Forgotten Alpha

by Alexi Maisonet

  A flash & I am back. Blinking to focus my vision again. Looking around seeing more clear. My shoulders sag as does my emotions, hearing only Nature. Mom disappeared. Yet strangely I don’t feel alone anymore. Thinking to myself “So Crimson, the wulf in my dreams is coming for me. I am his mate.” Shaking my head no. “Beastiality. Sorry toti, not my thing.” Huffing “What other freaking shit can possibly happen to me?” As if answering my question. Something else does grip me ...Fear.

  “Will my mate accept a lost ‘wulf’ like me? Someone who can’t even remember? Or will he reject me? My chest hurts thinking of the outcome. Then whisper low to myself “oh whatever powers that exist, if I am not crazy. Please let this mate see past my amnesia.” I am terrified. Looking, I see Randall’s still in wulf form looking around bored. Celeste blinks looking me in the eyes, she lowers her head then herself to the ground with a whine. He is coming, Celeste now knows it also. Something tells me she heard the conversation so why is she looking like I worry her about something?

  Turning to go inside addressing I address them “shift back, turn back, change back, metamorphosis back, fuck whatever you fucking call it. Do whatever the hell you two have to do to be human again. Just do it” Going inside, I’m irritated why? I realize why. It’s the same reason carmen’s wulf whined. Celeste must somehow know he is coming and THAT is what is irritating me. The fucking secrecy I get from those I love and trust most, why? I turn away heading back inside the cabin, without looking back I stop short. With a foot on the first porch step saying “Oh, Carmen when you change back as you heard I will not be needing the pills anymore and we should talk. I want to know the real reason I was taking them to be with.”

  I hear Randall with a wulfish grin “ohhh now you gonna git it”. Not having the patience for my brother’s antics I spun around and shout “ENOUGH Randall!”

  The ground shook, the wind, just for a moment, blows a strong gust. I hear many whispers speaking, coming from within the woods ghostly “Massster, massster” I turn my head searching to both my left and right. But see nothing and say, “aww fuck you too.”

  Randall however, reacts. He freezes, letting out a short yelp and jumps sideways flipping his head from side to side as if scared of something. For a moment I stop, wondering why he reacted that way. Then I roll my eyes dismissing it going inside. Inside I see Bella looking at me worried. “What?” looking at her. She wags her tail as she comes walking up to me wanting attention. But I walk past her towards the kitchen, open the refrigerator door, and grab a Spanish soda called MALTA (my favorite) and open it.

  As I am raising it to my lips and just before gulping it down I look down at her saying “yeah, humph, now all I need is for you to fucking talk also to add to my fucked up shitty life” as I take a gulp of my soda. Bella looks towards the door at the two coming in, then back at me and says “cursing Alejandro? What would your mother say?”Cough, cough, cough, I FUCKING CHOKED!!! Malta dribbles down my face hitting the floor. Bella comes & licks it up. Both Carmen and Randall, entering through the door bust laughing! I lower my head to stare right at her and say “You mean to tell me you can communicate also?? WHY THE HELL YOU DIDN’T TALK SOONER?!!” Bells looks up “did not see a need”

  I look at her saying, “You know. Randall‘s right! You are a BITCH!”. Bella looks up continuing “oh and I can also group wulf speak. Soooo,” Ms. now speaks fast “those two heard everything” with a doggie like a smile she wags her tail, returns to the sofa hopping up, glancing at the other two naked hysterical laughings, holding their stomachs her sarcasm. “BITCH!” is all I say and also. Randall & Carmen continue laughing hard so much, they double over, tears appearing in their eyes as they drop to the floor. After they’re done with their hysterics, Randall gets up, walks over to Bella and says “GA HEAD GURL I AIN’T MAD AT YA!!! Give a SISTA five!” to which Bella raises her right paw and low fives Randall. “Ya know it like a POET and Dis ho will ALWAYS SHOW IT!” again causing us to erupt laughing. This time I join them (it was funny when I thought of it).

  CRIMSON IS THE KEY

  Unimpressed not a word said. I take the picture from within my pocket and show it to her. As she reaches for it I growl not wanting to release it. Adelphi takes the picture, gazing at it showing a heartfelt smile. Her words coming forth, resonate a mother’s love. “Alejandro. The beloved wulf of our pack and the youngest son of my ALPHA Cary of the Celestial Guardian Pack”. Her proud emotions clear in her tone of voice. So full of love. IT seems to ease my fury. Even Crimson calms down sighing with a huff. Continuing to smile Adelphi gazes at the picture. her eyes remain on my mate’s side of the picture as if he were HER son. I am awed at the genuine love she shows for my mate. Reminding me of my mother, Luna of my birth pack and her doting maternal ways.

  At this moment her words repeat themselves in my head and it hits me. THE WOMAN IN THE PICTURE!! NOW I REMEMBER THAT IS WHO SHE IS!! ALPHA CARY Of THE Celestial Guardian Pack!” I remember now! For a moment, we met her at the International wulf conference held in Florida. But Alejandro was not with her and I did not pick up his scent on her. But how? Crimson should have been able to sense something. Yet that was 11 years ago. Alpha Cary’s power obvious.

  I remember from across the ball hall room, her turning towards me when from its opposite doorway, I entered. As I approached, her gaze upon me had gone from Alpha to tender, like my mother’s own. Crimson whined and told me to bow to her and we did. She tapped my shoulder wulf speaking “It is a pleasure to meet you once more Crimson, ALPHA of the CRIMSON MOUNTAIN PACK. I know we shall meet again…... soon...... (she nods slowly saying my name) Reuben.”Of all the Wulves present, Crimson & I were the only two she addressed by name.

  Before parting, Alpha Cary gave me a brief hug then she allowed her male rude cub, a sassy brown-skinned male “Mama Alpha we have ta go” pulling her away. I remember, as he guided her away, for a moment she remained looking back locked gazes she shot me a wulf speak “You’ll get used to him”. Then turned to look in the direction she was being pulled.

  I never understood what she meant. Yet her facial expression stayed with me. A mother’s gaze. She knew She knew then, she knew HER SON Alejandro was my mate! A second realization hits me, That’s how Crimson knew it wasn’t HER IN THE PICTURE!! She also knew the three of us are the same, CELESTIAL GUARDIANS!!

  My rage fades from me. I speak, my tone is powerful as the Alpha I am, firm. However, she sees it in my eyes, hears it in my words. “Adelphi, Alejandro is my mate. I have searched for my mate believing I would never find them. I almost gave up hope. Now, after all this time I have found HIM. I believe he is in danger, Crimson scented two other Wulves, Adelphi He is in Danger. Can you help me?”

  Adelphi detects my slight urgency. She looks at me with understanding, her voice expresses the wisdom of ages “Ahhh, it has all become clear,” she says. “It explains why Alejandro had bolted leaving his apt. The GODDESS must have awoken the mate bond within you both and he must’ve scented you. He’s always possessed an unrivaled and skilled tracking ability”

  I am stunned. He scented me! My heart pounding in my chest causing me to feel jittery again. “My mate” Saying those words with my head down proud I smile again. He was coming out to find me, I smile even more knowing he smelled me from such a distance and reacted to the Mate Bond as I did. My mate is Alejandro Maisonet of the Celestial Guardian Pack. Crimson’s wulf spoken tone excited “HE SCENTED US!! Our mate is special, He was coming to look for us, Reuben!!” With a simple hand gesture, the seer motions for me to sit beside her and I do. As I sit she begins “If you allow me a moment to explain Things are not as you may be thinking. I ask you to calm yourself and Crimson your celestial wulf. .” From past experiences I’ve learned Seers possess wisdom beyond their presence but speak slowly as fucking turtles!!

  “Yes, Alejandro he was taken from his apt. But not in the sense your thinking Alpha Reuben. 13 years ago, Alejandro Lost his memory during a rogue battle. The two Wulves, you smelled ar
e his caretaker and brother, Randall, who has given up his own life to protect and care for Alejandro due to his affliction. The second wulf is my daughter Carmen. Whom I have already informed to expect you. She too is a powerful Seer. His Amnesia happened when Alejandro with his mother, went to save his father who he believed trapped by rogues. The rogue’s goal, to kill the Alpha and end the Celestial Guardian Pack. Since then, Alejandro has been living trying to piece together and unlock his memories”

  My chest tightens, my hand balls into a fist aided with my muscles clenching, Crimson howls his despair. My mate has Amnesia, is this what fate has for what I have done to others? A mate with no recollection of who he is. Will he even recognize me as his mate. Can he understand why he feels this way? Can he accept? Most important, Do I want a mate like this? Can I love him? Even though I felt this way, from what Adelphi’s said next. I faced her, my eyes opening wide with shock.

  “Alejandro’s wulf is Sable, the lightning celestial guardian. HE IS your destined mate Alpha Reuben. The second half warrior of the Goddess much like Crimson is the first half. He Reuben is your balance.”

  Crimson howls. He battles to force a phase fighting his way out, with every fiber of my will I block him and his element. I am a celestial guardian wulf. So too is he. Hearing my thoughts Crimson stops fighting and relaxes, I see him in my mind, sitting on his haunches. He looks back at me, eyes glowing Forest green revealing a deathly demeanor. when he spoke I understood why “Sable is my mate. Reuben, you were wrong. We are not to be alone. To hell with your insecurities. I have waited so long and. I WILL BE WITH MY MATE!! Male, Conscious of who he is OR NOT!! SABLE, I will be with SABLE!!” Deep down I know Crimson is right. But why do I hesitate within myself? Will I accept him? can I?

  Without pausing Adelphi continues. “At his request, they are aiding him. Taking Alejandro to the one place he believes his memories will return to him.” My voice had long lost its rage. Instead, hearing the determination my mate has to unlock his memories. Riles my own restlessness; eager to be by Alejandro’s side.

  Realizing the sudden change in my behavior and attitude as if my previous thoughts mean nothing. I smile because I know. Without yet meeting him I know for the rest of my life, I am in trouble. I ask Crimson the question whose answer confirms my suspicion “So this is how the Mate Bond affects us huh bud? I am the most powerful alpha wulf of this region. standing at 6’4” and pack 313 lbs of muscle, blessed with you; a Celestial guardian wulf who has unspeakable power and ruthlessness. Still seeing my mate. I see…... I am in trouble” Grinning.

  He answers. In my minds’ eye I see him, the smirk on his jaws “yes...WE.. are.” his tail wags. At this moment I am as a child, anxious, to be with my mate. Excitement and yearning take a powerful hold of me. Its grip overwhelming with one purpose, reach Alejandro. “Yes,” with a huff “YUP! I AM IN TROUBLE” a shiver causes a tremble in my truth. I have uncertainty with my destined mate and for the first time ever.THAT scares me. Will he know I am his mate? Will he accept me?

  My mate does not know me or our way or what is happening to him and pray. “Oh, Goddess Oshun, African queen of lovers. I have never known fear. But I do now. I ask you to give me the strength to accept him as he is. For he is my destined mate the one you chose for me. But to you, I pray for my past transgressions. Of the wer’s whose hearts I have crushed just for my desires. If your divine will you see me worthy of Alejandro Maisonet Goddess Oshun. I promise to you. He will never be alone again or a day will not past when I remind him of the love you have allowed us. Goddess Oshun, an African queen of love. I ask your forgiveness and favor. Please clear his mind so I enter his heart and he may he accept me.”

  Crimson whines. He knows, although I have always respected, I have never been one to follow my mother's practice. However right now…. I am scared shitless and will pray to whatever power for aid. Refocusing my thoughts, directing them back to Adelphi “Adelphi tell me where I will be at his side, I will protect him, love him and care for him.

  His happiness will be my core being. I promise. We will smile together enjoying every day the goddess will give us til our lives end. Adelphi understands, I’ve waited so long and searched so very far. So the day when Alejandro will not feel my love for him will never come to pass. He will Alway see how blessed he has made my lonely world. How Even when I want to kill him, it is because he alone can make me mad and no matter what he does I will never harm him or allow harm to befall him.

  Only for him I know Adelphi, I will do this and more Til I Die, breathing my last staring into his eyes. Because he is my destined mate, The wulf from my dream and I have to try. I want him to know. He will never feel alone again.” Adelphi gazes at me for a moment before speaking with the same loving look she did the picture of Alejandro “your truth Alpha, is in your words. I have already seen this. But, accept this Understanding Alpha.”

  For a moment, I look at her “understanding?” Her tone, serious meriting all my attention. Not that she did not already have it. “Yes, I will tell you where to find him and the message given. Alejandro’s mind at this moment is fragile you mustn’t push him. Allow him to come to you. Sable is the living passion of Crimson without end. Yet, it is only Crimson who can control Sable. Endanger one and the other will become darkness unparalleled.”

  Something in Adelphi’s words unnerves me. What does she mean with her last premonition? Alejandro felt the mate bond like I did. So did he, he was coming to look for me also. Has his affliction affected my mate in such a way as to forget our kind and our ways? How?? Reaching, I take back my stolen picture Adelphi held of my mate. Once more staring at my picture of MY Alejandro in my hands, my right thumb goes over his face I realize. It does not matter. He is my mate, I, at last, found my mate. Whispering his name “Alejandro” and smile.

  ARRIVAL

  Alejandro goes inside leaving Randall and me outside as we phase back. I turn to Randall with the seriousness of a seer’s gaze as I told him, “We need to talk.” I look at him heavy eyed turning my head away. Its time like Randall said. This secret had been 13 years long. I am tired. Randall turns looking at me with a questioning look “Guuuurl ya got dat witchy look of yours which always makes me nervous but come on talk to Auntie Randall.”

  With the look I give him a look that said everything but still, I explain. “Alejandro’s mate found him. He is coming, Randall. Mom communicated everything”

  Randall’s eyes sparkle, he grins hugely as he sings shaking his butt then throughsting forward “Alrighty my sista GUNNA GIT LAAAID!! GIT SUM SOOKI SOOKI NOW NOW! GUNNA GIT da POW POW!!” thrusting his hips forward “GIT HIS SALAD TOSSED!! BOOYAH!!”

  But I’m not laughing “Alejandro doesn’t know this. Or even that his destined mate has found him and is on his way here to be with him, you dumbass. He also doesn’t understand the overwhelming desire he felt which caused him to come racing out of the apartment almost colliding with us.”

  Randall stops his flair, he understood now. With a serious tone, he looks “the mate bond.” I nod & continue “yes the mate bond. Mom’s spirit said they smelled each other from the highway which explains why he almost broke his apt door to get out.” I can tell from Randall’s change in demeanor, what I just said, caused him to brood.

  Continuing my pensive state, my sights for a moment, turn to the ground. From what my Beta informed me. My brother has his destined mate. His DESTINED MATE. Everything will change. Emotional ache hits me, but I push it away, this is my brother and I will be there for him….. No matter what. Lifting my head I say “hmmm, Well he’s always been one helluva good tracker. I remember our hunting’s.” My tone changes, pitching high blurting “DAMN GURL!! DAT IS at least two miles from his apt!! Shit damn! shit dam! Da Bitch NOSEY NOSE KNOWS!! hahaha”

  Elbowing him I nod in agreement “What affects his mate will have on him I don’t know and that scares me.” Randall raises an eyebrow and says with a country gay tone “why bitch hazel?” At his comment, I give him a hard look re
sponding “Because dumb ass, he is trying to unlock his memories. It could go both ways. HE could come back and stronger now having his mate. Or it could be too much for him and cause his mind to break.”

  Randall brings up a point I already thought of. “Well, remember we have OUR CODE.” The pride in my voice tone I express, shows I am proud of our Code yet, I also know there is no reason for it. As with all of us, Alejandro’s destined mate was chosen by the Goddess herself, and for some odd reason. My gut tells me his mates wulf is a CELESTIAL GUARDIAN.

  As if that did not matter I respond to Randall “Yes, I do. But there is no reason. He’s an Alpha and your right his wulf is also a CELESTIAL GUARDIAN.” Looking to Carmen I respond “Well, dat doesn’t change things..... an-t-ways. At least, I know BELLA DONNA will not care, she will honor our CODE to the max.” Just as I knew she would, Celeste takes this opportunity to chime in “Carmen can anyone talk or is this a private conversation”. I respond to my wulf, “Not in the mood Celeste”.

  I speak anyway ignoring her comment, Carmen has always possessed a dry character “The spell is only temporary you remember that factor? or have you forgotten about this?” Carmen’s response holds a grumbling tone. But I know the real reason and I don’t feel offended by her response “Look I said I am not in the mood” As times past, I continue ignoring her yet again “He will not leave you, Carmen. The past will not repeat, even when he knows”

  I sigh, my shoulders sagging “I ‘ve been with him you know? His mate doesn’t know how much he has hurt all these years. hear him at night, sometimes crying in his apt. can hear THEM talking to him. don’t want him to get hurt Celeste, he’s been through so much”

  Feeling the weight my soul companion Carys on her shoulders. Carmen sighs again feeling helpless. I understand and yet “That is still his decision to make. Not you for him. This you are aware. ”.