by Emma Castle
Look away… The ghostly whisper in his head made him shudder as he reached Adam’s room.
Adam was lying on his cot, dressed in his best navy-blue suit, his bright red and white striped tie in a neat Windsor knot. Lincoln lifted his gaze up to his friend’s face, forcing himself to see the man and not the dying body. Adam managed a weak smile. His eyes were hollow and ringed with purple bruises, and sweat glistened on his skin, which had turned a sallow yellow.
“Thought maybe you wouldn’t come.” Adam’s sigh carried a hint of a death rattle.
Lincoln wanted to smile, wanted to give his friend some kind of final reassurance. But he couldn’t. Pain tore at him, and it took every ounce of strength to fight back the sting of tears in his eyes. He swallowed hard, and it felt like glass shards were tearing up his throat.
“Here…” Adam patted a stack of photos sealed in a bag on his chest. Lincoln picked them up. Familiar faces, old places… All of it only made this worse.
“Ten years,” Adam said. “Long time to serve together, brother.”
Lincoln nodded, still unable to speak. They weren’t brothers by blood, but they had been brothers in arms. Adam had taught him everything he knew. He was thirty-seven and had led their unit on over a hundred missions, saving the world a dozen times—not that it mattered now, because no one would be alive anymore to hear or care. Humanity was all but wiped out. Nature had reclaimed its bruised planet, and soon humanity would be but a dim memory in Earth’s history. Perhaps one best forgotten.
Adam coughed, a light dotting of blood covering his lips as he gripped a handgun. He tried to lift it, but his arm collapsed back to his chest.
“Afraid you’ll have to do the honors.” Adam managed a wry smile, but Lincoln shook his head.
“No…I can’t…” He’d had to do this for too many others, but for Adam, he couldn’t stomach it.
Adam’s gray eyes hardened. “You can. You have to.” He drew in a shaky breath. “You owe me. I don’t want to waste away like the others. Don’t make me pull rank.”
Lincoln’s eyes snapped back to his friend’s face. The last two years they had been in Washington, DC, while Adam had moved up in the ranks and politics. It was how they had ended up here in the bunker after all. Not that it had saved them. But Adam always joked about pulling rank whenever Lincoln tried to resist orders.
“Don’t you fucking bring that up now,” Lincoln said. His vision blurred as he tried to swallow down the knot of emotions raging inside him.
“You have your orders, Major.” Adam shifted the gun on his chest.
Lincoln reached out and took the gun, checking the chamber. The action was instinctive after so many years, but a chill crept over him when his brain caught up with his actions and the significance of what he was about to do became clear.
Adam watched him, the war of fear and sorrow on his face now softened to a peacefulness Lincoln hadn’t ever seen before.
“You know what to do, Lincoln.”
But he didn’t. No one had ever trained him to kill his best friend.
“Once I’m gone, get out of here. Don’t stay in the bunker. If you want to die, die in the open with the sky above you. At least topside, you’ve got a chance to survive.” They’d talked about it, the way they would end it, if it ever came to that. The blue sky above would be the way to go, not trapped here beneath the ground.
“I could take you up there.” Lincoln tried not to choke on the words. “Before…”
Adam shook his head, the faint move barely there. “No. I’d only spread the disease. Better to seal me down here with the others.”
Lincoln nodded numbly. Adam had stayed here, manning the communication room as other outposts dropped off the comms one by one, everyone hoping a cure would be found before the end came. Last week Adam had started showing signs of infection. They had believed they were both immune since the last man to die had been five weeks ago, but for whatever reason, Adam had fallen ill. But he’d stayed on the radio each day for just a few minutes, broadcasting when he could, listening for any other signal. He’d never given up hope. But Lincoln knew there was none. After this, he would be alone.
Adam’s face contorted with pain. “Better do it now.” The virus inside him would bleed him out, then dehydrate what was left. It was an agonizing death.
Raising the gun, Lincoln aimed it at Adam’s head, but his hands started to shake. Adam closed his eyes.
“Do it!”
The harsh military tone snapped Lincoln into focus, and he pulled the trigger. The loud report made his ears ring, and the heavy silence that followed grew into a deafening roar. The tiny red, white, and blue flag pinned to Adam’s chest gleamed in the light. Lincoln removed the pin, slipped it into his backpack, and laid the pistol on Adam’s chest. There was no need to bury him, no need to remove him from this final resting place. Lincoln stood to attention as he saluted Adam one final time.
“It has been an honor to serve and protect you, Mr. President.” He knew those may very well be the last words he would ever speak to another person. He should have said them before…but if he’d dared to, might not have had the strength to pull the trigger.
He stood there for a long moment, his mind mercifully blank with grief, and he let the dark, agonizing emotion rip through him like a tidal wave. The silence haunted him, whispering softly in his head about the days before…the days when the world was still alive, when he could see children play and the bustle of the cities and the sunsets on farmhouse porches. There had been so much to love, so much to enjoy.
Now it was all gone and so was Adam, his brother in arms, his best friend. Hope’s last wellspring had vanished with him.
There’s nothing for me in the world now.
But a man couldn’t die from grief alone, no matter how hard he might want to.
He turned and walked away.
At the bunker’s exit, he climbed up the steps and cranked the wheel that released the seal and locks on the latch and pushed it open. Bright sunlight poured into the darkness of the bunker. Lincoln shielded his eyes for a moment as his eyes adjusted. Fresh air surrounded him, the scent of prairie grasses and trees teasing his nostrils. He climbed out and closed the hatch behind him. An open meadow stretched endlessly in one direction, and a light wooded area spread in the other direction. Prairie wind rustled the grasses, and he suddenly felt homesick in a way he hadn’t in years.
But home was gone, as was everything else. It was possible he was the last man on earth, and it was only a matter of time before death claimed him too.
He started walking, the distant vision of the cityscape far ahead of him. Would there be any other survivors? Would he even be able to help them? He’d killed his best friend, the last leader of the free world. Whoever might be left in this dying land wouldn’t want his help. He was a murderer of a good man, a lost soul. Lincoln let go and chose to embrace the wilderness and the darkness inside him.
It would be the only way to survive now.
Chapter 1
@CDC: The virus in Beijing has been identified as a new disease named Hydra-1. The World Health Organization (The Who) is monitoring the situation closely. We believe it is contained and there is no cause to worry.
—Centers for Disease Control Twitter Feed
November 10, 2019
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March 2020
Caroline Kelly crouched in the shadows outside the old supermarket on the outskirts of Omaha. Night was creeping closer. Usually she hated the dark, but tonight it was her friend. Whenever she entered a store or any dwelling, she knew she ran the risk of running into survivors. Ever since H–Day, as she called it, the day everyone truly realized there was a contagion sweeping over the world, people went insane.
Common decency and the humanitarian spirit had been destroyed. Knowing they had nothing to lose, many had reverted to barbarism, violence, greed, and lust. The last legacy of a dying species. And those few who had survived hadn’t been much better.
Caroline shuddered and pulled her coat tight around her body. She scanned the darkened entrance to the grocery store. The chances that anything edible was in there were slim, but she had to look. She would eat just about anything right now. Last week she had found a stash of canned sardines in someone’s house and had a feast that any cat would envy. Then she had thrown up because the oily texture of the tiny fish had made her nauseous. She’d never been into seafood, but starvation was still starvation.
She checked the straps on her backpack, making sure they weren’t loose. Whenever she had a chance to fill up with supplies or food, she needed to make sure that the bag stayed tight to her body. She had already lost one bag when she was running from a man who tried to corner her inside a drugstore last month. The bag had been too loose and heavy. When she rounded a corner too fast, the momentum from the bag swung so hard it knocked her onto her ass. The man caught up with her and tried to grab it. She had to abandon it or risk him catching her. She knew all too well what would have been next if that had happened. In the early days of the contagion, she’d tried to trust other survivors, believing that they could work together to survive. That had been a mistake, a nearly fatal one. She still believed deep down that humanity could survive this, but as the dark days stretched on, her hope was dying, like a candle sputtering in a violent wind. All too soon it would be snuffed out.
The store had been quiet for the last hour. She had been hiding in the shadows across the street, and once darkness fell, she inched her way toward the store, using abandoned cars as cover. But she didn’t go inside, not yet. Someone was out there. She could feel their presence somehow, like a sixth sense warning her of danger. She couldn’t wait forever. Hunger and desperation would force her hand sooner or later. If she was being watched, she would have to brave it and just go.
Caroline moved toward the door. The glass had shattered long ago, and all that remained was a metal frame laced with jagged edges. She didn’t bother to open it but instead slipped through where the glass had once been. Her boots crunched on the broken shards, but she couldn’t help that. Some things were unavoidable. She squinted at the signs hanging overhead, trying to see what was in each aisle.
If she had been more certain she was alone, she would have pulled out her flashlight, but that would be a shining beacon to anyone close by. So she wandered down each aisle, careful to avoid any shelves that had toppled over. The stench of rotten produce a few aisles over made her eyes water, so she stayed closer to the center. The majority of the edible food was gone, but not all of it.
When the virus had swept through the major cities like this one, it had killed so many so quickly that people didn’t have time to loot stores. People were too busy dying to steal TVs. There had been some looting, but not as much as she had expected. Not that it mattered without electricity. She couldn’t benefit from most of the things left behind. She would love a giant flat-screen as much as the next girl, but what would she do with it?
Caroline passed by the empty canned food aisle. The items that could last the longest had been taken first. So she focused on other items like cereal. The easily reached shelves were bare, but she thought she saw something up top. She carefully scaled the shelves, praying they wouldn’t fall down and crush her. She reached her hand along, trying to search for anything that might’ve been left behind. Her fingers brushed along the dust-covered surface of the shelf. They bumped into something. She reached, clawing at the object, and closed her hand around it.
It moved. The furry thing squeaked and bit her hand.
Caroline screamed and toppled backward, landing hard on her back. The air whooshed out of her lungs, and she choked on a sob. It was a damn rat. She hated rats. Pain radiated through her as she struggled to catch her breath. She’d missed landing on a bunch of broken jars by mere inches. After a long moment, she stifled a whimper as she rolled onto her side. She got up and wiped the dirt and debris off her jeans and checked her bag. She’d been smart enough to put it down while she’d been searching the shelves. She knelt down and caught sight of several boxes of granola bars at the back of the bottom shelf.
“Yes!” She grinned as she pulled them out, squinting at them in the dim light. Peanut butter and chocolate. Her favorite. She opened the boxes and dumped the bars in her bag to save space. Then she zipped the bag shut and slung it over her shoulder before searching the other aisles. She passed by the frozen foods section and saw the now hardened pools of melted sugary liquid that once had been ice cream. In the shadows they were dark, like blood, and the sight made her stomach churn.
The pharmacy was mostly cleaned out, but she did find some Tylenol and multivitamins. She also discovered a few small bottles of Pedialyte. The salty liquid didn’t taste that great, but she could power through days of little to no food with it. Her personal record so far was four days. Not that she wanted to brag about that.
She was almost done browsing the pharmacy when she heard the faint sound of glass beneath boots. But not her boots.
Oh God.
Her unseen watcher had decided to show his or her face, but Caroline had no plans on sticking around to see who it was. She waited, listening to the sounds around her, ears straining to pick up every little sound. There was a distant scrape from the opposite end of the store. Caroline exhaled slowly, her heart pounding. They were moving away from her. She still had time to escape. She crouched over, using the shorter shelves in the store’s pharmacy section to shield her while she slipped her backpack back on. The harsh grinding sound of the zipper teeth locking into place seemed far too loud to her. Then she swung it over her shoulders and secured it to her waist with straps.
The sound of a can rolling in the distance made her tense. When she peered around the edge of the nearest shelf, she saw a tin of baked beans flash in the moonlight that poured into the grocery store’s high empty panes. That was too good a find to ignore. There might be a way to grab the can as she left the store. Whoever was here was still in the far end of the store and might not see her.
Already tasting the beans in her mind, she left her spot behind the shelf and started to crawl forward slowly on hands and knees toward the can. She bumped against some broken glass and stopped. She was only inches away. She reached out, her hand brushing the metal rim of the can when a booted foot materialized from the shadows. It stepped on the can, pinning it in place.
A scream froze in Caroline’s throat, and she threw her head back to look up at whoever had discovered her.
A tall, well-built man with broad shoulders stared down at her. He was wearing a thick gray sweater, one that looked military, and he had a thick beard that covered his chin and mouth, making his expression impossible to read, but it leaned toward menacing.
“Easy, beautiful.” His deep voice was a little rough, as though he hadn’t spoken in days.
She knew all too well what that sound was like. How long had it been since she’d actually talked to someone? Shouting at them to leave her alone while she ran away didn’t count. It had been at least two weeks. The rare times she came into contact with other survivors, it was a hard scramble, like animals fighting for survival. A person had but a few seconds to measure up the other survivor, to see if they were friend or foe. Could they be trusted, or would they be dangerous? She’d always tried to talk to them and try to calm them down. It never worked. A woman she’d run into last month had pretended to be nice, but then she tried to stab her when Caroline turned her back to help her lift a box of bottled water off the ground. Caroline had the scars to prove that trusting people wasn’t worthwhile, no matter how much she wanted to.
She glanced up at the man looming over her. “You can have whatever’s left in the store. I don’t want any trouble.” She released her hold on the can and slowly sat back on her heels. This guy, whoever he was, was definitely not someone she could trust. He was a mass of muscle and intimidation. A mountain man who likely only thought of base instincts. If she could get him to think she was helpless and weak, sh
e could buy herself time to attack and escape because he’d lower his guard. In seconds, she could rock up fully into a standing position and run, but he didn’t know that. Speed was one of her advantages. She had gotten really good at running since the virus had spread.
“What if I want you?” Rather than menacing, the man’s deep voice sounded gentle and melodic. Hell, in another world she would’ve called it seductive.
But luxuries like love and other complex emotions had perished in the night, along with baser feelings like hope. She was going to die, not from Hydra but from this man.
Her hand by her knee brushed against a piece of glass. She curled her fingers around it as she met his gaze. His eyes were black in the darkness. He seemed in that moment more shadow than mortal flesh. Nightmare rather than reality.
I don’t want to die. I want to live.
Even this cold, empty world still called to her. She would not go down without a fight.
“Go on and stand up,” he said more brusquely, as though frustrated by her silence. “I want a better look at you.” At first she thought he’d reached out to grab her, but he didn’t. He just held out his hand, a gesture so normal in this abnormal world that she nearly laughed. She rose, her knees knocking as she tried to control the surge of adrenaline inside her. Every sound, every breath, every move seemed slower in time. Caroline kept the shard of glass loosely balanced on her partially curled fingers to conceal it, waiting.
When she raised her gaze to his face again, she could now see the handsome features partially hidden behind the mountain man beard. He was a little older than her, early thirties maybe? The beard made it hard to tell.
“Fuck, you’re gorgeous,” he growled. “I couldn’t tell when I first spotted you a few hours ago. I only saw you from behind and at a distance.” He seemed to be talking more to himself than her.
