The Perfect Holiday: A Bad Boy New Year Romance

by Mia Ford

  Maybe I should have brought her with me so she could have watched Lily. That would have been nearly impossible, though, since Hailey was now seriously dating a guy from her office. They had planned out an entire evening with each other, and there was no way I was going to ruin it. She had offered to come with me, but I declined, telling her that she had given up enough of her life over the last year to take care of me. This was something that I had to handle on my own.

  They had told me earlier this year when I came looking for Cameron that he was already booked to be here this year, but an entire year had passed. I wasn’t one hundred percent sure that he would actually be there, but I was working on faith to get me through. I had told him I would meet him here this New Year’s Eve, and that was exactly what I planned on doing. I wasn’t sure what I would do if I found myself ringing in the new year all by myself. I figured, if nothing else, if I couldn’t find Cameron that night, I would go back and snuggle Lily, bringing in the new year with her. She and I were a team, and we had already developed a bond that would last a lifetime. She had just experienced her very first Christmas, which was cute since we dressed Hailey’s boyfriend up as Santa Claus and took pictures of him holding baby Lily in the snow.

  Lily cooed again in the back, and I could tell she was starting to get restless. I got out of the car and strapped our bags to my body before lifting her car seat out and covering her up with a blanket. We made our way inside the hotel and to the reception desk, where I checked in and headed upstairs. Before I went to the day care, I wanted to make sure we were both freshened up after that drive. I washed my face and changed Lily’s diaper before sitting down on the bed by the fireplace and letting Lily eat. Nervously, I packed her bag with extra diapers, bottles of breastmilk for feeding, and several changes of clothes just in case. She was the light of my world, and I didn’t want to let her out of my sight for even a second, but I had to approach the situation with Cameron delicately, if he was even here.

  I walked out to the elevators, carrying Lily and her pack and play for her to nap in. I climbed inside and looked up at the numbers, remembering my stay on the fifth floor. This time, I was on the third floor, and although my room wasn’t quite as luxurious, it was still really nice. It was more than enough for Lily and me to be comfortable. And hopefully, if I found Cameron and everything went as I hoped it would, he would be joining us, too, or maybe we would join him in his suite. Either way, I didn’t want to get my hopes up. Seldom did things ever actually go the way that I hoped they would, and I didn’t want to spend my time in Aspen in a ball of tears and baby diapers. I had to stay strong for Lily.

  When the doors opened to the lobby, I took a big breath and walked across the marble floors to the concierge desk. He was talking to a couple of ladies about the best instruction to take, but I couldn’t hear him well enough to know whether he was talking about Cameron or not. I thought about asking, but figured I would know soon enough. Whether he was there alone or with someone else, my first task was to tell him about Lily, and then we could talk about my feelings for him.

  “Hi,” I said to the concierge. “Could you point me toward the child care area?”

  “Absolutely.” He smiled, looking down at Lily. “Right through the conference hallway at the end. You will know it when you see it. Trust me, it’s very colorful.”

  “Thank you,” I said politely.

  I made my way toward the corridor and glanced into the lounge, seeing Brian working busily behind the bar. He was too busy to see me, and I was okay with that. I was there for Cameron, not for socializing. Besides, the last thing I wanted to do was have to tell Brian that I had a baby, even before I had told Lily’s father. When I reached the childcare area, I smiled, seeing the brightly-colored walls inside the room. There were only two other children there, which made me feel better since I wanted to make sure Lily got the proper attention she would need. She was only two months old and not ready to be left on her own for very long.

  At the front was a middle-aged woman, looking down at a stack of papers. I walked through the door, and she looked up, peering at me over her glasses. She smiled brightly at me as I approached, lugging the car seat along and setting it down at my feet. I reached down, unbuckled Lily, and pulled her out, handing the woman the pack and play.

  “This must be beautiful little Lily,” the woman said, tickling her tummy gently. “And you must be Bea. It is so nice to finally meet you after all of our conversations.”

  “You must be Mrs. Mouser,” I said with relief. “It’s so nice to meet you.”

  “Well, come on,” she said cheerfully. “Let me show you around.”

  We walked through the children’s area that I realized was a lot bigger than I thought it would be. She told me about their policies, about their closing times, and then explained that there would only be three or four children staying with her during the New Year’s Eve party. I was relieved since I wondered how one woman could take care of a room that full of kids.

  “You look nervous,” she said, laying her hand on my arm.

  “A little,” I replied. “You see, I’m meeting Lily’s father tonight. Well, at least, I hope that I am. We had a fling of sorts a year ago, and promised we would meet here tonight. We had no way to contact each other, so he doesn’t even know Lily exists. I’m going to fill him in tonight, as long as I can find him.”

  “That is kind of romantic,” she said, lifting her eyebrows.

  “I can’t deny that I hope there is some sort of romance involved,” I said, blushing. “But in reality, my first and foremost concern is for Lily. I am hoping that he takes the news well and wants to be part of her life. I know it will be a lot to put on him like this, but I have been searching for him for a year with no luck. This is pretty much my only shot at letting him know that he is a father.”

  “It’s funny how our priorities shift when we have children, isn’t it?”

  “It is wild.” I laughed. “I’ve never felt so sure about anything in my life. It is my number one priority to protect my child. Even though I know I could have just continued with my life, never telling him about her, I wanted to do what was absolutely the best for her. I am hoping he sees that and embraces her with everything that he has. I don’t know why I’m telling you all of this. I’m sorry.”

  “No, please, don’t apologize,” she said. “I think that it is amazing that you are here, putting yourself out there for the sake of your child. You seem like a wonderful mother. And to be honest, Lily is one of the cutest babies I have ever seen. I’m sure that her father will be more than happy to embrace her as his own. Love between two people can often be complicated and messy, but your love for your children is never that harsh. The love for a child is open and free, and it is very rare that a man or a woman has to fight to feel that way about a child, even if that child is already born before finding out. I think that your daughter’s father is going to jump for joy, maybe not initially, but once he meets her, he won’t be able to stop himself.”

  “Well, I hope so,” I said, smiling.

  “In the meantime,” she said, smiling at Lily. “I am going to take very good care of that beautiful baby. I can give her some fun tummy time and turn on Baby Einstein and get her little brain moving and developing. Don’t worry. I promise that Lily is in excellent hands.”

  I smiled and walked back over to the desk where I filled out a ton of paperwork and then kissed Lily gently on the face. I handed her over to Mrs. Mouser and stood there for a moment, not wanting to leave her at all. Sensing my reluctance to leave, the sitter walked over and put her hand on my shoulder.

  “It’s okay.” She smiled. “You go now and get ready for tonight. It is quickly approaching.”

  I smiled and shook my head, knowing that she was right. The hardest part was the fact that I was struggling to walk away. Once I was away from the room, I started to feel more comfortable and more at ease than I had moments before. I took the elevator back up to my room and took my dress off of t
he hanger. I showered and changed, looking at myself in the mirror in awe. Ever since my sixth month of pregnancy, I had been living in yoga pants and sweatshirts, but seeing myself standing there with my long, black, velvet dress cascading over my hips, my confidence started to show again.

  Before I could lose that confidence, I turned and grabbed my bag and faux-fur shawl that I had brought to stay warm. I smiled kindly at the other guests passing me in the hall and made my way down to the lobby. I stood there on the marble floors for a moment and wasn’t quite sure where to start. I glanced over into the lounge, and Brian was there, pouring a row of shots. I clutched my purse tightly to my chest and walked into the lounge, smiling as Brian lit up. He walked around the bar and hugged me tightly.

  “You look amazing,” he whispered. “I’m so glad you came.”

  “Have you seen Cameron?”

  “Actually, yes,” he said. “He just walked outside about two minutes ago.”

  “Thanks,” I replied, picking up the bottom of my dress and racing for the door.

  Carefully, I walked to the right, stepping inside the large footprints leading around to the courtyard. As I rounded the corner, I stopped, staring over at Cameron sitting comfortably on the bench. He was alone, and that alone made my heart skip a beat. Now, I just needed to make it through the hard part.

  Chapter 27

  New Year’s Eve

  Cameron

  I had put my tux on, even though I didn’t have a date to impress, and walked down to the lounge to get a drink. The crowd was already in the ballroom, but I didn’t feel like being surrounded by all of those people. I did a quick sweep of the room to make sure Bea wasn’t in there and then headed outside, figuring if she was going to find me anywhere, it was going to be where we first kissed.

  I walked across the path, leaving large footprints in my wake. I sat down on the covered bench and stared out at the snow-covered slopes, lit up with bright colors. There was still twenty minutes until the countdown, but I had exhausted my anxiety, and I knew the best thing for me to do was to sit in one place and hope that if she came, Bea would find me. As I stared out at all the partygoers, my heart was starting to sink, feeling like I was destined for a night alone. However, as the thoughts passed through my mind, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I closed my eyes for a moment and smiled, making sure it was not just another dream.

  Slowly, I turned in my seat and looked up at Bea, standing in the snow. She stepped back and placed her hands in front of her, her cheeks red from the cold. She looked absolutely stunning, and I felt like the words that I wanted to say were stuck in my throat. Her long, black, velvet gown moved over her hips and down into the snow. Wrapped around her shoulders was a fur shawl with a diamond snowflake pin stuck in the right corner. She grasped her hands tightly together in front of her, and I couldn’t tell if she was cold, nervous, or a bit of both. I looked up into her beautiful green eyes and smiled wide, standing up and taking her hands.

  “Bea,” I whispered. “I didn’t think…”

  “That I would come?” she finished for me. “I wasn’t sure that you would be here. In fact, I was terrified that I would find myself standing here all alone when the ball dropped. But I couldn’t believe you came. I have something I want to talk to you about. Something that has been in my life and on my mind for the last year.”

  “Me too,” I said, taking her hands. “Come here. Sit down next to me.”

  She smiled and allowed me to pull her over to the bench. Gracefully, she sat down and turned toward me, something different in her eyes. She looked almost scared to be there talking to me. I reached out and grabbed her arms, pulling her into me.

  “Come here,” I said. “I am so happy to see you.”

  “I am so happy that you feel that way,” she said.

  “How have you been?”

  “Busy, to say the least,” she said, smiling. “But I have to admit, a little lost.”

  “I know how you feel,” I said, deciding that if I was going to tell her how I felt, it had to be then and there. Otherwise, I feared I would lose my nerve. “I’ve been looking for you.”

  “You have?”

  “Yes, for the entire last year,” I said. “In fact, when you came to look for me, I saw you, but I didn’t realize it was you until you had already left. We crossed in front of each other without even realizing it.”

  “That is insane,” she said, shaking her head. “I thought everything was strange. When I checked in, Brian told me I was staying in the same room that you had stayed in during that month together.”

  “That was you? The hotel couldn’t let me check in until the room was clean because they said a guest was staying there.” I laughed. “Talk about that little thing called fate.”

  “Yeah,” she scoffed. “I’m starting to think that I may have been wrong about that whole thing. Maybe fate does have some sort of truth to it.”

  “Look,” I said, taking her hands. “I want to tell you some things, and I need you to just listen. I am afraid if you talk back, I will lose my nerve.”

  “All right,” she said with a worried look on her face.

  “From the moment that I left you in your room and went to the airport, on that last morning together, I have felt completely lost,” I said. “There hasn’t been a day that has gone by that you haven’t been on my mind. There has been no one else since you, and I was starting to worry that I would never find anyone again. I searched and searched for you, but I didn’t have enough information to find you. So, I sat around, barely living for the last year, counting down the days until New Year’s Eve. I didn’t know if you would actually come here today, or if you would still feel the same connection that we had back then, but I couldn’t go another day without at least finding out how this would end. Bea, you are the first woman to ever make me want to change who I am. No, more than that. You are the first woman to ever change my mind about the things I thought so strongly about in my life. You have made me want to stop, to settle down, and to embrace a beautiful life that I know that we could have together.”

  “Cameron,” she said quietly, putting her hand on top of mine. “You can’t even know how happy I am to hear you say all of these things. There are so many personal things I want to say to you about the way I feel about you, but first, there is something I need to talk to you about.”

  “All right,” I said, feeling nervous. “You can tell me anything.”

  “Well, for the entire month after we parted ways, I was miserable, wanting you, yearning to be close to you,” she said, lightening my heart. “Then one morning, I woke up, and I was terribly sick. Hailey had to come and get me up off of the floor of the bathroom.”

  “Oh, no,” I said, worried. “Are you all right?”

  “Well, I am now.” She smiled. “But I didn’t have the flu or food poisoning or anything else like that.”

  “Okay, then what did you have?”

  “I didn’t have anything,” she said. “I found out that I was pregnant. Immediately, I knew I had to find you, to tell you what was going on. I spent the last year trying to track you down, but I lost you at every turn. So, when it got to the point where I was too pregnant to continue chasing you down, I came to the conclusion that I would have to wait until after the baby was born, when I could meet you here in our spot and tell you everything.”

  “Wait,” I said, looking into her eyes. “Wait just a second. Let me process this. You had a baby? You had our baby?”

  “Yes,” she said calmly. “Her name is Lily Eliza, and she is a little over three months old. She has your hair and your nose, and she giggles at everything. I have to admit, at first, I was terrified, especially when I realized that I might not find you, but when I held her in my arms for the first time, I fell completely in love with her. I know this is a lot, and I didn’t come here expecting anything from you. I just thought that you had the right to know that you had a child out there.”

  I turned and clasped my hands in front of me, stari
ng down in the snow. I had so many emotions running through me that I could barely get ahold of all of them. I was in complete shock by this news. Suffice it to say, this was not anywhere in the conversation that I thought we would have. I took in a deep breath and absorbed the information into my brain. Then, I opened my eyes and turned back to Bea.

  “Where is she now?”

  “She is in the nursery,” she said, smiling.

  “Here? Like in Aspen?”

  “Yes, right inside.” She laughed.

  “I have to meet her,” I said, standing up and smiling big. “I have to meet my daughter.”

  Bea giggled and stood up quickly, looking at my face as if she were trying to figure out if I were serious or not. I turned to her and grabbed her, pulling her into a huge hug. She laid her face on my chest and let out a deep breath, something I felt like she had been holding since we left each other.

  “I can’t believe that I’m a father,” I said, looking down at Bea. “This is absolutely amazing. Unexpected and a little confusing, but amazing nonetheless.”

  “Well, what are we waiting for?” she asked, reaching out her hand. “Come meet your little girl.”