Enshrine

by Chelle Bliss

  behind us. “What’s wrong with you? I’ve never seen you like this. There’s no excuse for your behavior. You can at least pick up the phone and let me know you’re alive. Jesus Christ. I’ve been in a panic. I thought you were dead.”

  “I will be,” I whisper with my head tucked under Bruno’s chin. He stops walking and glances down at me, but I can’t meet his eyes.

  “You’re soooo fucking dramatic all the time, Cal. You’re not dying. Stop the bullshit. My heart can’t take much more.”

  Bruno’s eyes narrow into small slits and hone in on my gaze. I’d cry if I had any liquid left in my body to spare, but I can’t remember the last time I had a sip of anything. I close my eyes again, unable to take the look on his face. It’s too much for me to bear. “I’m dying, Bec.”

  She doesn’t respond, but her body stiffens. Rebecca sits next to me on the couch after Bruno places me gently at one end.

  “Kid,” Bruno says sweetly, touching my chin and forcing my face to meet his. I can’t look.

  “I want you two to leave.”

  “No.” Rebecca moves closer, pity and fear all over her face, and takes my hands in hers.

  “Please,” I whisper, wishing I could crawl away and out of the reach of their gaze.

  “Callie, baby.” Bruno catches me off guard, and I peer up at him, his fingers still under my chin. “Are you thirsty?” he asks. He tilts his head slightly and a look of concern replaces the pity I saw moments ago. “Your lips are chapped.” The soft pad of his thumb brushes against my sore flesh, and my lips part out of instinct.

  “Jesus. I go on vacation for three days and you fall to shit.” Rebecca sounds like a bitch, but I know it’s only out of fear. I’d probably say the same shit to her if I didn’t know what the hell was going on.

  “Just let me die.”

  “Stop saying that shit.” Rebecca turns to face Bruno. “Grab her some water while I talk some sense into her.” She orders him around so nonchalantly, my mouth falls open.

  His eyes narrow slightly, but he nods and stalks off into the kitchen. I watch him open the cabinets, searching for a glass, and find him a lot more entertaining than the blank television. Rebecca continues to talk, but I tune her out and ogle him.

  Rebecca and I first met Bruno while we were in college. He was the resident bad boy in the neighborhood. Every club he walked into, people knew him by name. Not because he was such a great guy either, but because they feared him.

  I’d seen a grown man literally shake when Bruno yelled at him. Most of it was probably because of his size, but it was definitely because of his eyes. He’d give the Hulk a run for his money being tall, thick, and covered with muscles. He truly is the sexiest scary man I know.

  His size isn’t just what scares the shit out of everyone. Bruno has a way about him. Something that follows him everywhere he goes. There’s darkness to him. You know the type. They’re easy to spot a mile away. When someone like him walks down the street, heading straight for you, you cross the street just to avoid him.

  That’s Bruno.

  Rebecca yells at me like a child, and I ignore her as if I were one. Bruno brings me a glass of ice water and holds it out in front of me. I smile up at him before I grab the glass, feeling the thirst I’d ignored finally taking hold.

  He watches as I gulp down the entire glass, letting the water dribble down my chin without bothering to worry. Bruno sits on the armrest and his eyes bore into me, though I look everywhere but directly at him. His stare is unnerving.

  “Callie, are you listening to me?” Rebecca’s voice is starting to sound like fingernails on a chalkboard.

  “Rebecca.” Bruno turns his attention to her along with his unnerving stare. “Just shut the fuck up for two seconds.”

  “Well, I—”

  “Let the girl speak.” His eyes dart back to me, pinning me to the spot, and I swallow, instantly feeling parched again.

  I turn the glass in my hands and focus on the small beads of water trickling down my hands. “What day is it?” I ask softly and wince because I know I am about to get my ass chewed out.

  “Friday.” I can’t quite explain the look in his eyes. “What day did you think it was?”

  “I don’t know.” I shrug and glance at the ceiling.

  When I finish drinking, Bruno takes the glass from me and sets it on the coffee table. “What happened to you?”

  “I have—” I start hyperventilating. I haven’t spoken the words to anyone besides the doctor until now. “I have—” My lips start to tremble.

  “Shh. Shh,” he whispers and touches my cheek. Bruno kneels and takes my face in his hands. “Everything will be okay. Just tell me what happened.”

  I suck my lip between my teeth, chewing on it so I don’t mouth off. Saying the words makes it even more real, and I know nothing will be okay. We stare at each other, me chewing, him brooding, as he waits for me to reply, but I don’t.

  His thumb gently pulls my lip free. “Come on, Callie. Did someone do something to you? Just say the word and I’ll take care of them,” he says in a strong, comforting tone. Yet it’s also completely scary.

  I shake my head.

  “Did you hurt someone?”

  I shake it again.

  He doesn’t speak; he just studies me, and I do everything in my power not to squirm. I can take Rebecca’s voice, I can even take the constant questions, but I can’t handle the look in his eyes and the way I feel like he can see into my soul.

  “I have cancer,” I confess so softly I barely hear myself. His eyes flash, growing wide for a second before he hides his emotions behind the darkness.

  “What?” Rebecca hops up from her spot on the couch frantically. “You’re not funny.”

  “Shut up, Rebecca.” Bruno jumps up, getting in her face, and she jerks backward. “You’re not fucking helping shit.”

  “She needs to stop playing around. I love the shit out of her, but I can’t lose her.”

  “I’m not,” I argue, glancing up at the two of them standing nose-to-nose and fearing for Bec. “I have cancer.”

  I said the words. I can no longer deny it.

  “Callie,” Rebecca yelps, crumpling on the floor in front of me and resting her head in my lap. I tangle my fingers into her hair, staring up at Bruno for help. Not from the cancer, but from Rebecca. The mourning, the thing I didn’t want to see, is all over her face.

  “Cal,” she whispers. “Talk to me.” But I don’t have anything to say.

  “Rebecca.” Bruno lifts her off the floor by her shoulders, giving me room to breathe. “Callie looks like she could use something to eat. Give her a minute and get something for her.”

  “Bruno,” she snarls. He whispers something in her ear, and she walks away slowly, not looking back.

  If I weren’t dealing with the fact that I had the dreaded C-word, I would’ve laughed at the way he dismissed her. Rebecca has never been quiet nor is she easily ordered around, but he handles her like a pro.

  “I’m not hungry,” I mumble and watch Rebecca as she searches the cabinets.

  He kneels down again and places my hands in his. “Callie, I can’t begin to imagine what you’re going through, but you need to eat. You need a shower too.” He whistles with a smile.

  One corner of my mouth twitches, but it isn’t enough to make me smile. Bruno looks good smiling. Who knew? It may be the first time I’ve actually seen him do it. “I’m sorry,” I tell him because I know I must smell less than pretty.

  “How long have you been sitting here, Cal?”

  “I don’t know. Tuesday…maybe.” I wince and ready myself for the scolding I think I have coming.

  “Jesus,” he mutters before scooping me up into his arms. “It’s shower time, sweetheart.”

  “No,” I groan and kick my legs. “Put me down.”

  “Sorry, kid, but you need to shower if we’re going to stay in this apartment. You can’t smell yourself, but the rest of us can.”

  “Bruno.
” I clear my throat, trying to find my voice. “Put me the fuck down.”

  He laughs, holding me tighter, and heads toward my bathroom as if I didn’t say a word.

  “I’ll scream,” I warn before I twist my body, trying to break free. But he’s too damn strong and my struggling is futile.

  “Don’t worry. I won’t stay in there with you. What kind of man do you think I am?” He looks down and laughs.

  Oh, God.

  “I don’t really know you at all.” What in the world was Rebecca thinking when she called him? I mean, fuck, call the cops to come here, not Bruno “The Butcher.”

  His smile fades and the laughter vanishes. “I’m a complete gentleman.”

  “Then put me down,” I demand, wiggling a little harder in his arms until he sets me down on the toilet.

  I wring my hands together in my lap, trying to figure out if I should run. There is no way I’d get naked in front of him. No fucking way at all.

  “You need help.” He places his hand under the tub faucet and tests the water with his back to me. “Rebecca will come in here and help you in the bathtub, but I’ll be here when you get out.” He glances at me.

  “I can do it.”

  “Listen. You need help right now. You take a bath, and then you’ll come out and eat, and we’ll talk.”

  “Bruno,” I whisper, wanting him to look at me.

  He turns and looks down at me. “Yeah?”

  “I appreciate your help, Rebecca too, but I really just want to be alone.”

  He shakes his head and walks out without saying a word. The man has never been one for words.

  Moments later, I try to raise to my feet but my knees shake so badly I collapse. Just then, Rebecca appears. “Cal,” she says, closing the door behind her. “Let’s get those clothes off you.”

  I’m not worried about Rebecca seeing me naked. I’ve changed my clothes and swimsuit enough times in front of her that she’s seen every bit of me. “Rebecca. What the hell were you thinking?”

  “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” She grips the bottom of my shirt and starts yanking it over my head.

  “Bruno,” I whisper, trying to keep my voice low enough that he can’t hear, and I glance toward the door. “We don’t even know him. Why would you bring him to my place?”

  She rolls her eyes and scoffs. “Who else do I know who would break in to your apartment and be okay with it?” She pulls me up as if I’m a rag doll and props me against the sink before tugging my pants down my legs.

  “Ever think I wanted to be left alone?” I ask when I step out of my pants.

  “Think I cared?” She holds my clothes as if they have the plague before tossing them near the door. “I was worried, Cal. Bruno was the only one I could call.”

  She holds out her hand and I take it before trying to climb into the tub. When the water hits my skin, I sink down and close my eyes. The heat surrounds me like a blanket, cocooning me in the warmth. I’ve been numb since the moment I woke up in the hospital.

  “Hey, love.” I rest my head on the back of the tub. “Can I have a few minutes alone?”

  “No,” she blurts before sitting down on the floor in front of the tub.

  I want to scream, but I know it would be of no use. Rebecca is more pigheaded than I ever have been. “At least look the other way, please.”

  “Fine.” She turns her back, resting it against the side of the tub and giving me a moment of privacy.

  There’s a long silence, and I know it must be killing her. I run my finger through the water and watch the ripples as they fan out and bounce off the sides of the bathtub.

  “Why didn’t you call me?” she asks with a broken voice. She’s crying; I can hear it in her voice.

  I think about my answer carefully before replying. I’ve already hurt her feelings, but I don’t want to make it worse. “I just needed time to process it, Bec.”

  “But you shouldn’t do it alone.”

  “This isn’t like a breakup. I didn’t want you to know. I needed to deal with it myself.”

  She brings her knees up to her chest, hugging them tightly. “But we’ve always had each other.”

  “Bec, this isn’t about you.” I hear the shittiness in my voice and wince, but what I said is true. I just wanted to be alone. I wasn’t ready for the looks, the sadness, the mourning before I die.

  “If it has to do with you, then it does concern me.”

  I don’t know how to respond. Her feelings will be hurt either way, so I change topics. “Will you help me wash my hair?”

  She turns and gives me a small, sad smile. “I’ll help you with anything.”

  Rebecca goes into mama mode; she assists me with my hair and scrubs my back before I do the rest. After she helps dry me off, she grabs the first clothes she finds in my bedroom. I jump when we walk out of the bedroom and Bruno is resting against the wall. Before I can say another word, he scoops me into his arms and heads for the kitchen. The table’s set, soup in bowls—one for each of us—and glasses of water too.

  “I’m fine now.” I sigh into his chest, and I bury my face against his hardness to take a sniff. My belly growls because of the soup, but my body tingles because of his scent.

  They watch me in uncomfortable silence, waiting for me to eat. I do because I don’t want to hear Rebecca start to pop off at the mouth again. Bruno eats along with me, glancing at me occasionally, but Rebecca glares at him. I can feel her eyes on me from time to time. I know she has a million questions, but I’m not ready to answer them yet.

  “A word,” Bruno growls at Becca and points toward the living room. She glances at me as if she was just called into the principal’s office before heading off to the living room. I don’t move as they whisper, and I can’t make out the words no matter how hard I try.

  The front door opens and closes before heavy footsteps head toward the kitchen. My eyes widen when Bruno returns. “What are you still doing here?”

  “Rebecca had to leave,” he tells me before sitting back down.

  “What?” She wouldn’t just leave me here. Especially not alone with someone I hardly know.

  “I told her you needed space.”

  “But—”

  He places his finger over my mouth, and I glare at him. “I won’t hover. I’m just here in case you need me. Did you want her to stay? ’Cause I’ll leave and let her come back.” He points toward the front door.

  I shake my head. Rebecca talked too much for me to deal with her right now. “No, but I don’t want you to stay either.”

  “If I go, she comes back.”

  I cross my arms in front of my chest and pout. Dammit. I’m an adult. I didn’t need for anyone to treat me like a child. If I want to lock myself away from everyone and everything in the world, it is my prerogative to do so. Who are they to tell me differently?

  I gnaw on my lip, taking out my anger on my chapped skin, and eyeball him. Fisting my hands in my lap, I feel my insides begin to quake as anger grips me.

  “Bruno.”

  “Yeah?”

  “You can go. I’m all better now.” I keep my voice sweet and soft even though I want to scream. Rebecca, I could maybe scare away if I yell loud enough, but I have a feeling Bruno wouldn’t be as easily swayed.

  He places his elbows on the table, touches his hands together, and rests his fingers against his lips. He stares at me. Just fucking stares. Like full-on, the most uncomfortable thing in the world type of gaze.

  I squirm in my seat and want to run away, but I know I don’t have enough strength left in my legs to do it without tripping and landing facedown on the hardwood floor. I look over his shoulder and focus on the clock, diverting my eyes away from him.

  “I’m staying the night.”

  “No!” My eyes shoot to him. “Seriously, I’m fine.”

  He crosses his arms, leans back in the chair, and smirks. “Fine. Walk to your bedroom and I’ll leave.”

  Fucker.