Salt

by Bruce Pascoe

  ALSO BY BRUCE PASCOE

  A Corner Full of Characters, Blackstone Press (1981)

  Night Animals, Penguin Books (1986)

  Fox, McPhee Gribble/Penguin Books (1988)

  Ruby-eyed Coucal, Magabala Books (1996)

  Wathaurong: Too Bloody Strong: Stories and Life Journeys of People from Wathaurong, Pascoe Publishing (1997)

  Shark, Magabala Books (1999)

  Nightjar, Seaglass Books (2000)

  Earth, Magabala Books (2001)

  Ocean, Bruce Sims Books (2002)

  Foxies in a Firehose: A Piece of Doggerel from Warragul, Seaglass Books (2006)

  Convincing Ground: Learning to Fall in Love with Your Country, Aboriginal Studies Press (2007)

  The Little Red Yellow Black Book: An Introduction to Indigenous Australia, Aboriginal Studies Press (2008)

  Bloke, Penguin Books (2009)

  Fog a Dox, Magabala Books (2012)

  Dark Emu: Black Seeds: Agriculture or Accident?, Magabala Books (2014)

  Seahorse, Magabala Books (2015)

  Mrs Whitlam, Magabala Books (2016)

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  Cover design by Akiko Chan

  Cover photograph by Vicky Shukuroglou

  Text design and typesetting by Akiko Chan

  Ant holes on p. viii by Thaanawatkaewsri/Shutterstock; Coral fungi on pp. 54–5 by Full Tank/Shutterstock; Underwater plant on pp. 102–3 by Steve Lovegrove/Shutterstock; Tree on pp. 138–9 by Mark Higgins/Shutterstock; Desert/snow plant on pp. 200–1 by Joachim Heng/Shutterstock; Rivergum trunk on pp. 266–7 by Kingropes Access/Shutterstock

  For the three rivers of Mallacoota

  CONTENTS

  COUNTRY

  A Letter to Barry

  Reaping Seeds of Discontent

  Thylacine

  The Imperial Mind

  Choosing

  True Hunters

  LAMENT

  Temper Democratic, Bias Australian

  Lament for Three Hands

  Andrew Bolt’s Disappointment

  Big Yengo

  Rearranging the Dead Cat

  SEA WOLVES

  Sea Wolves

  Too Upsetting

  Water Harvest

  The Unapproved Day

  Whale and Serpent

  EMBRASURE

  Embrasure

  Franks Is Dead

  Peaceable Kingdom

  Dear John

  The Bridge Near Nowa Nowa

  An Enemy of the People

  TRACKS

  Honeypot Two Shots Two Pots and Miss Hermansberg

  A Letter to Marlo

  Rene of Rainbird Creek

  Soldier Goes to Ground

  The Headless Horseman of the Drummer

  Coffins

  Dawn

  CULTURELINES

  Here Is a Story I’d Like You to Tell to That Old Man

  Primary Colours

  Pittosporum

  Staff Dining

  The Galapagos Duct

  Left-handed Woman

  Publication details

  A LETTER TO BARRY

  Why did I think of you when I saw the fox hunting mullet in the river shallows? She must have been engrossed in her work because her coat was damp and she’d ruffled it into feathers to protect herself from the cold. Her back was hunched as she stepped gingerly through the slip of water on the sandbar. Tea-tree tannin had steeped the river in amber, and you couldn’t help admiring the dark ginger fox on a ground of golden liquor.

  The only awkward posture in the scene was the way she hunched – whether as reaction to the cold or coiled to pounce on fish, I couldn’t tell. She didn’t seem pleased by my sudden appearance but refused to look at me directly. The insouciance of vixens.

  She would endure my presence simply because she was unwilling to waste the investment in her hunt. I was hunting too and knew how she felt: the intensity, the coiled energy, the hope.

  I felt guilty for having imposed on her radiant quest. I passed on the opposite side of the river, guiding the boat through the shallow channel that hugged the melaleucas and wattles growing on the bank. I looked back at her when I could take my eye from the navigation, fascinated by her high-stepping stealth.

  And I thought of you. Once again it took me days to return your call, and you probably think I’m rude or neglectful, but I try to avoid the telephone, as you know, and my attention is so thoroughly in debt to the river, the insistence of its life.

  The mist was thick at dawn. It hung like the gauze curtains you see in the back rooms of some old hotels where any welcome is reserved for the public areas. The forgotten rooms where guests would stay in more prosperous times are left to decay, to shred, to dream old tattered dreams. The river mist wreathed in frayed drifts like that grey gauze of disappointment.

  I had to peer into those old shabby rooms to find the river banks and the landmarks I used to follow the channel in the sandy river’s course. At last I could make out old Geoff’s fence. He shot himself last year. I wish he hadn’t. Took it bad when he had to sell the farm. The town blamed her but I’d seen them only a month before he died. Fishing together. They seemed happy. But how can you tell? Was the fox insouciant or careless? I chose the pride of insouciance because I was just an observer, as distant from the true workings of a fox’s brain as I was from the motivations of most humans. Just an intrigued observer. No gift other than curiosity.

  I loved Geoff. When I returned prodigal to the rivers after twenty-five years away, Geoff was delighted to see me and I clung to his welcome. He sat me down to remind me of a cricket game we’d played together thirty-two years ago.

  Geoff loved his cricket, and loved talking about his two-game career. In Geoff’s version of events his contribution was vivid – not overly embellished, but his ordinariness was central to the play. It was a great way to be welcomed.

  I wish you hadn’t done it, Geoff. I can’t bear to look at your hillsides now.

  Then I passed Byron’s farm. He was a city man, a nerve nut, nose eroded by alcohol. He decided to become a market gardener but the tomato wilt got him. Though really it was the absence of his wife. She couldn’t stand the loneliness of the river, the dawn mists parting reluctantly like the shrouds in a funeral parlour. Byron couldn’t explain its beauty and she couldn’t bear the awful screaming of the yellow-bellied glider, the haunting white ghostliness of the masked owl. And its call: like death itself.

  Byron grieved and so, after another year of battling the wilt, he left the hothouses and went back to the suburbs. For love.

  And the next farm, on the bluff above Byron’s empty gardens, belongs to a Samoan abalone diver. His brother was shot by a gay man who had no other answer for the derision he was dealt. The surviving brother played one game of cricket just so he could use his dead brother’s bat. Geoff would have loved it. So did I. I taught both brothers. Wild men of the sea, lovely lost Samoans. And the other man is out of prison now and he’s still lost.

  The mist still obscured the landmarks and I peered through its veils to find the sandy beach that marked a treacherous bend. A mate saved a kid
’s life there when he cut the fishing line tangled around a toddler’s leg. The other end was attached to an eighty-pound mulloway heading for Bass Strait. That toddler’s father later sold the riverbank farm to Phillip, a man who made his fortune recovering swamplands in the environmental eighties. The river community hated him for allowing the salt water to resume its old course across the paddocks. Old Geoff didn’t like it either, and sawed off the two giant ironbark gateposts, which Phillip used to block the communal roadway. Well, Geoff thought it was communal; Phillip thought it was his land. Geoff sawed his posts off and told me of his act of defiance with enormous glee. He even rubbed his hands together as he retold the story as if he was in some rural cartoon.

  Geoff was dead now and Phillip was ill, but it was Phillip who had taken in Geoff’s ancient blind terrier, Mate, after Geoff died. Funny world.

  Phillip was combative, but he would say assertive. He did not get along with the abalone diver across the river. Being a fisherman, Dean liked fast boats, even though one of them was a yacht.

  I loved seeing that yacht on the river. Phillip saw a fast boat.

  And their upstream neighbour was Marion. Some of Marion’s partners weren’t evidence of her ability to make good choices. One of her men set himself alight after an argument as I happened to be leaving the hotel adjoining her house. I saw all Marion’s kids, including one I didn’t know she had, vaulting the fence. I had taught them all except the one who’d escaped education completely. No homework to be handed in tomorrow, I thought as the house burnt down.

  But she was a great person, Marion, full of life and cheek. I was surprised when she moved in with Col, but on more thorough consideration it was her most inspired choice.

  Col was a Jackson of Jacksons Bridge, and his family had held the farm since it was first cleared. Some said the Jacksons had Aboriginal blood, but that claim could be levelled at most of the district families who could trace their inheritance back three or four generations. It was a lonely river. My great-grandfather got lonely too, but on a different river.

  Col played in those golden cricket games that were so vivid in Geoff’s memory. But Col was even worse than Geoff, although he was the best horseman in East Gippsland. Col indulged his cattle’s roaming personalities just so he had an excuse to ride through the mountains looking for them. He never built a fence in his life, preferring to ride into New South Wales or up into the Alps to retrieve his esteemed line of crossbred duffers. Ayrshire being among the sires. My Ayrshire, my broken fence. Thanks, Col.

  If you’re chasing your cattle, and those of farmers less attentive to stock control, across a couple of state borders you need good dogs. Col had about thirty mixed-breed border-collie-kelpie-dingo-beagles. Bad dogs. Savage, independent, bloody near feral mongrels. Col’s cattle-breeding techniques were also applied to the refinement of his cattle dogs’ pedigree.

  I was milking one misty morning. That old river mist was a river in itself and we got it in all seasons. Even as high up as my farm on the Maramingo, a wilder tributary of the wild Jinnor just before it joins the Wallagaraugh. It was breathtaking to watch the stealthy grey steal entire mountains from your gaze only to reveal them a moment later – a flick of the magician’s wrist.

  My jersey, Milly, was a darling cow and let me press my face into her loin while I milked her. We had an agreement about the amount of milk I could take before she’d stamp her foot to remind me the rest was for her calf.

  But this particular morning of funereal mist she swung her head to look down into the valley long before we’d reached the point of agreed shares. I peered beneath her steaming belly and could see these mongrel wild dogs. Two, three, six … Jesus, nine. Col. He must have been doing one of his interstate stocktaking visits, or bringing his cattle on a raid to my Ayrshire bull. Thanks, Col.

  On an earlier occasion, I had docked my old open clinker on Col’s beach beside the bridge so I could remove the Simplex engine and take it to be repaired by Larry Blair. But don’t start me on the Blairs. When I turned up to re-install the motor, Nadgee was no longer there. She was dubbed Nadgee by Doug Barrow senior, who sailed her down the coast from Narooma and surfed her across the bar into the Mallacoota lakes. The Barrows were one of those wild early families, and their forefathers had overlanded from Sydney across the Alps to Bombala in 1832. I had bought a bed off old Doug once and on the back of the bedhead was scrawled in chalk Barrow, Bombala, 1834. It was an ugly bed but I kept it for the chalk of Australian history. But don’t start me on the Barrows, either.

  The important thing was that Nadgee was gone. I enquired of Col as to the boat’s location. ‘Gawn,’ he said, ‘in the flood.’ A week previous we’d had a few centimetres of rain – not enough to take a styrofoam cup off the bank. I wondered how much Col’s riverside enterprises benefited from the disappearance of the clinker.

  Did I say I wasn’t going to start on the Blairs? Well, you can’t talk about the river without mentioning them. When Larry Blair’s wife, May, left him, she took up residence with a very peculiar man in a very peculiar caravan on the opposite bank of the river from where she was born as a member of the Jacksons of Jackson’s Bridge. She said Larry was mean and had individualised the meaning of the marriage contract. The caravan was her way of returning to the seat of the family estate.

  Larry was an old fisherman turned boat-hire magnate and lived in a broken wooden house on a green bank of the lower lake. He knew everything there was to know about the Simplex engine. He could fix the magneto by putting it beside his wood stove. Worked a treat. Blocked fuel lines, seized pistons – he had a rural solution for each problem. Except marriage.

  He looked most of all like Steptoe from Steptoe and Son, and had a wheedling little voice and licked his lips and hunched his shoulders whenever he spoke so that it felt like a conspiracy whenever he talked to you about the weather or a cow with mastitis. I thought May was right.

  The German baker said that Larry would never have the right change for his bread; he’d always be short. The baker kept a book. Larry never paid. The baker never forgot. May was right.

  Above Jackson’s Bridge old Simmonds had a farm where he boiled down wallabies and dead chooks for his pigs. Local women used to have Christmas parties on the farm where they bounced around naked, so it was rumoured. Everybody has to let their hair down once in a while.

  And above the captain’s block was old Burgess. I never knew him, only saw him once in a boat he was rowing upstream with the crudest pair of mismatched oars I’d ever seen.

  Burgess would never go into town. He’d leave anonymous parcels of fish on people’s back steps at dawn, and they’d leave groceries and grog on his. The secret transactions of the unseen. Fair proportion of grog in the groceries.

  When I had arrived as a teacher in the seventies, all the river people told me the original teacher used to row a long skiff as far upstream as Burgess’s to teach all the river kids. This was long before Burgess arrived, of course, but that teacher’s students were the Jacksons and Blairs and Barrows and Donaldsons. Wild kids. No shoes, no interest, but the best ship handlers on the east coast of the continent.

  Across the river from Burgess was Bobby Nicholls, who had married a local Yuin woman. I regretted selling my tractor to Bobby. I had bought it from Robert Arnot’s father, who farmed on the New South Wales end of the river, above the highway. The Arnots were an old, old family from Timbillica, and the tractor I bought was the old man’s first, and he parted with it like he knew his life as a real man was over. From now on he’d be a man who didn’t farm.

  I remembered harvesting hay with him a year before he gave the farm to his son. It was a hot day in December and we were using ancient steel-tined hay forks to pitch mown hay onto a wooden cart that the old man towed behind the tractor to a shed with slatted walls. Old Man Arnot’s father had built that shed to dry corn; it was one of the first farm structures in the entire district. If you didn’t count the thatched houses of Aborigines. Which, of course, no on
e did. We pitched hay all day, the old man and I, in grim silence. He was one of those quiet country gentlemen, but that was not the cause of his silence; he just resented that I was young and he was old.

  The tractor I had bought was a hundred years more recent than the shed, but it was still old. A Fordson Major petrol-kero model – you had to start it with kerosene before switching over to petrol. It was a beast, could pull anything, drag the stumps of old trees straight out of the ground as if they were pensioners’ teeth. I loved it. My daughter did too, and had insisted on riding behind me. No roll bar, not many brakes, and when I thought of that little red-haired girl riding between those giant wheels I shuddered. Tractors and wild river children.

  Anyway, I sold it to Bobby Nicholls. In a hurry. I’d split up with the girl’s mother and the farm had to be sold. Probably the reason why Geoff killed himself. No regard for himself without the farm.

  But what Bobby Nicholls did to that tractor really upset Robert, old Robert Arnot’s son, because it had been his father’s pride and joy. The Arnots had arrived in Australia to go whaling with Ben Boyd. They were proud of their history and prouder of their tractors. Bobby Nicholls was a humourless fundamentalist Christian, and he oxy-torched three inches off each side of the tractor’s grader blade so it would fit onto his trailer. The act of a heathen, Robert believed.

  The Arnots were family of mine. My son-in-law’s grandmother was Jean Arnot of Wangarabell. How could such remote acts of chance occur on such a lonely river?

  At the top of the river on the day of the fox, I caught my fish from a snag I’d last fished six years earlier with Robert’s brother-in-law, Kevin, two weeks before he died of a heart attack. I couldn’t fish that river without thinking of Kevin, or Geoff, or my tractor, or Larry Blair’s funny way of talking.

  And I thought of you, mate, when I saw the fox – not because you remind me of a fox, but because as soon as I saw such a strange thing I wondered who would be interested in the story. Do all people do that as they watch an event unfold, or is it just us, the storytellers?