Born in Blood Collection Volume 1: Collection of books 1-4

by Cora Reilly

  “Antonio?” I asked shakily, starting to feel faint. I couldn’t believe he was actually in front of me, alive and in one piece. How was that even possible? They’d found his body; a badly burned body without a head. “Shhh,” he said quickly. “Not so loud.”

  Antonio approached me and pulled me into a tight hug. At first I was board stiff, but then I sank into the embrace. “We need to hurry. I saw your bodyguard outside in the car. I don’t want him to get suspicious and come in.”

  Tears burned in my eyes. I drew back, my eyes tracing the familiar lines of his face. “You are alive.”

  He smiled. It was slightly off. “I am.”

  “Does Frank know?”

  “Yes, that’s why he wanted to meet with you. I sent him.”

  “Why didn’t he tell me?”

  “Because I wanted him to figure out your loyalties first.”

  My loyalties? Had Antonio worried that I would tell Dante about him? I frowned. “Okay…why did someone try to kill me when I met with him?”

  Antonio laughed. “I didn’t try to kill you. I aimed a couple of feet above your head. I had to help Frank. Dante would have killed him if I hadn’t done something.”

  I still didn’t like that he’d aimed anywhere near me. The bullets had hit the wall less than two feet above my head. “So you were there the entire time and didn’t tell me?”

  “Dante and his bodyguard showed up when I was about to step out. He ruined everything.”

  “How did you even manage to follow me here without Enzo noticing anything?”

  “I was one of them once. I could outsmart that guy any day.”

  My head was spinning. I took a step back from him. “I cried at your grave! I mourned you for months.”

  “I know,” he said. “But I couldn’t tell you about my plan.”

  “Why not? You didn’t have a problem telling Frank.”

  Antonio gave me a pleading look. “I didn’t want to involve you in this. It would have been too dangerous.”

  “Who was the body they found? He had your favorite knife with him.”

  “He was just a homeless stranger,” he said dismissively.

  “You killed him and made it look as if the Russians killed you?”

  Antonio nodded, a proud glint in his eyes. “I cut off his head so they couldn’t try to identify me through my teeth.”

  I stared. “The Outfit sought revenge after they found you! They attacked the Russians and killed several of them.”

  “The Russians deserve death. The world is a better place without them.”

  The world would be a much better place without many of the people I knew. “I can’t believe you didn’t tell me. I married you to help you, and you didn’t trust me enough to involve me in your plan. Have you ever considered that maybe I wanted out of this life as well?”

  “I did trust you. I still do, Val. There are few people I trust more, but I couldn’t involve you in this. And how could I have taken you with me? It would have looked suspicious if we’d faked your death as well.”

  I couldn’t see how that would have looked more suspicious. We could have staged a crime scene in our house and burned two bodies. But I wouldn’t have wanted an innocent to die so I could follow Antonio. It wasn’t as if I loved Antonio like I had at the beginning of our marriage.

  “And be honest, would you really want to leave this life behind?”

  I shook my head. This was the only life I knew. I wouldn’t even know how to function in normal society. I scanned his face. “But why are you here? If you wanted to leave this life behind, meeting with me isn’t exactly clever. Why are you even still in Chicago? Shouldn’t you be somewhere in the Caribbean or in South America, enjoying your newfound freedom from the mob?”

  “I heard about your marriage to Dante Cavallaro.”

  I scoffed. “You didn’t come back here because of that. Why would you get out of hiding for that? You were safe.”

  Antonio looked away. I could tell that he was reluctant to answer my question. “I tried. Frank and I tried a different life, a normal life. I had enough money to live comfortably in Mexico for a while, and then the plan was to find jobs, to live as normal people do.”

  “And?”

  “I couldn’t do it, Val. I tried to work but it was degrading to work as if I was a nothing, to work for peanuts, to live without money. I was bored out of my mind. I tried for a while for Frank’s sake, but he realized I was unhappy, and so we decided to return to Chicago.”

  “But why?” I asked. “You can hardly waltz into Dante’s office and tell him you’re alive. You broke your oath by leaving the Outfit. You betrayed them. They won’t welcome you with open arms.”

  Antonio nodded grimly. “I know. Don’t you think I know that?”

  Something dawned on me. “You want me to talk to Dante so he pardons you? You want me to come up with some crazy lie that will save your life?” I wasn’t sure there was anything I could do or say that would stop Dante from putting a bullet in Antonio’s head. He’d broken the mob’s cardinal rule. You couldn’t just leave the Outfit. It was for life.

  Antonio grabbed my shoulder, eyes imploring. “If I could, I would undo what I’ve done. I wouldn’t leave you behind as a widow. You know I love you, Val, right?”

  I exhaled slowly. “I know, Antonio. You told me more than once that you loved me like a sister.”

  Antonio brought us even closer. “Maybe I could love you more than that. Maybe if we tried again, we could be more than a fake couple.”

  “What are you saying?”

  “I want to return to my old life, to you. I want to try for real this time.”

  I was more confused than ever before in my life. “Antonio, you have Frank. What about him? You are gay.”

  Antonio avoided my eyes. “I know. But you could be the exception. Frank wouldn’t mind if I acted as a husband should. He doesn’t mind sharing.”

  I blinked, on the verge of laughter. “You want what…a love triangle?” I wasn’t sure what else to call this. It was too ridiculous to even consider.

  Antonio gave me his most endearing smile. The one that brought back memories of our youth together, the one that had manipulated me countless times before.

  “I’m married to Dante now. You aren’t even my husband anymore. You were declared dead.”

  “But you can’t be married to Dante if I’m not dead, because our marriage is still valid.”

  “You realize that Dante might be reluctant to agree to your insane suggestion, right?” I said. This was surreal. Maybe this conversation wasn’t happening. Maybe I was asleep and dreaming.

  “Yes. He wouldn’t allow it, and he would kill me if he found out I’m alive. That’s why I need your help.”

  Dread settled in my bones like a leaden weight. “What kind of help?”

  “I know you didn’t want to marry Dante. He’s always been a cold bastard. You can’t be happy with him.”

  “Antonio,” I said imploringly. “Spit it out.”

  “When I decided to return to Chicago, I contacted a couple of my former friends who aren’t too fond of the way the Cavallaros run the Outfit, especially Dante with his new rules. I told them I had faked my death because I was sick of serving under the Cavallaros’ rule. They welcomed me with open arms. They want change as much as I do. Dante hasn’t been Capo for very long. This is the perfect moment to force a change.”

  I swallowed, worrying where this was going. “Who are those friends?”

  Antonio shook his head. “I can’t tell you, but they want what’s best for the Outfit. Once they are in power, I can safely return and be a part of the Outfit again.”

  “Did you tell them you were gay?”

  “Not yet, but I will eventually.”

  “They won’t accept you.”

  “That’s for me to worry about when the time comes. What matters is that I will get the chance to live in Chicago again, to return to you.”

  “What is it you want me to
do?” I asked quietly.

  “It’s too risky for us to attack Dante in the open. We don’t want an open war. Once Dante is out of the way, things will fall into place. Old Fiore Cavallaro will be easier to dispose of once his son is dead. But we need you for our plan to work.” Antonio pulled a small vial out of his pocket and checked the aisle, but we were the only customers, except for an elderly lady at the counter chatting up the pharmacist. He held out the vial in front of him. “You are the only one I trust enough to ask and who has direct access to Dante.”

  “What’s that?” I whispered, even though I knew.

  “It’s poison, Val. All you have to do is sneak it into Dante’s drink, and you’ll be rid of him.”

  I backed away, out of Antonio’s hold. My stomach was churning. “You want me to kill my husband?”

  “I’m your husband, Val.” Antonio grabbed my hand and pulled me toward him, eyes imploring. “Does he love you like I do? Does he even care about you? We’ve known each other all our lives.”

  I couldn’t breathe. I searched Antonio’s eyes for a sign that he was joking, but found none. He held out the vial. “Take it.”

  I grabbed the vial, stared at the colorless liquid inside of it.

  “He won’t notice. It’s tasteless and odorless, don’t worry.”

  I still didn’t pocket the vial. I seemed unable to move a muscle.

  “It works quickly. It’s a muscle relaxant, and causes the lung and heart to stop working. A quicker death than he deserves.”

  “You really want me to kill someone?” My voice was almost toneless. “If something goes wrong and I’m found out, they’ll kill me.” Or more accurately, Dante would probably kill me himself after such a betrayal.

  “You are too clever to be caught, Val. And once he’s dead, we’ll be taking over power in no time. You’ll be under my protection. Everything will be fine.” Antonio leaned down and brushed my lips lightly with his. I was too stunned to pull back. Slowly I eased the vial into my bag.

  “You should do it tonight. The sooner we move, the better. I don’t want to risk staying in Chicago like this for much longer.”

  “Does Frank know about all this?” I had to ask, had to know. I fought the tears that wanted to rise into my eyes.

  “Yes. It was actually his suggestion. He thinks it’s safer than risking a gunfight. Dante is a damn good shot, and the bastard never lowers his guard, except when he’s home.” Antonio smiled brightly at me. I was a means to an end for him—again. Once before he’d used my feelings for him to lure me into a fake marriage, and now he wanted to manipulate me into killing my husband. Maybe I should have tried to talk him out of it, but the moment I’d tried, he would have gotten suspicious, gone into hiding again and attacked Dante another time. It was too much of risk.

  “I’d really feel more comfortable if I knew the names of your friends. I trust you, but what about them?”

  “I trust them.”

  I gave him a pleading look.

  Antonio brushed a strand of hair from my face. The gesture was so tender and loving that it made me choke up with emotion. Antonio must have seen it because he nodded. “I can give you one name, but the others will stay a secret until things have settled down.”

  “Okay.”

  “Raffaele, you know him from the casino, right?”

  Oh, I knew Raffaele. And he was the last person in the Outfit who’d ever accept Antonio’s homosexuality. “Yes, I do.”

  I was close to bursting into tears. To hide it from Antonio, I pretended to look at my watch. When I was sure I was in control of my emotions, I raised my face.

  “So will you do it tonight?” Antonio asked almost eagerly. “For me, for us?”

  I patted my bag where the vial was hidden, then I reached up and cupped Antonio’s cheek. “I’ve loved you since I was fourteen. I was so happy when we married.”

  Antonio smiled, eyes brimming with satisfaction. “I know, Val. I should have been a better husband to you.”

  Yes, you should have been.

  “But soon things will change. And this time everything will be better.”

  I nodded. No, it won’t.

  I drew back. “I need to return to the car before Enzo gets suspicious.”

  “Here’s my number. Call me once it’s done, okay?” He slipped a piece of paper into my pocket.

  I nodded again.

  “Say goodbye to Dante from me,” Antonio said with a wink. He was still so very confident in the power he’d once held over me, but I wasn’t the doting, naïve girl I used to be.

  I turned around and slowly walked out of the pharmacy and back to the car.

  Goodbye.

  CHAPTER TWENTY

  I twisted the vial in my hands over and over again. The tears had dried by now, and my face felt hot and sticky from crying, but my decision was made. There was only one thing I could do. Dante’s step rang in the corridor, and I quickly pocketed the poison. The door opened and Dante stepped in, then stopped with a surprised look on his face when he saw me standing in front of the window.

  “Valentina, what are you doing here?” His gaze swept over my teary face. “Did something happen? Are you all right?”

  “We need to talk.”

  Dante closed the door slowly, every motion deliberate and calculated. He knew something was up. I didn’t have to see my face to know it gave everything away, not only because of my swollen eyes. I had never been so shaken in my life as I was today. He approached me carefully, then stopped out of reach. I searched his face for something, some kind of gentleness, but he was only alert. This was the man who’d accused me of having cheated on him, who’d rejected our unborn child because he thought it wasn’t his. A man who never let me get close. Would he ever love me? Would I ever find in this marriage what I so desperately wanted?

  Dante’s cold scrutiny was such a stark change from Antonio’s tenderness and easygoing smiles. Antonio had promised me to give me what I wanted, to be a husband I deserved. Three years ago I’d have done everything to hear those words from him, even slipped poison into the glass of someone who wanted Antonio dead. But somehow in the last months of my marriage to Dante, something had changed. My heart had moved on from one unattainable man to the next. Despite everything Dante had said and done, he was my husband and I had come to love him, no matter how stupid that made me. He was the father of my child, even if he didn’t want to believe it.

  “Valentina?” A hint of impatience crept into Dante’s voice.

  “I saw Antonio today.”

  Dante frowned. “You went to his grave?”

  “No,” I said with a hysteric note. “I saw him in person. He isn’t dead.”

  Dante became still. I could tell that he wasn’t sure if he should believe me. He probably thought I was losing it. “What do you mean?”

  Tears spilled out. “What I said. He isn’t dead.”

  Dante’s face hardened but he remained silent.

  “That’s why Frank contacted me. Antonio was there that night at the warehouse. He shot at us to save Frank. It wasn’t the Russians.”

  “Why did you meet him without telling me after he tried to kill you once already?”

  “I didn’t! He followed me into the pharmacy today.”

  Suspicion was edged into Dante’s face. “Why didn’t you call Enzo? Where was he?” He didn’t sound like a husband; he sounded like he was my Boss and I was one of his soldiers.

  “I don’t know. I was shocked. I thought Antonio was dead and then suddenly I’m staring at his face. I wanted to hear him out. He told me he faked his death to escape the Outfit and live with Frank.”

  “And now he’s back. Does he want my forgiveness? I don’t have any to give. I hope he doesn’t expect me to give him a warm welcome. The only thing he can have is a quick death.”

  I wrapped my arms around my middle. “He doesn’t want to ask for your forgiveness.”

  Dante searched my face.

  “He wants you dead. He and a
few others want you and your father gone so they can take over power.”

  Dante’s jaw flexed. “Do they now? And how do they intend to do that?”

  “Antonio asked me to poison you.”

  Dante’s eyes bored into mine. “Why would he think you’d agree?”

  “Because he’s certain I still love him. Because he trusts me. Because it’s probably obvious to everyone how unhappy I am.” My hand unconsciously moved to my still mostly flat stomach. There was only the slightest bump visible when I was naked. Dante’s eyes followed the movement, and some of the hardness around his eyes lessened. “And what did you tell him?”

  I made an exasperated sound. “Would I be telling you about all this if I wanted to kill you? It was bad enough that you accused me of cheating and didn’t believe me when I told you I was pregnant with your child, although you are the only man I’ve ever been with. But this? Thinking I’d agree to kill you, this is too much, even for me.”

  Dante walked up to me and touched my upper arms lightly. “I didn’t ask what you decided. I didn’t think you’d kill me. I asked what you told Antonio. There’s a difference.”

  “I pretended to agree with his plan. I worried he’d find another way to kill you.”

  “Probably. And I bet he would have tried to kill you too.”

  I sucked in a breath. “Antonio would never harm me.”

  “Are you sure? This is a man who goes to great lengths to get his way, from what I know.”

  “I don’t know. I don’t know anything anymore.”

  Dante kept his hands on my arms. “Did he tell you who else is involved?”

  I nodded numbly. “He mentioned Raffaele, but he didn’t want to tell me the other names.”

  “Okay,” Dante said gently. “Do you have a way to get in contact with him?”

  “You are going to kill him.”

  “I’m going to kill them all, Valentina. I have to.”

  I stared into his determined blue eyes. No hesitation, no pity, no mercy. “I have his number.”

  “You will send him a text saying you gave me the poison, and now you’re panicking because you don’t know what to do with my dead body. Ask him to meet you at the warehouse again.”