Tufti the Priestess

by Vadim Zeland

  It is not your job to set the script and know the answer to “how?”.

  Your job is to know what you want to achieve, and to set the result — the goal frame.

  When it feels like ‘life is falling apart,’ that is the advantage — reality is being cleansed.

  You are walking through a film when your attention is fully present and you are propelling yourself with intention.

  Allowing is the work of external intention when nothing has anything to do with you.

  Wake up, see, compose. As soon as anything goes wrong — “Advantage!”

  If you don’t wake up in time and seek the advantage, in many cases you will understand what the advantage was in hindsight, but then it will be too late. You will understand when you look back and remember, why and how you pushed against the situation and the opportunity you missed.

  Yes-yes-yes, you will keep forgetting and remembering too late, many, many times, until tracking your attention becomes a habit. And why do you constantly forget about your attention? Do you remember?

  Here’s a riddle for you: what is the easiest and at the same time the most important question that torments snails, even without them realising that it torments them? There’s no point in frowning at me, you won’t guess.

  < Why aren’t things the way I want them to be? > That is the question! So what is the answer? It is because you are being led by the script, because you are unaware of the fact, because you don’t compose reality yourself but simply exist within it, like fish in an aquarium, or more precisely, like snails.

  The fact that you are constantly in a vegetative state and only occasionally wake up and realise that you were sleeping, proves that you are being led by the script. Why did you think that you forget about your attention? From absent-mindedness? No, it is because you are being led by the script.

  You think that you are acting independently, getting your own way, but that’s just an illusion. The illusion of action, if I may remind you, lies in being so caught up in reality that you don’t notice the illusion and aren’t aware that you are the obedient character of a game.

  It is literally like a film. The characters in a film don’t fully realise their situation either. I am not referring to the actors but the heroes of the film specifically. The actors may be long dead, but the characters they played come to life every time someone watches the film. Don’t you find it strange? Technically speaking, there is nothing strange about it — just scenes from life shot on a roll of film. And yet, it is very strange, isn’t it?

  You invented films not because you came up with the idea yourselves, but because this aspect of reality already exists. You cannot come up with anything new, that does not already exist in waking reality or that is not yet explicitly manifest. The only reason you have film is that you are living in a motion picture. Film is a model of reality.

  Equally as strange is the contradiction whereby you, as characters, unlike the heroes of a motion picture, are endowed with consciousness. It is a paradox — reality’s a joke. And still, you have a chance. Although you are fully present and self-aware in the moment that you ask yourself the question, the rest of the time your awareness is sleeping and surrenders to the outer script.

  What is also incredible is that you aren’t shocked by the idea that you are merely sleeping characters in a script, although you should. The reason it doesn’t shock you is that you aren’t capable of seeing through the illusion of action. It is very powerful. You simply don’t take it seriously when I say, “You are being led by the script.” You think it is a joke or some kind of esoteric fantasy. It’s true!

  And even when you take me at my word, you aren’t fully aware of it, just like the characters in a film aren’t aware that they are characters in a film. But perhaps, one day, after you have experimented with reality, the moment will come when you will be acutely aware of it. And then you really will be shocked.

  But for now... you only vaguely suspect the existence of the script — the phenomenon of fate. Yet fate is just a general di-rection. You can choose your fate, like a road, but you are twerps that you choose fate in a worsening direction because you see harm rather than advantage in life; and also because you do not really choose; instead you go out of your way to control everything, thereby creating even more harm.

  The script is much more strict and precise than your perception of fate. It is a program that dictates your behaviour and all your actions on the current film roll. It is not possible to control the script. All you can do is choose a different one by composing a concordant reality.

  It is tempting to try and control the script, given your habit of doing so and the illusion that such a thing is even possible for you. When you try to exert direct influence on people and events, you are making a mistake that leads to a whole series of negative actions and adverse effects.

  Then the script begins to move in such a way that the clouds on the horizon of your reality can only get heavier. And then you will find yourself like a rat in a maze, looking for a way out, which is gruelling and unproductive.

  You must understand that it is not possible to directly influence either the local script or the general course of events. You can only grasp the edge of the canvas of reality and make use of some of its components. Seeking the advantage is one of those components. And if you don’t get this, I’ll annihilate you all. Dimwits I can do without! I have a button called ‘Delete’; it countermands everything... or erases it, I don’t remember which exactly; I should check.

  The Creator’s Spark

  Repetition, repetition, my dears, my beauties, repetition is to your advantage! Although it is torment for me... Or not, as I said, repetition is your pain and my gain, my little maniacs.

  You aren’t yet seeing or composing reality; you live within it like fish in an aquarium.

  You forget to track your attention because you are being led by the script.

  You were only able to invent cinema because you are already living in a film.

  The cinema is one aspect of reality, literally a model of it.

  The script is the program for your behaviour on this particular film roll.

  You can’t control the script; you can only compose the goal frame.

  Now, we return once again to that age-old question: why is everything not quite as I want it to be? You already know the answer to this question; it lies in the fact that you don’t fully realise the situation you find yourself in. At least, you didn’t until now. Is it possible to make things in life the way you would like them to be? The answer is affirmative, the only problem is that you aren’t going about it in the right way.

  Imagine that you have woken up inside a film. What can you possibly change? The film develops irrespective of your actions. There’s no point in trying to influence people and events because everything is predetermined. Yet, this is precisely what you do your best to achieve. The break occurs in the moment that a tiny spark of awareness tells you that nothing is going as you want it to, and yet at that, the spark fades.

  By virtue of being incompetent characters on the one hand and having the capacity for self-awareness on the other, you are ruled by the powerful temptation to control the course of events and other people directly, exerting influence upon them and manipulating them within the current frame. You soon realise that this isn’t actually impossible and begin to be tormented by the question of “how?”. And yet, you can’t possibly know ‘how’ because you “haven’t read the script”.

  So, if the script is a mystery, and you can’t control it or the people within in, what can you do exactly?

  First: propel the forthcoming frame.

  Second: propel yourself.

  Third: propel yourself from within.

  This is the sum total of the tools at your disposal.

  The first one you already k
now: compose the goal slide. You must be wondering, why I repeat this point so often. It is because you have settled hard into your snail house, your mould, which would make you believe that, ‘it is impossible to compose forthcoming reality — you can only battle with the conditions of your current physical reality’. In fact, in life it’s the opposite. In composing reality, you install a film roll with a script that works for you, if, of course, you seek advantage from the situations it brings your way, rather than hindering it by always expecting the worst.

  We will talk about the third point later; for now, the second: what does it mean to propel yourself? Imagine that you are in a film. The film is already running and you can’t change anything about the storyline, but no one is stopping you from changing yourself. Don’t listen to those who would try to convince you that you should be yourself and never change. To a certain extent, yes, you can’t lose your core identity, your uniqueness, but should you stay a snail? Is that what you want?

  You have to change without changing. You will understand soon what I mean by that. Self-improvement does not mean changing your core self. You were originally created by Nature as perfection itself, even taking into account your failings, which all of us have. Where there is no development, there is degradation. It is a natural law. It is important for you to understand that you have to work on yourself, develop your physical and your spiritual qualities unless you wish to turn into shrivelled slugs.

  Much depends on self-development. In each of you there is a spark of the Creator, so kindle it. The spark is not of the lord but specifically of the Creator. To lord it over others is another kind of temptation which you must never give in to. Create your reality and yourself perfect. The Supreme Creator does not contradict this rule; he does not rule over you (what would be the point, you wouldn’t listen anyway), he creates, and you are capable of doing the same.

  How and why we focus on physical self-development, you and I are all well aware. Who needs a shrivelled slug? What can they possibly achieve except frown and complain of their fate? It sounds harsh, but it is the truth and you can’t hide from the truth forever in your little snail’s house.

  In spiritual terms, we must become as fireflies in the realm of shadows. I have already explained to you how: enlighten your attention, that is, track it in time, see yourself and see reality. Even just doing this, you begin to shine. And what if you were to radiate even more brightly? What should you radiate precisely? Do you really need to ask? Well, naturally, with the same things that attract you — with happiness, love, and rejoicing.

  When you do, snails from all around will crawl towards you, stretching out their snail horns. Even without changing the film roll, people will show interest and favour towards you. The film continues as before, only now, you are a megastar. You barely have to do anything at all; just learn to track your attention and direct it properly. Kindle the Creator’s spark within — a most pleasant exercise and worthy goal, is it not?

  There are a couple of finer points I will tell you about too.

  You must ‘compose reality’ at the same time as doing whatever the script requires of you. First, compose reality; then having jumped to a new film roll, do everything you have to do: go wherever you must, say and do whatever you must. Yes, all this is in the current frame. You didn’t think that you could get away with lounging on the sofa indulging in mental imaginings alone, did you?

  Don’t just seek advantage for yourself; allow all other snails to do the same. Advantages for yourself and advantages for others. This should be on the list of principles that make up your personal philosophy. Otherwise, you’ll go back to the same senseless rigmarole of trying to control people and events. That’s how it is, my angels!

  Dictates of Power

  Come closer, snails! I have good news for you. Do you know, what the main idea of the script is, once you are beyond 20 years old? It’s your personal degradation. Are you pleased? Why not? You have hope; you have me!

  You can’t change the current film roll, even once you’ve woken up.

  When you compose your own reality, you start another film script that works for you.

  If you don’t work on self-development, there will be degradation instead.

  You were originally created perfect.

  There is a spark of the Creator in each and every one of you.

  To kindle the Creator’s spark within, focus on self-development.

  You have a choice: either allow the script to propel you forward or take yourself for yourself, so that you can propel yourself and significantly accelerate the implementation of the design.

  Now, rather than getting into explanations of what ‘propel yourself’ means, I will return again to the question of your obsessive need to control the script. This is a very important issue. It is linked to your paranoia, my little irks. I have to explain constantly, what you mustn’t do, and what that which you mustn’t do really is. So, stretch out those snail horns and listen carefully.

  You constantly want something from people or events, trying to coerce or somehow influence them, so that things turn out your way, at the same time as being tormented by the question of how to make it happen. For example, say you are a guy trying to make an impression of an individual of the opposite sex, so that she’ll agree to go on a date with you; you implement what in your opinion is nothing short of the impressive mating dance of a jaybird, but she gives you the hard shoulder nonetheless. Why?

  Having the capacity for self-awareness, you ask the question ‘how?’ and design a whole seduction strategy based on your own perceptions. Yes, in the moment that you ask yourself ‘how,’ your self-awareness is awakened, but it gets in your way because you’re not thinking about the goal but your own silly ideas of how to manifest it. Your imagined script contradicts the real one, but you insist on having your own way and spoil everything as a result.

  Unlike you, the jaybird acts without self-awareness instinctively giving itself to the script. The jay has more chances of getting what it wants than you do because it has only the goal in mind and none of its own fabrications on the theme of ‘how?’. You have never tried behaving that like, right? Well, try it. Just go up to the object of your passion without thinking about it, and say and do, whatever comes into your mind. If you keep only the goal in your thoughts, the script will lead you to it.

  The only difference between the jay’s behaviour and your own should be that you are consciously observing yourself. You need to observe yourself, observe what you are giving your attention to, so that rather than sinking back into constructing your own plan, you follow the barely perceptible nudges from the script as if they were dictates of Power.

  It is complex and simple at the same time — complex because it is unusual and unfamiliar to you to put aside your own motives and surrender to an external Power; it’s simple because you can sense these dictates of Power if you allow them to lead you, consciously and intentionally.

  Now, do you understand what I am talking about? It’s still the same thing, the principles of strolling live through a motion-picture. The principles are paradoxical because they go against your ideas and habits. In a non-aware state you go against the script, and when you wake up, you are even more impatient to act wilfully.

  You have to think and act in the opposite way. Do not resist automatically with knee-jerk reactions; surrender, purposefully and consciously. Imagine that you are a mannequin with a wax face, an unseeing gaze and you move as if you were an inanimate, wind-up doll. Then, suddenly, you enter a state of awareness; your eyes light up and ... and that is the only thing that differentiates you.

  Of course, you will shine with a special inner light, evoking unconscious warmth from those who are still sleeping. But you shouldn’t stand out in any other way; just follow the flow of the film roll, like everyone else. Once you have awakened, you continue moving mechanically in the
crowd of other mannequins, and doing the same as everyone else, without giving away your presence. Pretend that you are still sleeping and secretly change the film roll.

  Do you remember what this is called? It’s imitating motion. By consciously allowing the script to lead you, you are in fact leading yourself, using the Power and Wisdom of the script. And then everything goes smoothly. By not allowing, you spoil everything. Then for you, “nothing is going as I want it to,” partly because you are not allowing it to.

  Some may protest: why should I rely on the Power and Wisdom of a script that is leading me, who knows where, and may or may not actually have any true Power or Wisdom. And how do I know it’s invested in anything being how I want it to be?

  Of course, the script is not invested as such. But there is a sense in which the script will listen to you if you are listening in return. Why it will listen to you and why you should rely on it, we will come to later. For now, let’s start by answering a simple question: is it possible to resist the script in principle and is it worth doing so?

  For example, let’s say the object of your passion has agreed to go on a date with you. What do you usually do when you’re preparing for a date? You construct your own plan and expectations. You want events to go according to your plan, and you want the object of your passions to behave in the way you’d like her do.

  In reality, everything turns out differently, which evokes your discontent as well as negative reactions and consequences. Think for yourselves; why should events unfold as you imagined them to, and why should people behave as you expect them to? It’s not unlike watching a film or television series and expecting the plot to develop in accordance with your own script, and the characters in the film to act according to your expectations. Would that happen? No. Absolutely everything is the same way in the film which you consider to be your life.