'Meaning?'
'Robert might have told us a bit of information that we're just not hearing.' Sara suggested, 'Let's take it from the beginning and go over what Robert and Jessie said happened the first time.'
'You mean what they told us when Luke was shot?'
She nodded.
'All right,' he said, looking around the room. 'Let's take it from the top. We were in the street. I heard the shots and ran through the backyard to here.' He stood in the doorway. 'I saw what had happened, or at least saw the dead guy. Robert groaned and I turned around. He was here,' Jeffrey pointed behind the door. 'Jessie was over here,' he said, indicating the area by the window.
'Then what?'
'I asked Robert if he was okay, then I went to get you.'
'All right,' Sara began, taking up the narration. 'I came in and you went to call the police. I checked Swan's pulse, then I went to help Robert.'
'He wouldn't let you look at the wound,' Jeffrey provided. 'Jessie kept interrupting while I tried to get the story.'
'Which was,' Sara took over, 'they were in bed. Swan came in through the window.'
Jeffrey walked over to the window. He looked out into the backyard. 'Someone could have sneaked in through here.'
'Did Robert ever say he knocked the screen out?' She clarified, 'As part of his new story where he says he did it. Did he say that he knocked out the screen?'
'No.'
Sara glanced around the room, trying to remember how things had looked that night.
'So, Swan has a gun,' Jeffrey said, picking back up on Robert's first explanation. 'He crawls to the bed. Jessie wakes up and screams. Robert stirs and Swan shoots at him.'
'He misses,' Sara provided. 'Robert runs to the armoire and gets his gun.' She stood in front of the armoire. 'He shoots at Swan, but the gun hangs.'
Jeffrey finished, 'Swan shoots him, then Robert's gun goes off and shoots Swan in the head.'
Sara looked down at where she was standing. The blood-spray pattern did not point to the armoire.
She said, 'He would've had to have been here,' walking to the door and lining herself up with the pattern. 'Look at this,' she said, indicating blood in the carpet where Swan had fallen. 'Robert had to have been standing here.'
'Why?'
'He shoots,' she said, holding out her hand with her thumb and index finger forming the shape of a gun. 'The bullet hits Swan in the head, and there's backsplatter from the bullet. It's basic science: for every action, there's an equal and opposite reaction. The bullet goes in, the blood sprays back. Look at the pattern of the blood.'
Jeffrey stood beside her, looking at the carpet. 'Okay,' he said. 'I see it. He was standing here.'
'Hold on,' she told him, leaving the room before he could ask why. She got the sewing basket and came back, saying, 'This isn't exactly scientific'
'What are you doing?'
She found a spool of yellow thread, thinking that would show up best. 'Blood's subject to gravity, just like anything else.'
'So?'
'So,' she said, opening a box of straight pins. 'You can tell from the shape of the drop which way the blood fell. If it was splattered, if it fell straight down.' She pointed to the bullet hole behind the door. 'See?' she told him. 'You can tell from the pattern that Robert was standing near the wall when the bullet exited his body. The blood drops are almost perfectly round except at the top, where you can see they've got a slight teardrop shape to them. That means the bullet was on an upward trajectory.'
'But it looks scattered,' Jeffrey said, pointing to the hairline ribbons of red radiating from the circular drops.
'The blood hit the wall straight on, but it still splattered back.' She used a straight pin to point this out. 'This is where the bulk of the impact took place.'
'All right,' he agreed, though she could tell he still did not buy it. 'What can the rest of this tell us?'
'Watch,' she told him, picking at the end of the thread. She pulled it out a few yards, then bent to the carpet to match it to the blood. 'I'm just guessing at the angle, and of course I'll have to adjust it – probably up – for the parabolic, but I –'
'What are you talking about?'
'Basic trigonometry,' she answered, thinking it was obvious. 'I really don't have the right equipment, so this is just a hunch, but the formula goes something like, the ratio of width and length of the bloodstain equals the angle of impact. . . .' She had lost him again, so she said, 'Go find some tape.'
'Masking? Duct? Scotch?'
'Anything sticky.'
While Jeffrey searched the house for tape, Sara went about lining up the thread. She used the pins to attach the ends to the carpet and spun out the thread in lengths of ten to twelve feet.
'Will this work?' Jeffrey asked, handing her a roll of electrical tape.
'It should,' Sara said, peeling off strips of tape and sticking them to her arm. She found the major splatters on the bedside table, careful not to touch the chunks of flesh that remained. She wished she had put on a pair of gloves before starting this, but it was too late now.
She told Jeffrey, 'Stand here,' pointing to the foot of the bed.
'What are you going to do?'
'There's nothing to attach the thread to on this end,' she said. 'I need to use you.'
'Okay,' he agreed, and she went back to each piece of thread, probably thirty in all, and judging the angle as best she could without the proper instruments, she followed the angle of the splatter, pinning the ends of the thread to Jeffrey's clothing. She used the black tape to highlight where the yellow threads crossed. By the time she had finished, Sara had worked up quite a sweat in the closed room, but it was well worth the effort.
'His head was here,' Jeffrey said, indicating the point at which all the string converged. The black electrical tape represented the area of impact, like some sort of forensic spider on a web, showing the exact spot where the bullet exploded out blood, bone, and brain.
Sara had already gotten her jeans dirty crawling around on the bloody carpet, but she was hesitant to put herself where Swan had been kneeling when he was shot. He must have been a few feet from the bed when the bullet hit. She said, 'He was a little shorter than I am, so his head must have been about here, give or take a few inches because of miscalculations on my part.'
'Jessie was in bed,' Jeffrey said, not moving because of the string. 'Swan must have been on his knees in front of her.'
Sara saw what could have been an outline of a handprint. 'Here,' she said. 'Do you see this?'
'Yeah,' he nodded. 'Swan must have had his hand there. Maybe he was leaning against the bed, using it for balance.'
'He was facing this way,' Sara said, indicating the bed. 'The bullet entered the side of his head, here,' she put her fingers to the space above her ear. 'It came out low on the other side.' She indicated the glob of flesh still stuck to the bedside table. 'This is his earlobe.'
'So it fits,' Jeffrey said. 'Robert was standing over here about where I am and Swan was kneeling beside the bed, doing whatever.'
'He was facing Jessie.'
Jeffrey's shoulders slumped, and the string went with him. 'What he said was right, then. He didn't even give him a warning. He just shot him in cold blood.'
'Let's get these off,' Sara said, meaning the pins. 'This doesn't tell us why.'
'The why is clear enough,' he said, helping her with the pins. 'He saw another man fucking his wife. I'd feel the same way.'
'You wouldn't shoot someone.'
'I don't know what I'd do,' Jeffrey said. 'If I saw you with somebody else . . .'
'Robert saw them first,' Sara said, still trying to think it through. 'He wasn't carrying his gun when he walked in the first time.'
'No,' Jeffrey agreed. 'He must have gone back out into the room or his truck or wherever the fuck it is he keeps his gun.'
'Then he came back,' Sara continued. 'That's premeditation.'
'I know,' Jeffrey said, dropping some pins into the plastic
box.
She wound up the string, wondering what they were going to do now. Robert had already confessed. Their purpose here had been to try in some way to break his story. They had done nothing more than proven he had shot the man with premeditation. It was the difference between ten years with early release and death row.
Car tires screeched outside, and Jeffrey said, 'I wonder what –' just as a door slammed. They both walked to the front of house to see who was there. Jeffrey threw open the door just as a woman was raising her fist to bang on it.
'You!' she screamed, her voice reminding Sara of a gravel truck. 'You fucking bastard, I knew you'd be here!'
Jeffrey tried to close the door but the woman inserted herself in the house. The smell of her hit Sara first, the metallic tinge of menstrual blood, though the woman was well past that time in her life. She was enormous, probably a hundred pounds overweight, with a face that was a mask of sheer rage.
'You fucking pig!' the woman screamed, punching her hand into Jeffrey's chest.
'Lane –' he began, holding up his hands to stop her.
'You killed my daughter, you murdering bastard!' she bellowed. 'You and your fucking friends aren't going to get away with this!'
Jeffrey tried to push her out the door, but she was able to keep it open by sheer force of weight. She punched her hands into Jeffrey's chest again, this time hard enough to knock him back into the house. The door flew open as he fell to the floor.
Sara went to him, telling the woman, 'Stop!' before she could help herself.
She turned on Sara, giving her the kind of up-and-down appraisal that she would probably give a leper. 'I heard about you,' she said. 'You fucking slut. You don't even know what kind of trash you're with.'
Jeffrey had managed to stand, but he was breathing hard, and Sara wondered if the force of the punch had broken one of his ribs.
Sara hissed, 'Who is this?'
'Eric!' the woman called back into the yard. 'Get in here. You, too, Sonny.'
Jeffrey leaned hard against the wall, like he needed help to stay up. Sara was about to ask him what was going on when she saw two young boys walking up the porch stairs. They were pitiful creatures, undernourished and filthy. Sara was reminded of two baby birds who had fallen out of their nest and been abandoned by their mother, and she felt angry just looking at them. What sort of person could allow such neglect? Who could treat two children this way?
The woman grabbed one of the boys by the back of his neck and thrust him toward Jeffrey. 'Say hello to your father, you little bastard.'
Sara caught the boy before he fell. Under his dirty gray shirt she could feel his ribs poking through.
The woman said, 'This is the asshole who raped your mama.'
Sara felt as if her throat had closed. She looked at Jeffrey but he would not meet her gaze.
'Rape?' Sara managed, the word echoing in her head like a bell.
'You pig,' the woman told Jeffrey. 'Be a fucking man and take some responsibility for once in your pathetic life.'
'Please,' Sara said to the woman, trying to concentrate on the things she could control. 'Don't do this in front of the children.'
'Don't do what?' the woman demanded. 'Boy needs to know his father. Ain't that right, Eric? Don't you wanna meet the man who raped and killed your mama?'
Eric looked up at Jeffrey, curious, but Jeffrey's face was stone, and he did not even glance at the child.
'Are you okay?' Sara asked the boy, using her fingers to push his dirty hair out of his eyes. He was tall enough to be Jared's age, but there was something sickly about him. She could see odd-looking bruises on his arms and legs. She asked, 'Are you sick?'
The woman answered for him. 'He's got bad blood,' she said. 'Just like his piece-of-shit father.'
'Get out of here,' Jeffrey growled, his voice a warning. 'You don't belong here.'
'You're gonna let Robert pay for this,' she said. 'You fucking coward.'
'You don't know anything about it.'
'I know I got medical bills out the ass,' she yelled back. 'Nobody on my side of the family's ever had this kind of shit.' She gave the boy a look of pure hatred, like she could not stand being near him. 'You think I'm made of money? You think I can afford to rush this'un up to the hospital for a transfusion every time he falls down?'
Jeffrey warned, 'Get the fuck out of here before I call Hoss.'
She stood her ground. 'Bring him on! Bring him on right now and we'll settle this once and for all.'
'There's nothing to settle,' Jeffrey shot back. 'Nothing's changed, Lane. You can't do anything now.'
'The hell you say,' she told him. 'Everybody knows you raped her.'
'The statute of limitations on that ran out three years ago,' he told her, and the fact that he knew this sent a cold shiver through Sara's spine. 'Even if you had something, they couldn't touch me.'
The woman shoved her fat finger into Jeffrey's face. 'I'll fucking kill you myself, you goddamn bastard.'
'Ma'am,' Sara tried, keeping her hands on Eric, not wanting to let him go. He seemed a million miles away, as if he was used to adults behaving this way. The boy who remained in the yard was playing with a plastic toy truck, his lips making engine noises. Still, Sara said, 'Let's not do this in front of the children.'
'Who the fuck are you?' she laughed. 'Just who the fuck do you think you are?'
Sara stood up, anger compelling her to speak. 'I know that this child is sick. He's filthy. How can you let him get like this?' She indicated the other boy. 'Him, too. I should call child services on you.'
'Go ahead and call them,' she said. 'You think I give a shit? Two less mouths to feed.' Still, even as she said this she reached out her hand, indicating Eric should come to her. The boy followed the command, and Sara reached to stop him, her fingers brushing his arm. She could feel raised welts where the black and blue marks riddled his skin.
The woman told Sara, 'Your boyfriend here raped my daughter.'
Sara felt light-headed. She put her hand out to the wall to keep herself steady.
'He raped her and got her pregnant, and when she asked him for help, he killed her, and left me to raise his little bastard of a son.' The woman shoved her finger back in Jeffrey's face. 'This isn't over.'
'Yes,' he said. 'It is.'
'You tell that fucking buddy of yours if I see him in the street, he's a dead man.'
'Why don't I tell Hoss and he can run you in for making threats?'
'You fucking coward,' she said, her lips twisting into a sneer as she coughed in the back of her throat. Before Jeffrey could move away, she spit on his face.
'This isn't over,' she repeated, grabbing Eric by the wrist. He already had bruises up and down his arm, but the child did not protest. The other boy in the yard trotted back to the car, looking for all the world as if his mother had told him they were going for ice cream.
Jeffrey took out his handkerchief and carefully unfolded it. He patted his face, wiping off the spit.
Sara took several minutes to find her voice. She kept hearing the woman's accusation over and over in her head. Finally, she managed, 'Do you want to tell me what that was about?'
'No.'
She threw her hands into the air, feeling angry and vulnerable. 'Jeffrey, she said you raped her daughter.'
'Do you believe her?' he asked, looking her right in the eye. 'Do you believe I raped somebody? That I killed somebody?'
She had been too shocked to let her mind fully consider the possibility. The accusation had hit her like a hammer, knocking her senseless.
'Sara?'
'I don't . . .' She shook her head. 'I don't know what I believe anymore.'
'Then we don't have much to say to each other,' he told her, walking away.
'Wait,' she told him, following him down the driveway. 'Jeffrey.' He did not turn around, and she had to run to catch up with him. 'Talk to me.'
'Looks like you've already made up your mind.'
'Why won't you tell me what
happened?'
He stopped, turning to face her. 'Why won't you let it be, Sara? Why can't you just trust me?'
'It's not a matter of trust,' Sara told him. 'My God, that woman says you raped her daughter. She says you have a son.'
'That's bullshit,' he snapped. 'You think I could have a kid and not know it? There's no way.'
Sara remembered Jared, and bit back the urge to throw Nell's secret in his face.
'What?' he demanded, mistaking her reticence for something more sinister. 'You know what? Fuck this.' He continued to walk down the street, obviously exasperated. 'I thought you were different. I thought you were somebody I could trust.'
'It's not an issue of trust.'
' "Issue,"' he repeated. 'Fuck that.'
'Oh, that's really mature,' she said, mocking him. '"Fuck that."'
She tried to grab his shoulder to stop him but he jerked away, advising, 'You wanna leave me alone right now.'
'Why?' she asked. 'Are you going to rape me, too? Strangle me?'
He had been angry before, livid, but she read his hurt like an open book, immediately regretting her words.
Sara tried to take it back, but he shook his head like he did not trust himself to talk. He held up his finger to her, as if to make a point, but still he said nothing. Finally, he shook his head again and continued down the street, walking toward his mother's house.
'Shit,' Sara whispered, tucking her hands into her hips. Why did everything have to be so difficult between them? The minute things were going well, something – usually someone – came along and ruined it. Rape. She could handle anything they said about him but this. Why had he not told her before? Why hadn't he trusted her? Probably for the same reasons she did not completely trust him.
Nell was sitting on the front steps when Sara walked up to the house, and she stood, holding her hand out to Sara, saying, 'I saw Lane Kendall's car up at Robert's. What did that old cow say to you?'
Sara opened her mouth and to her surprise burst into tears.
'Oh, honey,' Nell said, leading her into the house. 'Come here.' She pulled Sara toward the couch. 'Sit down.'
Sara sat, and Nell hugged her. She felt ridiculous and grateful at the same time, and her words came in jagged murmurs between sobs as she let everything out that she had wanted to tell Jeffrey. 'Those poor children.'
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