At Home in Mitford

by Jan Karon

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  AT HOME IN MITFORD

  Jan Karon is the author of nine Mitford novels: At Home in Mitford; A Light in the Window; These High, Green Hills; Out to Canaan; A New Song; A Common Life; In This Mountain; Shepherds Abiding; and Light from Heaven, all available from Penguin. She is also the author of The Mitford Bedside Companion;Jan Karon’s Mitford Cookbook & Kitchen Reader; A Continual Feast; Patches of Godlight; The Mitford Snowmen: A Christmas Story; Esther’s Gift; and The Trellis and the Seed. Her children’s books include Miss Fannie’s Hat; Jeremy: The Tale of an Honest Bunny; Violet Comes to Stay; and Violet Goes to the Country.

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  The Mitford Years

  At Home in Mitford

  JAN KARON

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  First published in the United States of America by Lion Publishing, 1994

  Published in Penguin Books 1996

  This large print edition published 2008

  Copyright © Jan Karon, 1994

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  PUBLISHER’S NOTE

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the

  author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or

  dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

  LIBRARY OF CONGRESS CATALOGING-IN-PUBLICATION DATA

  Karon, Jan, 1937-

  At home in Mitford/Jan Karon.

  p. cm.—(The Mitford years)

  ISBN: 978-1-4406-2996-9

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  For Candace Freeland,

  my daughter and friend

  Acknowledgments

  Warm thanks to Father James Harris, who inspired and encouraged me; to Jerry Burns, who published this book serially in the best of the small-town newspapers, the Blowing Rocket; to my doctor, Charles (Bunky) Davant, III, who also doctors all of Mitford; to Bonnie Setzer, Mary Richardson, and Helen Vennard for their support; to my daughter, who laughed in all the right places; to Mary Tarr and the ladies of our volunteer library; to our local police department; and to everyone who buys this book about a small town that does more than exist in the imagination—it really is out there.

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Dedication

  Acknowledgements

  CHAPTER ONE - Barnabas

  CHAPTER TWO - A Dubious Gift

  CHAPTER THREE - New Possibilities

  CHAPTER FOUR - Company Stew

  CHAPTER FIVE - The Big Six-O

  CHAPTER SIX - Dooley

  CHAPTER SEVEN - The One for the Job

  CHAPTER EIGHT - Golden Days

  CHAPTER NINE - Neighbors

  CHAPTER TEN - A Grand Feast

  CHAPTER ELEVEN - A White Thanksgiving

  CHAPTER TWELVE - An Empty Vessel

  CHAPTER THIRTEEN - Issues of the Heart

  CHAPTER FOURTEEN - Absalom, My Son

  CHAPTER FIFTEEN - The Finest Sermon

  CHAPTER SIXTEEN - A Sure Reward

  CHAPTER SEVENTEEN - A Surprising Question

  CHAPTER EIGHTEEN - Something to Think About

  CHAPTER NINETEEN - A Love Story

  CHAPTER TWENTY - Baxter Park

  CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE - The Bells

  CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO - A High Command

  CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE - Homecoming

  CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR - In New Life

  CHAPTER ONE

  Barnabas

  He left the coffee-scented warmth of the Main Street Grill and stood for a moment under the green awning.

  The honest cold of an early mountain spring stung him sharply.

  He often noted the minor miracle of passing through a door into a completely different world, with different smells and attractions. It helped to be aware of the little things in life, he told himself, and he often exhorted his congregation to do the same.

  As he headed toward the church office two blocks away, he was delighted to discover that he wasn’t walking, at all. He was ambling.

  It was a pleasure he seldom allowed himself. After all, it might appear that he had nothing else to do, when in truth he always had something to do.

  He decided to surrender himself to the stolen joy of it, as some might eat half a box of chocolates at one sitting, without remorse.

  He arrived at the office, uttering the prayer he had offered at its door every morning for twelve years: “Father, make me a blessing to someone today, through Christ our Lord. Amen.”

  As he took the key from his pocket, he felt something warm and disgustingly wet on his hand.

  He looked down into the face of a large, black, mud-caked dog, whose tail began to beat wildly against his pant leg.

  “Good grief!” he said, wiping his hand on his windbreaker.

  At that, the dog leaped up and licked his face, sending a shower of saliva into his right ear.

  “Get away! Be gone!” he shouted. He tried to protect the notebook he was carrying, but the dog gave it a proper licking before he could stuff it in his jacket, then tried to snatch it from him.

  He thought of running, but if anyone saw him fleeing before a shaggy, mud-caked dog, everybody in town would know it within the half hour.

  “Down!” he commanded sharply, at which the dog leaped up and gave his chin a bath.

  He tried to fend the animal off with his elbow, while inserting the key in the office door. If he were a cussing man, he reasoned, this would offer a premier opportunity to indulge himself.

  “ ‘Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth,’ ” he quoted in a loud voice from Ephesians, “ ‘but that which is good to the use of edifying ...’” Suddenly, the dog sat down and looked at his prey with fond admiration.

  “Well, now,” he said irritably, wiping the notebook on his sleeve. “I hope you’ve got that nonsense out of your system.” At this, the dog leaped up, stood on its hind legs, and put its vast paws on the rector’s shoulders.

  “Father Tim! Father Tim!” It was his part-time secretary, Emma Garrett.

  He stood helpless, his glasses fogged with a typhoon of moist exhalat
ions.

  Whop! Emma laid a blow to the dog’s head with her pocketbook. Then, blam, she hit him again on the rear flank.

  “And don’t come back!” she shouted, as the yelping dog fled into a hedge of rhododendron and disappeared.

  Emma gave him her handkerchief, which was heavily scented with My Sin. “That wasn’t a dog,” she said with disgust, “that was a Buick!”

  In the office, he went directly to the minuscule bathroom and washed his face and hands. Emma called through the door. “I’ll have your coffee ready in a jiffy!”

  “Blast! Make it a double!” he replied, combing the hairs that remained on the top of his head.

  As he walked out of the bathroom, he looked at his secretary for the first time that morning. That he recognized her at all was remarkable. For Emma Garrett, full of the promise of spring, had dyed her gray hair red.

  “Emma!” he said, astounded. “Is that you?”

  “This,” she said with feeling, “is the most me you’ve seen in years. That ol’ gray-headed stuff is not me at all!” She turned her head both ways, so he could get the full effect.

  He sighed with a mixture of delight and despair. He had hoped this might be an ordinary morning.

  Harold Newland had brought the mail earlier than usual and, since Emma had gone to the bank, put it in a neat pile on the rector’s desk. At the bottom of the pile, in reverse order of its importance, was the letter from the bishop.

  He had asked the bishop to take his time, not to hurry his reply, and he had not. In fact, it had been a full two months since his own letter had been so thoughtfully written and posted.

  He stared at the ivory envelope. There was no return address; this was not official stationery. If one did not know that distinctive, looping handwriting so well, one would never guess the sender.

  He dared not open it here. No, he wanted complete privacy in which to read it. Would it be in the bishop’s own hand? If so, he would then have a precise sense of how seriously his remarks had been taken.

  Years ago, his seminary friend had been moved by the Apostle Paul’s comment that the letter he wrote to the Galatians was “by my own hand,” as if it were an act of great personal sacrifice. As a young seminarian, Stuart Cullen had taken that to heart. Since his installation as bishop, he was known to personally pen all the letters of real importance to his diocese. How did he have the time, people inevitably wondered. Well, that was the whole point. He didn’t. Which, of course, made his handwritten and reflective letters a treasure to anyone who received an example.

  No, he would not open it, if only to see whether a secretary had typed it. He would wait until evening and the solitude of the rectory, and the peace of his newly dug garden.

  After an early supper, he sat on the stone bench that was half-covered with a fine moss, under the overhanging branches of the rhododendron.

  He read the letter, which was, indeed, handwritten in the large, exuberant style that demanded space to gallop across the page.

  Dearest Timothy:

  It is a good evening to sit in this pleasant room and write a letter. Correspondence is, for me, a luxurywhich stirs my sensibilities, especially if it be with an old friend.

  I believe you’d enjoy the way Martha refurbished my disorderly bookshelves, and put this study into working condition. She has even had your favorite rug repaired, so that when you come again, you won’t stumble over the torn patch and go reeling headfirst into the armchair!

  You ask if I have ever faced such a thing as you are currently facing. My friend, exhaustion and fatigueare a committed priest’s steady companions, and there is no way around it. It is a problem of epidemic proportions, and I ask you to trust that you aren’t alone. Sometimes, hidden away in a small parish as you are now—and as I certainly have been—one feels that the things which press in are pointed directly at one’s self.

  I can assure you this is not the case.

  An old friend who was a pastor in Atlanta said this: “I did not have a crisis of faith, but of emotionand energy. It’s almost impossible for leaders of a congregation to accept that their pastor needs pastoring.I became beat up, burned out, angry and depressed.”

  The tone of your letter—and I presume you have been forthright with me, as always—does not indicate depression or anger, thanks be to God. But I’m concerned with you for what might follow if this goes unattended.

  A few things to think on: Keep a journal and let off some steam. If that doesn’t fit with your affinities,find yourself a godly counselor and let me know the cost, for the diocese will willingly cover it.

  Your mother, I believe, left a considerable sum, and perhaps you need to use a bit of it for yourself, for something other than the children’s hospital you’ve been so faithful to all these years. I know you well enough to believe I don’t have to exhort you to prayer. You always had enormous stamina in this area, and if that has changed, well, then, Timothy, make it right again.

  You may not know that you are one of the strongest, most durable links in this diocesan chain. You are important to me, and firsthand inquiryinforms me that you are vitally important to your flock. Do not doubt it.

  Martha has come in to tell me it is bedtime. I cannot express how wonderful it is to be sometimes told, rather than always doing the telling!

  I really never dreamed I would marry, and no one was more surprised than myself when, at the age of 49, I was ready and willing to take yet anotherlifetime vow. Others found this extraordinary, but I found it the most natural thing on earth.

  I cannot exhort you to go out and marry, Timothy,but I will say that these ten years with Martha have brought an ease to the stress which was plundering my own soul. I can’t say that the pace is easier—if anything, it has accelerated—but I find the ability to bear it greatly increased.

  As I recall from our days in seminary, you and I were much alike when it came to women. You were fairly smitten with Peggy Cramer, but when your feelings for her began to interfere with your calling, you broke the engagement. Even today, I feel confidentin having advised you to do it. Yet I wonder— have you ever entirely reconciled this with your heart?

  There she is again, my friend. And believe me, my wife does not enjoy reminding me twice. That she monitors my energy is a good thing. Otherwise, I would spill it all for Him and have nothing left with which to get out of bed in the mornings.

  I exhort you to do the monitoring you so sorely need, and hang in there. Give it a year! Or, at most, give it two. If you simply cannot go the distance,Father DeWilde will be coming available in the fall and would be my choice for Lord’s Chapel.

  Timothy, if you have problems with this one-sidedconversation, you know how to ring me up. Please know that you are daily in my prayers.

  Ever in His peace,

  Stuart

  As the light faded, the chill of the stone bench began to creep into his bones.

  He stood up and looked around the greening yard, as if seeing it for the first time. There was a certain poignancy in the shadows moving across the rose bed he had double-dug twice, and the borders he’d planted, and the dogwood he had put in himself. He felt at home in Mitford, completely and absolutely. The last thing he wanted to do was leave. Yet, the first thing he wanted to do was make a difference, be productive—and there was the rub.

  Nearly every weekday at 6:45 a.m., he made calls at the hospital, then had breakfast at the Grill and walked to the church office. For the rest of the morning, he studied, wrote letters, made telephone calls, and administrated his parish of nearly two hundred.

  At noon, he walked to the Grill for lunch or, if it was raining, snowing, or sleeting, ate half of Emma’s usual egg salad sandwich and shared her Little Debbies.

  In the afternoon until four he worked on his sermon, counseled, and generally tidied up the affairs of his calling. “A place for everything and everything in its place,” he was known to quote from Mrs. Beeton.

  At times, he was saddened by never having married and
raised a family of his own. But, he had to admit, being a bachelor left him far more time for his parish family.

  On Thursday afternoon, he was going home with a basket that a member of the Altar Guild had delivered, containing home-canned green beans, a jar of pickle relish, and a loaf of banana bread. He put his notebook on top, and covered the whole lot with a draft of Sunday’s church bulletin.

  “Red Riding Hood,” he mused, as he took the key from the peg.

  He stepped out and locked the door behind him, dropping the heavy key into his pocket. Then he turned around and stared in disbelief.

  Coming toward him at an alarming rate of speed was something he hoped he’d never lay eyes on again.

  It was the great leaping, licking, mud-caked dog.

  For several days, the dog seemed to appear out of nowhere. Once, when he was walking down Old Church Lane to meet the plumber at Lord’s Chapel. Again, when he was planting a border of lavender along the walkway to the rectory. Yet again, when he went to The Local to get milk and sweet potatoes. And on two occasions, as he was leaving the Grill.

  The meeting in the church lane had been fairly uneventful. After an enthusiastic hand licking and a vigorous leap that had nearly knocked him to the ground, he’d been able to repulse his attacker with a loud recitation of his laundry list. By the time he got to socks—three pairs white, four pairs black, one pair blue—the dog had wandered into the cemetery at the rear of the churchyard, and disappeared.