Choices
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“While I was reading your words, it was like your arms were around me again. You had me wrapped up in one of those big, never-ending hugs you always used to give me. You know the ones? Where I’d tried to get away and you’d pull me closer and laugh? I could smell your perfume, Mom, and I could almost…I could almost feel your cheek pressed up against mine as you told me how much you loved me or…or how much you missed me. And I can’t tell you how many times I smiled as I read what you wrote. Defiant and sometimes funny, sarcastic and sometimes…well, let’s just say flirtatious and leave it at that, I saw the woman I knew, and I saw the woman you were with Adele, and that’s a privilege I never thought I’d have.”
Robin bowed her head, allowing her tears to fall freely for a few moments before raising her head again. “Okay, so I think I need to stop talking now. I hope you don’t mind what I’m doing tonight. I wanted you and Adele to be together, but I couldn’t fathom losing either of you totally. Yeah, I know I didn’t know her that well, but from what I read in her letters, she loved you to the moon and back, and that’s good enough for me. So…I love you, Mom. Be happy and take care of that woman of yours. By what you wrote, it sounds like she was really special…just like you.”
Judy held out her hand as Robin crawled from under the shed, and helping to her feet, Judy saw the tears in Robin’s eyes. “Are you all right?”
Robin wiped the tears from her cheeks and then gave Judy a kiss. “Yes, I’m fine,” Robin whispered before filling her lungs with the frigid air. “Let’s get back to the car before we freeze to death.”
They walked across the parking lot in silence, and Judy grinned when she saw Robin heading for the passenger side. Climbing inside, Judy started the engine, and turning on the defroster and heater, she waited as the windshield cleared.
“Okay, I think we’re ready,” Judy said, placing her hand on the gearshift.
“Not yet,” Robin said, covering Judy’s hand with hers.
“Why? What’s wrong?”
Robin looked at Judy and smiled softly. “I know I said I didn’t want this connected to any other day, but in that cabin over there, my mother and Adele started a love affair that I’d like to think is still going on, and that’s what I want. I want to be with you for this lifetime and the next and the next after that. I want us to be together until we’re ghosts, until we’re ashes floating in the wind, forever swirling and dancing in the currents.” Robin paused and stretched, lifting her bottom off the car seat to get her hand deep into her jean’s pocket. A moment later, she turned to face Judy, holding a radiant solitaire diamond ring between her fingers.
“Oh, Robin,” Judy said in a breath.
“I’m an author,” Robin whispered, gazing into Judy’s eyes. “I’m supposed to be able to write words that make sense, but there are no words to describe how I feel about you that do it justice. You have redefined everything I thought I knew about beauty and grace, about the intensity in a look, about the power of a touch, and about the absoluteness of love because what I feel for you, Judy, is absolute. It’s unconditional and infinite, expanding every minute of every day we have together, and the most amazing thing is, looking back, I was never given an option when it came to loving you. From the moment you walked into that classroom, my heart belonged to you and only you.” Pausing long enough to hold up the ring, Robin said, “Judy, I love you. I always have. I always will, so…would you do me the honor of becoming my wife?”
Judy’s chin began to tremble, and her eyes welled with tears as she held out her hand. Watching as Robin slipped the ring on her finger, Judy moved in for a kiss, and a hairsbreadth before her lips touched Robin’s, she whispered, “Like I have a choice.”
The End
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Acknowledgments
As always, I would like to say something to those who spent their days, nights, and weekend reading my words. They are my editors, they are my proofreaders, but more importantly –they are my friends.
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