Natural Beauty (The Cubi Book 5)

by Meraki P. Lyhne

  Having finished all his business, Alex stepped into the shower. It felt like ages since he’d been with Seldon, and he tried to remember what being his regular breeder had been like. But having been back at his parent’s house, so much had changed in the Cubi world. Or maybe it wasn’t the only thing that had changed. Alex had changed, he knew that much.

  The memory of straddling Kaydon’s chest to thrust into his mouth made the butterflies in his stomach feel more like a zipliner. His cock even began to fill. What had kept him back after that? Why hadn’t he said yes to topping Kaydon? He’d decided to, but then the fire broke out, and Kaydon ran into battle with a big sword.

  But Alex knew the answer. He was so insecure in everything that he needed someone or something that anchored his mind. The Cubi people was one constant, which was why he’d all but let Gordon carry him out the door at his parent’s house and whisk him back into slavery.

  The collar was a constant, and it oddly enough gave him peace of mind. It anchored him in a world he felt better fit for than the human world. He even noticed that he was touching the collar when thinking about that, so he busied his hands with washing his hair.

  Seldon was a constant, too. He was the one who’d taken Alex’s complaints about Elias serious enough to do something about it. Granted, he’d needed Daniel’s permission, but Seldon had cared. Seldon was…safety somehow.

  A smile spread at a memory of them playing pool. It had been a few years before Daniel arrived, and Seldon and Alex had played against another Sire and that Sire’s collared breeder. They’d had so much fun, and Alex had managed to forget that he was naked and that he was there to be fed upon. He’d even jumped onto Seldon’s back to try to make him miss the winning shot in a stupid bet, and he’d hung there while the strong Incubus had laughed and aimed. Seldon had been sure he’d blow the shot, but he hadn’t. Alex didn’t remember what the bet was about—he just remembered a night he’d gone to bed feeling okay about his enslavement.

  He tried to keep that night in mind as he reached down to stroke himself, and he had no problem getting fully hard to the thoughts of how likable Seldon had been that night. It gave Alex courage and a sense of victory that he could have a sexual fantasy about an Incubus, but so much still teased the fringes of his mind.

  To move things along, Alex left his hard-on alone as he finished his shower and dried off, but his mind still raced with questions and attempts to make heads and tails of what he wanted to overcome and how. Being separated from Kaydon was both difficult and a relief. He hated watching the big, strong, and brave man in pain, yet he felt nervous every time he thought about what their relationship would grow into once the big guy was all healed up and out of the hospital again.

  The fact that he was contemplating a relationship had to mean that he wasn’t running away from Kaydon now that he was finally back with the people he’d been closest to. He wanted to hold Kaydon in his arms and feel the big man curl up to feel safe and protected. It made Alex feel strong, yet there were aspects of himself that still made Alex feel weak and robbed of control. Ultimately, he’d learned that that was what he really had to work on.

  He also knew where it came from. His human culture. Alex took a cock up the ass like women took a cock up her lady parts, and men boasted and bragged and called women sluts and weak and treated them like…like the property Alex had ended up being with the Cubi people. But why did it ultimately affect his sense of masculinity? Because he was the woman when being the one penetrated?

  Alex pushed those thoughts aside and spread out a blanket on one of the sofas in the salon. It was way too big to be called a living room or even a den because those usually only had one couch—this one had four. He placed a soda on the coffee table and found a bottle of lube in the table drawer. And then he waited, enjoying his soda. To occupy his mind, he tried to fantasize about what was about to happen to push himself and his mindset in the Cubi direction. He wanted to be able to find some pleasure in it. The dose would do that, of course, and that was what he hated the most. He wanted to be able to find pleasure outside the dose. Like when Kaydon sucked him off.

  But Seldon probably wouldn’t suck Alex off just to see if Alex liked that undosed. He might eat out Alex’s ass before fucking it.

  It took longer than expected for Seldon, and Alex wanted to explore a fantasy. Determined, Alex grabbed the lube, squeezed out a dollop onto a finger, and introduced it to his own ass, slowly circling his finger and pretending it was Seldon’s tongue. Closing his eyes and giving himself over to sensation, it was actually quite pleasurable. Always being dosed out of his mind, Alex didn’t have a lot of visuals of Seldon’s face during sex, yet he remembered him as very focused, brows knitted in determination and effort.

  A surge went through Alex, and he took a deep shuddering breath. His cock reacted to a memory of being fucked so why couldn’t he enjoy it in reality? He already knew that he was bi—he had since high school—yet he suspected his sudden lack of interest in men was because he’d been kidnapped on his first attempt to be with one. And they’d all been Incubi since then, all fucking him because he was a meal.

  And yup, that took the boner away.

  But remembering what a nice and fun guy Seldon was outside the bed, how could Alex just be a meal? The same with Marcadon and Kaydon and a slew of others over the years, yet Elias was just the biggest in a line of pricks, too. There were so many aspects, but ultimately, his boss at the store came to mind. Alex had always felt like he was nothing more than a meal to the Cubi, but now he’d had a stint back in the real world and learned just what being unappreciated felt like. How had he ever been able not to feel appreciated by most of his regulars?

  He knew Seldon appreciated him. Marcadon had, too, and the fact that he’d taken Alex to the movies after only two times feeding him proved it. A lot of his regulars had done stuff like that. Feeling appreciated helped the boner fill again, and Alex enjoyed his own touches while imagining the finger in his ass being Seldon’s.

  “Something smells delicious!”

  Alex popped up, finding Seldon walking into the room, naked, beautiful, and with a stiff cock bouncing in front of him. It made Alex smile and get up, and he felt appreciated with how Seldon looked at him.

  “Oh, it’s you smelling like that!” Seldon looked excited and stepped closer, leaning in. “Oh, wow.”

  “What?” Alex pulled back to look at him.

  “I was Royally Empowered. A lot. Something new came with it. You smell…” Seldon looked like he tasted his words, but apparently, didn’t find one that matched.

  “Like I can’t get enough?” That’s what Kaydon had said Alex smelled like.

  Seldon looked puzzled, but then he gave it some thought. “I don’t know. But you smell horny.” Seldon looked down, and Alex was still sporting his boner.

  Alex decided to test his mental boundaries and grabbed Seldon’s cock. The Incubus gasped and stood still, his eyes growing heavy-lidded as he stared at Alex massaging his cock.

  “I am, I guess.”

  “Well, that’s good to hear,” Seldon purred.

  “I was thinking…before you got here, and…I was thinking there’s something I want to try.”

  “Oh?” Seldon didn’t look closed off to the idea. In fact, he looked like he’d expected it, which made Alex wonder. Either way, Alex let go of Seldon’s cock to take his hand and lead him to sit on the couch so that he sat in the corner, leaned halfway against the armrest and backrest.

  “Comfy?” Alex asked, his nerves rising from actually being about to try to go through with something undosed.

  Seldon pointed to the other couch. “Toss me a pillow.”

  Alex grabbed one and tossed it into the air. Seldon caught it, laughing. “Wonder if that’s why they’re called throw pillows?”

  “Good theory.” Seldon tossed the pillow at Alex, who caught it, laughing. He went to straddle Seldon’s lap, pushing the pillow at Seldon’s chest. Seldon pushed the pillow behind his ba
ck and sat back. “Now I’m comfy.”

  “Good.” And Alex was stalling, and he knew it. To move it along, he grabbed Seldon’s cock again, stroking it and marveling at the soft skin moving over the hard length. Alex had received so much pleasure from it, yet most of the details were gone in a haze of need and sensation and lack of control. He wanted control over it.

  Making up his mind, Alex grabbed the bottle of lube and squeezed some out, slathering Seldon’s dick and his own fingers.

  Seldon’s head fell back, and a soft moan escaped him as his eyes fluttered closed, but only for a moment, then he locked gazes with Alex again. He’d never seen that expression, or at least he didn’t remember ever having seen it. Less focused, yet…more so.

  Still stroking Seldon, Alex reached back to check if he was still open from having fingered himself earlier, imagining it to be Seldon’s tongue. He actually contemplated asking Seldon to rim him, but Alex wanted to feel in control of his own pleasure, and he couldn’t do that if he gave the reigns to Seldon.

  Finding himself open, Alex climbed up to straddle Seldon’s hips.

  “What’s the plan here?” Seldon asked.

  Alex smiled—more to give himself courage than to tease Seldon—as he reached back and positioned Seldon’s cock at his opening. Seldon’s mouth and eyes widened as Alex sank down, impaling himself slowly. Then a loud groan escaped Seldon, and his eyes fluttered closed again while he placed his hands on Alex’s hips. For a second, Alex feared his control would be taken away from him by Seldon forcing the pace, and he pulled back off, making Seldon snap his head up.

  “Don’t…don’t uhm…I want to set the pace.”

  Seldon smiled and removed his hands. “All yours.” He leaned back again in a relaxed pose, one arm draped over the backrest, the other over the armrest. Alex hadn’t expected his request to go down that easily since Seldon had clearly stated that he was in the mood for hard, fast, and sweaty, and Alex examining himself was definitely not going to be into anything like the sex they usually had.

  Plus, Seldon was a control freak.

  Safe. Seldon was safe. Familiar. Someone who knew Alex’s body well. Under a dose, at least. And all Alex had learned about Seldon’s body was lost in doses. He had to figure it all out. He got to explore, he realized with some sense of relief and eagerness. Watching Seldon so relaxed and at ease gave Alex the confidence to move up and sink down on Seldon’s cock again, focusing on the feel of being filled out.

  Closing his eyes, Alex tried to find pleasure in what he was doing, and the slow pace and feel of the slick rod sliding against so sensitive areas was actually very pleasant.

  “Fuck! Oh, God!”

  Alex snapped his eyes open, staring at Seldon, and he was all but shaking, gripping the backrest and coffee table, as he held himself in check.

  Now that was hot, and Alex ground down harder in an unwitting response, a burst of pleasure exploding inside of him as a result. He moaned loudly, and Seldon quaked, groaning and squeezing his eyes shut, hard.

  “How does this feel?” Alex asked.

  “Good, oh God, good…fuck that’s pure.”

  Alex stared spellbound. He’d never seen Seldon like that, never heard him gasp and groan the way he did now, and a surge of heat spread in Alex. Another loud groan escaped Seldon, and he jerked, thus thrusting his hips a bit and sending another pleasurable jolt through Alex.

  “Again!” Alex urged, and Seldon snapped his head up to stare at Alex while he thrust his hips again, but not enough for Alex to feel like the Incubus was trying to take over. Seldon just set a rhythm, and Alex tried to match it, shoving back to meet it.

  “Please, can I touch you?” Seldon asked.

  He looked…vulnerable. Alex felt both confused and turned on at the huge change, but he took Seldon’s hands, placing one on his chest, the other on his shoulder. It looked and sounded like that was exactly what Seldon needed because he fell back against the pillow, caressed everything he could reach, and rolled off in bliss while keeping the relative slow rhythm of shallow but sharp thrusts.

  Alex kept staring at Seldon, unable to fathom how different it was in real life compared to everything he’d thought. One thing was for sure—he was definitely enjoying sex at that moment, and he loved bringing Seldon that level of pleasure. Bracing himself against Seldon’s broad chest, Alex bore back harder, adamant about giving Seldon a hard and sweaty fuck, but he was going to be in control of everything.

  Seldon’s increasing moans, the change in his expression, the feel of his needier touches, and the sight of his strong body quivering ramped up Alex’s pleasure and lust to an insane level, but it was so clear. His mind was clear, and his control wasn’t lost in dose-induced lust.

  “Oh, fuck, you’re making me cum,” Seldon gasped. “Please, let me, let me, I can keep going, I can make you cum, too, I can make you come hard.”

  Well, that was it for Alex. Hearing Seldon beg to cum all but flipped a switch, and Alex felt his groin grow warm and everything rush toward his crotch. Alex came hard to the sounds of Seldon screaming from pleasure, the feel of a hard and pulsating cock in his ass, and a tight grip on his upper arms while Seldon thrust in hard and desperately.

  Opening his eyes, he found Seldon mopping up Alex cum with his fingers to put it into his mouth, moaning and looking like it was the treat of the year. So hot. And Alex had managed to shoot his cum all the way onto Seldon’s shoulder. Alex leaned in, licked it off Seldon’s shoulder, and then claimed his mouth to give the Incubus his prize for the good fuck.

  They shared a long and hot kiss tasting salty, but Alex didn’t care that he was tasting himself because the feel and remembered reactions from Seldon was a high that his mind was still coming down from. He still had a cock in his ass, and he smiled against Seldon’s lips when he found that he didn’t mind. He’d chosen that it went in there, so why wouldn’t he be content with it now? He felt victorious and grateful for Seldon.

  Alex pulled back from the kiss. “Thank you.”

  “For what?”

  “For letting me have my way with you. You can dose me now and take full control if you want.”

  Seldon looked surprised. “You doubt that I abso-fucking-lutely loved this?”

  “No, but you talked about being in the mood for something else.”

  “Alex.” Seldon pulled at him, gently, and Alex didn’t feel forced when he obliged and lay down on top of Seldon, the now soft cock slipping from his ass as Alex found his position in Seldon’s arms. “It’s been a crazy day, and I needed something to shock my system. This? This didn’t just shock my system, it shook me to my very core, and it was so delicious and so fucking potent, I’m spent and dizzy and…and proud you’d share it with me.”

  Alex popped his head up. “Proud?”

  “I must have done something right to earn that kind of trust.”

  “You did,” Alex said, while so many emotions rushed over him. All that had happened since he’d been led through the forest by the Cubi to keep him safe, to returning home to where he felt worthless, to meeting Kaydon, and to returning to Daniel and being given the right to choose.

  His eyes stung.

  “I’ll help you feed your lover. I’m not a full Lord yet, so I don’t know how much my dose matters compared to a Royal, but I’ll help.”

  “Thank you.”

  “Tell me about him,” Seldon said, settling in and pulling Alex closer to snuggle up. It felt weird, but…safe. Somewhere between too intimate since Seldon had lovers in the bedroom down the hall and Alex had one lying in a hospital bed. But intimacy after feeding wasn’t necessarily romantic to the Cubi, Alex knew that. He’d always shied away from it until Kaydon. But he wanted to stay with the Cubi, and he’d even been offered to be turned into one by the King. But it wasn’t time to contemplate that yet. Too many changes in too short a timespan and Alex needed time and peace of mind before he’d even contemplate something that would determine the rest of his life. But he needed to grow mo
re confident in the Cubi world and mentality, so he decided to push himself a bit more and stay where he was.

  “He’s so strong because…and this is gonna sound insane, but he’s strong because he’s…the little spoon.”

  “You’re right, that sounds insane, but since I’ve been schooled in human mentality by our young King, then I think I get it.” Seldon grinned. “And I know why you needed the control. I never took it from you out of some idea that I didn’t want you to have it. I just— Many things change with the rise of Royal, but I always cared, you know that, right?”

  “Yes.” Alex’s eyes stung again. “I just didn’t see it until I returned to the human world and was reminded what being worthless really feels like. That’s why I returned.” Alex grinned goofily. “That I found me a power thruster who can put you to shame on my way back here is another matter.”

  Silence, so Alex raised his head to look at Seldon’s incredulous expression.

  “Really?”

  “Oh, yeah. He sucked a Sire’s dose out of me in one go, and he lost a double dose doing it.”

  Seldon’s expression of awe was priceless, and Alex laughed loudly.

  “Damn. Guard Lord Levidon is in that category, too. I certainly met my limit.”

  “He fucked you?”

  Seldon grinned. “A cheeky Sire asking someone like that if he’s hungry? You can be sure I got bent over a table and taken hard.”

  Why did Alex get a mental image of Seldon being rough-fucked by Kaydon? And why did his cock think that an amazing idea?

  Seldon leaned in, inhaling deeply through his nose. “You’re getting that scent again. That delicious one.”

  Alex looked at Seldon, contemplating his answer. “Still up for hard, sweaty, and dosed?”

  “With the purity of what you just fed me? I’m completely full. But if you want the freedom of the dose, I’ll see if I can be a worthy stand-in for your power thruster.”