The Last Vampire Box Set

by R. A. Steffan

  The ache grew worse. “I have to, though.” The words slipped past my self-imposed wall of silence. “I have to know if—”

  I cut myself off sharply.

  “You have to know whether he intended to help you or betray you,” Rans finished for me.

  I thought of all the hurtful words my father had hurled at me over the years. All of the distance. The neglect. The emotional abuse.

  You’re going to come to a bad end, Zorah—just like your mother.

  I never wanted a child like you, Zorah. Why did you have to be like this?

  On the cusp of adulthood, I often found myself wondering why no one had intervened on my behalf as a child. Where was everyone else in the family? Where were my teachers and school counselors? But the answer was pretty obvious. My family members were dead, distant, or mentally unwell. My teachers were overworked, a bit freaked out by my strangeness, and quite possibly taken in by my long-perfected act of everything being okay.

  And it hurt. It hurt that no one had cared enough to see the truth of things. It hurt that no one had thought to check in on a grieving widower with a six-year-old daughter, and make sure they were coping all right.

  Because we hadn’t been coping. Not even close.

  How much of that was the fault of a man who’d just seen his wife shot to death in front of his eyes? A man who—if I was to believe what I’d learned in the past few days—might well have been damaged in unseen ways by the years spent with my mother?

  I had no idea.

  “He’s all I have left,” I choked, and… shit. My cheeks were wet. I was drunk-crying now, complete with tears and snot and puffy eyes and clogged sinuses.

  “I know,” Rans said softly, the arm around me tightening.

  That arm didn’t let go until much later, after I’d drunk-cried my stupid, drunk ass to sleep.

  * * *

  Hours later, the pounding throb of my headache woke me. I wasn’t sure exactly how much time had passed, but it was dark outside the bedroom window. I’d expected to be alone, abandoned to my pathos the instant Rans thought he could get away from me without triggering more waterworks.

  Instead, I was wrapped around him, drooling on his shirt, the ever-expanding circle of dampness cool against my cheek. My eyes felt like sandpaper. When I raised my aching head, my hair tugged against my scalp where his fingers had become tangled in the matted spirals.

  “How do you feel?” he asked, and even his low voice was enough to drive a spike through my left temple.

  “Like I’ve been roofied on faerie juice and then made a complete fool of myself,” I mumbled, the sound of my reply driving in a few more spikes for good measure. “Ow.”

  Those long fingers kneaded my nape. “Shower. More water. More aspirin,” he said, focusing on the practical. “Then come back to bed. It’s the middle of the night. There’s nothing that needs doing until morning.”

  I bit my lip and nodded, afraid that if I made any further mention of my drunken breakdown, it would give the whole thing more power, somehow. As it was, I could pretend it had all… I don’t know. Been a dream or something.

  “Okay. Uh… sorry about your shirt.” I rolled upright, gesturing vaguely at the drool-stain.

  “I’ve survived worse, believe me,” he said.

  An image of bloodstains and cratered flesh flashed in front of my eyes, making me shiver.

  “Yeah,” I said. “I know you have.”

  I gingerly eased off of the bed, glad beyond measure that Glynda and Tom had demonstrated the thoughtfulness to put a nightlight in the guest bathroom. That saved me from having to turn on an overhead light, which I suspect would have been excruciating.

  The bathroom was well stocked, but I dragged my overnight bag in with me anyway so I could rummage for my hair-pick and conditioner. The mirror revealed what I hadn’t quite realized before—Albigard’s glamour had worn off while I slept. I stared at my reflection as though seeing it for the first time. Red, puffy eyes stared back at me.

  The cup by the sink looked clean, so I filled it with cool water and followed Rans’ advice with the painkillers. I showered in the near-dark, letting the hot water and steam clear out my head as much as anything could right now.

  There was something to be said for being clean and moisturized, even under circumstances as sucktastic as these. I decided that my best strategy for now was definitely going to be denial.

  Drunken breakdown? What drunken breakdown?

  I have no memory of this drunken breakdown of which you speak.

  Rans was born in the Middle Ages. People were big on chivalry back then. I felt reasonably confident he wouldn’t rub my nose in it if I decided to play dumb about the whole thing. I slipped on my black silk nightie and headed back to the bedroom on tiptoe, praying that Rans had fallen asleep in my absence.

  Rans… had not fallen asleep in my absence.

  Instead, Rans was lying naked on the bed, his upper body resting against a pile of pillows. I actually felt his sexual energy flowing across the room to me before I registered his hand sliding slowly up and down his cock in the faint light of the moon streaming through the window.

  My heart fluttered before settling into a strong, steady rhythm, my blood humming beneath my skin. The dull throbbing behind my eyes eased, as though someone had placed a cool cloth over my forehead.

  Dear god above, this man was beautiful when he was naked. Hell, he was beautiful when he wasn’t naked, but that didn’t mean I was going to squander this opportunity to stare at all those sleek muscles layered under skin that glowed silver in the moonlight. I hardly registered the slow sigh that escaped me, taking the rigid tension in my shoulders with it.

  “Thought this might help a bit more than aspirin,” he said, his free hand cradling the back of his head as he leaned against the headboard.

  “Uh-huh,” I breathed, watching the play of his chest muscles as more of that replenishing power flowed into me. Jesus. Every time I got to experience this, I felt like I should be pinching myself because it couldn’t possibly be real. It couldn’t possibly be this… good. With difficulty, I tore my attention away from all that pale skin to ask, “Are you sure about this?”

  I broke off, silently berating myself. Idiot. Did I really want to remind him that he was offering to sex up an emotional wreck with daddy issues? Of course I didn’t.

  Quickly changing tack, I said, “I mean, do you want some of my blood first? So I don’t wipe you out as badly?”

  His lips pursed in distaste, the brief expression followed by a wry, lopsided smile. “If it’s all the same to you, I’ll wait until the rest of Tinkerbell’s animus makes its way out of you. Fae life force isn’t really to my taste.”

  I was still glued in place in the doorway. Part of me was screaming, ‘Are you mentally deficient, girl? Why are you standing all the way over here when you could be on the bed?’ But the rest was fixated on a new question.

  “Why do I react so strongly to you?” I asked. “And not just you. Albigard, too—although his energy made me feel like insects were crawling under my skin. I’d never felt like this with anyone I slept with before I met you. I had no idea I was drawing anything from them… but with you, I can feel it happening. Hell, if I close my eyes, I can practically see it.”

  Rans released himself, lacing his fingers behind his head as he considered his reply. Immediately, I felt the flow of energy slow to a trickle.

  “They were all human,” he said. “Fae and vampire animus is stronger. Demon, too, I imagine. Our life force is bolstered by magic. It’s not surprising that as demonkin, Fae magic doesn’t agree with you. The two races have been enemies for longer than humans have been walking upright on two legs.”

  “Guess I’m lucky that vampire animus is demon-compatible, in that case,” I said lightly.

  “You know what they say,” he replied in the same tone. “Once you go undead, you never go back.”

  I chuckled. “That’s a terrible slogan. You need a better c
opywriter.”

  He shrugged. “The pay’s shite and the hours are worse. Makes it hard to find good talent.” A dark eyebrow cocked. “Now get your arse over here, unless you just want to stand there and play voyeur all night.”

  Honestly, I could think of worse things than watching Rans unselfconsciously fisting that gorgeous cock—but even that would be better when viewed close up.

  “Maybe I’ve just discovered a secret voyeurism kink,” I told him as I crossed to the foot of the bed. “Is that a succubus thing?”

  He snorted. “All kinks are a succubus thing, luv. It sort of comes with the territory.” His head tilted in interest. “So, do you have any others?”

  THREE

  OKAY, THAT WAS a rather unexpected question—though maybe it shouldn’t have been. Was this what sex partners normally did, when they weren’t too busy running for the hills after sleeping with you? Asking about your likes and dislikes, feeling out your kinks?

  Shit, maybe it was.

  Too bad my only experience of healthy relationships came from reading trashy romance novels where the hero magically knew the heroine’s every secret desire. And sure, some of those sexy scenes did more for me than others, but there was a big difference between reading about something and wanting to do it… or wanting to have it done to you.

  “I have absolutely no idea about my kinks,” I said eventually, deciding honesty was the best policy in this situation. “Mostly, I’m into guys not treating me like a nympho freak for wanting to get laid.” And for wanting to nibble on their life force like it was a Sunday buffet, I didn’t add.

  Rans didn’t move from his relaxed sprawl, though a smile twitched at his lips. “Then you appear to be in luck, Zorah Bright… though I still think we can do better than that. Look around you… nice big house, all to ourselves. Solid construction. Far enough away from the neighbors that no one will hear you screaming your head off when I make you come for the dozenth time.”

  And just like that, the flesh between my thighs was aching and throbbing, demanding satisfaction. Judging by his smug expression, the vampire on the bed knew it, too. Bastard.

  “Your modesty is one of your most attractive qualities, you know. So, what about you?” I asked, trying to turn it back on him. “What does a vampire do for kicks in bed?”

  His expression turned jaded for a moment before he consciously smoothed it. “After seven hundred years, just about everything you can imagine, at one time or another. And probably a few things you can’t.”

  I remembered the afternoon at Nigellus’ house in Atlantic City—how Rans had urged me to use him until exhaustion finally quieted his circling thoughts.

  “You use sex to make everything stop for a bit, don’t you?” I said in a burst of insight. “That’s why you don’t seem to care that I’m draining you when you sleep with me. Being drained helps you turn it all off for a while.”

  Still, he didn’t move—and yet I thought I could sense walls coming up.

  “It’s cheaper than therapy,” he said, throwing a quip I’d made to Guthrie back at me. The smile he flashed was tight, and didn’t reach his eyes. “Besides, it gets terribly tiresome having to wipe a therapist’s memories after every single session. Hard to make any progress that way.”

  “I bet.”

  Was it strange that I felt better knowing we were both kind of fucked up in the head? Maybe it was because I could pretend we were on equal ground that way. It made me feel less like the stereotypical pathetic girl relying on the competent, kick-ass man—or rather, the competent, kick-ass vampire. Instead, I could tell myself we were two messed-up people coming together, and that I had something to offer him, too. Even if that ‘something’ was nothing more than an hour or two of sexually mediated oblivion.

  “You haven’t really answered the question, though,” I prodded, finally breaking free of my paralysis. I crossed to the bed and sank down on the edge, half facing him. Because I could, I placed a hand over his silent heart—where a shotgun blast had torn through the smooth flesh mere days ago—holding it there for a moment before running it down the hard ridges of his stomach. “What do you like?”

  It was like caressing a statue… or it would have been if his cock hadn’t twitched against his belly. Blue eyes held mine.

  “Oh, I could fill a century or three with all the things I want to do to you, my little vixen,” he said. “But honestly, I’ve found that what you do in bed is far less important than who you’re doing it with.”

  My breath caught. Not fair, damn it. He shouldn’t be allowed to make my heart and my sex ache at the same time. That was playing dirty.

  “Don’t say things like that,” I whispered, my hand still splayed low on his abdomen.

  There was a moment’s silence. “You really don’t do well with kindness, do you, Zorah?” he observed. Then he raised a challenging eyebrow. “Fair enough. If you don’t want to hear it, then come here and shut me up.”

  That sounded like a plan I could get behind. I leaned forward, closing the distance until I could kiss him at the same time I slid my hand down the final few inches to encircle his erection. My eyes slid closed as the sensation of something flowing out of him and into me returned. He let me ravish his mouth and cock for a few minutes, drawing what I needed from him.

  Then his hands closed on my shoulders and his body twisted under me. Before I was aware of what was happening, I was on my back beneath him, caged by his hard body as his weight pressed me into the soft mattress. His mouth grew demanding on mine, and something inside me loosened, settling warmly into place.

  Eventually, the feeling of drowning in him grew too intense, forcing me to wrench my lips free of his so I could gasp in air. “This,” I panted. “I want this. I want you to make me lose control.”

  If I could help him turn everything off for a while, maybe he could do the same for me. Now that I was sober, real life threatened to come crashing down on me again—all the fears, all the worries, all the problems and mysteries I couldn’t do anything about until daylight returned. Rans’ remark about the neighbors not being able to hear me scream replayed in my mind, making me shiver with anticipation regarding the kinds of things he might do to me if given free rein.

  He held himself above me on hard-muscled arms. Beyond the window, clouds sculled across the moon, dimming its light and blurring the details of his features into grayness broken only by the shining blue of his eyes.

  “Hmm,” he mused. “Let me see, now. A freshly unearthed voyeurism kink and a desire to lose control. You know, I don’t care that you were draining their life force. Your exes were barmy not to stick around longer, luv.”

  I wrinkled my nose at him, not sure if he could see the expression in the deeper darkness that had overtaken the room. The huff of low laughter seemed to indicate that he could.

  “Don’t move a muscle,” he warned. “I just need to grab something. Back in a tick.”

  With that, he kissed me quickly on the lips and rolled off the bed. I lay still, heart pounding with anticipation. As promised, he took only a moment.

  “What is it?” I asked breathlessly, unable to make out detail now that the moon was hidden behind clouds.

  The lamp switch clicked, casting a circle of warm light outward from the bedside table. It threw the planes of Rans’ body into gold-limned dips and shadows, distracting me for a moment from the object dangling from his hand—a braided leather belt, the free end threaded through the buckle to form a small loop at the bottom.

  “Give me your wrists, Zorah.”

  I didn’t even think before I extended my wrists, feeling blood thrumming through every vein as my heart galloped wildly. Rans gathered my hands together, pressing his lips to the knuckles of first one, and then the other. He slipped the loop over them and tugged it closed, pressing my palms together as if in prayer. Leaning forward, he drew my arms over my head and tied the loose tail of the belt around one of the spindles in the headboard.

  When he was done, he s
traightened and looked down at me with a serious expression. “The buckle isn’t clasped,” he said. “You can pull and struggle against it as much as you like, and it should hold, but if you really want to get loose, all you need to do is press your wrists apart to open up the loop so you can slide your hands out. Try it.”

  I tugged against the belt, first lightly, then harder until I could feel the soft leather biting into my wrists. Then I relaxed and wriggled my hands back and forth, feeling the loop widen as the buckle slid along the leather. I nodded, confident that I could easily slip my hands free if I needed to.

  “And if you don’t like something?” he asked, still regarding me seriously.

  “I’ll tell you to stop,” I said in a breathy voice.

  He smiled, letting his gaze slide down the length of my body like a caress. My nipples hardened, the points visible through the silky black material of my nightgown.

  “So lovely, stretched out and on display for me like this,” he murmured, brushing a fingertip over the nearest breast—the barest suggestion of a touch.

  An electric tingle zapped from my nipple straight to my clit, and I caught my breath as a pulse of wetness soaked my inner thighs. Rans’ nostrils flared, and a flush of heat rose from my neck to my cheeks—hopefully hidden by my dusky complexion.

  Or maybe not.

  “You’re blushing,” he teased. “And you’re wet for me after a single touch? Succubi everywhere would be proud of you.”

  “Fucker,” I said. I made a show of tugging and squirming against the belt, in hopes that it would hide the way I was rubbing my thighs together in an attempt to ease the pressure between them.

  “Still blushing,” he said, amused. “How far down does that flush go, I wonder? A pity all of that black silk is in my way—makes it hard to tell.” A strong, callused hand slid over the silky material from breast to hip, igniting every nerve along the way.