Lost at Heart: A Steamy Small Town Romance (Bluerock Series Book 2)

by Danielle Marx

  Her olive skin glissened in the sunlight, from the top of her collarbone all the way to the seam of her panties. She really was the most beautiful woman I’d ever seen. And here she was, straddling me in the mountains, wearing nothing but her underwear and a pair of leather boots.

  She reached her hands behind her back and unclasped her bra. Without a single beat, my hands went to her bare breasts, massaging them, watching her head fall back at my touch. I bent my head down and caught one in my mouth, rolling the bud over my tongue. She tasted like heaven. Dark floral with a hint of saltiness from the hike.

  My cock strained against her, desperate to be freed. “You want me to fuck you out here, Tia?” I muttered against her chest.

  “Uh huh.” She moaned lightly against the breeze, pulling up the back of my shirt and lifting it over my head. “Or are you too much of a gentleman for that?”

  “To hell with being a gentleman. I’ll sell my soul to fuck you in the wild, Tia.” I grabbed her hips and flipped her over onto the rock. “Take your panties off. Keep your boots on.”

  She did as I instructed, shuffling out of the lilac underwear. I took off my clothes including my shoes. I had no fears of being barefoot out here. Deep down, I knew Tia probably wouldnt either, but fuck, did she looked sexy as hell on that rock, naked in just a pair of leather boots.

  She looked up at me with nerves and excitement. I watched her eyes travel down to my throbbing cock as I slipped on a condom from my wallet. Whilst I had her full attention, I pulled her up and flipped her over, so that her stomach was against the cold stone and her eyes in the direction of the thick forest.

  I rubbed my hand down her heated neck, along her shoulder blades, to the arch at the bottom of her back. Without me having to tell her, she scooted her feet apart a little, giving me access to her from behind.

  I caressed my hand over her ass, digging my fingers into the smooth skin. I dragged them lower until I found her pussy. It was dripping wet. I stood back a little to allow the sun to bounce off her. It glistened, desperate to be touched. I slid a finger inside her slowly. Again, I couldn’t hear her from the rushing falls, but I knew she was whimpering against the rock as her body shuddered at my touch.

  I stroked her walls, drenching my finger in her arousal. I needed more. She needed more. I got down on my knees, hands on either side of her thighs, and I tasted her. My tongue dipped into her entrance, coating my mouth in her honey.

  Tia moaned. This time I definitely heard her. It seemed to bounce off the mountains, stirring me on to keep going. She pressed her face against the stone and lifted her ass in the air, giving me better access.

  I bent underneath her, finding her clit with my tongue and feasted on it, like a starving man. I wasn’t slow. I wasn’t gentle. I wanted to hear those moans echo back into my ear as she got off on me pleasuring her from behind.

  She cried out and ground her pussy against my mouth. I didn’t hold back at all. I lapped at the sensitive nub until her legs began to tremble and then I sucked it hard, the way I knew she loved.

  She came, fast and hard. Her wild cries rang into the forest and I swore I could have come myself with the sound alone. But I wasn’t done yet. Tia wanted me to fuck her and that’s exactly what she’d get.

  I stood up fast and sank my cock inside her. She yelped out at first and then the cries of pleasure started back up. “Yes. Yes! Harder, Colton. Fuck me hard.”

  And with that, I was completely gone. I gripped her shoulders and thrust inside her deep and rapid, drawing out every cry from her chest. Her pussy clenched around me as her second orgasm hit almost immediately. She felt incredible. Hot, wet, velvet, clutching my cock, riding me as I rode her.

  I bent over her and whispered in her ear. “You like that, baby?”

  “Yes,” she whimpered. “God, yes!”

  She gasped as I pulled out of her. I turned her around and lifted her up, holding her close to my chest. “Put your legs around my waist.”

  They were heavy from the orgasm but her boots helped lock them in place. I carried her down to the shadowy trees and found the smoothest one. Pressing her back up against it, I sank back into her pussy and watched her eyelashes fall shut.

  “Look at me, Tia. I want you to watch me fuck you.”

  Her eyes widened and fixed on mine.

  My thrusts were slow at first, taking every bit of pleasure from her. She wrapped her arms around the branches above her head and giggled. It quickly turned into a moan though when I caught her nipple in my mouth again and bit down gently.

  The sounds from her throat and the cool breeze hitting our naked bodies, stiffened my cock even more. I wasn’t even sure if that was possible, but I could feel it deep inside Tia. I thrust into her faster, using the tree to push her hips closer to me.

  Tia’s breathing grew heavy and her cries louder. I knew she was close again, edging on her third orgasm.

  “Come for me, baby,” I growled, squeezing her ass. “Nice and loud.”

  Her eyebrows curved, almost looking worried at the lack of control she had. She couldn’t stop it and I had all the power to give it to her. She kept her timid eyes on me as the orgasm crashed into her harder than any before. She cried out again and brought her hands down to my shoulder, gripping on for dear life.

  I could feel her pussy milk my cock, clenching fiercely and trembling in recovery. My balls tightened at the sensation. I was close to my own climax. A deep groan left my lungs and Tia suddenly sobered up catching my attention.

  “Don’t come yet. Put me down.”

  She wanted more? I wasn’t sure how long I could last. My balls ached for their release. “I can’t hold off, baby.”

  She stroked my cheek and smiled. “I know. Just put me down. It’s okay, Colton. Trust me.”

  I didn’t argue. If a girl tells you to stop, then you stop. Whether you’re on the edge or not. I dropped her down, hearing the crunch of her boots against the forest floor. I was about to jack off against the tree right there, but Tia got down on her knees and took my cock away from my hand. She looked up at me, removing the condom before taking me in her mouth.

  “Fuck,” I hissed out, leaning both my hands against the tree as she sucked me off.

  It didn’t take long as I was practically on the edge already. Tia rubbed the shaft and sucked the tip until my climax shot over her tongue. She pumped me a few more times and licked me clean, swallowing every last drop.

  I was ready to collapse in the dirt with her, but Tia looked up at me and smiled innocently. “Are you okay?”

  Am I okay? I fucked her hard in the wild, made her orgasm three times, and shot my load down her throat, and she asks me if I’m okay. I crouched down to her, cupping her flushed cheeks. “Yeah, I’m on cloud nine, baby. Are you okay?”

  “I can’t feel my legs.” She giggled. “You might have to carry me back.”

  “Always.”

  I held her against my pounding heartbeat and carried her back over to the waterfall, placing her down by her bag. Crouching down, I brushed the hair from her face and pressed my forehead against hers, breathing her in.

  She stroked my cheek and smiled. “Let’s stay here a little longer. I have to finish my sketch.” Before I could even answer, she picked up her sketchbook and got back to work on the drawing, butt naked in only her boots.

  I chuckled quietly, not to disturb her sudden change of focus and walked back over to my spot on the rock, watching her like the goddess she was.

  I knew there would never be a more beautiful sight than right here, right now.

  Chapter Twenty

  Tia

  Colton parked the truck up to the Rabbit Hut just as the sun was beginning to dip down over the mountains. It had been a longer day than planned. We stopped off on the way back for burgers at The Outlaw and had a drink with Maddie and Logan. I was exhausted.

  Our naughty fun at the waterfall had practically knocked me on my ass, and I needed to get an early night. After all, the mural at the
camp was almost complete, and I had to focus on the essential finishing touches in the morning.

  Colton switched off the engine and leant over to me with a sexy grin. “Tired?”

  “Very. You wanna watch TV and fall asleep to the sound of justice being served?”

  He snorted but straightened his face up quickly. Something wrestled on the edge of his mind. I could see it before he even opened his mouth. “Stay. Once the summer camp job is done, stay here. Stay in Bluerock with me.”

  My heart lifted and sank all in one. I shuffled up in my seat to face the situation head on. “Colton,” I spoke softly. “I can’t.”

  “Why not? You said it yourself, you have no family back in New York.”

  “I have a job.”

  “So, you’ll get a job here.”

  “I have a good job, Colton. The kind some would kill for. I worked hard for it. I can’t just quit it like it meant nothing.”

  He brushed his hand over my cheek, staring down at me with those soft, blue eyes. They had a pleading in them, begging to be heard. “I’m falling in love with you, Tia.”

  I felt my chest swell with happiness. It was the first time anyone had ever said it to me. It was surreal. Wonderfully surreal. I wanted to wrap my arms around him and tell him I felt the same, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t let this happen. I had to protect myself just as I always had.

  “You feel the same, Tia. I can feel it. I can see it, hear it. Don’t try to tell me you don’t. It’s a waste of time, baby.”

  I couldn’t think of what to say. Everytime I tried to open my mouth, my breath caught, stopping me from ruining this perfect moment.

  “I’ll take care of you, Tia. I’ll treat you good , you know I will. I can give you a home. A family. I’ll give you everything I’ve got. I promise I’ll make you happy.”

  He was telling the truth. I didn’t doubt a single word of it. Colton would be the best man I’d ever find in my life. I would have been happier if he was less than perfect though. It would have made it so much easier to walk away.

  I turned to him, taking a deep breath. “I warned you this would happen. We’d get too close, and you’d get your heart broken when I left.”

  He furrowed his brow. “Then don’t go.”

  “I have to. That was the plan.”

  “Fuck the plan,” he growelled, throwing himself back into the driver seat. “You can’t organize everything, Tia. Some things just happen. Plans change.”

  “I’m not like you, Colton. I don’t have a family backing me up when shit happens. I don’t have a safety net. I’ve been blessed with what I have already. It’s a life I’ve had to build for myself, and I’m not going to throw it all away on some guy, only to end up all alone again when it goes wrong.”

  “What makes you think it would go wrong?” It was as if he couldn’t comprehend the idea.

  “You.” My chest ached as I said it. It hurt me just as much as it clearly hurt him. I could see the twitch under his freckles and the sting in his eyes. “I’m sorry, Colton. I don’t want to hurt you but it’s the truth. You’re incredible. You’re such a good man. But you’re also an accident waiting to happen. You run around doing stupid stuff, almost getting yourself killed. I just can’t watch someone I love die. I won’t do it again, and if I stay, it will happen.”

  “You don’t know that.”

  “No, I don’t. But I know enough to see the risks and avoid the damage before it hits. That’s how I live my life, Colton. That’s who I am. I protect myself, and I wont give that up for anyone.”

  “So you’re not even gonna try?” He shuffled back over to me, clasping my hands in his. “Tia, you can’t live like this forever. I’m sorry you’ve had a shitty life, and I’m sorry your only friend in the world died, but that’s no reason to give up on being happy. You can’t spend the rest of your life alone and scared, behind a locked door. Is that what Lily would want you to do? Hide away forever?”

  I ripped my hands away from him and shot him a stern look. “Don’t you talk about her like you know her. You know nothing!”

  “Then talk to me.” He rested his arm on the steering wheel, offering me the floor. “Go on. Tell me how she died. Tell me why you can’t sleep without three fucking locks on your door.”

  I froze, unable to say a word.

  “Come on, Tia! You really gonna hold onto all this shit for the rest of your life? Are you gonna add me to that big ol’ pile of baggage too?”

  I couldn’t talk about it because I simply didn’t want to talk about it. I was trying everything I could to silence the past. To heal and move on. If I talked to Colton, I knew it would only make it all real again. And I couldn’t go back there. I couldn’t go back to that night.

  I didn’t want pity. I didn’t need him to kiss away my wounds. I dealt with my shit alone, just as I always had. But we came from different worlds, and I knew he would never understand me. Not really.

  “I can’t do this.” I reached for the door handle and climbed out of the truck as fast as I could.

  By the time I was halfway up the path, Colton’s boots crunched closer behind me on the gravel. “Don’t walk away from me, Tia.” He picked up the pace when I made it to the front door and slammed it shut in his face. “Tia!”

  Sliding the bolts in place, I backed up as his fist pounded the wood, causing the whole cabin to rattle.

  THUD! THUD! THUD!

  “Tia! Come on, open up!”

  I backed up further, my legs hitting the edge of the bed. My heart raced. And even though I knew it was only him, the vibrations of the pounding ran up my legs, filling me with familiar fear.

  The beast behind the door.

  Colton’s fist suddenly calmed, and I could hear his short breaths through the wood, attempting to control his anger. “Come on, baby. Open up.”

  I wanted to. I wanted to open the door and let him in. Wrap my arms around him and tell him I was falling in love with him too. But I couldn’t. Our time was running out and anymore would only make the break up more painful. He was an easy-going kind of guy. He breezed through life and took any problems in his stride. I didn’t have the luxury for that. I had to take care of myself. No one would do it for me. Not even him.

  Colton would take care of me and love me. I’d have a life I never knew possible. But it wouldn’t last. Nothing ever did for me. It may have been a sad reality but it was mine, and my heart couldn’t take another break.

  “I just want to talk.” His voice almost broke me.

  “You don’t understand, Colton,” I called back. “I know you think you can fix me and make everything better. But you can’t. No one can.”

  “I don’t want you to leave.” I could hear the desperation in his voice. “Please, just give me a chance.”

  “You’re not the problem here, Colton.” I walked up to the door, resting my head against the wood. “You’re the sweetest guy I’ve ever met. Any girl would be lucky to have you. But I was born to be alone. It’s who I am. And it doesn’t matter how I feel about you, I have to go back to my life. It’s where I belong.”

  “Baby, that’s not true.”

  “Just go.” I snapped, backing away again. “Leave me alone.”

  I expected him to keep pleading or even resume the thumping, but he didn’t. His footsteps shuffled away. I peeked out of the curtain and watched him get back in his truck and speed away.

  Relief hit me like an icy wind. I was glad he’d got the message and backed off, but at the same time, I had never felt so alone. It was hard to believe we had spent the day laughing and making love. Having the time of our lives, only to end it in such a gut-wrenching way.

  He loved me. That much was certain. And I loved him too.

  It didn’t matter though. The universe wanted me alone, and the only time I ever tried to break that habit, destruction hit. Utter devastation and the crushing guilt followed in Lily’s death. I had no desire to feel that pain with Colton.

  Even if he stopped the daredevil w
ays, fate would fuck it up eventually. I was gifted with some things, but love was never one of them. And if I tried to grab hold of it, it would quickly rectify somehow and be ripped away. I cared about Colton too much for that.

  I slumped onto the bed, feeling the delicious ache from his touch still on my skin and the searing agony in my chest. It wasn’t supposed to go this way. We were supposed to have fun, and when I left, it would be bittersweet but ultimately feel right.

  This was anything but right. This felt wrong. So wrong I felt sick to my stomach. I wanted to stay. I wanted to love him, and have a home for the first time in my life.

  Maybe I could do it. Maybe, just maybe, I could say “fuck you!” to the universe and fall into this head first. Did I really have it in me to take that leap of faith?

  It wasn’t me. It wasn’t how I had lived, but perhaps in the end it was the only way worth living. And I knew Colton was right. I would never be happy if I kept on this path.

  But never having happiness was a welcome choice when up against absolute devastation. Even he couldn’t argue with that.

  With my head swimming in the past, present and future, I wiped the wet tears from my eyes and squeezed them shut, hoping my small sobs would steady enough for me to sleep on all this mess and figure it out in the morning.

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Colton

  “Morning sunshine,” Patsy sang as I walked out into the kitchen. She handed me a cup of coffee and grimaced at my face. “You look awful. You sleep okay?”

  Nope. Barely a wink, but I didn’t need her fussing over it. “I’m fine. Carl here?”

  “He’s out on patrol. We’re due another storm today. He’s just making sure the camps are still clear and no ones sneaking around down there. We need to start thinking about reopening once the river’s lower. We’re losing money with an empty campsite.”

  I sank down in a chair, pinching the bridge of my nose. “Well, what the fuck do you want me to do about it, Pats? I can’t control the fucking weather.”

  She put her hands on her hips and glared at me. “Don’t you sass me, boy! It’s not my fault you woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning.”