But one doesn’t seem enough. My lips find his once more and we start kissing softly. His arms wrap around me. Pulling me into him. I collapse on top of him. My lips work with his as we deepen the kiss. Unusual sensations build within me as the kiss deepens. His hand lands on the small of my back and an ache between my legs develops. His hardness presses against my wetness, and the sensation is almost too much. Suddenly, I’m turned over, Leo’s body now hovering over mine, our lips still touching. One hand grazes down the side of my body and toward my breast. I almost freeze in anticipation of his touch.
He senses something is wrong and pulls back, searching my eyes for some answers. “Too fast?” he asks, his brows knitting together.
“No, I want this. I want you.”
“Sure?” he asks again with a tilt of his head.
I pull my lip between my teeth, giving him a firm nod. “But…” I blurt out. “I’ve, uh, never you know…gone all the way before.” My cheeks burn with embarrassment now, and I drop my connection with his eyes.
“Hey.” He places one hand against my cheek, bringing my eyes back in line with his. “I got you, baby.”
Repositioning himself, he dips his head, our lips crashing together once more. He slides from the side of the bed, lifting my hips he works at freeing me from my gym pants, leaving me in just my leotard. I instinctively wrap my legs around his waist.
“This, this is too fucking much.” His hungry eyes take in every inch of my slender body. “I’ve never seen anyone as beautiful as you, Cassie.” His tone is laced with desire and he dips his head, kissing my collarbone while removing the shoulder strap, pulling it down.
Unable to fight back the groan, I let it all out. Every touch of his lips is like ice against my hot skin. I love the feeling, and so does my body as it reacts to his every touch. He works softly pulling down the other strap and I’m quick to work my arms through. My breasts are exposed and his kisses move lower, until he reaches my hardened nipples. My sex starts to pulsate as he swirls his tongue over the sensitive bud. Sucking it into his mouth, I writhe at the pleasure that courses through me. My arms reach around him, pulling him and hugging him against my body.
“So perfect,” he mutters. He’s worshipping my body, and for the first time in forever, I actually feel good. That I’m worth more than what Vinny did to me.
Pushing the fleeting thought from my mind, I focus on Leo. He peppers kisses down my torso, his hands tugging to remove the rest of the leotard from my body. Lifting my hips, his face is in line with my sex. I hadn’t prepared for this to happen. I’m not freshly showered or wearing sexy underwear and I feel super self-conscious. My heart pounds and my breathing is rapid. I lean up a little watching him removing my clothing. He throws it onto the floor before grabbing my ankles and yanking me closer to the edge of the bed. He uses his hands to spread my legs wide, hissing in a breath as he takes me in. Lowering himself onto his knees, I feel his warm breath on my sex. He starts to kiss the inside of my leg and I instantly start to squirm, the intensity almost too much. His hand lands on my stomach as he tries to control my writhing body. Wetness grows between my legs as does the excitement. His kisses grow closer to my sex and I can’t help but shiver. His hand moves to my sex, sliding between my folds. He slowly moves back and forth hitting my clit over and over. With every contact I tense a little.
“Relax a little,” he says softly. I do as he instructs and right away he starts to circle my clit with the pad of his thumb. My hips move instinctively as the pleasure deepens. The contact stops for a second, but I jerk back at the next. His warm tongue works expertly against my clit and my stomach tightens. My breathing is all over the place and my insides tighten in a way I’ve never felt before. Sure, I’ve touched myself, but it’s never felt like this…ever. With every contact of his tongue against my clit, my insides tighten like a coiled spring, waiting to explode.
“Oh God,” I cry out, not sure what else to say. Leo gets up from his kneeling position but doesn’t stop. He places his hand where his fingers were and I feel as though I can’t hold on. I grab his hand, removing it. “Stop,” I say quietly.
The look of deep concern appears on his face. “You okay?” He’s frowning now.
“Yes,” I reply with a bat of my lashes. “Just so…so intense,” I try to explain to him. The truth is I have no idea what or how this is supposed to feel. I’m a virgin. I never realized just how good this would feel.
“You still want this?” he asks, his lids at half-mast as they are hooded and needy.
“Yes,” I reply, reassuring him with a smile. His hand finds the neck of his shirt as he quickly pulls it over his head. I watch as his hand then finds the button on his jeans and he works them down, along with his boxers. His cock springs free and I have to stifle the gasp that is trying to escape.
The thought of us being safe flashes through my mind. I open my mouth, ready to let him know what I’m thinking, but it’s like he’s one step ahead. He digs into his pocket, retrieving the foil packet and pulling at the corner with his teeth. He tears open the packet and lines the condom up at the end. I watch as he rolls it down his cock. I almost gulp at how well-endowed Leo is. I have nothing to compare it to, but I can’t help but wonder if this is going to hurt. He leans over and I fall back as his lips come closer to mine. He kisses me deeply and I feel his hard cock nudging at my entrance. I’m wet and needy, but also a little scared. The realization that this is when I will lose my virginity is as scary as hell. My hands wrap around his neck, my body starting to quiver a little as the way I feel inside now becomes evident on the outside.
“You’re shivering,” he mumbles against my lips, slowing the kiss and looking me in the eye. “I’m not going to hurt you. I promise.”
I swallow the emotion that grows in my throat.
“I want to feel you,” I tell him, trying to force my fears away.
His warm touch grazes over my sensitive skin as his hand works over my body only stopping when he finds my sex again. His hand works between my folds, his thumb skirting over my clit once again. The pressure starts to build once more, and my hands dig into his muscular back.
“You like that, baby?” his husky voice asks and all I can manage is a nod.
He works his fingers against my clit for a few seconds longer before replacing it with the tip of his cock. He runs it back and forth through my folds, teasing and hitting my clit. With each touch, I lift my hips. I can’t help it. It’s like my body knows what I need more than I do.
With his eyes lifting and searing mine, he pushes gently against my center. Preparing myself for what is to come, I bite on my lip, my whole body thrusts as he pushes against me. His hands firmly hold my hips and my legs lock around his waist. I gasp in pleasure as he enters me. His movements are slow and sensual and never once does he drop his gaze from mine. His forehead creases and his dark, lust-filled eyes remain focused on me. His movements are so soft, yet painful.
Painful but addictive.
Despite the pain, I want to feel more as the pleasure builds with every stroke. My heart thumps along to the rhythm of his thrusts. Everything about this is perfection. My fear of intimacy dissipates with every touch and kiss from Leo.
The earlier feeling of tightness in my stomach returns. Leo’s right hand moves from my hip and I watch as he places his thumb in his mouth, wetting it, before pressing it against my swollen clit. I whimper at the contact and the feeling of his thumb on my clit sparks fireworks within me. The pleasure is so close. I feel my body building and building with every stroke and every contact.
“So good,” I breathe. Every part of my body tingles and I know I’m never going to forget this feeling.
A cute smirk tugs at his lips and it’s as if it’s what he needed to hear. His movements become faster and deeper and my hands grab for the bed covers as I jerk back with every pound. From soft and sensual to needy and explosive. The burn only adds to the pleasure as Leo drives into me. Grasping at the sheets, my head falls b
ack as my insides feel like fireworks and my sex starts to pulsate around Leo’s cock. My head is dizzy and I let out a mewl as my orgasm works through me.
Leo continues to thrust inside of me, but he soon lets out a growl, his cock grows thick and I feel him pulsating as he empties his load.
His eyes close and he shudders as he falls forward, holding himself up with extended arms. He dips his head just enough for our lips to connect. I reach up, placing a hand at either side of his face. I start to kiss him hard, trying to show him how much this means to me. I can taste myself, but I don’t care. The memory of him between my legs causes butterflies to stir in my stomach.
“Are you okay?” he mumbles, pulling back just enough to look me in the eye.
“Never better.” I smile, one that comes direct from my heart. Sure, I feel sore and it burns, but it wasn’t exactly the pain I’d imagined. I didn’t think I’d enjoy it, not with all the stories of how painful losing your virginity should be. But I can’t help but think all of the things that Vinny did to me, or made me do, must’ve made a difference.
“You’re so fucking beautiful,” he says with a huge smile. He places a fleeting kiss on my forehead before pushing himself up and slowly removing his cock from inside of me.
Rolling onto my side, I watch him as he strolls out of sight and into the bathroom. My entire body still feels alive and I reach up, trailing my finger over my bottom lip as I think about the pleasure and connection between us. I never imagined I could feel this way. But I do. And it’s the best feeling.
Moving myself up the bed, I grab a sheet and cover my naked body, waiting for him to return. The light from the bathroom floods into the dark room.
After a few seconds, Leo walks back into the room, leaping onto the bed beside me. I laugh as he wraps his arm around me, pulling my body against his. “I feel like the luckiest man alive right now. I just need to know that you’re okay.”
“I’ve never felt like this about anyone,” I reply. “Thank you for being understanding and patient and gentle with me.” I reach up, flicking back the hair that has fallen forward. “I didn’t think I would ever allow myself to be this way with someone, not after what happened.”
His jaw tenses and he pulls me closer. My exposed breasts press against his chest as he turns his body toward me. “You should make him pay for what he did to you, Cassie. You have to tell your father. He’s a good man, he’ll believe and support you and make sure that scumbag gets exactly what he deserves.”
I shake my head. “I can’t. He won’t ever know about what Vinny did to me.”
“I know it hurts, Cass…I know the memories are painful, but you’re letting him get away with it. What if he’s done this to others?”
I grimace, pain searing in my chest. “I hadn’t thought about that.” I almost gasp.
“Just promise me you’ll think about it.”
I nod. “But you also have to promise to be the one who takes away those bad memories. Because this…” I point between us. “This is what makes all the shattered parts inside mend together.” Hooking my arms around his neck, I lift my leg, sitting on his lap. “You’re all I need to forget.”
His palm is flat against my back as he pulls my body into him once more. “I need you too, more than you’ll ever know.” His mouth finds my nipple as he sucks it into his mouth. I drop my head back as my body tingles at the contact. I love that we can’t keep our hands off one another, and I love that we have tonight together. No one else, just the two of us.
Chapter Seventeen
Leo
I never wanted the night to end. Cassie has been asleep for a little over an hour, but it’s soon time to wake up and face reality. Telling her about what I did and knowing that she understands is the best decision I’ve ever made.
But this shit is hard. Finally giving in to my need for her, knowing that at any moment it could all be snatched away from me. If the police find out where I am, I’ll have to pay for what I’ve done.
I shudder, pressing my eyes shut for a second as I try to clear the thoughts and anxiety. Watching her chest rise and fall, I’m mesmerized by her. For someone who went through something so horrific, she’s strong. There’s a strength inside her that is rarely seen.
I check my watch and I know that we have to go.
“Hey, baby,” I whisper, placing a gentle kiss against her cheek. Still half asleep, she mumbles something, her arm stretching out to the side. “I don’t want you to get into trouble.”
“What?” she responds, her eyes flying open. “What time is it?”
“Time we should be making a move.”
“Ugh,” she groans. Her arm reaches up until it rests on my neck. “Can’t we just forget about everything else and stay here? Just you and me?”
“I wish.” Flashing her a sad smile, I lean forward kissing the tip of her nose. I have enough reasons to not want to return to the Conways’. Including Liza. My chest hurts knowing that I haven’t told her about Liza’s tricks and how something may have happened between us that I have zero memory of.
One confession was hard enough. But this. I don’t know how she’ll take it. I know inevitably I will have to tell her, but the time needs to be right.
I can’t lose her. Not over this.
Cassie turns to face me, her index finger finding my chest. Using her nail, she draws circles on my chest, her eyes looking into mine. Her bright blues twinkle like stars shining in a dark sky, and my chest tightens as I lose myself in them.
“You know…” She trails of, breaking the connecting, then reconnecting. “They’re going to know,” she whispers, as if trying not to be heard.
Squinting at her, I’m not sure what she’s getting at. “Who’ll know what?”
“Dad and Liza. They’re going to see us coming back together and figure out what happened.”
I freeze, my body tensing at the thought of Liza and her bullshit. Afraid of what will happen, I know we have to keep it to ourselves.
“I don’t think we should say anything, just yet.”
Leaning up until she rests on her elbow, she slowly moves her head from side to side. “I’m not comfortable with sneaking around—lying. Besides, I want everyone to know that you’re mine.” She rests her free arm around my neck lazily and I let my head fall forward until it meets with hers.
“I want that more than anything, too. I just don’t want to cause trouble with Liza and your father. I don’t think I’m exactly the kinda guy he wants in your life.”
Frowning deeply, she exhales. “My father has no idea who you even are, Leo.”
I drop my eyes focusing on the bedsheets between us. I’m not even sure I know who I am right now. “I gotta get my own place, Cass. I got to get back to school and make something of myself. But without the help of Liza, none of that is possible.”
She gulps and I lift my gaze to meet hers. The bright sparkle in her eyes is now a dull shimmer. She’s sad, confused, and I know it’s all my fault. “You think you’ll be able to live without being caught? I’m scared that it’s only a matter of time, Leo.”
“So, what? I come clean. I’m charged with murder—”
“Self-defense. You tell them it was self-defense.”
My eyes flutter shut and thickness grows in my neck. “They’ll never believe me.”
“We’ll figure this out,” she replies sweetly, her voice full of optimism. “I’m not losing you when I just found you.” Placing a fleeting kiss against my lips, she throws back the sheets and jumps down from the bed. “I need to shower. You should join me.” Throwing me a wink, I leap off the bed and start to chase after her. Her squeals and laughter reverberate through the huge room and my heart feels a little lighter, just at hearing the sound.
* * *
Pulling into the driveway, I kill the engine, my head turning to the side to take in one last look at the girl who has quickly become my everything.
“I should, uh, I should get going.” Her voice sounds nervous and I rea
ch out squeezing her hand gently.
“I’ll see you later?”
“Maybe.” A smirk pulls at the corner of her lips.
Swinging open the door, she exits the car and I watch as she skips toward the house and disappears inside. My heartbeat is faster than normal, and it’s all down to Cassie. Fuck, I’m in trouble. But she’s the best kind of trouble you could imagine. I relax the grip I have on the steering wheel, un-tensing my arms.
Overwhelmed with confusion, I let my head fall back against the headrest. Running away and hiding from what I’ve done made sense…until now. I had nothing to live for. I was just trying to exist. But now, now I have a reason. And no matter what happens I feel like I’m going to fail. I knew that Cassie was something special when I first met her, but now…now, she’s etched under my skin and I can’t escape her or the feelings I have for her any longer. I never imagined in my wildest dreams that this could happen to me. But it has. And now I’ve got to figure out how I can keep her in my life.
An unexpected knock on the window startles me. Whipping my head to the side, I look up at Liza glaring at me. Lowering the window, I look up at her hardened face.
“Where the hell have you been?”
“Out,” I reply in a dull voice.
“Out? What does that even mean?” She crosses her arms over her chest, kicking out her hip.
“Drove a little. Parked and fell asleep in the car. The next thing I know it’s morning.”
“Hmmm,” she hums suspiciously. “Well, you need to get your ass in gear. We have a meeting at the university this morning. My contact is waiting to take care of all your paperwork and transfer.”
I throw open the door, Liza moves backward, allowing me to step out. “That’s great.”
“I’ve really put my neck on the line for you, my lover.” Her hand lands on my cheek but I pull back, instantly breaking the contact. “What?” she asks in utter amazement, eyes wide and jaw slack. “This is God’s will. You and I. We’re meant to be. That’s why he brought you to me. You must see this.”
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