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Collected Poems 1931-74

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by Lawrence Durrell

Webbed and monstrous on the sandy floors.

  Here wind emptied the snowy caves: the brown

  Hands about the tiller unbuckled.

  Day lay like a mirror in the sun’s eye.

  Olives sleeping, rocks hanging, sea shining

  And under Arbutus the scriptural music

  Of a pipe beside a boy beside a bay

  Soliloquised in seven liquid quibbles.

  Here the lucky in summer

  Made fast like islanders

  And saw upon the waters, leaning down

  The haunted eyes in faces torn from books:

  So painted the two dark-blue Aegean eyes

  And θɛòς δíĸaιoς ‘God the Just’

  Under them upon the rotting prows.

  Inhabitants of reflection going:

  We saw the dog-rose abloom in bowls,

  Faces of wishing children in the wells

  Under the Acropolis the timeless urchin

  Carrying the wooden swallow,

  Teller of the spring; on the hills of hair

  Over Athens saw the night exhaling.

  Later in islands, awaiting passage,

  By waters like skin and promontories,

  Were blessed by the rotation

  Of peach-wind, melon-wind,

  Fig-wind and wind of lemons;

  Every fruit in the rotation of its breath.

  And in the hills encountered

  Sagacious and venerable faces

  Like horn spoons: forms of address:

  Christian names, politeness to strangers.

  Heard the ant’s pastoral reflections:

  ‘Here I go in Arcadia, one two

  Saffron, sage, bergamot, rue,

  A root, a hair, a bead—all warm.

  A human finger swarming

  With little currents: a ring:

  A married man.’

  In a late winter of mist and pelicans

  Saw the thread run out at last; the man

  Kiss his wife and child good-bye

  Under the olive-press, turning on a heel.

  To enter April like swimmer,

  And memory opened in him like a vein,

  Pushed clear on the tides a pathless keel.

  Standing alone on the hills

  Saw all Greece, the human

  Body of this sky suspending a world

  Within a crystal turning,

  Guarded by the green wicks of cypresses.

  Far out on the blue

  Like notes of music on a page

  The two heads: the man and his wife.

  They are always there.

  It is too far to hear the singing.

  1943/1943

  ECHO

  To Nancy

  And

  To Ping-Kû

  for her second birthday out of Greece

  Nothing is lost, sweet self,

  Nothing is ever lost.

  The unspoken word

  Is not exhausted but can be heard.

  Music that stains

  The silence remains

  O echo is everywhere, the unbeckonable bird!

  1956/1943

  THIS UNIMPORTANT MORNING

  This unimportant morning

  Something goes singing where

  The capes turn over on their sides

  And the warm Adriatic rides

  Her blue and sun washing

  At the edge of the world and its brilliant cliffs.

  Day rings in the higher airs

  Pure with cicadas, and slowing

  Like a pulse to smoke from farms,

  Extinguished in the exhausted earth,

  Unclenching like a fist and going.

  Trees fume, cool, pour—and overflowing

  Unstretch the feathers of birds and shake

  Carpets from windows, brush with dew

  The up-and-doing: and young lovers now

  Their little resurrections make.

  And now lightly to kiss all whom sleep

  Stitched up—and wake, my darling, wake.

  The impatient Boatman has been waiting

  Under the house, his long oars folded up

  Like wings in waiting on the darkling lake.

  1946/1944

  BYRON

  The trees have been rapping

  At these empty casements for a year,

  Have been rapping and tapping and

  Repeating to us here

  Omens of the defeating wind,

  Omens of the defeating mind.

  Headquarters of a war

  House in a fever-swamp

  Headquarters of a mind at odds.

  Before me now lies Byron and behind,

  Belonging to the Gods,

  Another Byron of the feeling

  Shown in this barbered hairless man,

  Splashed by the candle-stems

  In his expensive cloak and wig

  And boots upon the dirty ceiling.

  Hobbled by this shadow,

  My own invention of myself, I go

  In wind, rain, stars, climbing

  This ladder of compromises into Greece

  Which like the Notself looms before

  My politics, my invention and my war.

  None of it but belongs

  To this farded character

  Whose Grecian credits are his old excuse

  By freedom holding Byron in abuse.

  Strange for one who was happier

  Tuned to women, to seek and sift

  In the heart’s simple mesh,

  To know so certainly

  Under the perfume and the politics

  What undertow of odours haunts the flesh:

  Could once resume them all

  In lines that gave me rest,

  And watch the fat fly Death

  Hunting the skeleton down in each,

  Like hairs in plaster growing,

  Promising under the living red the yellow—

  I helped these pretty children by their sex

  Discountenance the horrid fellow.

  I have been a secretary (I sing)

  A secretary to love …

  In this bad opera landscape

  Trees, fevers and quarrels

  Spread like sores: while the gilded

  Abstractions like our pride and honour

  On this brute age close like doors

  Which pushing does not budge.

  Outside them, I speak for the great average.

  My disobedience became

  A disguise for a style in a new dress.

  Item: a lock of hair.

  Item: a miniature, myself aged three,

  The innocent and the deformed

  Pinned up in ribbons for posterity.

  And now here comes

  The famous disposition to weep,

  To renounce. Picture to yourself

  A lord who encircled his life

  With women’s arms; or another

  Who rode through the wide world howling

  And searching for his mother.

  Picture to yourself a third: a cynic.

  This weeping published rock—

  The biscuits and the glass of soda-water:

  Under Sunium’s white cliffs

  Where I laboured with my knife

  To cut a ‘Byron’ there—

  I was thinking softly of my daughter.

  A cock to Aesculapius no less …

  You will suggest we found only

  In idleness and indignation here,

  Plucked by the offshore dancers, brigs

  Like girls, and ports of call

  In our commerce with liberty, the Whore,

  Through these unbarbered priests

  And garlic-eating captains:

  Fame like the only porch in a wall

  To squeeze our shelter from

  By profit and by circumstance

  Assist this rocky nation’s funeral.

  The humane and the lawful in whom

 
Art and manners mix, who sent us here,

  This sort of figures from a drawing-room

  Should be paused themselves once

  Under these legendary islands.

  A landscape hurled into the air

  And fallen on itself: we should see

  Where the frail spines of rivers

  Soft on the backbone intersect and scribble

  These unbarbered gangs of freedom dribble

  Like music down a page and come

  Into the valleys with their small

  Ordnance which barks and jumps.

  I, Byron: the soft head of my heart bumps

  Inside me as on a vellum drum.

  Other enemies intervene here,

  Not less where the valet serves

  In a muddle of papers and consequences;

  Not less in places where I walk alone

  With Conscience, the defective: my defences

  Against a past which lies behind,

  Writing and rewriting to the bone

  Those famous letters in my mind.

  Time grows short. Now the trees

  Are rapping at the empty casements.

  Fevers are closing in on us at last—

  So long desired an end of service

  To the flesh and its competitions of endurance.

  There is so little time. Fletcher

  Tidies the bed at dusk and brings me coffee.

  You, the speaking and the feeling who come after:

  I sent you something once—it must be

  Somewhere in Juan—it has not reached you yet.

  O watch for this remote

  But very self of Byron and of me,

  Blown empty on the white cliffs of the mind,

  A dispossessed His Lordship writing you

  A message in a bottle dropped at sea.

  1946/1944

  LA ROCHEFOUCAULD

  ‘Nous arrivons tout nouveaux aux divers âges de la vie’

  ‘A penny for your thoughts. I wasn’t joking.’

  Most of it I learned from serving-girls,

  Looking into eyes mindless as birds, taking

  The pure for subject or the unaware.

  When empty mouths so soon betray their fear

  Kisses can be probes. Mine always were.

  Yes, everywhere I sorted the betraying

  Motive, point by point designed

  This first detective-story of the heart,

  Judge, jury, victim, all were in my aspect,

  Pinned on the clear notation of the mind—

  I primed them like an actor in a part.

  I was my own motive—I see you smile:

  The one part of me I never used or wrote,

  Every comma paused there, hungry

  To confess me, to reveal the famished note.

  Yet in reason I mastered appetite,

  And taught myself at last the tragic sense;

  Then through appetite and its many ambushes

  I uncovered the politics of feeling, dense

  Groves for the flocks of sin to feed in.

  Yet in the end the portrait always seemed

  Somehow faked, or somehow still in need

  Of gender, form and present tense.

  I could not get beyond this wall.

  No. The bait of feeling was left untasted:

  Deep inside like ruins lay the desires

  To give, to trust, to be my subjects’ equal,

  All wasted, wasted.

  Though love is not the word I want

  Yet it will have to do. There is no other.

  So the great Lack grew and grew.

  Of the Real Darkness not one grain I lifted.

  Yet the whole story is here like the part

  Of some great man’s body,

  Veins, organs, nerves,

  Unhappily illustrating neither death nor art.

  1946/1944

  PEARLS

  Now mark, the Lady one fine day

  To refresh her pearls she comes

  And buries them in the sand here,

  Letting the sea feed on them,

  To lick back by salt

  The lustre of them and the prize.

  Ten summers, lazy as fishes follow.

  Ten winters, nude as thimbles

  Bear on their gradual curves

  The drinkers of the darkness.

  The pearls drink and recover

  But their lovely Neck

  Becomes one day the target for an Axe,

  Bows swan-like down

  Its unrepenting lovely stump.

  Something is incomplete here,

  Something in the story is unfinished,

  A tale with no beginning,

  The fragment of a voice that interrupts,

  Like this unbroken coast,

  Like this half-drawn landscape,

  Like this broken torso of a poem.

  1946/1945

  HELOISE AND ABELARD

  Heloise and Abelard

  Nature’s great hermaphrodites,

  Arists in the human way,

  Turned their sad endearing eyes,

  Passionate and tiger-bright,

  Closed the animal.

  Yet in deprivation found

  By a guess

  Love unseal its loveliness.

  Patents of their time and sex,

  Body’s rude containers

  With their humours up like wicks,

  Passionate and tiger-bright,

  Made them foreigners

  To themselves while still awake.

  Yet with this he lights the stake

  Feeds like faggots tied

  Innocence and pride,

  Bits of what had died.

  Tombs may lie by two and two

  On the Jordan’s bends;

  Death’s unshrinking little noun

  Marks them for his own,

  The passionate and tiger-bright

  Couples in their shadows lie

  Till the action ends.

  Death by lovelessness for these

  Was unsealed in mysteries

  By the enduring Friend.

  Lucky who can sort out

  The barren and the sown,

  Whose punishments are given joy,

  Who their own bodies own.

  Who can discriminate,

  Under reason’s cruel rod

  Between the friend in them

  And enemy of God.

  1946/1945

  CONON IN ALEXANDRIA

  Ash-heap of four cultures,

  Bounded by Mareotis, a salt lake,

  On which the winter rain rings and whitens,

  In the waters, stiffens like eyes.

  I have been four years bound here:

  A time for sentences by the tripod:

  Prophecies by those who were born dead,

  Or who lost their character but kept their taste.

  A solitary presumed quite happy,

  Writing those interminable whining letters,

  On the long beaches dimpled by the rain,

  Tasting the island wind

  Blown against wet lips and shutters out of Rhodes.

  I say ‘presumed’, but would not have it otherwise.

  * * *

  Steps go down to the port

  Beyond the Pharos. O my friends,

  Surely these nightly visitations

  Of islands in one’s sleep must soon be over?

  I have watched beside the others,

  But always the more attentive, the more exacting:

  The familiar papers on a table by the bed,

  The plate of olives and the glass of wine.

  You would think that thoughts so long rehearsed

  Like the dry friction of ropes in the mind

  Would cease to lead me where in Greece

  The almond-candles and the statues burn.

  The moon’s cold seething fires over this white city,

  Through four Februaries have not
forgotten.

  * * *

  Tonight the stars press idly on the nerves

  As in a cobweb, heavy with dispersal:

  Points of dew in a universe too large

  Too formal to be more than terrible.

  ‘There are sides of the self

  One can seldom show. They live on and on

  In an emergency of anguish always,

  Waiting for parents in another.’

  Would you say that later, reading

  Such simple propositions, the historian

  Might be found to say: ‘The critic

  In him made a humour of this passion.

  The equations of a mind too conscious of ideas,

  Fictions, not kisses, crossed the water between them’?

  * * *

  And later, Spring, which compels these separations

  Will but define you further as she dies

  In flowers downless and pure as Portia’s cheek,

  Interrupting perhaps the conversations of friends

  On terraces where the fountains plane at time,

  To leave this small acid precipitate to memory,

  Of something small, screwed-up, and thrown aside.

  ‘Partings like these are lucky. At least they wound.’

  And later by the hearthstone of a philosophy

  You might have added: ‘The desert, yes, for exiles.

  But its immensity only confines one further.

  Its end seems always in oneself.’

  A gown stained at the arm-pits by a woman’s body.

  A letter unfinished because the ink gave out.

  * * *

  The lovers you describe as ‘separating each other

  Further with every kiss’: and your portrait

  Of a man ‘engaged in bitterly waiting

  For the day when art should become unnecessary’,

 

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