The Tycoon's Secret Baby: Forbidden lust. One stolen night. A secret baby!

by Clare Connelly

  “Why?”

  “He didn’t sleep well,” she murmured. “He was a nightmare sleeper, actually.”

  Marco nodded, filing the information away. He had barely any knowledge of his child, so that each little breadcrumb was delicious and new.

  “You didn’t miss him?”

  “Being back at work? Oh, all the time,” she nodded. “Are you kidding me? Emma set up a webcam in the lounge so I could log in and see him any time I wanted to. It was hard.”

  “You and Cox didn’t need the money,” Marco pointed out. “Why not take longer?”

  “I told you, I loved my job,” she shrugged. “And it’s not the kind of role you can leave for too long. I had high-profile clients that I’d spent a long time warming up, getting to trust me. And the company was reasonably flexible with my hours.”

  “And when he died? I imagine taking over Aztec was more demanding.”

  “God, yes. I’ve been doing twelve hours and then coming home and trying to get time with Ben. It’s such a juggle. But Emma’s amazing. It wasn’t supposed to be a live-in position, but somehow, that’s what it morphed into.”

  “Would she come to Rome?”

  Grace spun her face to his, her mind reeling. “We can’t just move to Rome.”

  “Why not?” He took his eyes off the road briefly, slashing her with the seriousness in his face. “It’s my home.”

  “Your home is …” Beautiful. Perfect. Paradise. Majestic. Glorious. “So far away.”

  His exhalation was haughty. In the small part of her mind capable of functioning, Grace wondered how it was possible for even a breath to judge her. “You have described a life in which you are so busy you barely get to see our child. You just said yourself what a juggle it is. So move in with me. Take time off. Do whatever you want.”

  “I am doing what I want,” she said, knowing even as the words left her mouth that it wasn’t completely true. She’d never wanted to run Steven’s business. It wasn’t her thing.

  “Do you know what I am thinking of?”

  “What?” It was snappy. She softened it with a small sigh.

  “The way you were on my balcony. Do you remember, Grace? We had bruschetta and wine, and laughed and talked. Then, you were happy.”

  She had been. She had been both euphoric and content – a strange combination of different forms of happiness, for one was energetic and pronounced and the other was peaceful - almost slumberous.

  “It was so long ago,” she said, surprised at the crispness to her words. “I was a different person then.”

  “But you react just the same in my arms. Whatever it is between us, neither of us can control it.”

  She startled, turning to face him, her eyes enormous and her lips parted. He pulled the car to a stop at traffic lights on the edge of the city and met her gaze. Heat exploded between them and Grace felt moist need pool between her legs. She clamped her thighs together, but it didn’t stave off her desire to have him.

  “I hate that I want you, even after this,” he said seriously, the words heavily accented and filled with bitter self-loathing.

  His words were doing strange things to her gut, making her ache with need and hunger and desire and sadness.

  “I hate you for what you have done, make no mistake about it. I want you in my bed, but I will never forgive you for keeping my son from me.”

  CHAPTER FIVE

  “YOU’RE STAYING HERE?”

  The penthouse apartment of the Waldorf was every bit as remarkably grand as Grace might have imagined, had she spent any time doing so. Her eyes went from one piece of luxurious decadence to another – the sumptuous gold curtains that hung like clouds of stardust, the grand piano in one corner, sofas that seemed like they were made from gossamer, wallpaper that looked hand-painted and enormous marble tiles.

  “Si.”

  She spun back to him, catching him in a moment of unguarded reflection. His face was haunted, his expression impossible to interpret. Except that something in him made her sad. Made her sorry.

  So why didn’t she apologise again, and try to make him understand?

  Because he wouldn’t.

  She’d robbed him of something unique and special; something he’d never get back. His eyes flicked to hers.

  And she felt the truth of his words. Hatred barreled towards her; she shivered.

  “Why did you bring me here?”

  “We need to talk. Away from that house you lived in with him.” His eyes flashed with something new. Something dangerous.

  “Why?”

  “Because.” He shrugged out of his coat, hanging it on a hook by the door and then moving deeper into the beautiful space. He was somehow incongruous here – large and feral, with sharp edges that could bust the fineness of the room.

  “That’s not an answer.”

  “I’m asking the questions.”

  She blinked her eyes wide. “Oh, so this in an interrogation now?”

  “You don’t think I’m entitled to answers?”

  She bit down on her lip, locking her sassy response deep in her throat. “I do.” She clasped her hands in front of her and spun away, moving towards the sofas. She didn’t sit down though; it would have felt like a concession of strength and she already seemed to be at a disadvantage. “I just don’t know what you want to know. So tell me. Ask your damned questions.”

  His nod was tight. “When did you find out you were pregnant?”

  Grace’s finger traced the velvet detailing of the sofa distractedly. “Not for months. Two and a half months at least, after I got back.”

  “And were you with him during that time?”

  She swallowed past the lump of frustration in her throat. “No.”

  “So it was only once you found out you were pregnant that you fooled him into marriage?”

  “It wasn’t like that,” she said emphatically. “I didn’t fool him. I … confided in him.”

  “And it didn’t occur to you to give me the same courtesy?”

  “Come on, Marco. You were furious when I left Rome…”

  “Because you shouldn’t have left,” he responded sharply. “I wanted you to stay.”

  “You wanted me in your bed. Just like you do now. That wasn’t enough.” She angled her face away from him. “What we shared that night…” the memories were enough to burn her alive and yet she shivered once more, a coldness pervasive deep in her soul. “It terrified me.”

  A muscle jerked in his cheek but she didn’t see it. She wasn’t looking at him. Marco, however was staring at Grace, analyzing her every movement and emotion, her expressions and her heart. “So?” He said at length, prompting her to continue.

  “You weren’t offering me any reason to stay. I knew after one night how easily I could become addicted to you. How easily I could even fall in love with you.” She jutted her chin out, and now she dragged her gaze to his. “But that wasn’t on offer, was it?”

  “Love?” He repeated, as though she’d suggested he don a pink feather boa and go catch an El train.

  “Anything other than sex,” she clarified.

  “I don’t know, Grace. Who can say? I just know I offered for you to stay.”

  “You offered to make me your mistress!” She said the word with distaste. “To set me up in your home, make my life like something out of a movie. But what then? What would have happened when you grew tired of me?”

  “You were so sure I would?”

  “Of course!” She said with a humourless laugh. “Your prowess with women is legendary. You’re a perennial bachelor. Never an empty bed for long, never the same girlfriend for long. That’s who you are. I didn’t want any part of it. I still don’t.”

  His sardonic grimace dismissed the final part of her assertion easily. After all, her body had betrayed her on that score.

  “And so you told me about your wonderful fiancé and left. Of course I was furious.”

  “We weren’t engaged,” she stressed.

 
“But he had proposed, and then you married him…”

  “He proposed, yes, but that’s when I broke it off. I didn’t love him like that.” Loyalty to Steve made the discussion unpalatable, and beyond that, the agreement they’d reached. Secrecy had been core to their terms – he never revealed the truth about her past, and she would never tell anyone that their marriage had been a sham. “He was a wonderful man.” Her voice cracked on the words. “But I wanted to travel and explore and I just knew I couldn’t do that if I was engaged, or married, to him.”

  “So you came to Rome, had some fun, and then you settled down. When you were pregnant with my baby.”

  Her eyes shimmered and she blinked away her tears. “It wasn’t like that. You’re making it sound like I had some dastardly plan. I didn’t. I tried to do the right thing for everybody.”

  “Bullshit!” He roared, and she flinched away from him, her heart stilling in her chest, blood gushing through her veins. “How is keeping Ben from me right?”

  “I’ve told you, I’m sorry…”

  With effort, he composed himself, pushing past his frustration and sense of loss. “Did he know the baby was mine?”

  “Yes.”

  “So when he came to see me, and sat opposite me, he looked me in the eyes and told me that he was marrying you. That he was willing to forgive your ‘indiscretion’ because you were in love and planning to start a family, all the while knowing my flesh and blood would be that family. Is that what you’re telling me?”

  “I …” She bit down on her lip, training her eyes on the view beyond the enormous windows. “I didn’t know he did that.”

  “So you’ve said. The problem, Grace, is that I find it hard to know if you’re being honest or not. Telling lies seems to be second nature to you.”

  “That’s not fair.”

  “No?” His voice had a sharpness to it. “You keep saying you tried to tell me. But that’s a lie, isn’t it?”

  “No!” She spun around to face him and found him closer to her than she’d realized, his enormous frame just behind her. Close enough she could see the few dark freckles that danced on the bridge of his nose. “I did try. I called but you were so …”

  “No.” He shook his head once. “Nothing should have stopped you from telling me the truth.”

  “Everything about you terrified me. It still does. I’ve known volatile relationships and I know they’re something I will always run a mile from. You made me feel like my heart was being burned - like I was falling off a building - all at the same time.”

  His eyes narrowed at her description but his face was implacable. “This was not about you, or me. It was about our baby. I had a right to know about him just as he had a right to know me from the day he was born.”

  “I know you don’t believe me, but when I called, I did intend to tell you.”

  “Then you lost your nerve and what? Fell into a marriage with another man?”

  His judgment though was making it impossible. She shook her head. “It wasn’t like that. I thought, after our conversation, that you had made your feelings clear. If you didn’t want me, then you wouldn’t want our baby.”

  “That is both egotistical and incorrect.”

  She ignored the criticism. “I was scared.”

  The small statement did something strange to Marco. Something unwanted. He railed against the softening in his heart; the tenderness that was sweeping over his anger and frustration. His voice was gruff and deep when he spoke. “You must have known I would have supported you.”

  “I didn’t want support. Not financial support,” she rushed to add. “I knew it would be tough as a single mom, but that’s not why I married Steve.”

  “No?” He moved closer, just a tiny amount, but suddenly they were almost touching and her stomach was flopping as though she’d fallen off the side of a cliff. “Why then?”

  She was so close to admitting the truth to him – that she had married Steve because of safety and security and the lure of family. All the things she’d never had. The things she knew Marco wouldn’t have provided. She’d married Steve because he knew her worst secrets, the truth of where she’d come from, and he still loved her. He still wanted her.

  “Why do you think?” She murmured. Did promises made to people no longer living still hold sway? She’d given Steve her word that their marriage would, to all intents and purposes, be a real one. At least, to everyone else. Why now did she hesitate to break that trust? Because she’d promised, she reminded herself. And he wasn’t there to release her from that commitment.

  His smile was dismissive. “It doesn’t matter.”

  And that hurt almost as much as everything else. She nodded, her body strangely heavy as she stared up at him. He smelled like pine trees and citrus, just as she remembered.

  “And when he was born, and you looked down at his face, did it occur to you then to tell me? When you looked at our child and saw how like me he is, did you think of me?”

  “Of course I did,” she groaned. “I’ve thought of you every day since I left Rome.” At his look of surprise, she quickly added, “How could I not? Our child is, as you say, your spitting image. So much of you is in him.”

  There was pride in his face then; a sharp twisting of his features that made her heart thump. “Yes. I’m glad.” But then, a mask of frustration was back in place. “And if your husband was still here? Would you be passing Ben off as his son?”

  Grace swallowed. The lump in her throat was heavy. Sharp. She spun away, her mind filled with cotton wool, but Marco caught her wrist and pulled her back to him.

  “You cannot run away from this anymore.”

  “I wasn’t running.”

  “Of course you were,” he contradicted, his finger stroking her inner wrist as his eyes sliced through her.

  “I was…”

  “How could you live with this decision?” He interrupted, a frown tugging at his lips. “I thought I knew you. But the Grace who worked for me for three months, who took the blame for her colleague’s mistakes, the Grace who was brave and came to me for help because she knew something needed fixing… she would never have done this.”

  It took a moment for the words to penetrate the fog of Grace’s mind. “You knew about Maria?” She said, when the pieces slid into place.

  “Of course I did. You would never have made such a stupid error.”

  Her cheeks flushed pink with the unexpected compliment, so easily given. “Please tell me you didn’t fire her.”

  “Cristo! Is that what you think of me?”

  She looked away, her eyes landing on a painting across the room. It was in the impressionist style, all blotchy, pale colours forming a beautiful still-life of flowers. One of the roses had wilted over the side, and the weight of its once-beautiful blooms was causing petals to fall. The artist had captured the exact moment of abandonment, as they tumbled towards the tabletop. Grace could identify with that feeling of helplessness. Weariness, too.

  “Maria couldn’t afford to lose her job. It wasn’t worth the risk.”

  “She has worked for me for a decade. You think I would sack her for a clerical error?”

  “I didn’t know,” she mumbled. “And it was more than a clerical error.”

  “You came to me for help then. Why didn’t you when you discovered you were pregnant?”

  “It was different,” Grace said softly. “Everything was different.”

  “Why?”

  “Because then it was just me. As soon as I learned of my pregnancy, I started to think about Ben. What would be best for him? I wanted him to grow up with more than I had.”

  “You made the decision to keep me from his life because of money?”

  “No. We both know you’re worth a fortune. If I was in any way financially motivated, don’t you think I’d have come running?”

  He tilted his head at the sense of her response, but it sat heavily on his chest.

  “I wanted Ben to have a family. A real fami
ly.” She squeezed her eyes shut. “I wanted him to grow up knowing two people loved him more than anything. That he would never be able to hurt us or lose us. I wanted him to have that.”

  “Because you didn’t?” Marco prompted thoughtfully, the chasm of his knowledge on this matter something he didn’t like.

  He was too intuitive. She was remembering, belatedly, how sharp his mind was. How quickly he filtered through information to discover the pertinent facts.

  “Because all children deserve that,” she deflected awkwardly.

  Marco stared at the woman he’d seduced; the woman he’d taken to his bed even when he’d known he should have stayed away. The woman who’d overridden every single bit of common sense he possessed. And frustration gnawed at his gut because he could feel the same stupidity guiding his hand now. “Do you still want him to have a family?” He prompted, the trap easy to lay.

  “You know I do.” She swallowed. Did she realize what she’d admitted?

  “So? I am his father. You are his mother. The path forward is blindingly simple.”

  “Simple?” She scoffed, jerking her wrist away and taking a step backwards. “I can’t marry you.”

  His eyes narrowed. He could almost have felt sorry for Grace, except for what she’d done. It was something that he would never forgive. There was no justification for keeping their child a secret.

  “You do not have the choices you did yesterday.”

  Grace swept her eyes closed, his words thundering against her temples. “Why not?” And though she knew, she needed him to say it. She needed to hear his coldness from his own mouth, to inure herself against the dangers that still lurked in their relationship. She needed to hate him, as he did her.

  “I will not leave him here. I will not leave him with a woman who saw fit to act as you did. I will not leave him.”

  “You can’t just take him,” she pointed out quietly.

  His smile though was full of arrogant certainty. “I don’t intend to take him. But I suspect the last thing you want is a drawn out custody dispute with all the nasty facts available for public consumption. Facts that our son will be able to access online for himself, when he is old enough…”