by Sophie May
CHAPTER VIII.
CAPTAIN CLIFFORD.
When Horace entered the yard, holding the poor dog in his arms, he feltwretched indeed. At that moment all the sulkiness and self-will werecrushed out of his little heart. It seemed to him that never, never hadthere lived upon the earth another boy so wicked as himself.
He forgot the excuses he had been making up about going into the woodsbecause his grandmother wanted him to: he scorned to add falsehood todisobedience, and was more than willing to take his full share ofblame.
"If ma would whip me like everything," thought the boy, "I know I'd feelbetter."
It was a long, winding path from the gate. The grounds looked verybeautiful in the golden light of the afternoon sun. The pinkclover-patch nodded with a thousand heads, and sprinkled the air withsweetness.
Everything was very quiet: no one was on the piazza, no one at thewindows. The blinds were all shut, and you could fancy that the househad closed its many eyes and dropped asleep. There was an awe about suchperfect silence. "Where could Grace be, and those two dancing girls,Susy and Prudy?"
He stole along to the back door, and lifted the latch. His grandmotherstopped with a bowl of gruel in her hand, and said, "O, Horace!" thatwas all; but she could say no more for tears. She set down the bowl,and went up to him, trying to speak; but the words trembled on her lipsunspoken.
"O, grandma!" said Horace, setting little Pincher down on a chair, andclutching the skirt of her dress, "I've been right bad: I'm sorry--Itell you I am."
His grandmother had never heard him speak in such humble tones before.
"O, Horace!" she sobbed again, this time clasping him close to herheart, and kissing him with a yearning fondness she had hardly evershown since he was a little toddling baby. "My darling, darling boy!"
Horace thought by her manner they must all have been sadly frightenedabout him.
"I got lost in the woods, grandma; but it didn't hurt me any, onlyPincher got his foot caught."
"Lost in the woods?" repeated she: "Grace thought you went home todinner with Willy Snow."
So it seemed they had not worried about him at all: then what wasgrandma crying about?
"Don't go up stairs, dear," said she, as he brushed past her and laidhis hand on the latch of the chamber door.
"But I want to see ma."
"Wait a little," said Mrs. Parlin, with a fresh burst of tears.
"Why, what is the matter, grandma; and where's Grace, and Susy, andPrudy?"
"Grace is with your mother, and the other children are at aunt Martha's.But if you've been in the woods all day, Horace, you must be veryhungry."
"You've forgot Pincher, grandma."
The boy would not taste food till the dog's foot had been bandaged,though, all the while his grandmother was doing up the Wound, it seemedto Horace that she must be thinking of something else, or she wouldpity Pincher a great deal more.
The cold dinner which she set out on the table was very tempting, and heate heartily; but after every mouthful he kept asking, "What could bethe matter? Was baby worse? Had anybody took sick?"
But his grandmother stood by the stove stirring gruel, and would answerhim nothing but, "I'll let you know very soon."
She wanted the little boy to be rested and refreshed by food before shetold him a very painful thing. Then she took him up stairs with her intoher own chamber, which was quite shady with grape-vines, and so stillthat you could only hear the buzzing of two or three flies.
She had brought a bowl of hot gruel on a little waiter. She placed thewaiter on the top of her washing-stand, and seated herself on the bed,drawing Horace down beside her.
"My dear little grandson," said she, stroking his bright hair, "God hasbeen very good to you always, always. He loves you better than you caneven think."
"Yes, grandma," answered Horace, bewildered.
"He is your dear Father in heaven," she added, slowly. "He wants you tolove him with all your heart, for now--you have no other father!"
Horace sprang up from the bed, his eyes wild with fear and surprise, yethaving no idea what she meant.
"Why, my father's captain in the army! He's down South!"
"But have you never thought, dear, that he might be shot?"
"No, I never," cried Horace, running to the window and back again ingreat excitement. "Mr. Evans said they'd put him in colonel. He wascoming home in six months. He couldn't be shot!"
"My dear little boy!"
"But O, grandma, is he killed? Say quick!"
His grandmother took out of her pocket a Boston Journal, and having puton her spectacles, pointed with a trembling finger to the list of"killed." One of the first names was "Captain Henry S. Clifford."
"O, Horace!" said Grace, opening the door softly, "I just thought Iheard you. Ma wants you to come to her."
Without speaking, Horace gave his hand to his sister, and went with herwhile their grandmother followed, carrying the bowl of gruel.
At the door of Mrs. Clifford's room they met aunt Louise coming out.The sight of Horace and Grace walking tearfully, hand in hand, was verytouching to her.
"You dear little fatherless children," she whispered, throwing her armsaround them both, and dropping tears and kisses on their faces.
"O, I can't, I can't bear it," cried Grace; "my own dear papa, that Ilove best of any one in all the world!"
Horace ran to his mother, and throwing himself on the bed beside her,buried his face in the pillows.
"O, ma! I reckon 'tisn't true. It's another Captain Clifford."
His mother lay so very white and still that Horace drew away when he hadtouched her: there was something awful in the coldness of her face. Herbeautiful brown eyes shone bright and tearless; but there were darkhollows under them, deep enough to hold many tears, if the time shouldever come when she might shed them.
"O, little Horace," whispered she, "mother's little Horace!"
"Darling mamma!" responded the boy, kissing her pale lips and smoothingthe hair away from her cheeks with his small fingers, which meant tomove gently, but did not know how. And then the young, childish heart,with its little load of grief, was pressed close to the larger heart,whose deep, deep sorrow only God could heal.
They are wrong who say that little children cannot receive lastingimpressions. There are some hours of joy or agony which they neverforget. This was such an hour for Horace. He could almost feel again onhis forehead the warm good-by kisses of his father; he could almost hearagain the words,--
"Always obey your mother, my son, and remember that God sees all youdo."
Ah, he had not obeyed, he had not remembered.
And that dear father would never kiss him, never speak to him again! Hehad not thought before what a long word Never was.
O, it was dreadful to shut his eyes and fancy him lying so cold andstill on that bloody battle-field! Would all this awful thing be trueto-morrow morning, when he waked up?
"O, mamma," sobbed the desolate child, "I and Grace will take care ofyou! Just forgive me, ma, and I'll be the best kind of a boy. I will, Iwill!"
Grandma had already led Grace away into the green chamber, where auntMadge sat with the baby. The poor little girl would not be comforted.
"O, grandma," she cried, "if we could know who it was that shot pa ourmayor would hang him! I do wish I could die, grandma. I don't want tokeep living and living in this great world, without my father!"
