Conflicted Love

by Hamford, Kacey

  “Yeah, it’s just. Oh.” She pressed her hand against her tummy.

  “Solar, man, get ready.” I chuckled.

  “Ready for what?” He looked at me confused.

  “Your wife is in labour.”

  “We’re not married yet,” Jasmine added.

  “Yeah, someone wanted to wait until she looked good again. I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about. You’re sexy as fuck,” he told her. She slapped him on his chest before she bent over and cried out in pain.

  “Mummy?” We all looked over to see Nate’s little worried face.

  “It’s ok, dude. Mum’s getting ready to have the baby,” Solar told him.

  “How’s it going to come out of her tummy?” he asked.

  “That’s a convo for another day, dude.” Solar chuckled. “Let’s get you to the hospital, flower.”

  “Nate,” she mumbled.

  “He can stay here with me. Give me a call and let me know how it’s going and I’ll bring him over.”

  “You sure?” Solar asked.

  “Of course.” I ushered them out of the door and relaxed on the sofa as Nate and I watched Toy Story.

  I rushed into the hospital with Cooper in my arms and Nate holding my hand. Jasmine was getting ready to push the baby out when Tat had called me, she wanted Nate to be the first one to meet his brother or sister.

  “We’re here,” I panted out as we rushed down the hallway where Tat, Iron, Holes and Eden were standing.

  “Auntie Eden!” Nate called out as he let go of my hand and ran over to her.

  Just as I was about to sit down, the door opened up and Solar came out with a beaming smile on his face.

  “Dad!” Nate called out, again. Solar lifted him up in his arms.

  “Hey, dude. Do you wanna come and meet your baby sister?” Nate frantically nodded his head.

  “A girl? How’s Jasmine?” Eden asked.

  “My girls are both perfect.”

  “Name?” Eden was full of questions.

  “I’ll let her tell you when you come in.” He walked back through the door with Nate and we all waited patiently.

  I sat next to Eden and sat Cooper down on my lap facing her. She tickled his tummy and got him laughing, which made me smile.

  “We haven’t seen you around for a while, you ok?” I asked her.

  “Yep. Just getting on with life, you know?” I nodded. “You’ll have to bring Cooper round and he and Harry can have a play date,” she offered. I was about to accept when I saw Tat move closer towards us. He didn’t look pleased that Eden was offering to spend time with me. Did he think I was moving in on his girl? Hell, was Eden even his?

  “Come on in, guys,” Solar said, opening the hospital door wider.

  We all climbed to our feet and Eden shot in through the door first. Once we were all crowded around Jasmine, who had her daughter wrapped up in a pink blanket, she smiled and said, “Everyone, we’d like you to meet Lily Rose McGowan.” Jasmine was about to hand her over to Eden when a voice cleared from the edge of the room.

  “Shouldn’t the uncle get a hold first?”

  “Ace, good to see you man. Ana,” Solar said whilst walking towards him. They hugged briefly and he kissed Ana on the cheek before ushering them into the room closer. Jasmine handed Lily to him and he melted right in front of us all.

  “Congratulations, guys. I had better get him home.” I bent down to kiss Jasmine on the cheek. “You want me to take Nate home?”

  “No, my mum and dad are on the way. He’ll stay with them for the night, but thanks.”

  “No problem.” I slapped Solar on the back and said goodbye to everyone else.

  Pup

  I pulled in through the gates of the clubhouse and lifted Cooper out of his car seat. It was much easier carrying him like this, he weighed a ton in his car seat.

  “Let’s go and see who’s about,” I said to Cooper, he rewarded me with a wet slap to the face after he had been chewing on his fist. “Nice. Thanks, bud.” I chuckled. Cooper was full of beans today. He had fallen back to sleep straight after we left the hospital last night and had been up most of the day today. He will sleep well tonight.

  “Hey.” I was greeted by Solar as I walked into the bar. He was sitting at a table with Prez, Toes and Tat.

  “Hey, what you doing here?” I asked him as Lottie came over and pulled Cooper out of my arms. I let him go and watched her place him on her hip, she tickled his tummy and he threw his head back and giggled. I couldn’t stop the smile from covering my face.

  “Jasmine wanted to stay in the hospital another night, just to make sure Lily is feeding ok. She said she’s not latching on as well as Nate did. Nate wanted to stay with Jasmine’s mum and dad, so it’s party time. We’re heading into town and celebrating the birth of my gorgeous daughter.”

  “What we doing?” I glanced over my shoulder to see Holes and his Old Lady, Cammie, walking towards us. Holes had their son Harley in his arms.

  “We’re going into town to get drunk to welcome the new member of our family,” Toes said.

  I spun around to face the bar when I heard Cooper crying, I hurried towards Lottie as she held my son out for me.

  “I had better get him home.” I sighed. I loved my son with all my heart, but I was only twenty-years-old. I wanted to go out and get drunk, dance with some hot chick and fuck her in the bathroom of the club.

  “I’ll look after him tonight,” Cammie offered. “Harley will love the company.”

  “I’m not sure an eight-month-old is much company for a ten-month-old.” I laughed.

  “Go out with the guys, have some fun. He’ll be in safe hands with me.” I never doubted his safety, I just felt like I was taking the piss in having other people look after him.

  “You sure?”

  “Yes. Get me his car seat. I have everything at home that he’ll need.”

  “What’s going on?” Iron asked as he walked into the bar with Ashlyn glued to his chest. He was nibbling her neck as she giggled.

  “We’re going out. Cammie is looking after the boys,” Holes explained.

  “Nice one.” Iron smiled.

  “I’ll stay with Cammie and help her,” Ashlyn said.

  “Where’s Lacey?” Cammie asked.

  “Mum and dad wanted her for the night.” She shrugged her shoulders.

  “So it’s on.” Solar climbed to his feet.

  “Get a prospect to get the van ready and we’ll head into town,” Prez said to Toes. He wandered off in search of Jono and I gave Cammie all the instructions for looking after Cooper.

  “Calm down. I’ll be fine and if for some reason he isn’t, I’ll call you.” She pulled Cooper out of my arms and he settled his head on her shoulder.

  “Thank you. You be good for Aunt Cammie,” I told him, rubbing my hand over his head. He looked at me and stuck his thumb in his mouth. “He’s tired.”

  “We’re gonna head back now and the boys can chill out.”

  “Come on, Harley.” Ashlyn held her hands out for him and he happily went to her.

  “I’ll grab his stuff from the car,” I mumbled before I headed out of the clubhouse. I was excited to be getting a night off; a night to go out and have some fun. But I felt guilty too, I shouldn’t be leaving him with someone else so I could get drunk.

  “You ok, man?” Toes slapped me on the back. He fished a cigarette out of his pocket and lit it. He offered me the packet and I shook my head.

  “Yeah,” I lied again.

  “Talk to me, bro.” Toes was always the guy to have the most fun, he was always drinking, partying and fucking a different chick each night. Was that what I wanted? No. I’d never give my son up for that life, but I did feel lonely. Fuck, not many twenty-year-olds wanted to be settled down.

  “I don’t know if I should leave him,” I spoke honestly.

  “It’s just for one night and Cammie and Ashlyn are gonna spoil him rotten. He’s gonna get to curl up on a perfect set of breas
ts and fall asleep. That’s what every man wants.” He chuckled. “Seriously, man, when was the last time you got your dick wet?”

  “Last week,” I stated.

  “From someone other than a club bunny?” I hadn’t, the last person was Tanya and she left four months ago. “Exactly.” He smiled when I didn’t answer his question. “Let’s go out and have some fun.”

  I nodded my head, he was right. I didn’t want to go through life just being a single dad. If I wanted to find a woman to love me and Cooper, I needed to go out and find one.

  Jono was driving the van and he pulled up outside of ‘Nudes’, the strip club that the club now owned.

  “No, no way, man,” Solar complained. “I am not celebrating the birth of my daughter at a strip club.”

  “Come on, man. Candy is working tonight, she’s got a thing for our boy over here.” Toes laughed, pointing at me. “He needs some grade A pussy tonight.”

  “Fine, but Jasmine does not hear about this,” he said warning all of us to keep our mouths shut.

  “Or Cammie,” Holes added.

  “And Ashlyn,” Iron stated. The Prez started laughing and we all looked at him.

  “So, Carla won’t mind knowing where we are tonight then?” Solar asked, crossing his arms over his chest.

  “Hell, no. She’ll have my balls. I need them, she wants another kid.” He chuckled.

  “Let’s get going,” Toes exclaimed as he climbed out of the van and slid the back door open. I followed closely behind him to the main door.

  “Does Candy really have a thing for me?” I asked.

  “Oh, come on, haven’t you seen the way she looks at you?” The bouncers stood to the side as we all filed in.

  “No.” I shrugged my shoulders. No one had caught my eye, I was too focused on Cooper.

  “There she is.” He nodded towards the middle stage, she was currently leaning against the pole, her head was thrown back and her legs were spread open wide. All of a sudden, I was glad that our club wasn’t one where the girls got completely naked. Her eyes settled on mine as her head came back up, she smiled and winked at me before she turned her sexy arse around to climb up the pole.

  “Let’s have a toast!” Prez called, snapping me out of my daze. He pushed a shot glass into my hand. “To Lily Rose,” he cheered. We all followed suit and downed the black liquid.

  I glanced back over my shoulder and was disappointed to see that Candy had finished her dance. I stepped past all my brothers and climbed on to the bar stool as I waited to be served.

  “Jess!” I called out, jutting my chin in the air. I hated waiting to be served, I think that came down to being served so quickly in our bar at the clubhouse.

  “Hey, Pup, what can I get you?” She flicked her blonde hair off her shoulder and licked her lips as she waited for my order.

  “Hey, I’ve been waiting here ages,” a voice to my left complained. I turned my head ready to tell them to shut up when I was met with these sparkling blue eyes and long dark hair that came to the middle of her back. This chick was hot, she was dressed in a little black dress - one of those tight ones that showed off her figure - they were paired with some fuck me heels and my cock ached to feel her. Her legs were long and tanned, her tummy was flat but her gorgeous arse was rounded.

  “Sorry, let me buy you a drink?” I offered.

  “I’m getting a round in.” She pointed over her shoulder at a group of ladies.

  “Jess, add it to our tab,” I told her. Jess looked at the hot chick waiting for her order.

  “Can I have a jug of ‘Blue Bull’ please?” she asked.

  “Fuck, what the hell is that?” I asked, desperately wanting to rearrange my hardening cock in my jeans.

  “It’s a cocktail.” She smiled.

  “Have a shot with me before you get back to your friends?”

  “Sure.” Her tongue edged out between her teeth and ran along her bottom lip.

  “We’ll have two tequilas,” I told Jess as she placed the jug full of blue liquid on the bar. I grabbed the salt shaker and eyed up this chicks neck. “What’s your name?”

  “Stef.”

  “I’m Pup.” I placed my hand on her hip and angled her body into mine. She voluntarily stepped in between my legs and I pushed her dark hair over her shoulder. “Can I?” I asked, showing her the salt and nodding to her neck.

  “Yes.” Her word came out breathlessly and I wondered if she was as affected by me as I was to her.

  “Your boyfriend won’t mind?”

  “No boyfriend.”

  “Good.” Jess placed the shots down in front of us, but I didn’t take my eyes off of Stef. I leaned in and licked a line from the top of her bare shoulder to her ear. I wasn’t going to put that much salt on her but once I had a taste, I needed more. I sprinkled the salt on her neck as I grabbed my shot. Her chest was rising and falling and my eyes couldn’t help but check out her tits, I’d say she had just over a handful.

  “Ready?” I asked.

  “Hmmm.” She licked her bottom lip again and I dove into her neck, licking the salt off in one long stroke. She moaned in approval. I downed the shot, not taking my eyes off of her before I sucked the juice from the wedge of lemon.

  “Your turn.” I rose my eyebrow at her, wondering if she would do it. She grabbed the salt shaker and my hand, pushing up my sleeve until my wrist was uncovered. She licked a small patch over my pulse point and my cock jumped in my jeans. She sprinkled it with salt, grabbed her shot glass and proceeded to lick the salt from my wrist before downing the shot. She went to grab the lemon but I grabbed it first, sucking the juices from it. She frowned at me before I yanked her closer and covered her lips with mine, transferring the juice from my mouth to hers. Once she had sucked down all the juice her tongue darted out of her mouth and her hand gripped the back of my neck. My cock was painfully hard and I couldn’t stop my hips from rolling into her body. We broke apart as she gasped.

  “Um, Stef? You coming back?” Our heads both moved in synchronicity as we looked to where the voice was coming from. There was a chick standing there, she had short red hair and was wearing some sort of sash. It read ‘Sister of the bride’. So that’s why they were here, they were on a hen night.

  “Yeah, I’m coming now.” She stepped back from me, picked up the jug and smiled before she swished away with her friend.

  Stef

  I had noticed as soon as the Cornish Crusaders strolled in through the door, how could anyone not? They were a set of gorgeous men. My eyes were instantly drawn to the blond guy but I quickly deflated once I saw the intense look in his eyes as he watched the stripper on the stage. She was gorgeous with long legs, long blonde hair, bright white teeth and a set of breasts that I was jealous of. Mine weren’t overly small but I was sure they didn’t look like that.

  “You got your eye on anyone?” my friend Lizzy asked as she stumbled over to sit beside me.

  “No.” I giggled, she was funny when she was drunk.

  “Oh, so you just stick your tongue down any guy’s throat do you?” Becca asked.

  Lizzy’s head flew around to look at me.

  “Who you been kissing?”

  “No one.” I tried to brush it away but Becca had thrown me under the bus. When Lizzy kept staring at me, I added; “It’s not as if we can pick a guy up in here, they are here for one reason only. The strippers.”

  “Well, I’m not here to pick anyone up. I’m getting married, remember?” Lizzy laughed, throwing her head back. I had to grab hold of her arm to stop her falling off the chair.

  “That guy is still looking this way,” Becca said, nodding behind me and not looking as she poured herself a drink. I glanced over my shoulder and Pup smiled at me and waved the tequila bottle in my direction. Was that an offer for another drink? I turned back to the girls, unsure what to do.

  “Are you going over there?” Becca asked.

  “I don’t know.”

  “Go on. It’s a great way to get over that
two timing twat.” Lizzy was referring to my ex-boyfriend, who I had caught in our bed with another girl, and was the reason I had to move back in with my brother and his new girlfriend. It wasn’t much fun being around them while they were in the new stages of their relationship. I didn’t need to hear things like ‘Yes, Evan, faster’. A shiver crept up my spine just thinking about it.

  “That twat, is your brother.” I laughed.

  “Yeah and I’d much rather have you in my life than him. Go and have some fun with the blond biker dude.”

  “He’ll still be at your wedding,” I stated.

  “And you’ll still be my bridesmaid.”

  “Do you think I should?” I squirmed in my seat, the thought of making a move and possibly going home with that guy had me excited and needing a release.

  “Too late, he’s coming over,” Becca whisper-shouted, sitting back in her seat like we hadn’t all been gossiping about him.

  “Ladies.” Pup placed another jug of ‘Blue Bull’ in the middle of the table just as Stacy and Lydia came back from the bathroom.

  “Oooo and who might you be?” Lydia questioned as she sidled up to him. Lydia was the one in the group who liked to have the most ‘fun’. She had never had a boyfriend, she always went from one guy to the next.

  “Cool it, Lydia. He’s Stef’s,” Becca scolded her. I widened my eyes at Becca as a blush crept up my face. Just great, now he’s going to think I’m a crazed woman, claiming him when all we did was have a drink and kiss.

  “I’m liking the sound of that,” he whispered in my ear as he climbed onto the square stool behind me. I scooted forward so that we would both fit. I could feel his cock pressing into my back and I tried to move so I couldn’t feel it. He growled in my ear and nipped at my neck as I brushed against him.

  “Thanks for the drink,” Lizzy said as she picked the full jug up and attempted to pour it into her glass. She spilt some on the table and Stacy jumped up to clean it.

  “No problem. So, who’s the bride? Or is this just a way for you girls to get free drinks?” He laughed.