.
“Just listen, okay?” I asked. “That’s what I need you to do right now. Listen. Learn the facts, and then we can talk about them when she’s done.”
“I don’t like this,” he said.
“I don’t either,” I said. “We still need information before you get angry at the doctors who are trying to save me, all right?”
“All right,” he said, after a long pause. He squeezed my hand, and turned his attention back to Dr. Kimberley. “I’m listening.”
She smiled. Not with happiness: with resignation, and acceptance that whatever was about to be said, she was going to have to live with the consequences of having been the one to say it. I tightened my grip on Shaun’s hand. His temper was sometimes impressively bad, and he didn’t always have the best impulse control, especially where I was concerned. Alaric and Mahir had both had some really unpleasant stories about things he’d done while I was dead, mostly involving slamming people up against walls and occasionally breaking noses. I didn’t want him to punch anybody, or anything, and so I held on tight, and kept him with me. I just wanted him with me.
“Georgia’s organs were put under immense strain while she was being grown, and were further damaged by the CDC during her conditioning and preparation,” said Dr. Kimberley. “I don’t know if you’re aware, but we removed some biological time bombs from her system shortly after we removed her from CDC custody. They were based on the venom of a creature called the ‘sea wasp,’ and they both put additional pressure on her organs and left some residual traces of themselves behind. She is suffering from a condition called hyperkalemia, which means the potassium in her bloodstream is elevated. Now, normally, her kidneys would be doing most of the work to fix this. Hyperkalemia can be fatal, but it doesn’t usually get this advanced.” She stopped, looking like she wasn’t sure how to continue.
Dr. Abbey had no such qualms. “Her kidneys have basically shut down,” she said flatly. “They’re at maybe twenty percent function, and we’re having a dialysis machine brought in. I don’t have to tell you how dangerous that is.”
Dialysis had been routine before Kellis-Amberlee made blood one of the most frightening substances on the planet. Filtering the toxins out of my bloodstream meant risking the activation of the virus sleeping in my veins. It was unlikely—only a very small percent of dialysis cases ever had to deal with that particular complication—but it wasn’t unheard of.
Shaun bore down on my hand until it felt like the bones were about to give way. I didn’t tell him to stop. This was a sharp, external pain, and compared to the things my own body had been doing to me, it was nothing. It was almost pleasant to have something else that I could focus on. “We’re not keeping her on dialysis forever. You’re right that you don’t have to tell me how dangerous that is. She’ll amplify. She’ll die.”
“And since I don’t have my reservoir condition to protect me anymore, that’s a bad scene,” I said. “I still think I get a vote here, Shaun. You remember that, right? That I’m the one who gets to make the final call about my treatment?”
He shot me a half-alarmed look. “I do, but—you know how bad this is, don’t you? This could kill you.”
“Thing is, not doing it will kill me. Sometimes you have to roll the dice if you want to win the game. And she’s not done.” I turned back to Dr. Abbey. “You need to tell him the rest.”
“You mean the part he really isn’t going to like? Oh, sure, I had nothing better to do with my time today. Getting yelled at by your asshole boyfriend is exactly what I needed to make my life complete.” Dr. Abbey paused to dig her fingers into the fur atop Joe’s head, gathering her thoughts, before she looked at Shaun and said, with perfect clarity and calm, “I told you her kidneys have basically shut down. What you may not realize is that they’re going to continue failing. That means that even if there were no other risks associated with dialysis, it would still be necessary to keep her breathing until we can reach the next stage of her treatment.”
“Her liver has also been compromised,” added Dr. Kimberley, who must have been feeling left out. “It’s not as damaged as her kidneys, but that’s not saying much. As to why this is all happening at once, when her kidneys started to go, they put more pressure on the rest of her system, and any weaknesses that had been waiting to show themselves began to manifest. Which is a good thing, in a way. It means there aren’t likely to be any more nasty surprises lurking. It just means…” She stopped.
Dr. Abbey didn’t say anything. Both of the doctors who were working to keep me alive just looked at me, and I realized that they were waiting for me to explain the next steps to Shaun. It made sense. He was less likely to be angry with me than he was with them; he loved me, and he just wanted me to be okay. Making myself the target of his distress was the safest thing for everyone. I still felt a little bit like I was being thrown to the wolves.
I pulled my hand out of his and sat up straighter in the bed, trying to look imposing, trying to look like I wasn’t as upset as he was. It was hard not to resent the fact that I needed to be strong for him, even though I knew that he spent a hell of a lot of time being strong for me. “Do you remember Dr. Shoji?” I asked.
“I do,” said Shaun. “He’s still with the CDC, isn’t he?”
“Technically, he’s with the EIS; Joey quit the CDC a long time ago,” said Dr. Kimberley. “More importantly, he’s still a friend before he’s anything else. He’s your friend. He’s my friend. He’s the President’s friend.”
Ryman’s term in office was nearing its conclusion, but as long as he held the White House, we could at least be sure that the United States government wasn’t going to hunt us down for shits and giggles. That was a small mercy. “He’s coming here.”
“What?” Shaun’s eyes narrowed. He turned to glare at Dr. Kimberley. “Why?”
She licked her lips nervously, eyes darting from side to side before settling on Shaun. Sounding almost apologetic, she said, “I want you to understand that this wasn’t part of a nefarious plan, Shaun. This was all about the medical science, and about understanding how a simple neural map had been able to become so strong. There was the possibility that Kellis-Amberlee was bonding with people on a genetic level, through the same process that has happened throughout history, and that it might thus be absorbed and become less dangerous, and we needed test models for that…”
“That is some Resident Evil bullshit,” said Shaun. “What did you do?”
“They didn’t lose all their samples when the Seattle lab went up, and even if they had, they would have still had all the blood she”—Dr. Abbey gestured toward me—“donated at the various checkpoints and checkups between her escape and the two of you getting the fuck out of Dodge. They’ve been cloning Georgia ever since she ran away.”
Shaun went very still. I put a hand on his arm.
“No more neural maps,” I said. “No more implanted memories. None of them have been allowed to wake up.” At least that was what Dr. Kimberley had told me, and I needed to believe her; I needed to let myself believe that this was a genuine rescue, and not a deal with the devil.
“Mostly, we’ve been working with isolated systems,” said Dr. Kimberley. “Tissue analysis, infection analysis, even a few maps of the process via which a reservoir condition takes hold. We’re learning a lot. We’ve been utterly respectful, I swear.”
“Did you ask permission?” asked Shaun mildly. I recognized the danger in his tone. “I mean, did you like, e-mail her or something and say, ‘Hey, can we keep playing with your genetic material, just to see what happens’? Because if you didn’t, I’m not sure you can call what you did ‘respectful.’ True to form, maybe. You science assholes, you never care who gets hurt, do you? You just want to see what you can do. How far you can push it.”
“Since she’s offering to save my life, could you maybe stop with the recriminations for five minutes and listen?” My voice cracked. I felt bad about that. I wanted to stay strong, serene, the girl who could handle anything. But I was scared out of my wits, and I needed Shaun to focus. I needed him to be in my corner, not just on my side. “Please. I’m begging you here. Just listen.”
“Sorry.” Shaun rubbed his face with one hand. “I’m listening.”
Dr. Kimberley took a breath to steady herself, and said, “Dr. Shoji is bringing the supplies we need for a full transplant operation. Since all cloning is done under sterile conditions, we don’t need to worry about conflicting strains of Kellis-Amberlee; Georgia’s infection will be the only one present, and will spread into the new tissue. There’s a chance, given her previous reservoir condition, that she may develop a new reservoir condition following the transplant. She’ll be monitored the entire time. She’ll have three of the best doctors in the world working on her.”
