Desensitizer

by Kaero Davis

  Synchronized

  My sweet you need to know,

  I can’t face this world alone,

  Without you I’m cold as stone,

  And lost to aimless roam,

  Our hearts are synchronized,

  As are the ways we think alike,

  Though we’ve been tested, criticized,

  We’ve grown stronger, immunized,

  I will never leave you,

  Or lead you astray,

  I will remain true,

  And I will never betray,

  Your love touches my soul deep,

  I’m so relaxed I could sleep,

  I can think of you and my heart skips beats,

  It’s a wonder how I never trip over my feet,

  Your beauty is so staggering,

  I find I’m often blabbering,

  And I’m yours for the capturing,

  When you strike me with your flattery,

  I am completely yours forever,

  And I can say that with utter pleasure,

  Do with me what you will at your leisure,

  Our psychic bond cannot be measured…

  …nor severed.

  Exit Scenario

  “I feel bonded to her like none other before. I feel that there’s nothing I can’t handle – nothing I can’t face when we’re together – nothing we can’t overcome, not one hurdle we can’t leap. I would jump at any moment she ever needed me, in any predicament and I would help her in any way I can think of, and if I get stuck – well, then, shit, I’ll improvise. I would have every moment spare wherever she was to need me – as she would for me, and I know I can trust that she would. Dazeirre has salvaged me and saved me – shown me the light and taught me not to fear it but allow it to illuminate within me further and connect with the universe. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again – she is the girl of my dreams – everything I’ve ever asked the universe for – the very soul mate for me. She is a divine gift but further diviner than that is the connection we share between us. I feel as fulfilled as I can believe is possible – where the realms of love and lust are concerned. I feel, we are, synchronized.” – Illsequyrie.

  Enter Scenario

  “I know it might be hard to believe but time changes people and there’s never any real healthy reason to remain in the past. It has always been difficult for me to just move onward but I have. And even just knowing I have before – should give me the strength enough to know I can again. Knowing I have moved on through the past has proven difficult yes, but possible and every one of us is capable. No matter what anybody else says – you know you the best – and it might take a substantial amount of time, but don’t think time itself is inescapable of change. It is within us all. We are most vulnerable when we are happening outside our comfort zones – but, with the right people around, the right influences – we will grow, we will learn, we will change and hopefully for the better. Times can get grim and I know this well myself (happens often) I was just fortunate to meet the right people at the right time. I have had plenty, PLENTY of setbacks and I’m no stranger to feeling stuck and stranded in a desperate, hopeless situation, meandering in aimless wander, but strangely – as though some kind of magic or ‘will’ was at work, I begged, pleaded with the universe that someone, something rather, would change for me. My prayers were answered. I was open and accepting and over times of meeting many different people – I had changed. I had moved on from my perilous circumstances. Somehow, I would enter new perilous circumstances – but only by not accepting the forward motion of change, and by an ignorance of sorts of my own mistakes. I had found when I fought the change in the new cycles – my disharmony would loop back around and lash at me, where I was being unreasonable. If you fight the flow – you just don’t grow.” – Euxerverius.

  The Way She Was

  I used to love the way her hair glistened in the sun,

  The way her eyes pierced into me as if I was the only one,

  I could always feel the warmth in her smile,

  Her laugh would tickle me inside all the while,

  I loved her unlike any other,

  I wanted to share it all,

  But I’ll remember her forever,

  Well, at least the way she was,

  She was my Diamond, my peach,

  My Goddess, my Queen,

  She’d light up my day from the darkened gloom,

  Even though she could feel it too,

  It felt so right to pour my soul and plead my case,

  And I would never hesitate to jump her special place,

  But how I miss her cuddles, arms wrapped around,

  I cannot forgive myself – and am somewhat still bound,

  She’s the closest I had ever come to real,

  Her soul was just so beautiful,

  She’d light up my day, away from the gloom,

  But I always knew she’d felt it too,

  I loved her unlike any other,

  I wanted to share it all,

  But I’ll remember her forever,

  Or, at least the way she was…

  Exit Scenario

  “I remember every connection I’ve ever had, and I can remember each time I went wrong. I remember all I’d done and all I hadn’t but eventually learnt to approach it a little better than the last time. I will admit, I have forgotten some things – but those lessons always have a habit of coming back around that we learn them over again, and they’ll keep coming around ’til we finally get it right. There have been things I’ve been completely oblivious to while others have been plain and really quite blatant. I’m still trying to work it out, my journey is far from finished. I still have a lot to learn, wouldn’t so much teach or mentor someone because different things work for different people – but I am willing to pass on what I know should someone request to know what I do. Fuck, individuality is a beautiful thing – I’ve said it countless times before, but I’ll say it again. I wouldn’t ever teach or mentor anybody but I may guide, sharing my experiences as odd little examples of how little things might have worked here and there. Mind you, if you’re more like me – you’d feel like you’d rather work it out for yourself, the hard way. I couldn’t ever be told; and I know I was difficult (still am) but hey, a hand up is still a hand. I myself though might just have better luck explaining things better to another than could’ve been explained to me by family or friends or others. And if my family could find it in their hearts to really just listen to me, they might learn more than they already think and claim they know about me. I remorse for my mistakes, I can accept I made them – in fact, I take full responsibility for them and go with the flow of the changes time has to offer to me. I just require some of my family to accept it happens for themselves, and when they do – we can finally resolve and evolve. – Euxervarius.

  Enter Scenario

  “There are just some things you can’t openly say to women without receiving a slap in the face. It’s often best not at least until they get to know you first – otherwise, you’ll run the risk of sounding like some perverted pig. Tact is everything man. Sometimes it’s worth beating around the bush, sugar-coating – if it means you’re in. if you want it that bad you will. But once you’re in you might have that chance to be as vulgar as you generally are deep inside. Tame that instinct, yeah? I know what it’s like to be compelled to fuck something quick – but you need to contain that shit ’til you’ve broken the ice. Like I said – tact is everything. And once you break that icy barrier – you can go thrusting as hard, deep and fast as you like. So long as the lady (or Dude) consents and permits.“ – Grault.

  Thrust!

  I get up when you go down,

  I love it when you make that sound,

  Whoa yeah baby – go to town,

  Give my testicles a pound,

  Rub me, tug me,r />
  Lick me, stroke me,

  Bend over quick –

  For a furious poking,

  Thrusting deep, hard and fast,

  Make you moan and groan and gasp,

  Tickle you pink with my tongue,

  I can’t wait to taste your come,

  If this is a dream – I don’t wanna be lucid,

  And yeah, I might be a little lurid,

  But I was shot in the arse by Cupid,

  And I need you to fuck me stupid,

  So,

  Rub me, tug me,

  Lick me, stroke me,

  Bend over quick –

  For furious poking,

  Thrusting hard, deep and fast,

  To make you moan and groan and gasp,

  Tickle you pink with my tongue,

  I can’t wait to taste your come,

  Exit Scenario

  Me – “Wooh, all right, thanks gorgeous – that’ll be about $500 bucks.”

  Chickie – “Excuse me? who’s payin who?’”

  Me – “I was fuckin’ around, HA! I wasn’t serious”

  Chickie – “yeah I know smart-arse”

  Me – “Well… Hook up again soon eh?”

  Chickie – “I’ll think about it”

  Me – “Yes you will (*wink*) seriously though, I’d love to see you again if you will”

  Chickie – “Maybe, like I said – I’ll think about it”

  Me – “That’s cold mama”

  Chickie – “I’ll call,”

  (Then she bailed – and I was left with a dorky smile on my face)

  Enter Scenario

  “I have dreams of a powerfully entrancing woman, strangely enough, though it’s not her I’m really dreaming about, but rather – her animal totem. And I am in love. She is incredibly strong – her body and her mind – and she excites me beyond any pleasure previously felt. She is a Tiger and perhaps the most beautiful one I have ever seen, I have never known anyone like her, but she has such power, such charisma over me that she becomes my silent obsession. I crave her – I want her – I desire her, I must have her, I must be with her. I think about her during the entirety of my waking life. She is magnificent, glorious – and I want to make her mine, I hope I see her again – I mean, I hope my dreams of her never cease, but rather I hope that I can eventually meet her. Meet her and win her affections for real, for she wins mine every night. Come to me Tigress, Queen of the night.” – Zharrarhkerrin.

  Tigress (Queen of the night)

  (Tigress)

  Queen of the night,

  (Tigress)

  She of such a splendorous sight,

  (Tigress)

  Huntress of the dark,

  (Tigress)

  Keeper of my heart,

  Wild, free, untamed beauty,

  Wondrous, magnificent, untainted purity,

  I coax you out from my dreams,

  Come, please, spend time with me,

  (Tigress)

  The one that I’ve been searching for,

  (Tigress)

  Please, I pray, answer my call,

  (Tigress)

  I desperately await your embrace,

  (Tigress)

  Your powerful, agile, flawless grace,

  Beautiful Goddess, Tigress of the jungle,

  Your presence so great I stagger and stumble,

  Your aura so divine I choke and mumble,

  Weak with amorosity I feebly fumble,

  (Tigress)

  Queen of the night,

  (Tigress)

  Kiss me with your glorious bite,

  (Tigress)

  Hold me close to your warmth,

  (Tigress)

  Precious comfort that I most adore,

  I need you like no one ever before,

  The only one I desire to have eyes for,

  Each tender touch only makes me want more,

  And I try and excite for your sensational roar,

  (Tigress)

  Goddess of the wild,

  (Tigress)

  Know I’ll be forever loyal,

  (Tigress)

  And I’ll be gentle, tender, kind,

  (Tigress)

  For you’re always on my mind,

  Come, please be a part of me,

  Feel me synchronize to your heartbeat,

  You are by far better than a dream,

  And I’d love to show you exactly what I mean.

  Exit Scenario

  “I am in love – strangely though that I have never physically met her, she’s most definitely become my heart’s number one desire. Every physical sensation is triggered through me at her touch – her feel in my night wonderland. She is a dream – and one I yearn with all my heart to come true. I am mesmerized by her influence fully and deeply. She is truly beautiful all the way through and I am always so intensely amazed by her gentle, soothing, bright, interior light. She is my main obsession. Please come to me Tigress, please come and embrace with me, Queen of the night…” – Zharrarhkerrin.

  Enter Scenario

  “Love shouldn’t ever hurt, we shouldn’t love and only feel miserable when doing so. I wrote this for in the case that I may later, but the good God almighty knows I have before. I have hurt but stayed out of love and looking back on it now, I’ve only found there wasn’t any point when the shit would only get worse. I’ve loved until I’ve resented and it drives everyone nuts, but I won’t be making the same mistakes again. I’m not going to stay when it’s hardly worth it. It’s gotta work both ways. I’m not giving more than I receive and I’m most certainly not giving any more than they deserve. Because in the end – when it doesn’t work – you’re no better off than when you were when you began, everybody only ever does the damage they claim they never will. I’ve previously wished only after I could have had the fortuitous luck of having remained ignorant, but no, you become painstakingly aware at times. People change, they go against what they stand for when they’ve had enough. They never care when they’ve broken your heart – they just all want to be that one that makes the biggest impact, but they’re all the same – and not one of them is worth risking your own happiness, and not one of them is worth selling everything you own and treasure for – and they’re most definitely not worthy of dying for. Crying for? Forget it. No, I’m not even gonna bother opening up when I know they’ll only want you for something other than what you’re bargaining for. And a lot of them have the most irrational expectations. The most outrageous standards… Stupid.” – Gjuuck.

  ’Til It Hurts

  I wanna love you babe, ’til it hurts,

  ’Til it hurts,

  I’m gonna love you babe, ’til it hurts,

  ’Til it hurts,

  When it’s berserk and you dessert,

  I’m gonna love you ’til it hurts,

  Remained true and never strayed, when it hurt,

  And it hurt,

  Keep you in my heart babe, ’til it hurts,

  ’Til it hurts,

  When it’s berserk and you dessert,

  I’m only gonna love you ’til it hurts,

  I wanna love you babe, ’Til it hurts,

  ’Til it hurts,

  I’m gonna love you babe, ’til it hurts,

  And it will fucking hurt,

  When it’s berserk and you finally dessert,

  I’m gonna love you ’til it hurts.

  Remained true and never strayed, when it hurt,

  And my oath it fuckin’ hurt,

  Kept you in my heart babe, ’til it hurt,

  Only ’til it hurt,

  When it were berserk and you had dessert,

  I still loved you after all the hurt,

  And i
t hurt,

  And it hurt,

  I loved you babe, I did and I swear,

  But only ’til it hurt…

  Exit Scenario

  “Everybody wants to feel appreciated, we need to. And when we don’t we feel hurt. Everyone’s got boundaries, lines they don’t like others crossing – but when you never draw the lines (and I’m learning this quickly) people don’t ever really know where they stand with you. I’ve made the mistake of not doing so on several occasions – though I had had it in my mind that whatever the situation was – whatever the circumstance, I could just ‘adapt’, but sometimes, it’s foolish to assume that you can so easily. Relationships are compromise. You’ve gotta have discussed the give and take at some point, what you’re able to get away with and what you can’t. and there’s got to be an equal level of respect. There should be. And from now on, I’m going to be making certain to attain it and assert it in future.” – Gjuuck.

  Enter Scenario

  “Szarich, you really are the woman of my dreams, a girl after my own heart – everything about you is so similar to myself and of the old ways I used to be, and you remind me of it all. I love it, I love you Szarich. We rarely have differences and when or if they do arise – they are never difficult to over-look. Our differences are never hard for me to see passed and you soothe me ever so that I can always let complications go – and not hold onto them. Yes, you soothe me Szarich – you help me rationalize and I’ve never truly felt alone all the time you’ve been mine. You’re beautiful all the way through and I never want to let you go. I love every moment we spend together – and I miss you all the time that we’re apart, even if it’s only for a short while. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you, you have my heart forever and I owe you my soul. My twin flame, my life partner – my Diamond. Thank you with all my heart for being patient with me – I’ll always do my best to outshine in my good times – and pray that it out-weighs the tough times. You’re my world, the only one I want to be with for the rest of my life, my obsession, my Goddess – my Diamond, I can only hope I touch you as deep inside as you touch me. And you are by far, the best influence I have ever had the pleasure to be around – I am eternally grateful.” – Soag.