Eyes For You (Chasing Tomorrow Book 1)

by Abby-Rose Macchio

  Oh my god. My baby. The tears came, and they couldn't stop.

  "Okay she's okay right? She'll be okay? Tell me she'll be okay? I can come with her right to the ICU?" I asked nervously.

  "Of course you can and she is stable but we can't tell if she will be okay." He said sympathetically.

  Travis POV

  "You're here to get x-rayed Mr. Coleman?" A technician asked.

  "Yes I am but, can we hurry this up please? I need to be downstairs with my girlfriend."

  She nodded "Right this way."

  She walked me into a room with a big machine and asked me to place my wrist on the square board where the plus sign was.

  "Stay still and don't move." I nodded. She took a picture.

  She moved my wrist a few times and took pictures from every angle.

  "Okay, I'm going to sit you in this room until the doctor views the pictures. We will be as fast as possible." She told me while shutting the door.

  Come on. It doesn't take minutes to read an x-ray. I need to get back to Anastasia.

  I finally heard a knock on the door and it was the doctor.

  "Hello Mr. Coleman. You do not have a broken wrist but it is fractured and badly bruised. We are going to wrap it up in a splint for you and we'll have you wait here and someone will be in here in the next 20 minutes to do so." The doctor went to walk out.

  "No. I don't have 20 minutes. I need it done right now." I told him while getting up from the gurney.

  "Sir, you have to wait 20 minutes. There's other people waiting."

  "Get someone else to wrap my damn wrist or I'll do it myself. I need to get back down to the ER." I told him getting angry.

  "They'll be in shortly." He told me nodding.

  "Thank you."

  Elena Reilly POV

  I was sitting right outside Ana's ICU room and there were doctors and nurses all dressed in gowns and gloves walking around everywhere. "Miss Reilly?"

  I looked towards my daughter’s room.

  "Yes?" I stood up.

  "Yes?" I looked back at the sound of Travis coming up to us.

  "You can go in and see her now. I ask only two at a time. There will be a nurse in there 24/7 on rotating shifts with her. I ask you to please put on one of these gowns and a set of gloves before stepping foot in the room. When you leave, throw away the gloves and put the gown in the hamper. If you go back, get a new set of everything." The doctor told us.

  We nodded in agreement and grabbed a gown from the package along with gloves. We didn't say anything to each other. We didn't know what to say. I noticed he had on a splint and his glove barely fit over it but he managed to force it on.

  After we were all sterilized up, I looked at Travis and he nodded going to push the door open with his elbow.

  "Wait Travis." He looked at me. "You need to be prepared…" I continued telling him what the doctor told me.

  He had tears in his eyes and he pushed the door open with his elbow.

  After we both walk in, we freeze.

  Travis POV

  As we walk in and the door shuts behind us, we freeze.

  "Just be careful. She's very fragile right now." The nurse in the corner said. She was sitting down with her chart, watching the monitors.

  Looking at Anastasia was a sight me nor Elena ever wanted to see. We slowly walk up to her on either side of her bed and sat down on a chair. The bed was almost flat but put up just a few degrees higher.

  Elena touched her left hand and caressed it slowly as if she'd break any minute.

  Her right arm was broken and in a cast so I leaned on the bed and rubbed her shoulder gently. Her skin was cold even with blankets on her.

  Her right arm was elevated on a pillow, she had three IV's. One in her neck and the two others were on her left arm and forearm. She had a tube that was coming out of her chest. Her head was wrapped in padding, she had a black eye and some cuts under it along with on her forehead, along with a gash they stitched up that traveled from near her jaw to almost her collar bone. Her mouth was slightly open because of the tube that was helping her breathe. She has a hard plastic cover over her stomach that fit to her shape and it was wrapped in an ace bandage.

  I looked at Elena and she had her head rested on the bed near Anastasia's hand crying.

  I felt numb and frozen. I was too nauseated and upset to cry. I moved my hand to her face and gently rubbed it. The room was quiet, yet loud. Nobody was talking but there were muffled sounds of us sniffling our noses along with the machines beeping and her respirator taking deep breaths for her.

  Her face was paled and cold. She's the most beautiful woman in this world, she still is. Who would do this to her? To me? To us, to her mom? I moved my chair a little further up and placed my head near her shoulder while rubbing it.

  We just all laid here in silence. They aren't sure when she will wake up and what damage the windshield did to her brain. I never prayed in my life but I'm praying now.

  Andrew Coleman POV (Travis's uncle)

  "Uncle, what's going on?" Tate said coming up to me with his brothers trailing behind him along with Tyler's girlfriend. I was sitting on a bench outside of Anastasia's room.

  "It's not good. Anastasia isn't doing well. We don't know if she's going to make it." The words dryly came out of my mouth.

  "Oh my god." Trevor spoke while pacing back and forth. Since my brother passed away, he hasn't been in the ICU, he knew he had to come though especially since his brother is hurting in the room next to us.

  "Sit down, brother and just relax." Tyler spoke up as they all walked towards the bench to sit down.

  "Is your mother coming?" I spoke.

  "She's on her way." Tate told me. "What exactly happened?" He asked.

  I told them all everything and they didn't know what to say other than sit there and take it all in.

  "Anastasia Reilly. I need Anastasia Reilly!" I heard a young girl run up to the desk with a man behind her rubbing her back.

  "Isn't that Anastasia's friend, the one who came to the ball?" Trevor asked us.

  "Yes it is." I said as I stood up and walked over to them.

  "You're the guy umm Travis's uncle right? Where is she? Is she okay?" She hurriedly spoke.

  "She's in that room." I told her while pointing to it. "Before you go in, you will need a gown and gloves. She walked to the station and put on everything and looked at Ethan. He just nodded and she walked in without hesitation.

  Emma's POV

  As I walked in the room and the door shut behind me. I couldn't believe my eyes. My best friend. This is my best friend. I let out a sob, I didn't know I was holding in.

  Travis's head shot up at the sound of me and he looked at me. Elena was sleeping in the chair with her head on the bed. We didn't say anything, he just stood up and walked over to me. He look drained. His eyes were puffy and red, he had tear stained cheeks. He opened his arms and I buried my face into his chest and he hugged me tightly. Sobs escaped my lips as I squeezed him tightly and I just lost it.

  "Will… she… be… okay…?" I muffled out in between cries.

  "We don't know yet." He spoke out as he released me. He grabbed me a tissue from the wall and handed it to me. I wiped my cheeks and my stuffy nose and walked up to Ana.

  The sight of her was something I couldn't believe I was seeing. Cuts, bruises, breaks, splints, cast, tubes… too much for me to handle. I sat on the chair Travis was in and he stood next to me.

  “Breathe Anastasia… Come on. You’re my best friend.” I cried while resting my head on her upper thigh.

  "Sir, only two people can be in here." The nurse spoke up.

  "We're fine." Travis told her while focusing back on me. I knew I was going to break, I just didn't know when.

  "This is my best friend." I told Travis as my voice cracked. I looked at her and she wasn't Anastasia.

  "I know." He told me placing his hand on my shoulder trying not to cry.

  I saw Elena stir in her seat before wakin
g up and looking at me and Travis.

  "Hi sweetie." She said reflecting Travis's look. I just nodded and looked back at Ana.

  Her face was swollen and when I touched her she was ice cold and I want my best friend back.

  "Guys, she's not… she's not warm. She's cold. Guys she's cold. She… she isn't her funny self and, and she isn't making jokes. She's sleeping. This is a dream I'm sleeping and I'm going to wake up and, and she'll be in her bed." I got up and the chair moved back and I started to pace the room. "I'm sleeping. Wake up Emma. Emma wake up. Why am I not waking up?" Elena and Travis walked up to me.

  "This is real sweetie." Elena told me hugging me.

  "No! No no no no. She’s my best friend. Ana’s my best friend." I ran to the side Elena was on and grabbed her ice cold hand. “Warm her up. She needs to be warm. She’s always complaining that she was cold so she’s cold now and they need to warm her up.”

  "Give us a moment and stand outside of the room please." Travis told the nurse.

  "Five minutes Mr. Coleman. That's it. This is not allowed so only five minutes." She told Travis sternly as she walked out.

  "No no no no no Ana, Ana wake up. Come on Ana. Look at me. Look at me!" I squeezed her hand tighter and touched her cheek with the other. "Ana come on please. Please wake up. This is me. It's Emma I'm your best friend. I'm your best friend wake up. Look hey, we can go get pizza. We’ll eat pizza, want pizza? Come on baby please."

  Travis walked up to me and placed his hand on my shoulder. "We aren't sure when she will wake up." He told me sadly.

  "No." I lost it. I cried. I screamed. I tried to wake her up. "Ana come on! Please come on. I need you. You're my best friend." I cried. "I want to eat pizza with you and watch friends and get drunk and go shopping. Wake up come on." I sat on the chair and rested my head near hers, looking at my best friend.

  Travis POV

  As Elena started to comfort Emma. I tried to hold in my sobs so they wouldn't see. I stormed out of the room with people calling my names but I didn't care. I needed somewhere to go. I ran to my office in the hospital and shut the door.

  The desk was filled with papers and files but I didn't care. I grabbed everything I could get. Papers went flying. My computer was now broken. I was surrounded by broken things and everything else in my office but I don't give a flying fuck.

  I fell to my knees and cried. I didn't care how much or how loud.

  "Don't let go Anastasia. Please." I cried more than I've ever had.

  Chapter 31

  Travis POV

  I just sat there with my back against the wall.

  "Why is this happening? ... This can't be happening." I said in between sobs. The one girl who has been there through hell and back, who put up with my bullshit. The girl I love is now laying in a bed with a machine helping her to breathe. This has to be all my fault. Nobody would want to hurt her. They probably had a grudge against me and to think that is what happened, kills me.

  If Anastasia was here right now, she's storm in this room and tell me to get up and clean this mess. I'd love for her to just walk in after what I hoped was a nightmare that I would just wake up from. But I've pinched myself a million times today and I'm still in this hell hole. I can't clean this up. I don't feel like it. This is too much to handle. I'm used to seeing people all fucked up and bruised and I never gave a damn… but with her. With her, seeing her like that. I don’t know how to form words of what I saw. I'm dying here.

  Will she wake up? She has to wake up. I can't do life alone without her. I need her. She needs to stay with me. I shouldn't be here in this office sobbing and thinking badly. I should be with her. By her bedside and I will stay there until the second she wakes up. I don't care how long I have to be in there but I will.

  I tried so hard to stop myself from crying but I couldn't so eventually my eyes just couldn't produce anymore tears. I finally had the courage to get off the floor and walk towards my office door.

  I open it up to see my uncle.

  "What happened in here, son?" He looked around in disbelief.

  "Nothing I just needed to do this." I told him as I sniffled. My nose is stuffy from all the crying.

  "Okay. Well Elena asked for you."

  "Is she okay? Is she awake?" My eyes lit up and my heart warmed.

  "No son. She's not awake." He told me sadly.

  "Oh." My eyes became dull and my heart became cold.

  He came to hug me sympathetically and I didn't refuse it. So here we are in the middle of the hallway, two grown men, bosses of this hospital hugging each other but I didn't give two shits. I really need this right now.

  After our long hug and some exchanged sad looks, I decided to go check on Elena and he followed behind me. Probably making sure I don't lash out on anyone.

  Once we finally get back to the ICU, I walk over to her door and put on gloves and a gown. I pushed the door open to find Emma and Elena on both sides of Anastasia's bed. They both looked up at me and gave me a small nod. I walked over and pulled another chair to the side where Elena was sitting. I put my hand on one of Anastasia's legs. Even her legs were cold.

  "One of her doctors came in about 10 min ago." Elena looked at me.

  "What did they say?" I worriedly asked her.

  "He said so far there is no change." She looked at me with tears in her eyes. I looked at Emma who started crying again as so did I. Elena put her hand on my back and left it there while I rested my elbows on my knees, buried my face in my hands, and cried some more. "Here, switch seats with me." She stood up and moved so I could sit in her seat and so she could sit in mine.

  "I don't know what I'm going to do." I rubbed her cheek crying. I looked at Emma and Elena. "Would you guys mind if I see her alone for a few minutes?"

  "Of course, sweetie." Elena said while she and Emma stood up. They each gave Anastasia a kiss on her forehead and nodded as they walked out.

  "Could I have a minute too please?" I asked the nurse nicely.

  "Of course." She nodded while walking out and shutting the door behind her.

  I moved my chair as close as I could get to her bed and I grabbed her hand tightly between both of mine.

  "Anastasia, I don't know if you can hear me. I don't know if you are listening. They say that people in comas can hear other people talk. I don't know how that goes but I think its bullshit but who knows?" I took a deep breath squeezing her hand. "Listen, I need you to know that I'm here. I'm right here and I always will be forever and ever. That's so fucking cliché of me. I'm such an idiot. You're probably laughing in your head if you can hear me. But Anastasia I need you here with me. Don't you dare leave me. Don't you dare fucking leave me." The tears started falling. "I love you. I want you for the rest of my life. I don't want to lose you okay? I can't have this world take you away from me. You aren't just someone to me, you're my love. You taught me what really mattered in life. You matter. Especially to me. You are the most precious human being that I've ever been given. You make me feel loved and special… so fucking special. I can't lose you. I can't afford to lose you. This is a once in a lifetime love and you are that for me. You are my forever. Well, beyond my forever. You're worthy of all these storms and dirt roads and speed bumps and shitty outcomes. You always helped me overcome all those and you put up with me. I can't lose you. I'm such a dick sometimes but I promise in my life that I will take care of you. You are my number one priority. I will never forgive myself for making this happen to you. I'm supposed to protect you and keep you safe. I failed. I fucking failed. I take all of you, of us. I will be your light and sun just like you are to me. I will keep you strong just like you keep me strong. I will be here for you. I am holding you tight right now because I can't lose you. Please Anastasia. I'm begging you with all my heart. Please come back to me. Please Anastasia. I can't do this stupid shitty life thing without you. I need you. I really fucking need you here. With me. I love you. I love you so fucking much. If… no, when you get out of here, I'm going to fucking marry
you. So if you can hear me right now, you better come back to me please. I want you. I want your witty comments and your stupid jokes that make you laugh before you can even tell them. I want your sarcastic thoughts and your sassy attitude. I want your love. I want your warmth and your touch. I want your heart and your voice. I want to hear that voice and that beautiful laugh. I want to see those bright green eyes Anastasia. When we get out of here, I'm marrying you. I want to marry you. I want to have babies with you. I want to grow old with you. I want you. So please come back to me Anastasia." I started to sob as I moved one of my hands to her cheek and rubbed it. "Please come back please come back to me. Don't leave me here all alone. Don't leave me here all alone." I cried as I put my head down on her pillow while watching her eyes hoping they'd open and watching her mouth hoping she'd speak. "You can't leave me here all alone. Please." I kissed her on her temple and put my head back down on her pillow. "I love you so much." I just cried rubbing her cheek and hand and kissing her forehead and cheeks. "God, I know I never pray… ever but please don't make me lose her." I eventually fell asleep with my arm around her and her head next to mine.

  "Mr. Coleman up now!" I jolted up.

  "Code blue code blue!" The nurse yelled while pushing the button. I got off the bed and within seconds, doctors were surrounding her bed pulling me away from her.

  "No no stop. Let me go I need to be with her!" I yelled trying to get out of the two male nurses grip.

  "She's crashing!" A doctor yelled.