George Eliot's Daniel Deronda: Abridged

by Emma Laybourn

  Chapter Thirty

  Imagine a rambling house, built of grey stone and red-tiled, a round tower jutting at its corner: a great tree flourishing on one side, with a rookery behind it; on the other side a pool overhung with bushes, where the water-fowl fluttered and screamed: all around, a vast park, bordered by an old plantation. Outside the gate the country, once entirely rural and lovely, now black with coal mines, was chiefly peopled by men with candles stuck in their hats, whose dark faces frightened the children at Gadsmere – Mrs. Glasher’s four beautiful children, who had dwelt there for three years.

  Now, in November, when the trees were leafless and the pool blackly shivering, the place was sombrely in keeping with the black roads and black mounds which seemed to put the district in mourning. But Mrs. Glasher liked Gadsmere as well as she would have liked any other abode. Its complete seclusion was to her taste. When she drove her two ponies with a waggonet full of children, there were no gentry in carriages to be met, only men of business in gigs; at church there were no eyes she needed to avoid, for to the curate she was simply a widow, the tenant of Gadsmere.

  It was full ten years since the elopement of an Irish officer’s beautiful wife with young Grandcourt, and a consequent duel where the bullets wounded the air only. Most of those who remembered the affair now wondered what had become of the beautiful and brilliant Lydia Glasher after she had gone to live with young Grandcourt abroad.

  That he should have disentangled himself from her seemed natural and desirable. As to her, it was thought that a woman who had forsaken her child along with her husband had probably sunk lower still. Grandcourt had of course got weary of her. He was much given to the pursuit of women: but a man in his position would in time desire to make a suitable marriage. No one talked of Mrs. Glasher now: she was a lost vessel after whom nobody would send out a search expedition; but Grandcourt was seen in harbour with his colours flying, as seaworthy as ever.

  Yet, in fact, Grandcourt had never disentangled himself from Mrs. Glasher. His passion for her had been the strongest and most lasting he had ever known; and though it was now as dead as the music of a cracked flute, it had left a certain dull disposedness, which, on the death of her husband three years before, had made him consider marrying her, as he had wished to in the days of his first ardour. At that early time the husband would not oblige him by divorcing Mrs Glasher.

  In contrast, Mrs. Glasher herself was at first careless about the possibility of marriage. It was enough that she had escaped from a disagreeable husband and found bliss with a lover who had completely fascinated her – young, handsome, amorous, and living in the best style. She was an impassioned, vivacious woman, fond of adoration, exasperated by five years of marital rudeness as a disregarded wife. The one blot on her vision of her new pleasant world, was the knowledge that she left her three-year-old boy, who died two years afterward, and whose first tones saying “mamma” retained a difference from those of the children that came after.

  But now, over the changes of the years, the desire that Grandcourt should marry her had become dominant. This was on behalf of her children, whom she loved with a devotion charged with the added passion of atonement. She had no repentance except in this direction. If Grandcourt married her, the children would be none the worse off for what had passed: they would be at no disadvantage with the world if her son was made his father’s heir. Her love for Grandcourt had long resolved itself into anxiety that he should marry her, and for her children’s sake she was prepared to endure anything quietly in marriage. She was acute enough to cherish Grandcourt’s flickering purpose by not molesting him with passionate appeals and scene-making. His incalculable turns, and his tendency to harden under beseeching, had created dread in her. But her reticence made her bitter: the withheld sting was gathering venom.

  She was absolutely dependent on Grandcourt. Though he had always been liberal in expenses for her, he had said that he would never settle anything except by will; and it often occurred to her that, even if she did not become Grandcourt’s wife, he might never have a legitimate son; so in the end her boy might be made heir to his estates. No son could promise to have more of his father’s physique.

  But her becoming Grandcourt’s wife was so far from being impossible, that even Lush had thought Grandcourt was as likely to marry Mrs. Glasher as anyone else. Indeed, when Lush thought that Grandcourt had an idea of attempting to win Miss Arrowpoint, he had supported that project instead. But both prospects had been eclipsed by Gwendolen’s appearance on the scene; and Mrs. Glasher entered with eagerness into Lush’s plan of hindering that new danger by setting up a barrier in Gwendolen’s mind.

  After that, she had heard from Lush of Gwendolen’s departure, and that the danger was gone; but there had been no letter to tell her that the danger had returned and had become a certainty. She had since then written to Grandcourt, as she did habitually, and he had been longer than usual in answering. She thought that he might intend coming to see her, and she hoped that a frustrated courtship might dispose him to slip the more easily into his old track.

  Grandcourt had two purposes in coming to Gadsmere: to convey the news of his approaching marriage in person; and to get from Lydia his mother’s diamonds, which long ago he had handed to her. These particular diamonds were not mountains of light – they were mere peas and haricots for the ears, neck and hair; but they were worth some thousands, and Grandcourt wished to have them for his wife. Formerly when he had asked Lydia to put them into his keeping again, simply on the ground that they would be safer, she had quietly but absolutely refused, declaring that they were quite safe; and had said, “If you ever marry another woman I will give them up to her.”

  At that time Grandcourt had no motive which urged him to persist, and he had this grace in him, that he did not like to exercise his power of cowing or disappointing her as he did with others. A severe interpreter might say that the mere facts of their relation to each other, the melancholy position of this woman who depended on his will, made a standing banquet for his delight in dominating. But there was something more: there was the memory of the power she once had over him, which inclined him to espouse a familiar past rather than rouse himself to the expectation of novelty. But now novelty had taken hold of him.

  Mrs. Glasher was seated in the pleasant room where she habitually passed her mornings with her children. The window looked out on broad gravel and grass; the old oak table was littered with the children’s toys and books. The three girls, seated round their mother, were miniature portraits of her – dark-eyed, delicate-featured brunettes, the eldest being barely nine. The boy was seated on the carpet, bending his blonde head over the animals from a Noah’s ark, admonishing them in a voice of threatening command, and occasionally licking them to see if the colours would hold.

  Mrs. Glasher had dressed carefully, for each day now she said to herself that Grandcourt might come. Her head, which though emaciated, had an ineffaceable beauty, rose impressively above her bronze-coloured silk and velvet, and the gold necklace which Grandcourt had first clasped round her neck years ago. Not that she had any pleasure in her looks; her chief thought when she looked in the glass was, “How changed!” But the children kissed the pale cheeks and never found them deficient. That love was now the one end of her life.

  Suddenly Mrs. Glasher turned her head and listened. “Hush, dear! I think some one is coming.”

  Henleigh the boy jumped up and said, “Mamma, is it the miller with my donkey?”

  He got no answer, and going up to his mamma’s knee repeated his question insistently. But the door opened, and the servant announced Mr. Grandcourt.

  Mrs. Glasher rose in some agitation. Henleigh frowned at him in disgust at his not being the miller, and the three little girls lifted up their dark eyes to him timidly. They had none of them any particular liking for this friend of mamma’s – in fact, when he put his hand on Henleigh’s head, the boy began to beat the arm away with his fists. The little girls submitted bashfully t
o be patted under the chin, but on the whole it seemed better to send them into the garden, where they were presently dancing and chatting with the dogs on the gravel.

  “How far have you come?” said Mrs. Glasher.

  “From Diplow,” he answered slowly, seating himself opposite her. She noted his unseeing gaze.

  “You are tired, then.”

  “No, I rested at the Junction – a hideous hole. These railway journeys are always a confounded bore.”

  Grandcourt rubbed his face, and looked at his crossed knee and blameless boot, as if a stranger sat opposite him, instead of a woman quivering with suspense. Imagine the difference in emotion between this woman whom the years had worn to sharper eagerness, and this man whom they were dulling into obstinacy.

  “I expected to see you – it was so long since I had heard from you,” said Mrs. Glasher. She had a quick, incisive way of speaking.

  “Yes,” drawled Grandcourt. “But you found the money paid into the bank.”

  “Oh, yes,” said Mrs. Glasher, curtly, tingling with impatience. Always before, Grandcourt had taken more notice of her and the children than he did to-day.

  “Yes,” he resumed, playing with his whisker, “the time has gone on at rather a rattling pace. But there has been a good deal happening, as you know.” Here he turned his eyes upon her.

  “What do I know?” said she, sharply.

  He left a pause before he said, without change of manner, “That I was thinking of marrying. You saw Miss Harleth?”

  “She told you that?” The pale cheeks looked even paler.

  “No. Lush told me,” was the slow answer. It was as if the thumb-screw was being placed by creeping hands within sight of the expectant victim.

  “Good God! say at once that you are going to marry her,” she burst out passionately, her hands tightly clasped.

  “Of course, it must happen some time or other, Lydia,” said he; really, now the thumb-screw was on, not wishing to make the pain worse.

  “You didn’t always see the necessity.”

  “Perhaps not. I see it now.”

  In those few words she felt as absolute a resistance as if her thin fingers had been pushing at an iron door. She knew her helplessness, and shrank from testing it by any appeal – shrank from crying in a dead ear and clinging to dead knees, only to see the immovable face and feel the rigid limbs. She did not weep nor speak. At last she rose, with a spasmodic effort, and, unconscious of everything but her wretchedness, pressed her forehead against the hard, cold glass of the window. The children, playing on the gravel, took this as a sign that she wanted them, and, running forward, stood in front of her with their sweet faces upturned expectantly. This roused her: she shook her head at them, waved them off, and overcome, sank back in the nearest chair.

  Grandcourt had risen too. He was doubly annoyed – at the scene itself, and at the sense that no imperiousness of his could save him from it; but the task had to be gone through. She looked up at him and said bitterly–

  “The children and I are of no consequence to you. You wish to get away again and be with Miss Harleth.”

  “Don’t make the affair more disagreeable than it need be, Lydia. It’s deucedly disagreeable to me to see you making yourself miserable. You must make your mind up to it – you and the children will be provided for as usual – and there’s an end of it.”

  She dared not answer. This intense woman had the iron of a mother’s anguish in her soul, and it had made her capable of a repression harder than shrieking and struggle. But underneath the silence there was vindictive hatred: she wished that the marriage might make them wretched. He went on–

  “You may go on living here. But I think of by-and-by settling a good sum on you and the children, and you can live where you like. You will have nothing to complain of. I don’t care a curse about the money.”

  “If you did care about it, I suppose you would not give it us,” said Lydia.

  “That’s a devilishly unfair thing to say,” Grandcourt replied, in a lower tone; “and I advise you not to say that sort of thing again.”

  “Should you punish me by leaving the children in beggary?” she said in spite of herself.

  “There is no question about leaving the children in beggary,” said Grandcourt, still in his low voice. “Do not say things that you will repent of.”

  “I am used to repenting,” said she, bitterly. “Perhaps you will repent. You have already repented of loving me.”

  “All this will only make it uncommonly difficult for us to meet again. What friend have you besides me?”

  “Quite true.”

  The words came like a low moan. Through her mind flashed the wish that he might feel a misery and loneliness which would drive him back to her. But no! he would go unscathed; it was she that had to suffer.

  With this the scorching words were ended. Although Grandcourt still had to speak to Lydia on the second object of his visit, like a second surgical operation it seemed to require an interval. The hours had to go by; there was eating to be done; the children came in – all this mechanism of life had to be gone through with the dreary constraint which is often felt in domestic quarrels. Lydia felt a savage glory in her children’s loveliness, as if it would taunt Grandcourt with his indifference.

  He acquitted himself with bored grace – nursed the little Antonia, who sat with her eyes upturned to his bald head – and propitiated Henleigh by promising him a beautiful saddle and bridle. It was only the two eldest girls who had known him as a continual presence; and the intervening years had overlaid their memories with bashfulness.

  He and Lydia occasionally, in the presence of the servants, made a conventional remark; otherwise they never spoke; and the thought in Grandcourt’s mind all the while was of his own infatuation in having given her those diamonds, which obliged him to incur the nuisance of speaking about them. He did not like to ask for anything; but he must ask for the diamonds which he had promised to Gwendolen.

  At last they were alone again. Grandcourt looked at his watch, and said, in an apparently indifferent drawl, “There is one thing I had to mention, Lydia. My diamonds – you have them.”

  “Yes, I have them,” she answered promptly, rising and standing with her fingers threaded. She had expected the topic, and made her resolve; but she meant to carry it out, if possible, without exasperating him.

  “They are in this house, I suppose?”

  “No; they are in the bank at Dudley.”

  “Get them away, will you? I must make an arrangement for your delivering them to some one.”

  “Make no arrangement. They shall be delivered to the person you intended them for.”

  “What do you mean?”

  “What I say. I have always told you that I would give them up to your wife. I shall keep my word. She is not your wife yet.”

  “This is foolery,” said Grandcourt, with undertoned disgust. It was too irritating that Lydia had any sort of mastery over him in spite of her dependence. “The diamonds must be delivered to me before my marriage.”

  “What is your wedding-day?”

  “The tenth. There is no time to be lost.”

  “And where do you go after the marriage?”

  He did not reply except by looking more sullen. Presently he said, “You must get them from the bank before then and meet me; it’s a great nuisance.”

  “No; I shall not do that. They shall be delivered to her safely. I shall keep my word.”

  “Do you mean to say,” said Grandcourt, just audibly, turning to face her, “that you will not do as I tell you?”

  “Yes, I mean that.” The poor creature was immediately conscious that the effect of her words on her own position must be mischievous. But the words had been spoken.

  He was highly irritated, but he shrank from the only sort of threat that would frighten her – if she believed it. And there was nothing he hated more than to be forced into anything like violence even in words: his will must impose itself without
trouble. After a moment, he said–

  “Infernal idiots that women are!”

  “Why will you not tell me where you are going after the marriage? I could be at the wedding if I liked, and learn in that way,” said Lydia, using the one suicidal form of threat within her power.

  “Of course, if you like, you can play the mad woman,” said Grandcourt, with sotto voce scorn. He was in a state of disgust and embitterment quite new in their relationship. This woman had a terrible power of annoyance; and the rash hurry of his proceedings had left opportunities open. He stood for several minutes in silence reviewing the situation – considering how he could act upon her. Unlike himself, she was of a direct nature, and there was one often-experienced effect which he thought he could count upon now.

  He did not speak again, but looked at his watch, rang the bell, and ordered the vehicle to be brought round. Then he walked away silently without turning his eyes upon her.

  She was suffering the horrible conflict of self-reproach and tenacity. She imagined Grandcourt leaving her without even looking at her again – herself left behind in lonely uncertainty – hearing nothing – not knowing whether she had done her children harm – feeling that she had perhaps made him hate her, and defeated her own motives. And yet she could not bear to give up a sweet revenge.

  “Don’t let us part in anger, Henleigh,” she began: “it is a very little thing I ask. If you tell me where you are going on the wedding-day I will take care that the diamonds shall be delivered to her without scandal. Without scandal,” she repeated entreatingly.

  “Such preposterous whims make a woman odious,” said Grandcourt, not giving way in look or movement. “What is the use of talking to mad people?”

  “Yes, I am foolish – loneliness has made me foolish – indulge me.” Sobs rose as she spoke. “If you will indulge me in this one folly I will never trouble you.” She burst into hysterical crying, and said almost with a scream– “I will be very meek.”

  There was a strange mixture of acting and reality in this passion. She kept hold of her purpose as a child might tighten its hand over a small stolen thing, crying and denying all the while. Even Grandcourt was surprised: this childish caprice was unlike the normally dignified Lydia. He came close up to her, and said, in his low imperious tone, “Be quiet. I will never forgive you if you present yourself and make a scene.”

  She pressed her handkerchief against her face, and said, in a muffled voice, “If you let me have my way, I promise not to thrust myself forward again. I have never broken my word to you – how many have you broken to me? I don’t reproach you – I only ask you to let me give up the diamonds in my own way. Have I not borne it well? Everything is to be taken away from me, and when I ask for a straw, you deny it me. I will not bear to have it denied me.”

  Grandcourt had a baffling sense that he had to deal with something like madness; he could only govern by giving way. He said sullenly, “We are going to Ryelands.”

  “They shall be delivered to her there,” said Lydia. Now that she had gained her point, she was prepared to humble herself. “Forgive me; I will never vex you again,” she said beseechingly.

  “You had better keep that promise. You have made me feel uncommonly ill with your folly,” said Grandcourt, apparently choosing this statement as the strongest possible use of language.

  “Poor thing!” cried Lydia, with a faint smile. She was now ready to coax him if he would let her, so that they might part in some degree reconciled. She ventured to lay her hand on his shoulder, and he did not move away. She had so far succeeded in alarming him, that he was not sorry for these proofs of returned subjection.

  “Light a cigar,” she said, soothingly, taking the case from his breast-pocket.

  Amidst such caressing signs of mutual fear they parted. The effect that clung and gnawed within Grandcourt was a sense of his imperfect mastery.