by Prerna . K
"Of course we know each other from ages." I said smilingly.
"Oh but he never talked about you." HE said.
"Bro, common sense, this was a joke." Shubh said, "yay, I had my rescue."
"I think I should call him here." He said.
"Mr good friend, Miss good friend will become your sister, I can manipulate her very well, and you are in India, you already have a tough competition with boys here, so keep in mind." I whispered in his ear, in a way like robots talk.
"Okay bro," I said loud streching my lips, as if I was smiling.
"Sis, James like to call you sis. he told me." He said.
"Waahiyaad (worse) joke," Jas said, bringing her both hands front, Shubh, I and Ash also did, as it was our tradition, so we counted, nodding our head, 1, 2, 3, really slow claps, four times and final one longer, "haad waahiyaad (worse than worse) joke" Shubh said, and we followed, clapping madly, we laughed more looking at each other.
"James will tell her himself what he like to call her, Kim" Christina said smilingly rubbing his arm as if she was warning her for something.
"yay, I love you" I said to Christina giving a high five, she rescued me.
At first, it was fun, because we were a big group of people, we all had many things to talk, then we started singing punjabi and bhojpuri songs, to have more fun.
But we were tired, as the night went darker, we all became more quite, there was a time when every one was sleeping.
I stared out of the window for really long; I had my dairy, so I was writing poetry after everyone fall as sleep. Tonight even James was sleeping. I don’t know from where but there was some pain or depressing thing that I felt like to write.
I fall asleep; I was disturbed when the train stopped at another stop where we had to switch trains. We all rushingly took all of our bags, switched the train. I was again going to the window side of our compartment, but James held my hand and whispered to sit on the other compartment where he was sitting. Maira waved a goodbye smilingly to me. We both sat together, I was happy about it.
he was keeping all our bags in their places, when the train engine blew he sat beside me. He took that dairy from my hand and started reading it.
“Hey, what are you doing?”
“Reading your dairy…”
I closed the dairy. “Please don’t do that.”
“But why,” he said taking it back from my hands, opening the dairy.
“It is my personal diary,”
“So what, I want to know you personally.”
“James,” he looked towards me, “give it to me, I don’t want you to read it all. I have written a lot of embarrassing things, please” I said.
“Alright, tell me what I can read, I'm not able to sleep and I know you will, so I need some amusement.”
“Oh that’s why you called me here,” I said taking my dairy.
“Yeah, I saw you writing earlier.” He said, I was flipping pages to find the right slot of pages.
“You like reading poetries, right,” I said turning to him.
“Yeah, who's you have copied.” He said. “Oh he doesn’t know. Good.”
“Take a look maybe you recognize,” I said to him, passing the dairy.
I gave him the diary in which I had wrote all poems related to James, since the start. I was looking towards him in expectation he might recognize the poetess. He read some four poems with great intensity, and then he said,
“Who is this poet? Too romantic! I'm sure she is a kid.” He said with a sexy smile.
“Maybe,” we both said together, I smiled.
“Why you never told me you write poems, even when you knew I love reading them. Not fair babe.” He said, scrolling his eyes on pages.
“Sorry baby,” I said sliding my finger, in an indeed sexy and provoking way from his cheek to his neck. He shacked and looked at me; he looked up to the train’s roof as if he was trying to control his smile. I said touching his face with my finger, in a very sexy style again, “What happened babe?”
Oh if you guys are thinking I earlier talked about some raising pain, then what is this happening? Let me tell you, I intentionally drag myself towards pain, because it the strongest emotion, I can write really good poems when I'm in pain. That’s it; I ought to have some advantage of controlled emotions. So I play with my vision and emotions, and right now, I was normal and in a good mood. Alright, come back to the story,
He shacked, blushingly he said looking towards me, still smiling, “just don’t do that, you don’t know what happens to me.”
He was looking too cute, and seriously I felt like to kiss him. He again blushed; “don’t look at me like that.”
“No I will stare you,” I said still staring him, resting my chin on my palm.
“Why?” he asked. I was still staring at him, looking into his eyes, I felt like they were zooming in. like that intensely I was staring him. “Don’t do that" he said shifting a little away from me. But I was turned on, I shifted closer to him still staring him, “I won’t stop.” I said, provoking him.
He also started staring me, no one gave up for ten second, and literaly after those second, every moment was raising me.
He slowly turned towards me looking me in my eyes, I shifted back, until my back touched the backrest of the seat, “don’t stop, if I'm yours” he said in an indeed sexy tilted smile, looking at me as if he was provoked. I felt too warm inside, his eyes were fixed on me, (this was a very, very exciting moment for all romantic cells in me.)
His face was in front of mine, I was trying to push myself back but I couldn’t help it.
I saw his lips, he saw mine, when our eyes met, and he smiled, coming closer. I thought maybe he is going to kiss me. I was stiff as a statue waiting for him to do something, seriously, because I knew his intentions and I didn’t want to stop him.
He smiled holding my one hand, keeping it on his shoulder and griping gently my neck. Literally my stomach tickled when his hand touched my neck. He was going to kiss me, a celebrating voice shouted in me.
His eyes were on my lips, as he tilted his face a little, touching my nose with his. There was no measurable length between his lips and mine, I could feel his breaths. And mine were heavy and slow. His lips touched mine slightly, but he pulled himself back. Looked at me, gently touching my jaw line he kissed the slightest corner of my lips. And that too with so much love, and patience that Million of butterflies started tickling me.
He smiled and went a little back, our eyes matched, “maybe something like this will happen between us.” He said in a deep voice. sliding his hand down from my neck. First time any body was that close to me, I was literally in a situation where I wanted to jump and shout loud, it was fucking that exciting.
He turned back to his seat; I forced my head on the headrest, and breathe deep.
he looked at me, and we both suddenly puffed out a laughter for a second, because it was awkwardly funny. I looked at his face which was really flushed with blood, literally red. And his laugh was literally way too cute. He looked at me and laughed more. He was holding my hand he breath out, relaxing himself he gripped my hand more tightly and said “relax” in a very gentle voice.
“Ohk, don’t disturb me now,” He continued, I laughed with little pauses as those tickles were returning back.
“Oh goodness,” I said relaxing myself.
“Don’t worry; I will never come between you and James.” He continued, calmly.
I smiled at his innocence. How will you come in between, you are the one on the other side.
“I know, you just can’t come in between us,” I said just to tease him.
“Of course, you will sacrifice me for him, I know. I will compliment you for this intensity in your dreams,” he said in a casual voice, but in a very strange way, to one that was weird.
I was speechless, what could I say to him. Somewhere I was nervous, I felt like it was wrong to tell him about my James, when for me they both were becoming same. This was go
ing to create trouble as far I could see.
Then very calmly he started reading my dairy with great interest.
I thought I should not disturb him, I get lost in the views of nature and visioning the situations when I will tell him, he is James (that will be the craziest moment.) I just don’t know how he will react.
I woke up from my deep sleep when the train stopped, my head was on James's shoulder, his arm was around me, comforting my head, he said very sweetly. “Sleep we are not there yet.” In sleep I tilted a little more towards him, hugging him around his belly and slept again resting my head closer to his face. I was feeling so good in his warmth; I was already comfortable with him. Like for me, he had that known ness that familiarity of the last three years, how could I feel awkward?
A new prince
Calvin
We were in Goa, at 4 am, the cabs we had booked were on time, and very soon we were in our resorts. We all hurried to our rooms, and slept for more hours, properly.
All of my friends were in my room, because all of us had things to share. All of them were very excited to know what was happening between me and James, as we both were holding hands in the station.
I narrated them all of our incidents and conversation. I told them that I have told him about my dream James.
“What was his reaction?” Ash asked.
“I will compliment you for this intensity in your dreams. And other was you are literally a little kid.”
“He was not shocked,” Shubh said.
“No, I did not feel like he was,” I replied.
“So are you sure he is your James,” Ash asked.
“Yeah, I feel like this guy is the best reality of my dreams. He is James.” I said tapping my feet in excitement.
“Did he give you any sign?”Ash asked.
“Of course he is interested in me. He is James, how he will not be.” I said assuredly, bringing my arm around Shubh.
“How can you say that?” Shubh asked.
Then I narrated them our kiss incident.
"And just not that, I can feel that, he is James.” I said.
“Seriously, so what are you waiting for? Propose him.” Shubh said excitedly. Ash was literally mad after listening to this; she started laughing with great pleasure.
"What are you waiting for," they both said coming over me. their faces were as blushed with happiness as mine.
“I don’t feel ready, I need some more time.”
“Maybe it’s because you have always denied proposal so you can’t accept that finally, this romance is going to happen. Like it’s a big change for your life. Thanks me, I left you both alone in the forest and then with that song.” Shubh said.
“Of course, and both time we actually came close.”
“Yeah we clicked your photos in Jas camera; you both are really romantic, you look too good together.” Shubh said.
“You guys know how desperate I m.” I said.
“Yeah, I’m just waiting when he will be your boyfriend.” Ash said.
“Oh come on.” I said tapping my feet, in excitement.
“Like we have also waited with you, it will be so fun.” Shubh said.
“You know it’s been so long since I'm finding him that now when he is so near it feels like how is that possible. Seriously I m so near to him, like that, it is hard to believe.”
“We are also not able to believe, my dad has come, finally,” Ash said smiling with big shining eyes.
“Ok, leave that, Ash you tell me what’s happening between you and Kim. You guys are always together.” I asked.
“Nothing like that, we both just understand each other,” Ash said.
“Stop talking like a stranger, are you serious about him?” Shubh asked.
Our conversation continued like that. Christina, was not well, Maira told she had vomiting since after coming from the train, so they both were there, in the room.
In the evening there was a fair nearby, where I eagerly wanted to go. Lisa, Ben, Kim, Ash, Neha, Joseph and James and I, we all went together while others stayed at the resort. At the main entrance there were many local people, dressed in traditional dresses, who were spraying jasmine fragrance perfume on us. I was already dressed with rose fragrance perfume; I felt like, I smelled like a walking flower garden now.
We saw that all the arrangements were for couples only and no other friend circle was cordially invited here. Everyone was sitting with one partner, facing each other with some candle stand in the middle of the table. Both sides of the table had one rose; it was beautiful according to me.
James held my hand and said, “Come, let’s sit there.”
I said okay like it was too casual for me but I was flattered. We walked together towards our table, he was not holding my hand properly, so I went forward and gripped his hand, he looked at me and smiled. He again looked at me; he tilted his head closer to my shoulder and smelled it. “Wow you smell good.”
I smiled. My only reaction, when nothing is coming up to my mind.
We both sat in front of each other, he ordered some wine for both of us. It was like a surprise date for us I thought.
“Don’t you think it is much like a date?” he said.
“Yeah, a communal date,” I said smilingly.
“Yes. Have you ever been on a date before?” I asked him. And I admit this was a foolish question.
“Of course, you were single since ages, I had girlfriends.” He said.
“When you started dating?”
“Fourteen, I'm available for dating since 14.”
“Good.”
“Jealous…”
“Why?” I asked.
“Because I had more fun in my life,” he replied.
“Why will I be jealous of your happiness? I'm happy for you, you have stories. Someday I will enjoy them, when you will be drunk and out of your control.” I said.
“Of course”
He smiled, picking up his wine glass. “You might be wishing your James was sitting on my place, it would be more romantic.”
“Maybe,”
“I know, such romantic situations, force us to think that.” He said.
“How do you know, have you ever.”
“No, but remember I just can’t see him without eyes like yours but he is your lover. I know what it’s like to be in such places without your partner. It’s natural to miss him.”
Am I missing him, I thought, and naturally I was not, he was not a third person between us.
"Dont make such faces, I know you are romantic."
"No you are mistaken, Im very romantic." i said picking up my glass.
he tilted his wine glass, lifting his one eyebrow said, "cheers to your James."
"Cheers." I said, thinking why am I not telling him he is the one.
“You can look around he might be somewhere here?” he said sipping his wine.
“Maybe, He is in front of my eyes,” I said sipping my wine, looking at him. It feels good to call you James. I said in my head.
As I said there was an announcement from that side where singers were singing soft music. They announced about a singer from the crowd who wanted to sing.
The person slowly walked towards the main light, I was a little desperate to see him. Everyone was quiet as he said, “good evening ladies and gentlemen” in his amazingly deep voice. His voice was really sexy. My eyes were literally fixed on him.
“I came alone here, but hope one single lady hiding in between all you beautiful couple find interest in me and a new story to take along forever, began.” He said in one of the most alluring ways, I smiled with him and felt like, how beautifully he said that, he has set his trigger at right place, lets see how many girls fall today. "Katleh ammh" (murders infront of the public) I said in a very cool way, he was admirable, like a royal prince, and girls such boys just take away the heart.
He sat on the stool, touched the keys of the piano with devotion. Adjusted the mic and started singing. He sang “always remember us
this way” in such a marvelous way that I felt warmth in my blood for him. He literally got my attention as he finished, I was so lost in him, that I stood up and clapped for him with most delight. He filled a charm at this place.
He looked towards me and said, “thank you, thanks for your love and time.”
I sat on my chair, "Kayamat, he is so hot, bro" I thought.
“Yeah I can see that, but don’t call me bro,” James replied.
Oh did I say that aloud, I thought?
“Okay babe,” I replied.
He smiled sipping his wine. I was still looking towards the stage, “he is gone dude, relax.” He said.
“Yeah I know but he was so handsome and hot, god fire.”
“Hey relax, drink water, your face is literally red. I know you can’t, but still, try to control your excitement.”
“You will not understand this.”
“How will I.” he said jockingly.
"He was so good, man," I blinked my eyes and said, "gosh, he warmed my eyes."
"Ritz, dont show your romantic side here." James said jockingly.
I held his hand and said, "see my blood is so warmed up after watching him." I said excitedly.
He looked me in the eye, and held my hand, “I know, but calm down. He is not coming for you. Chill” He said.
“Maybe he will.”I just said without thinking anything.
“Kid, such a kid let me order some ice for you,” James said.
When we were about to leave our table, I was looking around to see him, he was so handsome that my eyes were fucking desperate to see him one last time. James smiled looking at me and said, “Meet him in your dreams.”
“No I can’t, James has booked that space,” I said still looking around.
“So nothing can be done now, let’s go, others have already left,” he said standing up and walking towards me. As we both turned, that singer was right in front of me, talking to the waiter. He looked at me; I held James hand tight looking down to the floor, because I was smiling hard.
He started walking towards me; James said “I think he is coming towards you Ritz.”
I was like “seriously.”
