by LibO'Neill
So, Now You
By Jason Wallace
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So, Now You
Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace
I could only ever want
To have you
To kiss you
But you're out of sight
Far from me tonight
But I would give anything
Just to be with you
And no one else will do
I've been somethin I should never be
But if you want to know if I love you
You know I still do
And no one else could be above you
Or ever close to enough to
Make me wanna change
How you make me feel, too
I'm sorry if I ever doubt you
I wonder sometimes just how you
Put up with what I've done
But I can't be without you
Or live with myself if I allow you
To regret me
No one else could ever get me
The way I know you know me
So now you
Must decide if I'm worth it
The pain, the hurt, the anger
The care, the love, the first kiss
I don't want us to go back
To bein strangers
I only ever want to show you
I'm not like what you've known
I know you
Have been hurt so much it's still painful
So you
Have to fight this fight or give up
Put up with a screw up
Forgive so you can never forget me
And hopefully never regret me
I only hope I can let me
Do things right again
Never look back so then
You can always be happy you met me
I'm sorry if I ever doubt you
I wonder sometimes just how you
Put up with what I've done
But I can't be without you
Or live with myself if I allow you
To regret me
No one else could ever get me
The way I know you know me
So now you
So now you
Can learn to love me stronger
Knowing it will get better
And know I want my doubts
To be no longer
I'm sorry I ever had them
If we don't give in
We can't win
I don't want us ever
To not be together
I'm sorry if I ever doubt you
I wonder sometimes just how you
Put up with what I've done
But I can't be without you
Or live with myself if I allow you
To regret me
No one else could ever get me
The way I know you know me
So now you
So now you
Can please forgive me
I want to give you
Everything that makes life worth living
You think I fulfill your dreams
But I only pray I can
Sometimes it somehow seems
That I'm too much of a man
Always questioning something
Never fully accepting
Not realizing what I have
Always second guessing
I'm sorry if I ever doubt you
I wonder sometimes just how you
Put up with what I've done
But I can't be without you
Or live with myself if I allow you
To regret me
No one else could ever get me
The way I know you know me
So now you
So now you
So now you
Know how sorry I'm feeling
But please know I'm always willing
Trying to be what you need
And never in between
What you've had and what you're wanting
So now you
So now you
Can please forgive me
A Whole Lotta Beautiful
I got someone new to hold
The hand of a long lonely man,
Sittin’ by me, beside me, lookin’
Like a whole lotta beautiful.
We could take a drive
On this do nothin’ kinda night,
Ride through the countryside,
See through the dark before we park,
Get a bit farther than where we are,
Knowin’ that when the mood hits us with all its might,
Nothin’ could be wrong because
It’s been only just completely right.
My jacket’s in the back; it
Could never leave me cold
Cuz I got you, a whole lotta beautiful.
I could ask you where you’ve been
My whole life
Until this moment, now,
But I won’t because I don’t
Care – what, where,
Or even how that led to this
Or what life used to hold.
I could never miss the least of it.
I got you for a while, and it’s always full
Of a whole lotta beautiful.
This crisp air,
Your long hair,
Your soft kiss,
Your sweet lips, fingertips
Running down my arm again,
Everything the night brings,
The right things
That leave me lost in a whirlwind,
And I don’t wanna go back to when
I never knew
A girl that could make me choose
Between nothingness and this absence
Of all my cares in a world where
I feel so incomplete, without any sense.
You know it’s you, the most wonderful,
And you’re only a whole lotta beautiful.
I could ask you where you’ve been
My whole life
Until this moment, now,
But I won’t because I don’t
Care – what, where,
Or even how that led to this
Or what life used to hold.
I could never miss the least of it.
I got you for a while, and it’s always full
Of a whole lotta beautiful.
You’re a whole lotta beautiful,
More than a little more
Than the one I’ve been waiting for,
All I could have hoped in a helpless moment of
Chaos in my mind, no longer sure of much anymore
Except that you’re the best, better than any of the rest before,
You’re the one out of so many that’s worth the risk
Of losing and being turned loose after such a toll
Because you’re a whole lotta beautiful.
I’ll give up
When my time’s up.
So little lasts forever.
If you’ve had enough,
You can say enough,
And I’ll try to understand
Why we can’t be together.
I won’t complain; I hope I don’t.
I know this time is like it’s somethin’ that I stole,
Not really for me with such a whole lotta beautiful.
