Apolonia

by Jamie McGuire

  "So, you're allowing Benji to stick around because you want us to be friends just in case he's not a lying Majestic minion?"

  "Precisely, but not friends, an asset."

  "We're already friends."

  "Yes. This concerns me."

  "Why?"

  "I've already told you, Rory."

  "You care about me."

  He nodded.

  "Lame." I walked away, but he gripped my wrist.

  Cy kept his voice low. "Do you have any idea how difficult this situation is for me? I didn't mean to...I didn't come here meaning to get close with anyone."

  "Let's be honest. You don't get to deny me Benji because you're jealous. If you choose Apolonia, then you can't claim me, too."

  He released my wrist, clearly disgusted. "You're wrong. I wouldn't do that to you or to her."

  "I guess one girl can make someone completely contradict everything he thought was right."

  "Now you're comparing me to him?" Cy said, his face twisting to anger.

  "Are you saying you're not jealous?"

  "Jealousy is a human emotion, one I do not possess."

  "I thought you didn't lie."

  Cy began to say more, but the lights came on, and Benji careened through the door with a huge smile on his face and that ugly cat in one arm. "Found it!"

  In that moment, I realized how close Cy and I were. He noticed it, too. In unison, we stepped back, putting distance between us, fidgeting and failing miserably at appearing casual.

  Benji picked up on it, and his smile disappeared. "Everything okay in here?" The cat wriggled out of Benji's grip and ran into the back of the building.

  "Everything is great," I said, leaving them both for the front area of the radio station.

  "What did you say to her?" Benji growled. When Cy didn't answer, Benji caught up to me. "Rory...Rory!" he said, grabbing my arm gently.

  "I'm trusting you, Benji. If you make me look like an ass for it, I'll never forgive you."

  "I'll do everything I can to get them home," he said, nodding in Apolonia and Tsavi's direction, "and keep you safe. I swear on my life."

  "What about your dad?"

  "I respect him. Doesn't mean I believe in everything he does."

  "And what is that exactly?"

  "That Cy and his people pose a threat. That they want the rock Dr. Zorba found because it could protect our planet...from them."

  "Why would they think that? If that were true, Cy would have just taken the damn thing and gone home."

  "Is that what he told you?"

  "Yes. Because it's the truth, not to mention common sense."

  "What else did he tell you about it?"

  Having eased into the back and forth rhythm of our conversation, I almost answered. But something stopped me. "You're asking a lot of questions about the rock for someone who doesn't care about it."

  "Sorry," Benji said and then let go of my arm.

  Apolonia and Tsavi took turns keeping watch while Dr. Z, Benji, Cy, and I tended to the wiring inside and outside the radio station. I was stripping copper wire with a box knife and needle-nose pliers, and the boys were wrapping the copper around the antennae and linking it to the various wires of the station. Every once in a while, Benji would take a break and try to coax the cat over to him. It looked as if it had already been electrocuted once, so I wasn't surprised that it wanted nothing to do with Benji while he was wrapping copper wire.

  "Your father would have to pass into the atmosphere within fifty miles vertically in order for this frequency to reach him. You could record a message on a loop," Dr. Z said to Apolonia.

  Benji clipped his wire. "There are several radio antennae on the north hills. This radio station must redirect to them. It's possible we could divert the beam, redirect by linking the ground signal to the antennae. Hamech's ship could intercept the signal. If we knew the ship's trajectory, we could even point one of the dishes here in that direction and bypass the antennae all together."

  "I do not know," Apolonia said.

  Dr. Z shook his head. "He would have to be monitoring those antennae in order for him to pick up the signal. If we only had a way to know for sure that they were receiving the signal..."

  "Is it possible, Apolonia? That his ship could be monitoring those antennae?" Benji asked.

  "It is possible," Apolonia said, her voice monotone. She was emotional all right with the one emotion she had--anger.

  Benji shrugged. "It's better than nothing."

  The more time that passed, the more nervous Cy seemed. Even Apolonia's stoicism began to weaken. None of us were sure how much time we had before Hamech found his daughter's busted ship, and that made every passing moment even more frightening.

  My throat felt dry and scratchy, and from the way Dr. Z was clearing his throat, I knew he felt the same way. We hadn't eaten or drunk anything since the night before. No one had taken a bathroom break since early afternoon. When the boys started working with the wires, we had to turn off the power. We were all dehydrated, cold, and hungry, and that made it hard to focus.

  "Rory, you're looking pale. You should rest," Dr. Z said.

  "I'll rest when this is over," I said.

  Apolonia spoke in their language to Tsavi. Tsavi nodded and then looked to Cyrus.

  He nodded. "They're right. You should rest. Your wounds are still healing at a cellular level. Humans require REM sleep. Your body likely needs to return to that sleep cycle to complete the restorative process."

  "Don't you need to rest, too, then?" I asked.

  Cy glanced at Apolonia and Tsavi and then offered a half smile. "We're not human."

  I twisted the last copper wire and tossed the pliers to the ground. "Okay, I'll rest." In truth, I was fighting exhaustion but gauging the rest of the tired eyes in the room, not more than anyone else.

  The temperature outside had fallen dramatically in the last hour, and the old building was turning into a meat locker. I chose the space under the desk. It was surrounded by other taller equipment, and I hoped the parts of me not covered by the alien jacket wouldn't feel the draft.

  I curled up on my side, bending my arm and using it as a pillow. The cement floor was ice cold. I looked around, seeing a tarp draped over a speaker.

  "I'll get it," Benji said, grabbing it as he walked toward me.

  I moved, waiting, as he folded the tarp and then placed it where I was lying.

  "Thank you," I said, moving into the same position I was in before.

  Benji stood up without a word, but within a minute, he was back, draping a woven blanket over me. "My dad insisted I keep a blanket in the car during the winter just in case. Turns out he was right about that, too."

  "But not everything," I said, shivering under the blanket.

  Benji rubbed his hand up and down my arm, trying to help me ward off the cold. "True."

  "You're not on the same side anymore."

  "Nope."

  "How does that make you feel?"

  Benji thought for a minute and then grinned. "Pretty good. He also taught me to think for myself."

  "Do you think he'll forgive you?"

  "I don't know. Guess we'll find out when I end up in a federal prison...or not."

  I returned his smile and felt my stomach flutter when I realized he was shifting to lie down behind me. The radio station was fucking freezing, but that wasn't the only reason I wanted him next to me. Benji had been pursuing me a long time. It wasn't until Cy came into the picture that I was able to feel anything. Ironically enough, it was for Benji. Now that that door had been opened, I couldn't seem to get enough of him.

  The second Benji's body was next to mine, the shivering slowed, and I sank back to get even closer.

  "That makes twice in six hours," I said.

  Benji put his arm over the top of me and pulled me against him. "Must be my lucky day."

  I grinned and reached up to touch my fingers to his. He took my hand, lifted it to his mouth, and then touched his lips t
o the back of it.

  "I've missed you," he whispered.

  I turned my head, touching my forehead to his chin. "Nothing will ever be the same again, will it?"

  "I don't know," he said, sighing. "I guess it depends on what you're referring to. If you mean our lives before we got mixed up with aliens...probably not. If you mean our friendship before you spent the night...probably not."

  "At least you're honest."

  He touched his lips to my temple. "I don't want to go back to the way it was. You would have never let me hold you like this before."

  "I don't know. You were growing on me."

  "Yeah?" he said, looking down at me.

  I rested my head back onto my folded arm. A few months before, being alone didn't faze me. Having a boyfriend never crossed my mind.

  "Cy will be leaving soon," I said.

  "Good riddance."

  I rolled my eyes.

  Benji chuckled. "I'm only half serious." I could feel his breath blowing my hair as he spoke. "Does that mean something? For us?"

  "What do you mean?"

  "When he leaves"--he hesitated--"am I just the one who's left?"

  I frowned. "No. It doesn't mean anything, except that he's leaving."

  Benji fidgeted. He clearly wanted to say something but didn't.

  I nestled against him. "I don't know if you and I would ever work out, Benji. But what I do know is that, right now, I'm lying here in your arms, and it feels like we're all where we should be."

  "So, why are you still here? We could leave, you know. You don't have to put yourself in danger for him."

  I looked over at Cy and Apolonia, smiling at each other and stealing small touches every once in a while.

  "He's my friend, and I love him."

  "So, you're saying you love him...as a friend?"

  "I just love him. I thought it was something else, but I think helping him is just something I need to do."

  "Lucky guy," he said. A combination of jealousy, hurt, and disappointment darkened his face.

  I turned onto my back, looking up at him. "It's different with you." He tried to soften the tension around his eyes, but it was still there. I touched his cheek. "In a few hours, I'm going to tell Cy good-bye. But if I had to do that with you, I couldn't do it, Benji. I couldn't survive it if you left me."

  Benji leaned down, touching his lips to mine. It didn't matter who else was in the room or what they thought. The right pair of arms was around me, and that was all that mattered.

  Benji pulled away and began to make smooching noises with his lips. I looked up at him like he was crazy until I realized that he was trying to coax the cat into coming closer.

  "What is your obsession with that cat?"

  "I like a challenge," he said.

  "If you want him to snuggle with us, you should at least name him."

  "Okay. What do you suggest?"

  "Oh no, I've never had a pet. This is your deal. You name him. Are we even sure it's a him?"

  "Good point. It should be something unisex. Snuggles?"

  I frowned. "That is the lamest name ever."

  "Yes, but it fits the moment. Just go with it. C'mere, Snuggles. Here, boy...or girl."

  The cat was actually falling for it, and it came closer until Benji could pet it a few times.

  "See? He doesn't think it's a lame name."

  "She does, too. And when she finds out you don't have any food, she's going to patiently wait to catch you in a weak moment, so she can scratch your eyes out."

  Snuggles found a cushy spot on the blanket at my feet and padded a few times with her front paws until she finally settled in. I wasn't going to complain. She was warm.

  "Yes. She looks vicious," Benji said, his mouth just in front of my ear.

  Before long, my body melted against Benji's, and I felt myself drift off. But I didn't dream. It was just a warm, sweet darkness, the kind I had sunk into when I died. All I wanted was to lie still, heavy and relaxed against Benji. In that moment, it felt okay to just slip away even if it was forever. Staying there was easy. It was the waking-up part that was hard. This time though was even harder.

  My body lurched, and voices around me grew louder.

  "Jesus! She was convulsing!" Benji cried, his hands hovering over me. "What...what do I do?"

  "She needs water," Cy said from somewhere close.

  "I'll go," Benji said. "There's a gas station a few miles away."

  "And what do we do if you're caught?" Cy asked.

  "We don't have time to argue! I'm going!" Benji said. "Stay with her!"

  The whole world seemed compressed into a tunnel. The only thing I could feel was nausea and pain. Every nerve screamed. Every muscle tightened. I knew that if I tried to walk, I would fall.

  "Try to relax, Rory," Dr. Z said.

  Cy's hands touched my arm. "It will be over soon."

  My body lurched again. For someone who was so dehydrated, I seemed to be vomiting buckets. My palms were flat on the concrete, covered in whatever my stomach was rejecting. Maybe my whole body was rejecting what Apolonia had done to me. Maybe she had done it on purpose. Maybe she had been trying to kill me. I found the strength to look up at her through the sweat pouring into my eyes. She was standing over me, next to Tsavi. Her expression was as empty as always.

  "What did you..." I said, but I couldn't finish.

  Once Apolonia recognized what I was accusing her of, her face finally flashed an expression--anger.

  "You think I did this to you?" She took a step, but Tsavi held her back. "I saved your life," she spit out. She looked to Cy. "This is who you are so fond of? How could you care about someone so weak? Look at her! Sweat dripping from her like an epocshta."

  Tsavi pushed her back, out of sight. I could hear them arguing in their native language.

  Cy put a gentle hand on my back. "She's just upset. I told you she's emotional."

  "I don't know what an epocshta is, but I think I'm offended," I said before gagging back another wave of nausea and vomiting.

  Cy brushed back the strands of my hair that fell into my face. "Don't worry about that now."

  "What is that? That language?" I said, my voice sounding like tires over gravel.

  Cy looked at me, his eyebrows pulled together. He was scared. "Ahnktesh."

  "Ahnktesh," I said. "It's beautiful."

  "Don't talk, Rory. Save your strength."

  I vomited again.

  "She didn't mean to," Cy said, a begging tone in his voice. "None of us could know it would have this effect. Please be okay," he said before kissing the crown of my head.

  If I felt better, I might have appreciated Cy caring for me, even in Apolonia's presence. Being near death was probably the only time she would allow it.

  At some point, Benji came back with water, wet paper towels, and gas station food--Cheetos, spicy pork rinds, soda, candy bars, and Slim Jims. If it all didn't make me want to puke again, I would have thanked him. The only thing that could have made that lineup any better was ramen noodles.

  Benji sat beside me and pulled my head onto his lap, pouring the water into my mouth. The water came right back up for the first ten minutes, but after that, I felt better with each swallow. Two bottles of water later, I felt nearly back to normal.

  Cy and the professor helped me move my things to the other side of the room. The mess I'd made on my bed left us looking for more things to keep us warm. Apolonia rinsed off my clothes by pouring a bottle of water over my head. The alien clothes dried within seconds. My hair didn't. At least it wasn't as long as it used to be, or it would have never dried.

  The cat ran away when Apolonia gave me the improvised shower, but it returned when it realized Benji had food. Apparently, cats liked pork rinds and Slim Jims.

  With a new tarp beneath us and four extra-large C-Mart sweatshirts that Benji had bought from the gas station to use as a blanket, Benji, Snuggles, and I were huddled together again.

  "Be sure the lights are off, Cy
rus, and then let's try the power," Dr. Z said from the DJ booth.

  Cy did as he was told, and Tsavi went outside to switch on the power.

  "Testing," Dr. Z said into the microphone. He pushed the earphone closer to his right ear. "Agh," he growled, pulling off the earphones and letting them fall to the control panel. "We're not there yet."

  "Not yet," Cy said. "But we will be."

  A spotlight shone through the front window, and everyone who was standing ducked down. Apolonia, crouched and silent, walked across the room to look out.

  Her body relaxed. "They are gone, but they might be back. We should stay hidden."

  "Should we find something to drape over the windows?"

  Cy shook his head. "We can't take the chance of them noticing. They'll stop to take a closer look." He looked around the room. "Maybe we should all get some rest and try again in a few hours."

  Apolonia took a step toward him. She'd taken down her hair, and the black waves cascaded down past her shoulders, settling at her elbows. "I am not sure we have a few hours. I have been out of contact with Hamech for most of the day. If he tracks the Nayara to her last communication and sees that she is down...if he does not find me inside the ship...the bodies..."

  "Agreed. But we have to rest. Just a few hours. We can't continue like this."

  Apolonia nodded, still unsure. She and Tsavi made a pallet on the other side of the room. Cy made his a few feet away from the DJ booth and Dr. Z.

  The room soon grew nearly silent. The only sounds that could be heard were the professor's snoring and Benji's deep breaths.

  "I'm glad you're feeling better. I can admit now that I was afraid," Cy whispered.

  "That I was going to die or that Apolonia had tried to kill me?" I whispered back.

  "The former. She wouldn't hurt you. I know she's--"

  "Cold? Unfriendly? Hostile?"

  He chuckled quietly. "I was going to say intimidating."

  "Are you in a lovers' quarrel?"

  "What's that?"

  "Why is she sleeping across the room from you?"

  He glanced over to where Tsavi and Apolonia were sleeping. "We have very old, very different traditions. It is out of respect that we don't lie together before the wedding night."

  "Oh. So, you haven't, uh..." I trailed off, watching as his eyes lit up, and then his face displayed utter disbelief at my conclusion.

  "No, I mean, yes. Not that it's appropriate at all to be discussing. We just don't feel it's suitable to lie together amid strangers."