Forever Amber

by Kathleen Winsor

  In the middle of the floor Nell Gwynne was dancing.

  Barefooted, she whirled and spun, twisted her lithe body and flung her skirts high, completely unselfconscious, absorbed and happy. In one chair sprawled Charles Hart, watching her through half-shut lids, and sitting astraddle another was John Lacy, who also acted for the King's Company and who also had been Nelly's lover. A fourteen- or fifteen-year-old boy, a street-musician they had called in, stood nearby and scraped on his cheap fiddle.

  When at last she stopped and made them a curtsy so deep that her bowed head touched her knee, the men broke into hearty applause. Nelly looked up at them, eyes sparkling with eager delight, and still panting from the violent exertion she leaped to her feet.

  "Did you like it? Do you think I'm a better dancer than her?"

  Hart waved his hand. "Better? Why, you make Moll Davis look clumsy as a pregnant cow!"

  Nelly laughed, but her face changed swiftly. She reached for an orange and began to peel it, rolling out her lower lip in exaggerated pique. "Much good it does me. There's no one there to see me these days. Lord, the pit's been empty as a Dutchman's noddle ever since his Majesty gave her that diamond ring! They've all got to have a look at the King's latest whore."

  "You'd think a new royal mistress wouldn't be such a curiosity any more," remarked Lacy, knocking out his pipe on the edge of the table, stepping on the ashes as they fell to the floor. "I can count a baker's dozen from the stage any day I like."

  At that moment there was a loud rapping on the door and Nelly ran to open it. A liveried footman stood there. "Mrs. Knight presents her service to you, madame, and would like a word with you. She waits below in her coach."

  Nelly glanced back at the two men from over her shoulder and screwed up her face to wink. "Speak of the Devil—here's another one below. You'll find sack and brandy in the cupboard. Maybe there's something to eat in the food-hutch. I'll be back in a moment."

  She disappeared, but an instant later returned to slide her feet into a pair of high-heeled, square-toed pumps, and then picking up her skirts she went swooping down the stairs and out into the street. A gilded coach-and-four stood there, the door held open by a footman. Mary Knight sat inside, her beautiful face painted an almost glistening white, and she reached out one jewelled arm to take hold of Nelly's wrist.

  "Come, sweetheart—get in. I want to talk to you." Her voice was warm and sweet as a melody, and she smelled of some drowsy perfume.

  Nelly obediently climbed in and flounced down beside her. Not at all conscious of her own griminess, she looked at Mary with passionate admiration. "Lord, Mary! I swear you're prettier every time I see you!"

  "Pshaw, child. It's only that I wear fine clothes nowadays, and a jewel or so. By the way, whatever became of that pearl necklace my Lord Buckhurst gave you?"

  Nell shrugged. "I sent it back to 'im."

  "Sent it back? Good God! What for?"

  "Oh—I don't know. What good is a string of pearls to me? My mother would have pawned it to buy brandy or to get Rose's husband out of Newgate." Rose was Nelly's sister.

  "Sweetheart, let me tell you something. Never give anything back. Often enough by the time a woman's thirty she has nothing to live on but the presents made her when she was young."

  But Nelly was just seventeen and thirty was a thousand years away. "I've never been hungry. I'll live somehow. What did you want to see me for, Mary?"

  "I want to take you calling. Are you dressed? Is your hair combed?" The light from the torches was too unsteady to see distinctly.

  "Well enough, I warrant. Who're we calling on?"

  "A gentleman named Charles Stuart." She paused a moment, for Nelly sat in silence, not realizing whom she meant. "His Majesty, King Charles II!" The words rolled off her tongue like the flare of trumpets and a chill ran over Nelly's flesh, along her arms and down her back.

  "King Charles!" she whispered. "He wants to see me!"

  "He does. And he asked me, as an old friend, to carry the invitation."

  Nelly sat perfectly rigid, staring straight ahead of her. "Holy Mother of God!" she whispered. And then she flew into a sudden tempest of indecision and fright. "But I'm all undone! My hair's down! I haven't got any stockings on! Oh, Mary! I can't go!"

  Mary put one hand over hers. "Of course you can, sweetheart. I'll lend you my cloak. And I've got a comb here."

  "Oh, but Mary—I can't! I just can't!" She stabbed about for an excuse and suddenly remembered Hart and Lacy waiting upstairs for her. She started to get out. "I've got callers myself, I just remembered. I—"

  Mary took her arm and firmly pulled her back again. "He's expecting you." She leaned forward and rapped on the front wall of the coach. "Drive away!"

  It was only a little more than half a mile to Whitehall and Nelly spent that time dragging Mary's comb through the snarls of her coarse thick blonde hair, her stomach fluttering and the palms of her hands cold and wet. Her throat was so tight she could scarcely speak, though from time to time she murmured, "Oh, Jesus!"

  At the Palace she got out, Mary's cloak flung over her shoulders, and just before she ran off Mary slid the pearl drops from her ears and handed them to her. "Wear these, sweetheart. I'll wait for you to drive you home."

  Nelly took them, made a step or two away, and then turned suddenly and came back to the coach. "I can't go, Mary! I can't! He's the King!"

  "Go along, child. He's waiting for you."

  Nelly closed her eyes hard and murmured a prayer and then crossed the courtyard, went through the door Mary had pointed out and along a winding hall-way, down a flight of stairs to another door; there she knocked. A footman opened it, she gave him her name, and was admitted. She found herself in a handsomely furnished room. There were gold-framed portraits on the walls, a great carved fireplace, embroidered chairs from France. For a long moment she stood just inside the doorway, staring about her in awe, nervously cleaning the dirt from beneath her finger-nails.

  After two or three minutes William Chiffinch came in, well-fed and silky, with pouches under his eyes and a sensual mouth, belching gently as though he had just risen from a too rich meal. His appearance put her somewhat at ease, for he was no more fearsome than any other man, even if he was the King's Page of the Backstairs.

  He raised his eyebrows faintly as he saw her standing there. "Madame Gwynne?"

  Nelly gave a little curtsy. "Aye."

  "You know, I suppose, madame, that it is not I who sent for you?"

  "Lord, I hope not, sir!" said Nelly. And then she added quickly, for fear of having hurt his feelings, "Not that I wouldn't be pleased if it had been—"

  "I understand, madame. And do you feel that you are correctly costumed for an interview with his Majesty?"

  Nelly glanced down at her blue woollen gown and found it spotted with food and wine, stained in the armpits from many weeks of wear; there was a rent low in the skirt through which her red linen petticoat showed. She was unconcerned about her dress, as she was about all her appearance, and took her prettiness very much for granted. Though she was paid the good wage of sixty pounds a year she spent it carelessly, entertaining friends who came to see her, buying brandy for her fat sodden mother and gifts for Rose, tossing coins to every beggar who approached her in the streets.

  "It's what I was wearing, sir, when Mrs. Knight called for me. I didn't know—I can go back and change—I have a very fine gown for special occasions—blue satin, with a silver petticoat and—"

  "There isn't time now. But here—try some of this."

  He crossed the room, picked up a bottle and gave it to her. Nelly took out the stopper, rolling her eyes ecstatically as she smelled the heavy-sweet odour. Then she tipped the bottle against her bodice until the perfume made a wet round circle, dabbing more of it on her breasts and wrists and live curling hair.

  "That's enough!" warned Chiffinch, and took it away from her. He glanced at the clock in a standing walnut case. "It's time. Come with me."

  He walked o
ut of the room and for an instant Nelly hesitated, gulping hard once, her heart pounding until she felt scarcely able to breathe; then with sudden resolution she lifted her skirts and followed him. They went out into a dim hallway. Chiffinch lighted a candle from one which was burning there, stuck it into a brass holder and, turning, gave it to her.

  "Here, this will light you up the stairs. At the top there's a door which will be unlocked. Open it and go into the ruelle, but don't make a sound until his Majesty comes for you. He may be occupied in talking to one of the ministers or writing a letter."

  She stared solemnly at him, nodding her head, and glanced up uncertainly toward the invisible door. In her trembling hand the candle sent shaking shadows across the walls. She looked back to Chiffinch again, as if for moral support, but he merely stood and stared at her, thinking that the King would never send again for this unkempt creature. Slowly she began to mount the stairs, holding up her skirts with her free hand; but her knees felt so weak she was sure she would never be able to reach the top. She kept on and on, feeling as though she mounted some endless flight in a terrifying dream. Chiffinch stood and watched her until he saw the door open, her profile silhouetted as she paused to blow out the candle, and then with a shrug of his shoulders he went back to his supper guests.

  But he was mistaken, for not many nights later she was there again, clean this time and dressed in her blue satin and silvercloth gown. There was about her still, however, a certain joyous carelessness, as though her spirits were too exuberant, too buoyantly full to take time with trifles. And this time Chiffinch greeted her with a smile, caught in her spell.

  Nelly could not get over the wonder of this thing that had happened to her; she felt almost as though she were the first mistress Charles had taken. "Oh, Mary!" she cried breathlessly that first night when she came back out to the coach. "He's wonderful! Why—he treated me just like—just like I was a princess!" And suddenly she had burst into tears, laughing and crying at once. I've fallen in love with him! she thought. Nell Gwynne—daughter of the London streets, common trollop and public performer—in love with the King of England! Oh, what a fool! And yet, who could help it?

  Not long after that Charles asked her what yearly allowance she would want and though she laughed and told him that she was ready to serve the Crown for nothing, he insisted that she name a price. The next time she came she asked Chiffinch what she should say.

  "You're worth five hundred a year, sweetheart—just for that smile."

  But when she came downstairs again she seemed sad and subdued and Chiffinch asked her what had happened. Nell looked at him for a moment, her chin began to quiver and suddenly she was crying. "Oh! He laughed at me! He asked me and I said five hundred pound and—and he laughed!" Chiffinch put his arms about her and while she sobbed he stroked the back of her head, telling her that she must be a little patient—that one day soon she would have much more than five hundred pounds from him.

  She did not care about the money, but she did care a great deal that he should not consider her to be worth five hundred pounds—when he had spent much more than that on a single ring for Moll Davis.

  Nelly and Moll Davis were well acquainted, for all the actors knew one another and knew also everything that happened in that small bohemian world which hung on the fringes of the Court. And because she liked people and was not inclined to be jealous she liked Moll despite their rivalry in the theatre —and now in another sphere—until she heard that Moll had been making fun of her because Charles had refused her the price she had asked.

  "Nelly's a common slut," said Moll. "She won't amuse him long."

  Moll herself made great capital of the rumour that she was the illegitimate daughter of the Earl of Berkshire, though actually her father was a blacksmith and she had been a milkmaid before coming to London to try her fortune.

  "A common slut, am I?" said Nelly, when she heard that. "Well, perhaps I am. I don't pretend to be anything else. But we'll see whether I know how to amuse his Majesty or not!"

  And she set out to visit Moll with a large box of homemade candy tucked under her arm. She threaded her way up one narrow crooked little alley and down another, flipping coins to a dozen beggars, waving an arm in greeting at various women hanging out their windows, stopping to talk to a little girl selling a platter of evil-smelling fish—she gave her a guinea to buy shoes and a cloak, for the winter was setting in. The day was sunny but cold and she walked along swiftly, her hair covered with a hood, her long woollen cloak slapping about her.

  Moll lived not far from Maypole Alley in a second-floor lodging much like Nell's own, though she had been bragging that his Majesty was going to take a fine house and furnish it for her. Nelly rapped at the door, greeted Moll with a broad grin, and stepped inside while the girl still stood staring at her. Her eye went quickly round the room, picking out evidences of new luxury: yellow-velvet drapes at the windows, a fine carved chair or two, the silver-backed mirror Moll was holding in her hand.

  "Well, Moll!" Nelly tossed back her hood, unfastened the button at her throat. "Aren't you going to make me welcome? Oh! Maybe you've got company!" She pretended surprise, as though she had just noticed that Moll wore only her smock and starched ruffled petticoat, with her feet in mules and her hair down her back.

  Moll stared at her suspiciously, searching for the motive of this visit, and her plump dainty-featured little face did not smile. She knew that Nell must have heard the things she had been saying about her. She lifted her chin and pursed her lips, full of airs and newly acquired hauteur. "No," she said. "I'm all alone. If you must know—I'm dressing to see his Majesty— at ten o'clock."

  "Heavens!" cried Nell, glancing at the clock. "Then you must hurry! It's nearly six!" Nelly was amused. Imagine taking four hours to dress—even for the King! "Well, come on, then. We can gossip while you're making ready. Here, Moll—I brought you something. Oh, it's really nothing very much. Some sweets Rose and I made—with nuts in, the kind you always like."

  Moll, disarmed by the thoughtful gesture, reached for the box as Nell held it toward her, and finally she smiled. "Oh, thank you, Nell! How kind of you to remember how much I love sweets!" She opened it and took up a large piece, popped it into her mouth and began to munch, licked her fingers and extended the box to Nell.

  Nelly declined. "No, thanks, Moll. Not just now. I ate some while we were making it."

  "Oh, it's delicious, Nell! Such an unusual flavour, too! Come on in, my dear—I have some things to show you. Lord, I vow and swear there can't be a more generous man in Europe than his Majesty! He all but pelts me with fine gifts! Just look at this jewel case. Solid gold, and every jewel on it is real—I know because I had a jeweller appraise it. And these are real sapphires on this patch-box too. And look at this lace fan! Have you ever seen anything to compare? Just think, he had his sister send it from Paris, especially for me." She thrust two more pieces of candy into her mouth and her eyes ran over the gown Nelly was wearing. It was made of red linsey-woolsey, a material warm and serviceable enough, but certainly neither beautiful nor luxurious. "But then of course you didn't want to wear your diamond necklace coming through the streets."

  Nell felt like crying or slapping her face, but she merely smiled and said softly, "I haven't any diamond necklace. He hasn't given me anything."

  Moll lifted her brows in pretended surprise and sat down to finish painting her face. "Oh, well—don't fret about it, my dear. Probably he will—if he should take a fancy to you." She picked up another piece of candy and then began to dust Spanish paper onto her cheeks with a hare's foot. Nelly sat with her hands clasped over one knee and watched her.

  Moll struggled with her hair for at least an hour, asking Nelly to put in a bodkin here or take one out there. "Oh, gad!" she cried at last. "A lady simply can't do her own head! I vow I must have a woman—I'll speak to him about it tonight."

  When the royal coach arrived at shortly after nine Moll gave an excited shriek, crammed the last three pieces
of candy into her mouth, snatched up mask and fan and muff and gloves and went out of the room in a swirl of satins and scent. Nelly followed her down to the coach, wished her luck and waved her good-bye. But when the coach rattled off she stood and watched it and laughed until tears came to her eyes and her sides began to ache.

  Now, Mrs. Davis! We'll see what airs you give yourself next time we meet!

  The following day Nelly went to the Duke's Theatre with young John Villiers—Buckingham's distant relation, somewhere in the sprawling Villiers tribe—to see whether her rival dared show herself on the boards after what had happened the night before. And Villiers—because he hoped to have a favour from her after the play—paid out four shillings for each of them and they took their seats in one of the middle-boxes, directly over the stage where Moll could not miss seeing them if she was there.

  As they sat down Nell became conscious that there were two men in the box directly adjoining theirs and that both of them had watched her as she came in. She glanced at them, a smile on her lips—and then she gave a little gasp of horrified surprise and one hand went to her throat. It was the King and his brother, both apparently incognito for they were in ordinary dress, and the King wore neither the Star nor the Garter. In fact, their suits were far more conservative than those of most of the gallants buzzing away down in Fop Corner, next the stage.

  Charles smiled, nodding his head slightly in greeting, and York gave her an intent stare. Nelly managed to return the smile but she wanted desperately to get up and run and would, in fact, have done so but that she did not care to draw the attention of the entire theatre upon them. And furthermore Betterton, wrapped in the traditional long black cloak, had now come out onto the apron of the stage to speak the prologue.

  She stayed, but even after the prologue was over and the curtains had been drawn for the first act she sat rigid and tense, not daring to move her head, scarcely seeing the stage at all. Finally Villiers shook her elbow and whispered in her ear.