Bad Boy Boxset

by JD Hawkins

  “Fuck, you make me wild,” I growl, and pull back to gaze through the mad haze at the perfection of the curve of her back, the shake and tremor of her ass against my hips. Pounding into her almost angrily, with seven years’ worth of unfulfilled need. I grab a fistful of her sweat-damp hair and pull her head back, guiding her throaty screams upward. She pushes, straight-armed, against the bed frame, urging me deeper.

  I smack her ass as she pushes, as I ram, until her muscles go limp, her moans pitching higher and higher. I can tell she’s close, so I flip her over onto her back and gaze into her eyes as I pump into her, watching the ecstasy take her over. She closes her eyes and her moans reach even higher levels as her orgasm slams through her, the sound of her pleasure echoing through the apartment as her body gushes with the honey-thick glow of satisfaction.

  “Teo,” she says, reaching up to pull me toward her for one last kiss. “I love you.”

  Suddenly I lose all control. With a frenzy of final thrusts I let myself go, coming deep inside of her, the last tightenings of her pussy taking the last of my lust. My own body almost numb as I lean over, breath slowing, and plant a grateful kiss on her neck.

  A quarter of an hour later, we’re lying on our sides in her bed, gazing at each other as we recover some of our senses, come down from the high.

  “That was nothing like high school,” Ash says, still biting her lip a little from the shimmering afterglow.

  “Well, we never had much time back then,” I say, feeling the stirrings of another lust begin deep in my chest. Pushing a cool finger down her side.

  “No,” she says, a little sadly. “We didn’t.”

  I narrow my eyes a little, my finger reaching her waist and pulling her closer, until the cool skin of her breasts is pressed against my chest. Close enough to see the swirls in her eyes again.

  “I’m done thinking about the past,” I say, hands already roving across the mountain of her ass again. “I wanna make the most of this right now.”

  “And what about later?” she asks with a mischievous smile.

  I pull her on top of me. “We’ll figure it out,” I say, drawing her lips down toward mine.

  11

  Ash

  I wake up slowly, drifting in and out of sleep, unsure of which is the dream or not. So many times I’ve dreamt of him, woken up and rolled over to a cold, empty part of the bed. I’d get a pang of loneliness that made me close my eyes and want to go back to sleep quickly, to catch that dream version of the world again before it disappeared forever. This time, I roll over onto the sculpted hardness of his body, giving off a soothing, gentle warmth. I open my eyes and see those tattoos dancing across the lines and twists of his body.

  We’re uncovered—enough heat generated last night to hold off an Alaskan winter. Teo’s on his back, hand behind his head as he sleeps peacefully. I lean up on an elbow and watch his chest rise and fall for a while. I soak in the lickable, skin-tingling sight of his smooth skin. The perfect shape of his abs enough to jolt me to full alertness like a shot of caffeine. I think about waking him up with a blowjob, but he put his tight boxer briefs on before sleeping. Eventually I can’t help myself, though, and I lean over to put my mouth on those abs. I kiss softly, running the tip of my tongue across the definition.

  “Hey,” he says, smiling groggily. His muscles flinch, tickled by my tongue, and he grabs me as if catching me in the act, pulling me onto him so I lie between his legs, chin on his chest. He sticks another pillow behind him to sit up, his hands lazily running down my back so he can play with my ass.

  “Morning,” I purr at him.

  “Morning,” he smiles down at me.

  We don’t say anything else for a few minutes, his hands running slowly up and down my ass, my fingers tracing the lines of his tattoos conversation enough.

  “You’ve got so many more tattoos since the last time I saw you.”

  “Lot of stuff’s happened since then.”

  I look up at him with curious eyes.

  “You saying all these tattoos have stories behind them?”

  Teo nods.

  “Most of them.”

  I look down, scanning the array of images and symbols across his body, before settling on a roughly-drawn skull with a crow on top of it.

  “This one? It looks pretty dark.”

  Teo sighs when he sees which one I pointed at.

  “I keep meaning to get that one done over,” he says, a note of dismay in his voice. “I was rolling with a bike gang in Tennessee for a while. Not exactly nice guys, but as long as I was with them I had a place to stay, could make some decent money, and keep drunk enough not to care about what we did for it. The tatt was just part of the induction.”

  “What was the other part?”

  Teo looks at me with a half-grin, though I know it’s only there to hide some pain.

  “Unless you want to spoil this perfect morning, I’m gonna hold on to that story for now.”

  I turn my eyes again to his body, then turn over his other arm to better see a young deer on the inside of his bicep.

  “Kinda cute for you, isn’t it?”

  “I drove trucks for a winter. Hit a deer one night in Montana. Didn’t stop—those rigs take a long time to get going again in the cold. Next day after breakfast I just walked into a tattoo shop—didn’t really think about it. Only knew that I wanted a tattoo and I had the money for it. When the guy asked me what I wanted, all I could think of was that deer.”

  I frown at him a little.

  “Are all the stories of your tattoos sad?”

  Teo laughs a little, the shudder of it passing through his body to mine. He quiets quickly though, thinking about it.

  “I guess the good things I have are all there. I don’t need to get a tattoo to remind me of my friends, my shop. I don’t think of these as sad… Looking back at all these…it only makes me appreciate what I have more.”

  I purse my lips, acknowledging it, but still a little unconvinced.

  “Look,” he says, shifting me a little to show me a simplistic-looking plant shape on the side of his ribcage. “This is the lotus flower. It’s an old symbol—means different things in different cultures. In Buddhism, Egyptian hieroglyphics, Greek mythology, Tibetan mysticism.”

  I look down at it, trace it slowly with an appreciative finger.

  “I like it.”

  “Generally, though, it means new beginnings. A new day. The purity of a fresh start.”

  I raise my eyes from the tattoo to him and smile.

  “That’s something I can get behind,” I say, lowering my lips to kiss it softly.

  Teo laughs as if tickled again and grabs me, pulling me up for a slow, soft kiss. His hands trace once again down the curve of my back, ride the hump of my ass where they settle. I feel the bulge in his briefs harden and grow.

  We pull our lips apart and he looks at me with narrowed eyes, searching mine as if he’s looking for something.

  “How about you?” he asks. “You still thinking about getting your tattoo?”

  I don’t hesitate. “Yes. When I’m ready.”

  He nods. “I’ll be here, then. When you’re ready.”

  Teo traces the line of my jaw with gentle fingers and then pulls me into another dreamy kiss. When we finally pull away, his eyes have a mischievous sparkle to them.

  “We keep talking about me,” he says. “What I’ve been doing, where I’ve been. But you’ve told me hardly anything about what you’ve been doing these past seven years. I think it’s your turn to spill.”

  “Ugh,” I say, hanging my head so my hair drops to his chest, then raising it again. “Nothing as exciting as biker gangs and jaunts to Europe—trust me.”

  “Still. I wanna know.”

  I take a deep breath, and look away.

  “Not much to tell, really. I finished college… Got a job assisting and then producing at Hollywood Night… And since then it’s been a steady grind, a lot of hard work to get barely anywhere from the
re.”

  Teo looks at me keenly, pulling his head back a little, as if hesitant to say what’s on his mind.

  “That stuff you talked about with Isabel…something about your dad hooking you up?”

  I sigh and move away to sit up beside him, cross-legged on the bed—not really in the mood to get intimate now that we’re talking about my dad, and my work history. I shake my head and look up.

  “I was supposed to go work at some big studio after college. My dad had this whole path laid out—pulled in his connections and influence to ‘pave the way’ for me. Associate producer on some big projects for a couple of years, which is actually just a title and means you hardly worked on the show at all, then move on to producing a few of my own projects, with the help of some ‘real’ professionals, a.k.a. hardly working on them yet again, and plenty of networking and schmoozing all the while, and then—if I followed the plan—I’d be earning seven figures and calling shots in Hollywood as a real producer by the time I was thirty. All without hardly lifting a finger. He was going to pay my rent and everything.”

  “Shit,” Teo gasps in genuine awe. “What happened?”

  I look at him, wondering if he really doesn’t understand me after all this time.

  “Nothing ‘happened.’ I turned it down. Looked for a job on my own. I didn’t just want the title and the glory, I wanted to learn on the job, get my hands dirty doing the work.”

  Teo’s staring at me now as if I told him I killed someone.

  “Seriously?”

  “What? Would you have taken that deal?”

  “Hell yeah! Seven figures and being able to call your own shots in Hollywood? Isn’t that what you wanted?”

  I shake my head at him, wondering if he’s joking.

  “Yeah, it’s what I wanted. But getting what you want means nothing if you don’t earn it. And it isn’t a money thing, either. Forget the big paychecks. I want to work on projects that move people. That make a difference. The kinds of projects that really matter.”

  Teo pushes a hand into his hair and scratches it roughly.

  “You’re a stronger person than me, Ash.”

  “Come on. You wouldn’t have taken that deal either,” I say. “Imagine never knowing whether your success was yours or if it was just handed to you. My whole career I’d have been ‘my father’s daughter.’ It would have hung over me until I retired—fuck that.”

  Teo laughs and looks at me with admiring eyes.

  “What about now? How is ‘going it alone’ working out? Any closer to those big dreams?”

  I roll my eyes and look away, realizing that I might defeat my own argument by answering that.

  “Well…it’s going ok. Not ‘ok’ enough that I don’t wonder about whether I made the right choice sometimes, though.”

  “What’s up? You having problems moving up?”

  I throw my head back onto the pillow beside Teo and look up at the ceiling.

  “Not ‘problems,’ per se. I mean, I just got a promotion, hence the new apartment. I’m getting tons of experience and making contacts and all that. But it’s…just…it’s… I’m working on this crap show that could be so much better than it is, and all I want is the chance to show that—to show what I could do with just a little more faith—but I keep getting stonewalled every time I try to spread my wings a little. They’re convinced our audience can’t handle the kind of stuff I want to do.”

  “What do you wanna do that’s so controversial?”

  I lean forward, full hand gestures now as I get enthusiastic.

  “Ok, so it’s just a gossip show—real formulaic. Who’s fucking who, somebody’s got a new movie out, that kind of thing. And sure, I get that, it’s the format. But what I wanna do, really, is produce some segments with a little twist, you know? Some depth. Something a little out of the ordinary, that doesn’t assume the audience is half-asleep and only kinda listening. I’ve got ideas—man I’ve got so many ideas. And I know they would work. But the higher-ups won’t let me do any of them.”

  Teo looks at me with a mixture of admiration and confusion.

  “So why not just film them anyway?”

  “What?”

  “Just tape the segments you want to film. On your own.”

  I laugh and wave the idea away.

  “It doesn’t work like that, Teo.”

  He opens his palm wide in a gesture of bemusement.

  “You’re a producer, right? You’re not some intern coffee-maker. This is your job. Making shows happen. You have the know-how and the contacts, you can rent equipment—”

  “True…” I admit belatedly. “But I can’t just decide to put something on the air myself. Hollywood Night doesn’t work like that. There’s this tight-ass, corporate hierarchy structure that dictates exactly what we—”

  “Bullshit,” Teo interrupts. “You didn’t turn down seven figures just to take orders from someone else, right?”

  I bite my cheek.

  “No.”

  “So…could you do it? Rent some cameras, get a crew together and film your pieces? Is that feasible?”

  “I mean…sure, I could… But—”

  “So just do it.”

  “And then what? Say ‘Hey, I filmed this segment that you told me you didn’t want a dozen times already. What do you say?’”

  Now Teo waves my idea away.

  “Sometimes people don’t know what works until you show it to them,” he says, with a belief that’s bordering on wisdom. “You know how many times people have come into my shop with some picture that would never work as a tattoo? You can explain and argue with them for a whole day and they still don’t get why it’ll look like shit. But if you draw them something similar that would actually work,” Teo stops to click his fingers loudly, “they get it. People don’t know what they want until they see it. So show them.”

  I let the words linger in my mind, turning them over like a puzzle.

  “Maybe,” I say softly, lost in my own thoughts now.

  In the silence I hear my phone buzz in the hallway, and get up to go check it. It’s a message from Jenny:

  STEPHEN PEACE JUST DIED. WE THINK. GET HERE NOW!

  I rush back into the bedroom, waving my phone at Teo.

  “Hollywood emergency,” I say, grabbing clothes from my closet. “I gotta run.”

  “No time for breakfast?” Teo says, surprising me as he comes up behind me, roving hands around my front, his beard grazing my neck.

  I groan slightly, then give in to responsibility.

  “I’m still full from last night,” I say, turning to kiss him quickly before pulling away to get dressed.

  After a few minutes in which he gets on his jeans and boots, he comes back into the bedroom carrying a coffee for me in one hand and his shirt in the other.

  “You got a safety pin?” he says as I gulp down the liquid caffeine, showing me the torn fabric.

  “Sorry,” I shrug, grabbing my bag and stuffing my keys and phone into it. “I could lend you a shirt, but I doubt anything would fit.” I move toward him, put a hand on his cheek and kiss him softly. “I’ll try to be more gentle next time.”

  Teo pulls on his torn shirt and follows me to the door.

  “Don’t. I’ve got plenty of shirts.”

  People are bustling and moving when I arrive at work. They buzz around with a sense of urgency, holding phones to their ears even as they shout at each other across the workspace. An Oscar-winning icon of modern cinema dying is the celebrity show equivalent of a major tragedy, especially when that actor is relatively young, and currently experiencing a career resurgence. This is news that the major news networks are going to dedicate hours to—so for a show like Hollywood Night, dedicated to exactly this kind of news, it’s critical to get it right.

  I decide to find Jenny first, and head upstairs to the offices, but she calls to me as I approach the writer’s room.

  “Ash! Christ, thank God you’re finally here.”

  “Jenny,
” I say, as she walks hurriedly toward me, balancing a phone on her clipboard as she writes something on it, “is Stephen Peace really dead? I checked online in the cab over here but nobody seems sure.”

  Jenny buzzes past me so quickly I can almost feel the slipstream. She waves a hand for me to follow and I try to keep up.

  “We’re not sure either,” she says, voice jumping along with her bouncing steps. “Rumors are flying around online, but there’s nothing I would risk a limb on. The thing is, we need a segment up on this fast—it’s what we’re here for, and if we get this story first we might just hit our numbers this month. The problem is that we can’t call it without knowing. If the show gets it wrong it would be suicide.”

  “Of course.”

  “And you’re going to have to make the call on this. I just got off the phone with Sean, and all I got from him was what I dreaded—the most polite, humble, and nicely-worded ‘I don’t give a shit’ in the business.”

  “What about Candace?”

  Jenny glances back at me just long enough for me to see her eye roll.

  “She’s getting her nails done today.”

  Jenny slams through the exit to the stairs and I jump through before the door slams back.

  “Well why don’t we actually try to find out if he’s dead or not?” I say, over the sound of our shoes quickly tapping down the stairs. “It shouldn’t be hard.”

  “Everybody’s been trying. Half the writer’s room is on detective duty right now. His agent says he’s alive and kicking, but a publicist for the movie he may or may not be filming in Croatia right now gave us some vague answer that sounded like something was up. Then we’ve got one source saying he was transported to a hospital in L.A. an hour ago, is hanging by a thread, and the reason there’s no statement is that the death is pretty incriminating regarding his drug habits. One of our writers is convinced this is all just a case of mistaken identity started by some blurry photo of a guy on a stretcher, and we’ve also got a source telling us this is all some elaborate publicity stunt to promote the release of his new movie.”