In spite of the horrible way it ended for my friend Leon, this job had been a triumph for me. Unless indeed I was forced to help the Chilean; but in a few months he was sure to send a trusted friend to collect his nest egg so he could pay his lawyer and maybe organize a break. Anyhow, that was our agreement-- each with his own hiding place so that no one of us should be connected with the fate of the others. I hadn’t been in favor of that method, but it was the customary way of working in the South American underworld--once the job was done, then each for himself and God for all.
And God for all... if it was really Him that had saved me, then He had been more than noble; He had been magnanimous. And yet God could not possibly have been the artisan of my revenge. He did not want me to take it, and that I knew. I remembered that day in El Dorado, the day before I was to be let out for good. I had wanted to thank the God of the Catholics, and in my emotion I had said to Him, “What can I do to prove that I am sincerely grateful for your kindness?” And it seemed to me that I heard the words, just as though a voice were speaking to me, “Give up your revenge.”
And I’d said no; anything else, but not that. So it could not have been God who took care of me in this business. Impossible. I’d had luck, that was all, the luck of the devil. The good Lord above had nothing to do with that kind of shit.
But the result--oh, the result was there all right, buried at the foot of an ancient tree. It was a huge weight off my mind, knowing I possessed what I needed to carry out the plan I had been feeding my heart with these last fourteen years.
How I hoped the war had spared the villains who sent me down! Now all I had to do, while I waited for my D-Day, was to look for a job and live quietly until I could go and dig up my treasure.
The plane was flying at a great height in a brilliant sky, way above a carpet of snow-white clouds. It was purity up here, and I thought of my people, my father, my mother, my family and of my childhood bathed in light. Beneath that white cumulus there were dirty clouds, a grayish, unclean rain--a fine image of the earthly world: that desire for power, that desire to prove to others that you are better than them, that dry, heartless desire you see in the kind of people who do not give a damn if they destroy a human being as long as by doing so they gain something or prove something.
8
The Bomb
Caracas again. It was with real pleasure that I walked the streets of this great living city once more.
I had been free twenty months now, and yet I still hadn’t become a member of this community. It was all very well to say, “All you have to do is get a job,” but besides not being able to find any suitable work, I had trouble speaking Spanish, and many doors were closed to me because of this. So I bought a textbook, shut myself in my room and determined to spend however many hours it took to learn Spanish. I grew angrier and angrier; I could not manage to hit the pronunciation, and after a few days I flung the book to the other end of the room and went back to the streets and the cafes, looking for someone I knew who could find me something to do.
More and more Frenchmen were coming over from Europe, sickened by its wars and political upheavals. Some were on the run from an arbitrary justice that varied according to the political climate of the moment; others were looking for peace and quiet--a beach where they could breathe without someone coming tip every other moment to take their pulse.
These people were not like Frenchmen, though they were French. They had nothing in common with Papa Charrière or any of the people I had known in my childhood. When I was with them, I found they had ideas so different and so twisted in comparison with those of my young days that I was quite at sea. Often I’d say to them, “I believe that maybe you shouldn’t forget the past, but that you should stop talking about it. Is it possible that even now, after the war is over, there are supporters of Nazism among you? I’ll tell you something: when you talk about the Jews, it’s like seeing one race spew out hatred against another race.
“You’re living in Venezuela, in the midst of its people, and yet you aren’t capable of grasping their wonderful philosophy. Here there’s no discrimination, either racial or religious. If anyone should be infected with the virus of revenge against the privileged classes, the poorest class should be because of their wretched conditions of life. Well now, that virus doesn’t even exist in this country.
“You aren’t even capable of settling down to living for the sake of living. Please, don’t come here as Europeans filled with notions of the superiority of your race. True, you have had more intellectual training than the majority of the people here, but what of it? What good is it to you, since you’re a more stupid bunch of clods than they are? As far as you’re concerned education doesn’t mean intelligence, generosity, goodness and understanding, but only learning things from books. If your hearts stay dry, selfish, rancorous and fossilized, what you’ve learned doesn’t mean a thing.
“When I look at you and listen to you, it occurs to me that a world run by bastards like you will mean nothing but wars and revolutions. Because although you say you long for peace and quiet, you only long for it if it agrees with your point of view.”
Every one of them had his list of people to be shot, proscribed or shoved into jail; and although it upset me, I couldn’t help laughing when I heard these people, sitting in a café or the lounge of some third-rate hotel, criticizing everything and coming to the conclusion that they were the only ones who could really run the world.
And I was afraid, yes, I was afraid, because I had a very real feeling of the danger that these newcomers brought with them-- the virus of the old world’s fossilized ideological passions.
1947. I’d come to know an ex-con by the name of Pierre-Rene Deloifre. He had only one object of worship, and that was General Medina Angarita, the former president of Venezuela, who had been overthrown by the last military coup d’etat, in 1945. Deloffre was a high-powered character. Very active, but openhearted and enthusiastic. He summoned all his passion to persuade me that the people who had profited by this coup d’etat weren’t worth Medina Angarita’s bootlaces. To tell the truth, he did not convince me; but since I was in a tricky position I was not going to cross him.
He found me a job through a financier, a truly remarkable guy called Armando. He came from a powerful Venezuelan family; he was noble-minded, generous, intelligent, well educated, witty and unusually brave. There was only one drawback--he was burdened with a stupid brother, Clemente. (Some of this brother’s recent capers have made it clear to me that he hasn’t changed in these last twenty-five years.) Deloifre introduced me to the financier with no beating about the bush: “My friend Papillon, who escaped from the French penal settlement. Papillon, this is the man I was telling you about.”
Armando adopted me right away, and with the directness of a real nobleman he asked me whether I was in need of money.
“No, Monsieur Armando; I’m in need of a job.”
I wanted to see how the land lay first; it was better to take one’s time. What’s more, I was not really short of cash for the moment.
“Come and see me at nine tomorrow.”
The next day he took me to a garage, the Franco-Venezuelan it was called, and there he introduced me to his associates, three young men full of life, ready to break into a furious gallop at the drop of a hat. Two of them were married. One to Simone, a magnificent Parisienne of twenty-five; the other to Dédée, a twentyyear-old blue-eyed girl from Brittany, as delicate as a violet and the mother of a little boy called Cricri.
They were good-looking, open people, frank and unreserved. They welcomed me with open arms, as if they’d known me for ever. Right away they made me a bed in a corner of the big garage, more or less curtained off and close to the shower. They were my first real family for seventeen years. This team of young people liked, cherished and respected me; and it made me all the happier because although I was a few years older I had just as much zest for life, just as much joy in living without rules and without limits.
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bsp; I asked no questions--I didn’t really have to--but I soon saw that not one of them was a genuine mechanic. They had a vague, a very vague notion of what a motor was: but even less than a notion as far as the motors of American cars were concerned, and American cars were the main or indeed the only customers. One of them was a lathe operator, and that explained the presence of a lathe in the garage--they said it was for correcting pistons. Pretty soon I found that what the machine was really used for was changing gas bottles so they would take a detonator and a Bickford fuse.
For the swarm of newly arrived Frenchmen, the Franco-Venezuelan garage repaired cars, more or less; but for the Venezuelan financier it prepared bombs for a coup d’etat. I didn’t altogether care for this.
“Hell,” I said. “Who’s it in support of and who’s it against? Tell me about it.” It was evening; we were sitting there under the lamp and I was questioning the three Frenchmen--their wives and the kid had gone to bed.
“That’s none of our business. We just fix the tubes Armando gives us. And that’s fine by us, mac.”
“Fine for you, maybe. But I have to know.”
“Why? You earn a fat living and you have fun, don’t you?”
“Sure. As far as fun goes, we have fun. But I’m not like you. They’ve given me asylum in this country: they trust me and they let me walk about as free as air.”
Hearing me talk like this in my position struck them as very odd. Because they knew what I had in the back of my mind; they knew all about my obsession--I’d told them. But one thing I hadn’t told them was about the pawnshop job. So they said to me, “If this business comes off, you can make the money you need to carry out what you have in mind. And of course we don’t intend to spend the rest of our lives in this garage. Certainly we have fun, but it brings in nothing like the solid cash we’d dreamed of when we came to South America.”
“And what about your wives and the kid?”
“The women know all about it. A month before D-Day they leave for Bogota.”
“They know all about it, then. Just as I thought; so they aren’t too surprised at some of the things that go on.”
That same evening I saw Deloifre and Armando, and I had a long talk with them. Armando said to me, “In this country of ours, it’s Betancourt and Gallegos who run everything, under the cover of the phony AD (Acción Democrática). The power was put into their hands by simpleminded soldiers who no longer really know why they overthrew Medina--he was a soldier, too, and he was more liberal and far more humane than the civilians. I see the former Medina officials being persecuted, and there’s nothing I can say; and I try to understand how it comes about that men who carried out a revolution with slogans like ‘Social justice and respect for all without the least exception’ can become worse than their predecessors once they’re in power. That’s why I want to help bring Medina back.”
“Fine, Armando. I quite see that what you want above all is to stop the party now in power from going on with their persecution. And as for you, Deloifre, you’ve got just one God, and that’s Medina, your protector and your friend. But listen to me, now: the people who let me, Papillon, out of El Dorado were this very party now in power. Straight after the revolution, the minute the new chief arrived, he stopped the savage reign of terror in the settlement, stopped it dead. He’s still there, I believe--Don Julio Ramos, a lawyer and a distinguished writer, the guy who let me out. And you want me to join in a coup against these people? No: let me go. You know you can count on my keeping my mouth shut.”
Armando knew the tough spot I was in, and like a real gentleman he said to me, “Enrique, you don’t make the bombs; you don’t work at the lathe. All you do is look after the cars and pass the tools when the boss asks for them. So stay a little longer. I ask it as a favor; and if we make a move I promise you’ll know a month ahead for sure.”
So I stayed there with those three young guys; they are still alive and they would be easily recognizable, so I will put the initials P.I., B.L. and J.G. instead of their names. We made up a splendid team, and we were always together, living it up at such a pitch that the French of Caracas called us the three musketeers--as everybody knows, there were four of them. Those few months were the finest, the happiest and the liveliest I ever spent in Caracas.
Life was one long laugh. On Saturdays we kept some elegant car belonging to a customer for our own use, saying it wasn’t ready yet, and we drove down to one of the gorgeous beaches lined with flowers and coconut palms to swim and have fun all day long. Sometimes, of course, we would meet the owner, far from pleased at seeing the car he thought was in the garage filled with all these people. Then gently, gently, we would explain that we were doing this for his sake--that we could not bear the idea of giving him back a car not in perfect condition, and so it had to be tried out. It always worked, and no doubt the ravishing smiles of the girls helped a great deal.
On the other hand, we did get into some very awkward situations. The Swiss ambassador’s gas tank leaked; he brought the car in for us to solder the joint. I carefully emptied the tank with a rubber pipe, sucking out the very last drop. But apparently that wasn’t enough, because as soon as the flame of the blowpipe touched it, the damn tank blew up, setting fire to the car and roasting it to a frazzle. While the other guy and I groped about, covered with black oil and smoke and just beginning to grasp that we had escaped from death, I heard B.L.’s calm voice saying, “Don’t you think we ought to tell our partners about this little mishap?”
He phoned the brothers, and the half-wit Clemente answered. “Clemente, can you give me the number of the garage’s insurance?”
“....”
“What for? Oh yes, I was forgetting. Because the Swiss ambassador’s car caught fire. It’s just a heap of cinders now.”
I don’t have to tell you that five minutes later Clemente appeared at a brisk run, waving his arms about and hopping mad because in fact the garage was not covered in any way at all. It took three stiff whiskies and all the charm of Simone’s amply displayed legs to quiet him down. Armando only turned up the following day; he was perfectly calm, and this was his charming way of taking it--”Things happen only to people who work. Anyhow, don’t let’s talk about it anymore; I’ve fixed everything with the ambassador.”
The ambassador got another car, but for some reason we lost his business.
From time to time, while we were living this zestful life, I thought about my little treasure lying there hidden at the foot of a tree in a republic well known for its frozen meat. And I put money aside for the fare there and back when the time came to go and fetch it. The knowledge that I had almost enough to satisfy my revenge had completely transformed me. Because I no longer worried about making money, I could plunge wholeheartedly into our musketeering life--plunge into it so deep that one Sunday afternoon at three o’clock there we were, all of us, bathing in a fountain in one of the Caracas squares, with nothing on but our drawers. This time, at least, Clemente rose to the occasion and had his brother’s partners released from the police station where they had been shut up for indecent exposure. By now a good many months had gone by, and at last it seemed to me safe to go and pick up my treasure.
So fare you well, buddies,. and thanks for all your kindness. Then I was on my way to the airport. I got there at six in the morning; I hired a car, and at nine I reached the spot.
I crossed the bridge. Christ above, what had happened? Had I gone mad, or was it a mirage? I stared around, but my tree was not there. And not only my tree but hundreds of others. The road had been made much wider, and the bridge and the stretch leading up to it had been entirely changed. Working it out from the bridge, I managed to more or less pinpoint the place where my tree and my wealth must have been. I was flabbergasted. Not a trace!
A kind of madness came over me, a stupid fury. I ground my heels into the asphalt, just as though it could feel anything. I was filled with an enormous rage and I looked around for something to destroy: all I could see was the white
lines painted on the road--I kicked them, as if knocking off little bits of paint could destroy the road.
I went back to the bridge. The approach road on the other side had not been altered, and judging from that I reckoned they must have shifted the earth to a depth of more than twelve feet. And since my loot had not been buried deeper than a yard, it couldn’t have lasted long, poor thing.
I leaned on the parapet and for a while I watched the water flow by. Gradually I calmed down, but still the thoughts whirled about inside my head. Was I always going to lose out like this? Should I give up trying to pull things off? What was I going to do now? My knees sagged. But then I got hold of myself and I said, “How many times did you fail before you brought off your break? Seven or eight times, right? Well, it’s the same thing in life. You lose one banco, you go and win another. That’s life, when you really love it.”
I didn’t stay long in this country that felt called upon to change its roads so fast. It made me sick to think that a civilized nation didn’t even respect ancient trees. And why, I ask you, why widen a road that was quite broad enough for all the traffic it had to carry?
In the plane taking me back to Caracas, I laughed to think that men can suppose they are the masters of their fate, that they imagine they can build the future and foresee what they’ll be doing the next year or the year after. All so much bullshit, Papi! The brightest calculator, the cleverest imaginable organizer of his life is no more than a toy before fate. Only the present is certain: all the rest is something we know nothing about--something that goes by the name of luck, misfortune, destiny or indeed the mysterious and incomprehensible hand of God.
Only one thing really matters in life, and that is never to admit you’re beaten and to start up again after every flop. That was what I was going to do.
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