Love Grows In The Dark

by Eli Lowe

  Then why was he behaving like this?

  Was it only because Lizzie called me a whore? It could not be, cause words like this from others were not new to me for sure.

  Or maybe he was feeling guilty for what he did a while ago, without even thinking much about the consequences.

  Maybe he was more disgusted with himself than the one, on whom he was venting his anger right at this instant.

  If yes, then he should be.

  “Can you not see, Markus? She is not worthy of your attention. No matter how much you like her, she will again crawl to another one's bed in the next moment if she gets the chance.” Lizzie's nasal voice pulled me back from my thoughts only to realise that the situation was not going to go any better as I already saw what was coming next, which she could not, obviously.

  “You are exactly defining yourself, not Summer. She is not like you all.” Markus exploded again without caring much about all the other students around us who were now watching us for their little fun.

  “Did you not see how she was dying to run after our Kazan just a while ago, even after she kissed you. Then how she is so different?” Whatever Lizzie just said fell on my ears indeed, but as if I could hear only one phrase out of all, which successfully made my blood boil in an instant.

  Did she just say 'our Kazan'?

  I could not hold myself back anymore as it was enough for me already to tolerate all her nonsense, at least not when I was in no better mood right now.

  I moved my hands ever so quickly only to shove her plastic face on the wall with quite a good force, while I did not let loose my grip on her neck even for a second. I twisted her hands behind, breaking a few of her bones for sure cause she did not stop screaming at all. And that was what I wanted her to feel for what she just said unconsciously.

  “Did you just say that Kazan is yours? Since when, you bitches?

  Listen to me carefully.

  He is mine.

  Kazan is only mine, and if any of you dares to come near him or if any of you dare to take his name even for once, since today, I will come and rip you off, so that you will not be there to do the same anymore.

  Do. you. get. that?” I kept banging the wall with her head ever so brutally that I could not even realise that she had passed out already, a while ago.

  Just when I loosened my grip on her, Lizzie's limp body fell on the floor without any mercy, only for her friends to drag her to the school infirmary, later.

  I looked around only to see that the whole corridor was completely crowded yet there was a menacing silence around us for the time being. Everyone who was watching us till now, just for fun, now became totally terrified to see what just happened without much of their expectations. At least their wide eyes were saying so. And it was not just them who were completely shocked by my reaction but Markus too.

  His wide eyes did not leave me even for a second, all this while.

  And I had no intention to care for him right now, as I had a more important thing to do.

  So, without waiting for another second I rushed to find Kazan, but little did I know that Markus would follow me too, as I heard him from behind,

  “Summer, listen to me please.” Markus shouted from behind while he made sure to run faster only to catch up with me.

  “I don't want to listen to you anymore, cause you did enough for me. Thanks, Markus, for making me lose the only good thing which happened to me, at last.” I could not help but yell at him, cause I was becoming more and more frustrated, thinking that I might lose Kazan forever.

  I was willing to run anywhere and everywhere only if the path would lead me to my mate, Kazan. But the problem was that I did not know where he had gone. No matter how hard I tried to find him out, I just could not, as he was nowhere inside the school right at this instant.

  Still, I had no intention to stop until I could find him, but something else forced me to halt with whatever I was doing, ever so desperately.

  “Summer!

  I am begging you. Please stop.

  Listen to me.

  If you want Kazan that badly and if you believe that he is the only one for you, then I will bring him to you, I promise.

  But, before that, please let me explain. I did not want to ruin whatever you had with Kazan at all. Believe me. Snatching you from him was the last thing I wanted to do. Still, as if my heart just does not want to listen to me and kept dragging me towards you, even when I knew that I should have stopped myself way before.

  You know,

  I have never felt the strong bond what you two could feel for each other, but then again, it does not mean that I never wanted to feel the same. Cause I do, I desperately wanted to feel the love, always. And maybe that is why I just can not overlook the pull between me and you, so what it is not that effective for us, but still, I felt that it was enough for me.

  But, I guess, I was so blind to realise that it would also hurt those whom I never wanted to hurt ever in my life.” Markus kept saying, while those helpless blue eyes kept bothering me all this while as if I was the reason for such pain in them.

  I had no idea what to say or what to do. Not a single word came out of my lips, as I became completely trapped in-between the two, Kazan and Markus.

  Even though I could be only Kazan's, still I just could not hurt Markus either. He is not a bad person, and I know that for sure, now.

  “Summer, tell me just for once. It is only Kazan whom you want, right?” At last, Markus stopped with the very question which I wanted to answer him from the very beginning. But only if he was quick enough to ask me that a bit earlier, then none of us might have to see this day, ever.

  “Yes.” I said.

  But even before I could say any further, Markus declared,

  “I will get him back for you. I will clear up the mess which I had created in the first place. So, do not worry Summer. I will make everything as good as before.” With that Markus left without looking back.

  And I kept standing at the exact same place as before.

  After school, I went straight to my work at the cafe with a lot of things in my mind to worry about, as I still did not get any news from Markus, neither could I see Kazan since then.

  My heart kept shattering but still, I could do nothing.

  And at last, to the least of my expectation, my phone rang tonight. I quickly picked up the phone without even looking who was calling, hoping that I might get some news about Kazan. Which I did definitely. But little did I know that I was about to hear something which I had never expected.

  “Hey, Sam.” I heard Jenny from the other end of the call.

  “Jenny? Yes, what happened?” I asked, keeping myself as calm as possible, even when I knew how impatient I was becoming from inside with each passing second.

  “Umm... Well, I think you need to come here, Sam, at the club, where I work.” She said while her voice appeared a bit hesitant to me at this instant.

  “Why? Is everything alright, Jenny? Did Kaith do anything wrong?” I enquired worriedly.

  “No, no. Everything is fine with me. But I was worried about someone else, actually. I think you better come as quickly as possible.” Jenny replied which made me even more anxious for some reason which I did not know yet.

  “Yes, I am coming.” I rushed to get my bike without wasting a single second any further, as something inside me kept telling me the whole time that whatever I was going to find next, would not be any good at all.

  “But, Jenny. You must tell me at least, what is bothering you? Who is it about?” I asked right after, while getting on the bike only to turn my wheels towards those darkest streets of our town.

  I knew what happens there.

  And that was why I was afraid to find out what I might have to go through in the next moment, without much of my choices.

  “Umm.. It's... It's Kazan, I am talking about. He is here.” Jenny's words shook me completely. I had never imagined that I would get to hear about Kazan in this way.

 
“What do you mean?” I freaked out.

  “I mean, he is here, Sam. And he kept getting himself drunk since he arrived.” That was what I heard from Jenny before I hung up only to speed up my bike to reach the club as fast as I could.

  Episode 43

  Summer's P.O.V

  I was standing in front of the entrance of the night club for quite some time.

  No, it was not that I was not allowed to get in there, like before. But the reason was only me this time, and there is no doubt that I was afraid to see whatever was waiting for me behind the door of this club. Even though I rushed here with just one phone call from Jenny, while I did not think much about what I was about to face next, my legs were like not at all willing to move forward even for a bit, when I was already standing at the destined place.

  It just needed a few more steps for me to get myself into the club, but that was what I just could not compel myself to take due to some unknown fear.

  I had never realised before coming here that I would be hesitating to go inside, in such a way. My heart kept pounding inside my chest like some crazy. Blood was already rushing inside my veins faster than ever, causing me to sweat even in this chilled dark night.

  Life had always been so cruel to me before, and I was scared tonight to get totally ensured that it would never cease to be the same to me ever for the rest of my life.

  And I was indeed lacking the little bit of courage to take just a few more steps.

  But even after all these fears, I knew that I had to do exactly what I came here for, in the first place. I knew that I had to go in...if I could not gather enough courage for me, then I had to be brave enough for my mate...for Kazan who was now breaking into pieces, only because of me.

  I pushed the door open and let myself in, thinking about the one and only person right now, who needed me tonight. Yes, for Kazan.

  The loud music, soon, engulfed me ever so mercilessly while the flashing of different lights deprived me to see others properly. The place was completely crowded where each and everyone was busy with their attempts to pleasure themselves, in their own different ways.

  The dance floor was full tonight, as people had already involved themselves in some kind of crazy rhythm like every other night, only to move their butts along with the girls who were clinging on them totally.

  Drinks were everywhere, and so were the drunkards.

  The club appeared to me like the very representation of the mess in one's life. The had no rules, no boundaries, and nothing to regret when they were here.

  Night indeed gets alive in here but in some kind of brutal way. Men become the beast and never hesitate to prey on some innocent. Yes, this place seemed exactly like that to me. The burning hell.

  I did not stop to look around to find the only one for whom I came here rushing. But I just could not get to see him yet, cause the place was huge and the crowd was enormous.

  No, my eyes could not find Kazan, but it did find the one who called to inform me about him.

  “Hey, Summer. Here. Over here.” As soon as my eyes met hers, Jenny waved at me and motioned me to go to her. She was busy serving the drinks to others when I first spotted her among the crowd. But now, as I still could not get to find Kazan, she was the only hope for me right at this instant.

  So, without further ado, I approached her while shoving the people aside a bit to make my way to her.

  “Where is he?” I asked impatiently.

  “Upstairs.” She replied quickly and pointed her finger at someplace behind me. Since I came here, I could not even realise that this place got another floor as well or maybe more. But the fact was, if she did not tell me, I might have never figured out that, while there was a whole lot of people living in the moment of their madness, which was enough to deprive me of finding my mate here tonight.

  “Okay.” With that, I did not wait for any more second and turned to get myself up to the first floor hurriedly.

  My heart beats kept increasing with each of the steps that I took, enclosing the distance between me and my mate. Still, I did not stop at all and kept climbing the steep stairs. The music started to fade away bit by a bit as I kept getting close to my destination. The increasing intense smell of my mate kept assuring me that I was going on the right track, for sure.

  And at last, I came to stop in front of a closed-door and I knew that Kazan was behind it, for sure, as the smell was telling me so.

  But my heart sank all of a sudden when I heard the shrill voices of some girls from behind the door as well. Their laughter appeared ever so menacing to my ears as if they were trying to snatch away something which belonged to me...which was always meant to be mine.

  I flung the door open violently without wasting any more time as I was in no mood to wait for my heartbeats to rise and my blood to rush due to some fears.

  I was mad.

  No, actually, I was becoming completely insane due to the extreme rage which I could feel inside me right now.

  Just when I let myself in through the doorway, a few familiar faces appeared before my eyes. I saw Kazan, but he was not alone. Jeremy and Markus were there too, and so were some girls whom I had never seen before.

  Kazan was sitting at the furthest and loneliest corner of the room, with a glass full of beer in his hand while a few more empty glasses were lying here and there on the table in front of him.

  And Markus?

  Well, he was sitting at the exact opposite of Kazan while all he was trying to do was to stop Kazan from behaving like such.

  And I just could not figure out from where the girls came from but they were pleased enough to accompany the boys ever so willingly while Jeremy seemed so into them.

  “What are you doing here, Summer?” Markus stood up from his seat with wide eyes just when he realised that it was me who dared to interrupt them in between whatever they were busy with.

  I noticed that Kazan saw me too, but he stayed the least bothered about my presence right now.

  “You tell me. What are you all doing here? Would you not introduce me to your new friends right here?” I gritted my teeth unconsciously as my eyes did not fail to see that the girls were now opting for Kazan to linger on. And Kazan said nothing. He just gulped down the rest of the beer, keeping his stern eyes fixed on me.

  Why?

  Why was he doing this now?

  What was he trying to get by driving me crazy with such insecurity?

  What did I do?

  I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry but the pathetic thing was that I just can not do whatever I feel, not now, not before, not ever.

  “Summer, you are thinking it all wrong. They came with me. I mean, when Jeremy called me and informed me about Kazan, I rushed here instantly to take him back. But, you know, people kind of know me here a bit. So, I ran into them coincidentally just when I got in and they came up here along with me.” Markus tried to ease the moment for a bit by telling me what happened actually, but it seemed that nothing was meant to work on me right now to calm down even for the slightest bit.

  I can understand that the girls came with Markus, but how can I overlook the sight before me when I could clearly see that they were all over Kazan right now, and Kazan was not at all pushing them away.

  He was enjoying it?

  Really?

  I could not help but scream at last.

  “Get lost.” I came to stand in front of Kazan in no moment as I was desperate enough to break each and every hand which would ever try to touch my mate.

  “Who are you to tell us what to do, you bitch?” One of the girls dared to say without even realising that what could cost her for such bravery.

  “I will surely let you know who I am.” With that, I moved fast only to knock her out but I could not. Cause, a ferocious voice stopped me from doing so.

  “Move.” Kazan growled, at last, keeping his gaze fixed on me, still. As if I was the reason for his broken heart. As if it was me who betrayed him first.

  But little did I know
what was going on inside his mind right now. Cause, just when my heart was already at the verge of shattering into pieces once again, assuming that he did not want me anymore, he moved his eyes away from me at last, only to burn the other girl with his fierce gaze.

  “I said, move. Take your dirty hands off me, right now.” Kazan did not wait any longer to jerk off the hands just before he stood up finally, leaving the girls utterly shocked with his sudden move.

  “Kazan, I...” My words stayed back at my throat as I could not say any further but Kazan did.

  “I do not want to talk to you now.” He said and made his way out in an instant without bothering to hear any of my words, leaving me behind only to be all alone once again.

  I just kept standing there as I could not think anymore about what I should do now or not. Even though I came to get him back tonight but it seemed very clear to me that Kazan does not want me at all.

  I was breaking badly right at this moment.

  “Summer, give me some more time. I will make everything right once again. I will definitely talk to him. And...and I am extremely sorry that it all happened because of me, because of my stupid heart. I hope you could forgive me this time.” He kept saying but as if I could not understand any of it, as I was completely shattered right at this instant.

  Rather, I just could not believe that my mate would leave me too.

  “Summer? Are you listening to me?” Markus pulled me out of my thoughts again only to see me all clueless about whatever he was saying.

  So he said again,

  “Let me drop you back to your home. It is quite late now.” He pulled me by my wrist only to walk along with him, as I was still completely startled.

  But it seemed that we did not have to take more than a few steps just when the very familiar mountainous body blocked our way ahead.

  Yes, Kazan came back only to stand before us, once again.

  “I said, I do not want to talk to you. And that does not mean you can go out with anyone you like.” Kazan did not hold himself back from yelling at me with the utmost disgust, to the least of my expectations, just when he took a quick glimpse at my hand which was held by Markus till now.