We are all five gathered in a circle, much as we were at the very beginning of our transition. We are sharing our next-life intentions, how we will be meeting again, and when in that stage of existence. Gail declares that her life is going to be short and sweet. She will grow to adulthood, do some service in that area of helping older persons, then come back Here while she is still young.
“Why?” I ask. “You’re going to have loved ones crying and missing you, and wondering what they could have done differently to keep you there.” And maybe some of them would be blaming God for taking you, I thought, but did not express.
Gail shrugs and gives a kind of ‘so what’ look. “Perhaps some of them need to learn to be less attached to friends and loved ones. Maybe that will help them look for meanings in life beyond what they had let themselves believe before. Maybe they will take an interest in what comes after body death.” She smiled then, and let out a sound very much like a giggle.
Ruth picked up on that. “So, you’re going to let your loved ones mourn just like Cassy, David and Salvador did.” She let her gaze wander off someplace, as if we weren’t even there.
My eyebrows went up, and I looked at David and Salvador. They looked back, as shocked as I at the deliberate reminder of our indifference to family we had left.
“Well, I haven’t done that in a while,” Gail said. “But also, there’s a couple of old friends who have this desire of parenthood, so I’ve agreed that I’ll come to them in a few more years. They will help me grow to an adult and be proud of me. But they’re pretty informed about Here, and with their parenthood desire fulfilled, they won’t need that experience again. It will free them, you see, to move ahead in their spiritual journey.”
“Those friends are already back in body?”
“Yes. Still children, though. They haven’t met each other yet. “
I was puzzled. When had Gail and these two souls made this commitment? And how was I going to have Gail in my life if her Earth plan was already in the works? “Did I know them?” I ask.
“Some lifetimes back, probably. We do tend to reincarnate in little groups. So many things to work out among us, don’t you think?” Gail smiled shyly. I can see her plan is almost ready to put into action.
“But you’re going to be in my life, right?” I ask. I thought that had been noted before.
“Oh, yes. But I’ll know you in your teen years. We’ll be hiking in those Rocky mountains together.”
“Riding Harley’s?” Salvador broke in.
“Possibly,” Gail laughed.
“And you’re going to leave me, too, then,” I said, feeling a sudden shock, like electricity felt on Earth, move through the light rays of my being. “Just like I did!” So it really was ‘what goes around comes around.’ An emotional buzz of regret, astonishment, and worry made me look over to Counselor for sympathy. She sighed and gave a rather nonchalant shrug.
“That’s the idea,” she said. “As I’ve said before, it takes some shocks to get some to know the round of lives are for learning to become One with All Things. Eventually, you will see that Here, or a comparable place, is where Oneness is really understood and you won’t feel a need for anything else.” She gave her enigmatic smile, knowing I couldn’t take that all in.
Right, I thought as a deflated little sigh escaped me. But then, I became quite consciously aware that in the background of these two Beings of myself, there was a potential for Something to occur that would bring me a sudden understanding of everything that is. Wouldn’t that be absolutely magnificent? To know just everything. How the world of Earth works. How all of the Cosmos works. How everything that was ever created works.
This thought gave me such energy that I could barely keep my light rays in one place. And then I thought, wow, if I had this understanding while I was embodied on Earth, I’d be able to understand what those human eyes couldn’t see. The veil Earth people spoke of would be lifted. Or rather, dissolved. If that Insight came about I’d know what Beings in the Here understand, as well as what Beings in human form are limited to. The feeling coming to me was that beauty, sound, taste, smell and touch were waiting to be used in one environment and to be extended in another environment. Then it occurred to me that there are Beings who move back and forth from Here to Earth easily and frequently. The exceptional ones. The ones most humans are afraid of if that ability is shown. Earth beings are easily frightened of what they don’t understand. Yet I’m sure there are those on Earth that Counselor appears before. Isn’t that what the Cone of Connection achieves? Surely in the Cone those people on Earth see into Here and understand more than those who haven’t learned to develop that Connection.
Even though I was not near to that Omniscient understanding, I felt a comforting Hope, or Possibility, that I was working toward that which would allow me to stay Here in a Love never ending. And in the meantime, the womb called me. I would see Gail, then lose her. And that was right. I would see Salvador and he’d bug me about whatever. And that would be right. I would see David, perhaps in college, and learn from him what he had learned from all the religions he had studied, and experienced, and then shared as a professor in some well-respected university. Then perhaps I would see Ruth in my latter years, if she decided not to wait two hundred years. Or maybe I’d reach the 100-year-old mark and she’d come in to give me a bit of relief with her energetic, loving, old-soul nature. I could almost see it. Me in some retirement home that had little children, dogs and cats, come in to add pleasure to the old people and stir their memories of all things good.
Yes, it was almost all laid out. But I had more work to do. I had to develop a body, with senses and brain. I had to go through the birth canal and cry into the next world and then, perhaps, lose all memory of Here, Counselor, and the Beings that eased the lesser ones from the pain of one life into the new exhilaration of another.
***
Exploring Cassy Page 18
