Forgotten Alpha

by Alexi Maisonet

  It all feels right. I feel peace. In their way, the pieces, The TRUE PIECES of my life are coming together. But I still have not unlocked my memories or been able to connect with my wulf. Strangely, I am not so determined to do it anymore. Matter fact, I no longer care if I do or don’t get my memories back. I’ve created my own memories, my own destiny. Most of all I realize, no matter my fear, no matter how I have felt trapped. A stranger to myself, I was never alone. Keeping me in his beefy grip, Reuben’s groan in my ear focus my attention to him. Ending my thoughts.

  Putting it all out of my head, I release it all. My desire to become the most powerful pack in the region. The mental reminder of the best sex I have had and who they were. The very real fact my mate is male, as well as an alpha, my equal. The future. All of it. It doesn’t matter. This peace I feel within has made me tired save one desire. To cuddle with Alejandro. To lay beside his mocha complexion. Cradle him beneath my hairy arm taking in the aroma of him.

  His intoxicating mate scent is making me horny as hell! My dick aches from the uncomfortable position it’s in. yet I know he feels it throbbing against his lower back. Pulling Alejandro tighter to me still I say “hey sexy man Wanna go to bed?” He groans a little “Do we have to? It’s so quiet right here. Beneath a wonderful summer starlit night.” I chuckle saying “well I could phase, and keep you warm using Crimson fur.” Mentally, I hear an excited Crimson “I will warm the earth beneath him keeping him warm and protected this night and every night he chooses!” I smile but don’t get to tell Alejandro this as he now gets up walking to the ridge.

  Reuben is right. We should get some rest. Yet there is a question I would like to ask. Even though, from all of his administering, countless looks of deep happiness, I feel what his answer would be. Every fear of what may happen plays in my head. Anxiety is slowing building with me, feeding my uncertainty. Before its hold becomes a clamp in my throat, preventing me from speaking I ask “Reuben, you know I have Post-Traumatic Amnesia.” Alejandro, my mulato (Caramel) nods “Can you love me this way?”

  IN that moment, Crimson and I felt the pain of his question. He believes he is less because of his affliction. Because he cannot remember who he truly is. Rising off the ground to stand. I approach him. Embracing him so strongly in my arms. I want him to feel what he has become to me. To know that in three days, he has made his and his alone.

  But pulling gently back from, Alejandro does not meet my gaze. He looks down, away from me. This, I can tell, is important to him. With tenderness that defies my bulky mass, I reach with a warm lovers touch the bristles of his goatee, lifting his chin to meet my gaze. My tone become a soft melodic bass. Spreading my emotions within its words I say to him. “Did you even need to ask?” His eyes reveal an uncertainty he still holds of my answer. “Listen to my answer for it will never change Alejandro Maisonet Acosta. And it is from the soul of two mates not only one.” My hand move from his cupped chin, to open fingers gliding softly across his cheek to cup him. My other hand performs an identical act on his other cheek. Staring into his eyes, I see a transformation from uncertainty to peace as I confess what he has made his.

  “Alejandro not that long ago ,There was a time when I enjoyed doing everything without caring about others . There was a time when I thought the mate bond would not fit my life. I thought I would hurt my mate with my promiscuous ways so I thought it best not to have one. Then one night fourteen years ago I had a dream. Within my dream, for the first time, I felt my own happiness. But it was a happiness that filled me. Yet it was not emotions of my doing. It was from who I saw Alejandro. For it was for they my emotions stirred.”

  Reubens voice becomes softer than I have heard in the past three days recounting his dream. A subtle tone giving me insight. Pulled by Reuben’s enrapturing emerald gaze, I listen “In my dream, I was staring down from this very ridge to the opposite bank to what I saw. What held me in his gaze.” Turning his head, disconnecting our gaze. Reuben looks to the opposite bank as he continues describing it all “A white and black dappled wulf.” suddenly, a gradual transformation take place in my lovers gaze on me while we remain visually connected.

  Reuben’s eyes grow darker green surrounding his pupil. Yet, blend with his light green as his pupil iluminates em. His arms lower their position around me to rest just above my butt. His tone becomes deeper, sultry. Weakening me from within as he continues “He was. NO HE IS the most magnificent wulf I laid eyes on. His coat, lustrous, soft showing ripples of electricity coursing along his follicles. Reflected all the life it held. His pelt under the swaying shadows of the daylight glistened. His muzzle is white and black also dapples his whole body. His ears perked attentive in my direction, were dyed the color of midnight sky.”

  For a moment, I an exhilaration flood me coming from the will of another as Reuben continues describing his dream wulf “His legs were snow white yet his paws were not. Theirs was a rich opal which matched his ears and tail. His body coat was a white as the snow freshly fallen. His platinum eyes rested in thick, rich fur as he gazed up to hold me within me. They held a fire in them which melted my being. This wulf in my dream is my happiness and I knew that in my dream. From then on, I sought this wulf. I knew without needing proof. THEY. were my mate. The only one to whom I would devote my life to.”

  Reuben gaze shifts for a moment away from me. Out to vastness of the lake and its sparkling shimmers which danced, reflecting the starlight “The dream changed me Alejandro. It was this wulf I desired. I stopped being a gigolo, fantasizing about only you. The mate I didn’t know. I wondered what you felt like, how you smelled. When I traveled in search of you. I thought of The times we would spend together. Of you sitting beside me on my travels. The night of passion we would have. The companion, mate, friend and love I yearned to feel. For a long time I would watch other wulves with their mates and began to desire what it felt like to be with my destined mate. Over time, not finding you. I became jealous of them for having what I wanted. What I felt I had a right to have on my terms.Then just when I was about to give up and make the biggest mistake of my life.” Looking to Alejandro “Then you came” Pulling Alejandro close into me, I rest my chin on his head. “So to answer your question, I already have and always will with all my heart love only you. As…you.. are“ Press my forehead to his “MY mulatto (chocolate) now come on let’s go to bed.”

  Reuben takes my hand into his, gently guiding me towards the pack Cabin. Just before entering he stops and sweeps me up into both arms bridal style. I stiffen feeling weird “pa, what are you doing?”He gives me a cheesy grin “For the one I love, YOU. I will always do what I need, to show I am here even if I have to carry you for the rest of my life.”There is absolute tranquility coursing throughout my whole being By the time Reuben is done. I smirk, my voice goes higher with squinting eyes “aww cute,” then it drops, becoming deep and serious when I stare straight at him “now put me down because I AM NOT THAT GAY. SERIOUSLY REUBEN.”

  But Reuben does not, instead turns the knob on the cabin door heading inside. I protest as now, everyone sees us especially Randall who goes on the sass attack immediately “AWWWWW IGHT GURL GETTIN SWEPT OFF HER FEET!!! WHERE IS MY CAMERA!!! DIS SHIT IS PRICEEEELESSS! I NEED A DAMN CAMERA!! Da latina swan all UP IN DA AIR!!! GURL CAMERA! Ohhhh, WAIT WAIT TiL I SHOW MAMA ALPHA!!!! WITCH HAZEL GURL A CA-ME=RA=!! Ya KNO! L-A C-A-M-A-RA, EL CLICKY CLICKY BOX!!”Carmen laughs hysterical at his verbal jabs and so does everyone joins in.

  Looking from my psychotic brother, his arms flailing in the air rushing frantically checking the draws looking for a camera to the family of my mate. I see my answer I was right. I only thought I was lone. Because I never was. Reuben continues holding me cradled in his arms off the floor, refusing to put me down. Saying “Beta HURRY UP! Your brother is not light.” Everyone begins laughing as Randall finally realizes, saying “AWW SHIT !OF COURSE!!” that his cell phone has a camera feature. Screaming “ALPHA I GOT HOLD HIM!!!” to the sound of Click, click, click, click, non stop. R
euben, not setting me down as I squirm to be free spins me in his arms, causing me to turn red from embarrassment and wrap my arms around his thick neck burying my face in it. But I feel my answer, I will never feel alone. Again.

  A HOME

  The next morning when I woke up, it was about 11:00 am. Carefully sliding out of bed so as not to wake Alejandro, I head to the bathroom. After showering I towel off and put on some sweats. Coming back out, I softly kiss my angel on his cheek, head to the bedroom door and silently close the door behind me. ead to the kitchen. I left my Alejandro, Sleeping. He has gone through so much these past few days and years. He deserves a good night's sleep. Although I fought my desire to crawl back into bed beside him. I also felt my raging hard-on and realized, I MIGHT RAPE HIM!! Breakfast was already cooked when I got to the kitchen. I see my parents having coffee with a nervous looking Robert. I join them preparing a cup of coffee and sitting at the table with them. A few of the pack members had gone hunting.

  “Good morning Alpha” Robert takes a sip of his coffee.

  “Hey Robert, good morning how did you sleep?”

  His eyes shift nervously “well Alpha thank you”

  The shuffling of feet coming from where I just came from causes myself and everyone to look. I see Alejandro coming down the hall with Bella walking beside him. I tell him “Couldn’t sleep?” I smile at his cranky response “Not anymore, you weren’t there.” Alejandro turns to everyone “Good Morning all. Hey, Robert, nice to see you again”

  He smiles at Robert then leans to give me a morning peck kiss. Softly, Alejandro has me change from my previous Elbow on table leaning position. To sit upright in my seat goes to sit on my lap saying “please can I have some coffee.” asking my mother who was making breakfast. Without looking back, mulato nudges me saying “Stop he is not doing anything.” How he knew I was staring leering my gaze at Robert I don't know. But he did and I do.

  Taking a step back reassures Alpha who was staring at me a little jealous of how I met eyes with Luna Alejandro. Must be a mate thing. Still, I nervously smile at Luna “Good Morning Luna”. Moving my gaze away. After a sip of coffee, Luna Alejandro asks me “have you decided yet?”

  “Yes, Luna. I will do it as soon as we get back to the pack house.” Robert suddenly freezes and scents the air and becomes immediately anxious. A second later he grabs his coffee and his homemade tostada (toasted buttered bread) gives a brief tense “I am sorry please excuse me” reaches for the door and steps outside. We hear something breaking outside, and from the kitchen window, see a wulf leaping across the river bank and disappear into the brush. He left as if fire was in his ass. Then we see why. Randall walks in “Can I have some coffee please?”

  Dona Rosa begins serving everyone. While doing so, she begins speaking with us. “um, mijo. I had a conversation with your father. Your father and I would like to stay here with your brother, his mate and the pack. We think it would be too much for them to leave and go to a territory that would be new and strange to them. Especially with Clementina due any day now. We think it would be best for her to give birth here, after all, this is the only home they have ever known.”

  Don Yonell interrupts “The soon to be GRANDMOTHER, decided NOT ME. She wants to be here when the cubs are born” Don Yonell places the side of his mouth saying “My son your in trouble” chuckling. Reuben grins to his mother saying “I think that’s a great idea Mima. As a matter of fact I wanted to discuss something with Luna with all of you present.” Placing his arms around my waist, turning me to him. I look directly into Reuben’s alluring Emerald eyes.

  “I know this feels like home to you mulatto. I see you’re happy here. I also spoke with my mother in law last night about it. She agreed and gave us her blessings. So, I was wondering....... if you would LIKE.…...... to make this OUR territory PERMANENTLY.” A two-second sudden shocked expression. Alejandro jaw gapes open with surprise followed with “Are you serious? but our packs? what will they think? I mean YES!!” cupping my face in his hands Alejandro kisses me hard.

  Reuben tells me this and I squeeze the hell out of him as he chuckles. Still, within my neck hug, Reuben says to me “I take that as a yes then?” I nod. We hear the whole pack HOWL inside joined by those outside. I jump surprised turning to the entranceway of the kitchen. Tito, Alina, Carmen, Randall, and other pack members came and were standing in the kitchen“Thank you, Luna,” Tito says with a bow of his head joined by everyone else. “Thank you, my Luna,” says a grinning Alina. I look to see Bella’s head turned away, tail wagging furiously, ears dropping. I look back at Reuben nodding “yea, she was telling everyone.” Grinning drinking some of my coffee, eyes reflecting happiness.

  Randall walks to us saying leaning to hug us “AWW DAM, I guess I'm gonna have ta get used to pink dick WHITE BOYS!” Carmen, walking behind him, hits him behind the head “OUCH Beyotch. Ya I am beta now. You can’t be hittin on me like ya got dis.” then cringes, covering his head from a possible second hit. Randall clears his throat correcting himself saying “Yes my Luna” winking with a big smile. Sending me a private wulf speak “Pink Dick Gurl ! Pink Dick! Like da pink glow sticks. Bright Light gurl! Pink glow gurl. POKE IN DA DARK MAMA!”

  Then straightens and with a slight turn, addresses Dona Rosa and Don Yonell " I am sorry I was disrespectful mama Alpha raised me better.” Staring to Carmen who grins nodding. For a moment, Carmen glances out the windows asking “And Robert? I could have sworn I heard his voice.” Turning her oddly fixated gaze from the window to us. Bella now draws all out attention as she speaks

  “Your happiness is all that matters to me,” says a tail wagging Bella. Oddly, she was not looking to us. She remained staring at the door where Robert had only seconds before left through. There was pain in her eyes I have never seen before. Combing with a slight rise and fall in her chest almost… a whine?. Before I can ask Bella, Dona Rosa comes around the table to me and gives me a kiss hugging me. Her eyes shift to Reuben as her last words are expressed with strong pride. “Thank you both Alpha and......” Eyes containing pride look at me. Her next words said with complete devotion and gratitude “You have grown to be a fine wulf in deed.” her head bowing “MY.. LUNA”. That was an odd comment? Did I know her also before my amnesia?

  I quickly dismiss it hearing the pride in her last statement. Striking both a mixture of happiness and sadness within me. I am not whole. Not by werewulf standards anyway. Yet, they are placing their loyalty & faith in me without question. Yet, I still don’t know who I am. I realize, I need Sable back. But not for me, for them, my family my pack. He is their protector, their leader and I am only half. That is not enough. With a squeeze, Reuben brings me out of my thoughts “Are you happy Mulato?” his smile merging with his question. I respond “I have the best mate in the world. There is nothing for me NOT to be happy about.” and neck hug him once more.

  Yet, Carmen & Randall, who were about to pour their coffee. Stop, looking to me. Their gaze shifts again immediately to my future inlaws who saw the abrupt behavior change. Then return to pouring their coffee. Meanwhile, my in-laws own gaze looked to Bella with sympathy. Then as everyone prepares a blanket on the floor and plastic plates (it's all we had) Dona Rosa scooped up Bella and went with her outside.

  From outside I hear Bella howl and whine. Drawing the attention of everyone. LIke a bullet fired, I bolt to her “BELLA!” she sits on Rosa’s lap, who got to her before me crying. I run to her “WHAT’S WRONG BELLS? WHAT HAPPEN?” Bella looks to Carmen, then to Dona Rosa and Yonell. Then she looks at me. For a moment she says nothing. Then does “I lost my cub and mate tragically Luna. Seeing Robert, his eyes remind me of my only cub. He had the same eyes.

  My heart breaks for Bells “oh bells I am so sorry. I did not know.” I pick up her small frame, bringing her to my chest kissing her head. Her small wulf spoken voice, sounding even more distant “It is ok Alejandro. But when all is done. May I spend time with Robert?” unknown to me, her question brought a whip of head turns from th
e three eldest wulves, causing Reuben and Randall to notice. While I cuddled my little friend, kissing her head “Of course Bells.”

  Shortly after, We all sit at brunch. During brunch, Reuben calls Thom filling him in. Thom is excited saying “Actually I loved it there ALPHA!” Then Reuben instructs him to call the packs real estate lawyers to begin the paperwork. After hanging up the phone, Reuben returns and tells me he wants to show me how to phase. I accept noticing Alina and Tito who overheard my mates intention, walk off to talk. From the distance they had gone, I know they didn’t want to talk in front of us, so I do not ‘wulf ear’ drop. Instead, I let it go as Reuben takes my hand in his and leads us outside. Walking towards the door, Reuben talks to me“Mulato, do you remember how I helped Tito phase to human form yesterday?”

  “Yes. About that. How did the pack also know how to shift?”

  “Alpha’s, Luna’s and Beta as leaders have powerful wulf speaks as well as capable of projecting images. As alpha of that pack, Tito projected my images to those of his pack.”