Feel My Love: The Damaged Series - Book Two

by Shayne McClendon

  He didn’t feel average when she looked at him.

  The charm bracelet sparkled in the early morning sunlight, filled with many more charms than the night he gave it to her. Every special occasion, he bought another charm.

  For two years, Leo’s mother had made sure Amelia traveled when their family did. It didn’t take much to convince Augusta. When they returned from the first vacation to Madrid, Sarabeth presented Amelia with one of her tiaras.

  She even invented a ceremony.

  Named official consort to the heir, Amelia played along with anything as long as it meant she could take breaks from the strange life Augusta built for her and spend time with Leo.

  They’d toured Spain, the United Kingdom, and Canada with the lovely Amelia Whitehall as part of their family.

  As soon as they graduated, Leo was taking his girlfriend to Jamaica on a trip he’d been planning for months. It would be just the two of them for three weeks. There wasn’t going to be a damn thing Augusta could say about it since both of them were eighteen and almost done with high school.

  They were crazed for one another.

  Unable to think if they were within touching distance, it was getting harder to deal with a need that never eased. They’d spent two years making out.

  There had been so much heavy petting that Leo knew Amelia’s body as if they’d fully consummated their relationship and she could say the same.

  He could make her come within twenty seconds if he stroked her a certain way with the tip of his finger. She knew the exact length and width of Leo’s cock and exactly how much of it she could take in her mouth.

  At eighteen, they were tired of waiting, exhausted with being on everyone else’s schedule, and ready to move on to more freedom in adulthood.

  Leo worked out constantly to relieve the tension that rode him.

  Pulling through a drive-thru, he ordered them breakfast sandwiches and two bottles of juice for later. She put the bag on the backseat beside his book bag.

  Instead of driving the rest of the way to their school, he pulled into a parking space in front of an office building that was still pretty empty.

  “I need to kiss you, Amelia. I can’t wait another minute.”

  Without waiting for him to put the car in park or detach his seatbelt, she had hers off and moved over the console to straddle his lap. When her ass hit the horn, they both laughed and he backed up his seat.

  “I’ve missed you, Leo. More than you understand.”

  Her kisses were aggressive, passionate. She ground her center along his cock and they panted in the quiet. He lifted his hips against her, helping as she rode him for her pleasure. Hands under her t-shirt, he pulled her bra down to play with her nipples.

  She clutched the back of his head in one hand as the other moved to unbutton his jeans. He clenched his teeth against the excruciating joy of her touch.

  “I can’t wait anymore, Leo. I need you so badly.” Then she collapsed against his chest, sobbing brokenly.

  She trembled violently in his arms and he struggled to settle his thoughts, to get his breathing under control, so he could comfort her in the way she really needed.

  “Ssh. Everything is okay, Amelia. Lay here and let me hold you. Deep breaths...like that. You’re safe. You’re with me and you’re always safe with me.”

  Amelia cried for several minutes while he held her, rubbed her back, and murmured soothing words. Slowly, she calmed and he wondered at the frequency of what he believed were panic attacks that had become a regular fixture in her life.

  Tightening his arms, he kissed her hair. “I love you.”

  “I love you, Leo,” she whispered against his neck. “More than anything else in the world. I want to be with you. We’ve waited long enough.”

  Coherent thought was difficult but Leo did his best: for Amelia. “I know. I ache for you. I dream about burying myself inside you. It won’t be much longer…”

  Sitting up, she stared into his eyes. “Everyone we know has been having sex since sophomore year.”

  True enough.

  “Our situation is different, Amelia.” He inhaled slowly and chose his words with care. “One day before you were eighteen and your mother probably would have had me arrested.”

  “I’m eighteen now…”

  “You still live in her house, Amelia. She makes your life difficult and I refuse to add to that. No matter how much I physically hurt wanting you.”

  Reaching up, she stroked her fingers through his hair. “I know how your mind works, Leo. You found a place, planned something just in case we couldn’t wait anymore. You would have wanted somewhere safe, classy.” Her eyes held his. “Right?”

  Hoarsely, he answered, “A cabin on the lake…”

  “You were eighteen two months before me so you would have made sure they rented to people our age. You probably drove there, checked the place out, introduced yourself. You’d never take me somewhere that didn’t pass your inspection.”

  “An older couple owns a few acres along the lake. There are ten cabins scattered far enough apart for privacy. They’re clean and well-stocked.” She waited, staring at him in silence. Swallowing hard, he said softly, “I can take you there.”

  “Right now, Leo.”

  Cupping her face, he told her seriously, “Amelia...there’ll be massive fallout. Are you prepared for it? It won’t be like the times we’ve missed curfew or when we went hiking and you sprained your ankle.”

  “I know.”

  “She seems to think you’re going to be a virgin princess supermodel or some shit. That narrative is very loud and obvious in her brain.” He frowned. “My lineage is enough to date you. One of the brown people she hates is never supposed to make love to you. I don’t know what she thinks is going to happen in the future but I can promise that she’ll make the last few weeks of school a nightmare for you. I can wait, Amelia. It’s not much longer until you can leave and never look back if that’s what you want.”

  “I don’t care about her. Take me there.” Wiping the tears from her cheeks, she whispered, “I can deal with anything that happens after. Please?”

  He nodded and helped her into the passenger seat. She fixed her clothing and buckled her seatbelt while he did the same. He got on the highway, driving the opposite direction of their school. There would be consequences for his decision from his own parents for the decision he was making. He’d gladly pay them.

  But not now.

  It was the last few weeks of senior year. He’d tutored Amelia every year to help her stay caught up when her mother pulled her out of classes more and more frequently.

  Leo could have graduated two years early but chose to take college courses in tandem to stay with Amelia. He’d have his bachelor’s within months of getting his high school diploma. He was their class valedictorian and student body president.

  None of it really mattered to him. Leo did well because it came easily to him and he had no excuse not to excel. It was credits and accolades and paper.

  Amelia was the reason he got up every morning.

  Chapter Six

  Leo drove thirty miles from their little suburb to the cabins he’d found when scouting for the perfect place to take Amelia should their need overwhelm their reason.

  Walking into the small office, he greeted the husband and wife he’d met twice before. They cheerfully checked him in and Leo returned to his SUV with the key three minutes later.

  Turning in his seat, he held her gaze intently. “Are you sure, Amelia? I won’t be upset if you ask me to turn back. I love you with my whole heart. That won’t change no matter how long we wait.”

  Leaning across the console, she stroked his face with her palm. “I need you. I don’t want to turn back.”

  Nodding, he drove through the maze of small roads until he came to the cabin he’d rented for the night.

  After Leo parked, she waited as he’d taught her and he came around to open her door. He held out his hand to help her out and sh
e put hers in it with a smile.

  “That never gets old, Leo. You’re such a gentleman.”

  He smiled and pulled her to him for a deep kiss before closing the door and taking her hand.

  “It’s beautiful here, Leo.”

  He’d made sure of it. He had no intentions of taking his Amelia to some seedy dive. Her first time had to be perfect.

  “I knew you’d like it. This cabin is the furthest from the others and has a perfect view of the lake.” He nudged her shoulder with his. “It has a huge tub.”

  Grinning, she gave a mock squeal. “Fancy.”

  Laughing, they walked up the porch steps and he unlocked the door. He held it so she could enter first.

  It was a huge single room with floor-to-ceiling windows that looked out on the lake and surrounding forest. The special tint made it impossible to see inside from outside but didn’t obscure the view.

  A huge bed stood in one corner, a large fireplace in another, with the modern kitchen and living room in the middle. The bathroom was updated and bright.

  When he’d closed and locked the front door, Amelia turned to him. Reaching down, she pulled off her heeled boots and socks. Standing barefoot on the soft carpet, she pulled her t-shirt over her head.

  Leo zoned out on the vision of her getting undressed but managed to shake himself out of it. By the time he had everything off but his jeans and boxers, she stood before him in her bra and panties.

  He opened his arms and she ran into them.

  “Let me soak up your heat, your strength, your love. I missed you and I need you, Leo. I’ll never need anything like I need you to touch me right now.”

  He held her close and figured she could feel him shaking. Her hands went to his belt and she took her time separating the two halves.

  Glancing up at him, she whispered, “I’ve dreamed of doing this.” The back of her knuckles brushed the skin of his abdomen as she moved to the button and he sucked air through his teeth. She leaned forward and kissed the center of his chest. “I dream about you all the time.”

  She ran one hand into the waist of his pants, widening the opening as she ran the other over his chest and abs.

  “I dream about you, Amelia. Almost every night.”

  “You’ve told me some of them...scandalous.” Chuckling, she gently worked the denim over his hips and down his legs. He stepped out of them. “You grew from a kind, gangly young man into someone who makes my mouth water.”

  In his boxer briefs, he slowly removed her beige lace bra and panties. When he straightened, he let his gaze move over her from head to toe.

  He found himself speechless.

  She blushed brightly as she raised her hands to cover her breasts. “You’ve seen my body before, Leo. Why are you staring?”

  Leo took her hands and held them away from her body. Meeting her gaze, he shook his head. “I’ve only seen parts of your body. I’ve never seen all of you at once, Amelia. I want to sear this moment in my mind. The first time I’m seeing every inch of you in all your grace and beauty.” Gathering her close, he whispered, “I’m moved and honored and...a little afraid because I want you so much it’s like a fever.”

  In answer, Amelia went up on tiptoe to pull him down for a kiss. The feel of her naked breasts against his skin was like nothing Leo had imagined. His hands stroked her, memorized her. Sliding her hands down his back, she gripped his ass and pulled him to her.

  “You won’t hurt me. You couldn’t possibly. You’ve been working to stretch me for months. I know you’re worried about me but I’ll be fine, Leo. Make love to me. I’m desperate for you.”

  She pushed at his boxers and watched his cock jut from his body. He was painfully hard.

  Wrapping her fingers around his length, he immediately removed her hand. “I can’t swear to my control right now. I’m not going to ruin our first time.”

  She smiled brightly. “You couldn’t.”

  Then she dropped to her knees and took him to the back of her throat. He couldn’t hold back a small yell in response. Sucking him firmly a few times, she sat back on her heels. Looking up into his face, she removed his boxer briefs and confessed, “I’ve always wanted you naked while I did this. Let me enjoy every moment without worrying about lights pulling up behind us.”

  Circling her fist around the base, she took him back in her mouth. His head fell back on his shoulders as he focused on getting several deep breaths, determined not to shame himself.

  Leo had carefully learned and retained what Amelia needed for optimal pleasure. She’d done the same for him.

  She sucked him for a long time, stopped him from coming, and built him back up again as he watched her from above.

  He kept his body locked to keep from falling.

  Her eyes lifted to his and he watched the golden brown darken with her passion.

  “Amelia, you look so beautiful. I want to please you, not take from you. This isn’t my time…”

  Releasing him from the liquid heat of her mouth, she stroked him as she replied, “This is our time, Leo. As much as you ache to please me, I ache to please you. I want to make you come, to drink you down, and feed my body with yours. Give that to me, Leo.”

  She took him harder, deeper, scraping her teeth lightly on the underside as she withdrew. Swirling her wicked tongue over him, she kept her eyes on his. Leo watched her squeeze her thighs together, trying to get pressure where she wanted it. Her hand moved over him, reached around to grip his ass, massaged the tops of his thighs, and kneaded his balls. The other stroked the portion of his cock she couldn’t take.

  When she closed her eyes in her own bliss, the climax hit him so hard he was almost unable to warn her. “I’m coming. Yes, god yes, that feels incredible. Take what you want, Amelia. All I have, all I am is for you.”

  Leo worried his legs would buckle.

  Amelia grabbed his thighs in her hands, adding her strength as she accepted Leo’s release and swallowed with soft sounds of happiness that he’d given it to her.

  When she’d sucked him dry, she licked and kissed along the length of his cock. He needed a moment to let his body settle back to earth. She rested her face against his leg and he raked his fingers through her hair.

  When he could breathe, when he knew he had some strength back, he dropped into a crouch in front of her.

  “It’s your turn, Amelia.”

  She smiled. “You’re never selfish...but it’s okay to be sometimes, Leo.”

  Shaking his head slowly, he answered, “My pleasure is heightened by yours. Nothing feels better than giving to you. Not just sexually. It feels good to provide anything you need because I love you.”

  Amelia reached out and stroked his cheek with her fingers. “There’s no one else like you, Leo.” He could hear tears in her voice and wondered at them.

  * * *

  Looking into Leo’s dark blue eyes, Amelia remembered when she thought they were black. Until the first time she kissed him at her party, she’d been too shy to look directly into them.

  Now, she could barely stand to look away.

  Everyone would always think they were black but Amelia knew everything about him...and loved all the pieces that made up the most unique human being she’d ever met.

  He was tall, lean, and sculpted from hours of working out to keep from losing control around her. His lips were full, his lashes long, his hair a rich brown-black. His fingers were long and strong but his handwriting was delicate and beautiful. He was the smartest person she knew - including teachers - but he loved watching Disney movies with her.

  Leo had never failed her. He’d always backed her up, doing everything within his power to protect her. Yet, he was terrified of horror movies and strangely susceptible to bad dreams after hearing ghost stories.

  He was the only boy she had ever met who knew classical dance. While their fellow teenagers grinded on each other, Amelia and Leo danced the night away as if they were an older married couple.

  While the roya
lty stuff was real, she wasn’t and would never be a princess. It was a ruse to force her mother into giving Amelia some much-needed freedom.

  They were only eighteen but it had always felt like they’d known each other for many lifetimes. Her soul knew Leo, recognized him, and longed to be near him.

  He fed her body, her mind, and her heart.

  “I love you, Leo. You calm my spirit.”

  Holding her skull, he kissed her gently. Pulling back, he rested his forehead against hers. “Let me show you how much I love you, Amelia.”

  She nodded and he gathered her against him, lifted her easily, and carried her to the bed. Watching the expression on his face as he positioned her in the center of the bed and pulled her hair from under her, Amelia’s heart ached with emotion.

  Leo crawled up to lay beside her, settling in to kiss and pet her for a long time. Touching her made him happy.

  She knew how lucky that made her.

  He sealed himself to her side and moved slowly so she could get accustomed to the feel of his naked skin against her. No matter how much they’d caressed one another, how well they knew one another, they were virgins.

  That he wanted everything to be exactly right moved her.

  Holding her gaze, he stroked over her clit. It was something he’d done a hundred times. It was a familiar touch and one that made her breathless. He bent to take a pebbled nipple in his mouth and his fingers moved over her in exactly the right rhythm. It didn’t take long for her to come.

  Leo held her against him as she whispered his name.

  Against her hair, he told her, “It’s spectacular to watch you come fully naked.” As the climax gradually faded, he lifted to support his head on his hand. Frowning, he traced her collarbone. “Did they make you lose weight again?”

  Unable to stop them, tears slipped from the corners of her eyes. “Twelve pounds.”

  He said through gritted teeth, “You’re not overweight. What they’re doing isn’t good for you and it isn’t safe. It scares me after the struggle you went through last year.”