Who is She

by Glina Fastiv

  "Your parents are gonna hate me. I've slept with both of their kids..." I say and laugh nervously. Leah smiles and pulls me to her by my neck. She kisses me once and tells me to drive home.5

  * * *

  Since my little sister is gone for the weekend, Leah and I decide staying at the apartment is the smartest thing to do. She's currently sitting on the couch watching something on TV while I change into pajamas. I put on a grey t-shirt that's super baggy and long on me and a pair of my favorite panties. After what happened with Leah I've been curious. I've never been with a girl, so I've never done the whole shabang. It doesn't seem difficult, but it's different.25

  I walk out to the couch and sit down beside Leah. She pays no attention to me, so I scoot closer and kiss her cheek. I do this a few times and she laughs and puts her hand on my thigh, but she's so focused on this show she doesn't really care what I'm doing.

  I start kissing her neck and it turns into more intense kisses and licks.

  "Okay..." Leah murmurs.

  I giggle and look at her. "Why don't you turn that off?" I say and lean over her lap to grab the remote. When I do this my ass is basically in her face, so she grabs it.

  "Why?" She asks and kneads my ass, giggling."You have other plans for us?"

  "Maybe I just want to talk." I smirk and try sitting back the way I was before. She pushes my head down and slides her hand in between my legs and drags two fingers over me.

  My mouth opens and a moan almost escapes, but I stop it. "Or maybe you want me to fuck you?" She whispers, seductively. +

  I look at her and bite my lip, "that could work too."

  She grins and makes me lay on my back. I'm glad she can take the hint...

  20

  I'm laying on the couch, naked, with a blanket over most of my body. Leah walks back into the room and pulls the blanket away, "LEAH!" I yell.

  She grins and lays down and then pats her chest, wanting me to lay on her. I sigh and do what she wants and she covers me again with the blanket, this time using her hand to scratch my back softly.

  "Who was your first kiss?" She randomly asks me.

  I laugh and close my eyes, thinking about how awful it was. "Oh god. His name was Brian... it was behind the bleachers at a middle school football game." I say, cringing at the memory. She laughs and I slap her shoulder, "don't laugh. Yours couldn't have been any better." I challenge.

  She sighs and starts to tell me her story. "My first girlfriend... her backyard in the middle of the night. I snuck out of the house to go see her." She tells me.

  "But that's sorta cute.." I say.

  She laughs and shrugs, but keeps the questions coming. "Best kiss?"

  "I saw this coming. I'm not just saying this answer because of the obvious reason... I- you kiss me differently than anyone I have ever kissed before. You're so gentle and delicate... boys are just horny and rough.. always." I say and roll my eyes, thinking about the guys I've kissed and how I was basically choked by their tongues. "Have you ever kissed a guy?" I ask her and find her hand and lock my fingers with hers.

  "A few times. Nothing special." She responds.

  "So I take it you've never had sex with a man?" I ask.

  She laughs and stops scratching my back, "never in my life." She tells me, "and I have no plans to do so." Leah giggles and asks me another question. "How many guys have you had sex with?"

  I bite my lip and look at her, "two."

  She makes a face of complete surprise, "that's all?"

  "That's all. My first serious boyfriend and... Danny." I tell her.

  "How many girls have yo- " I poke. She asked me so it's only fair that I get to ask her...

  "Don't ask me that, please." She pleads, shaking her head.

  I look at her lips and then touch her cheek, "why?"

  "It's more than two, I promise." She says and shakes her head. "I used to be pretty stupid, Jennifer. You don't want to hear about all go that." She insists.

  I nod my head, believing what she tells me and then I lay my head on her chest again.

  "Strangest place you've ever had sex?" She asks. I freeze and laugh internally. "Answer!" She says.

  I sit up and bite my lip, fighting my smile. "Oh god..." she says.

  "You really want to know?" Leah nods and waits for me to explain. "I was with Danny at your parents house for a party they had one time... long story short I was feeling it. So Danny and I went upstairs to your parents bathroom and... that's all." I say and her jaw drops.

  "You... are disgusting." She tells me.

  "Oh shut up!!! What's yours?" I ask, smacking her arm.

  She scrunches her face up and closes her eyes, "copy room of a daycare center. Don't ask questions." She says. 6

  "And I'm the bad one?! My god..."

  "Shh. That was a long time ago. Okay, last one." She says.

  I look at her and raise my eyebrows, expecting a serious question. "Who is better in bed? Me or Danny?" She asks.

  I shake my head and look down, "I hate you for asking that." I say and look back up at her.

  "You won't hurt my feelings." She says and holds my waist.

  I slowly kiss her lips and in between kisses I tell her an answer. "No one has ever- made me feel- the way you do- when you touch me." I say. She grins and I feel her hand go in between my legs again.

  "Well hello..." she says and looks at me with raised eyebrows.

  I grin and bite my lip, "it's your fault." I whisper.

  "You're soaked.... like fuc-"

  "shhh, I know. Do something about it." I tell her and sit up, straddling her body.

  She grins at me and two fingers slip into me and move slowly. "Ohh- mm- I-I like that." I moan and she just watches her hand moving in between my thighs.

  "Baby-" I moan and close my eyes and grab my breasts.

  "Tell me." She says, her voice more sexy and seductive than I've ever heard it.

  My body wants her so badly it literally aches. "Give-ahh- me mo-more." I plead with her and she watches her hand as she adds a third finger to me, causing me to moan and flinch.

  "Oh my- fuuuuuuck." I groan and she has me climaxing.

  She removes her hands from my body and I look at her and try to calm my breathing.

  "You're so sexy." She says and I grin slightly and lift my hips up and look down.

  "You're gonna need to new clothes." I say and bite my lip. She got me good... I can't help it.

  "Mmhm." She says and she sits up and pulls her shirt off, leaving her in a black bra.

  "What the hell?" I ask and touch her side. She has a tattoo and I didn't even know about it.

  "Shh. We can talk about that later. Right now I want you on my face. Move." She demands. 5

  I hesitate but she happily helps me along. She lets her tongue go to work once again and has me orgasming very quickly. When I do I unintentionally moan something that I didn't want to moan.

  "Lea-Leahhh." I groan. She looks at me and smiles and I climb off of her. "Shit." I laugh and she stands up and slides her shorts off and throws them to the floor with her shirt.

  "I'm gonna go shower." She says.

  Part of me wants to stop her and make her feel the way I just felt, but I'm scared. I don't have as much courage and confidence as she does. I've never done this!

  She goes into the bathroom and I hear my shower turn on. I decide to just go for it and ask her if we could go slow and stuff. I quickly run down the hallway and push open the bathroom door to stop Leah, but I find her with her hand in between her legs instead. She looks at me and bites her lip.

  "I- I'm sorry." I say and start to close the door and go away.

  What are you doing Jennifer? Just do it already!

  I stop just before the door closes and go back into the bathroom and push her against the wall and kiss her aggressively. Here goes nothing I guess...

  21

  I wake up very suddenly and panicked due to a dream I was having. I sit up and look around my dark room and I see Leah lay
ing beside me, still asleep. I take a few deep breaths and push my hand through my hair. I grab my phone from the table and see several messages.

  Danny:

  I know you don't want to hear this and you won't believe me, but you should. There is a reason I never wanted you near Leah. Stay away from her, Jennifer. All she'll do is hurt you.

  Are you sleeping with her?

  Can we meet tomorrow for breakfast? Coffee?

  I also have a few messages from my sister, but they're not very interesting. I roll my eyes and I read the messages again and look at Leah's sleeping face. I can't see her ever being this horrible person that everyone, even she, claims she used to be. I lock my phone and rub her arm gently.

  "Hm?" She groans and slowly wakes up. I don't say anything, I just get as close to her as I physically can and she puts her arm around me and goes right back to sleep.

  * * *

  "Jennifer." I hear my name being whispered very loudly. I open my eyes and see Leah, fully dressed and ready to leave.

  "What?" I mutter and she smiles softly.

  "I have to meet someone about some work... I'll call you around lunch, okay?" She says. I nod my head and she kisses my forehead. "Thank you for last night." She whispers and then she kisses my lips quickly. Last night... mm. That was great.5

  Once Leah's gone I'm basically awake for the day. I can never get back to sleep once I'm up. I grab my phone and decide (for some stupid reason) to meet Danny for coffee. Once the meet is confirmed with him, I get dressed and head to the coffee shop.

  I walk inside and he's already waiting. He has my coffee waiting for me on the table. I sit down and he smiles, "morning." He says.

  "Hey." I respond dryly. It's quiet for a few minutes, honestly I'm just tired.

  "Why'd you want to meet this time?" I ask him bluntly and he looks at me for a few seconds and I know I'm not going to like it.

  "Jen..."

  "What is it?!" I gripe.

  "Are you sleeping with Leah?" He asks me. 1

  I laugh and drink my coffee, not even looking at him.

  "Answer it." He demands. 1

  "Why are you even asking that? You don't get to demand shit from me, cheater." I hiss. Him even asking me that question is overstepping, in my opinion.

  "I'm asking because it's my sister! It's my business and I have a right to know." He snaps back at me. 5

  I laugh again and this time I look at him, "wait, wait, wait... what the hell gives you a right to know about my sex life? Clearly this isn't about Leah. This is about me because if it was about Leah you'd be asking her." I say. He doesn't say much to that, "and even if it wasn't about me...why is your little sister's sex life any of your concern? You keep tabs on all of your family's sex lives?" He knows I'm right and that's why he doesn't say anything. I'm always right. He knows that.

  "So what? You're right. This is about you. I want to know if my fiancé is sleeping with my little sister. Is that so horrible?" He sighs, leaning back in his chair and allowing his eye to fixate on me.1

  "I'm your ex-fiancé, for starters. And yeah, it's kinda stupid. I can go do whoever and whatever I want, Danny. You cheated on me, remember?"

  "Jen..."

  "Stop saying my name like it's going to do something! Stay out of my life, Danny. We are done. Nothing can be salvaged from our relationship." I growl, getting more and more irritated by the second.

  "I'm just looking out for you!" He insists, which I find incredibly hard to believe.

  "How is asking me extremely personal and invasive questions looking out for me?" I raise my eyebrows and stand up to leave.

  "Because, Leah is bad news. Jennifer I'm warning you. Do not get tangled up in that if you haven't already." He says.

  I laugh and roll my eyes, "you never quit." I say and start to walk.

  "Ask her how she liked being in prison, Jen." He says. 5

  I stop walking and swallow hard. What? What is he talking about?

  "Bye, Danny."

  I get to my car and I feel my heart start to pound. Prison? What? He's kidding...he's just mad and wants to put scary ideas in my head. God- what? In the midst of this, Leah calls me.

  "You're early." I say and try to sound calm and like I wasn't just fed information about Leah's past that I am sure she would rather me not know.

  "I know, turns out the guy I was meeting had to reschedule. Meet me for breakfast?" She asks, cheerful as ever.

  "Sure." I say.

  "Good, I'll send you an address to a little place I know. Meet me there." She instructs me.

  I meet Leah and I stay quiet for most of breakfast, only answering what I have to. I take all of about two bites of my food and then I lose all interest.

  "You okay?" She asks me.

  "I'm fine." I say dryly.

  She knows something is up, she always does. "Is this about last night?" She asks.

  "No." I say and sigh. To my surprise, she doesn't pressure me. She just lets the silence sit there for another five minutes.

  "I met Danny this morning." I say and keep my eyes down.

  Her brows furrow, "what for?"

  "Why were you in prison?" I ask her.

  She freezes and then takes a drink of her water. "Who told you that?" She asks me.

  I look up at her and shake my head, "what does that matter, Leah? I would've liked to know that I was sleeping with a-"

  "Stop." She says and makes a face, an angry one. "Do not come in here and act like you suddenly know something. You know nothing about that. Sleeping with what? What am I, Jennifer?" She grits at me.

  Leah can be very intimidating when she wants to be. I stay quiet and look down at my plate again.

  "Exactly. You don't know what I am. So do not try to talk about things you don't understand." She continues. It gets quiet again and Leah gets frustrated and pays the bill. "I'm done here. I'm not talking about this here, if you want to talk you can come to my parents house." She says and I watch her get up and leave.

  Once she's gone I get tears in my eyes and I have this instinct to chase her.

  I like her... I like her a lot more than I was letting myself feel and now I want to know everything.

  22

  I knock on the door of Leah's parents house and then walk inside.

  "Leah?" I yell. "It's Jennifer!"

  I hear her upstairs so I slowly make my way there. I go into her room and she's folding some clothes. She doesn't even look up at me when I enter the room.

  "Can we talk?" I ask quietly.

  She stops folding and sighs before running her hand through her hair. "Sit." She says.

  I do what she tells me and she looks at me and walks closer.

  "First of all, I wasn't in prison. I spent a few months in jail and that's it." She informs me. "Second of all, it was a long time ago. Jennifer I used to be very different. I ran with a different crowd and I've done things that I am not proud of, by any means." She pauses and takes another breath, "I think it was extremely wrong for Danny to tell you what he did, he crossed a line he shouldn't have even gone close to. But now, since you think you know something... I'll tell you my version." She says, taking a breath before finishing her story.

  I cut her off, "do I want to know?" I ask her and she looks at me and bites her lip. 2

  "I don't know, but maybe you should know." Leah says and sits on the edge of the bed.

  I stand up and walk to her, putting my hands on her face, "Leah, if I don't need to know then don't tell me. I don't want things to change or things to end. I want you, and I can't take any more disappointment right now." I say and my voice cracks.

  She looks up at me and nods her head and then hugs me tightly. "Jennifer, I'm sorry." She says. "I should have been honest with you from the start."

  "Shh. Just hold me and don't hurt me." I whisper to her and she kisses my neck a few times.

  "If it makes you feel any better, all that's on my record is a speeding ticket or two... I was never formally charged with anything."
Leah tells me and I force myself to grin a little and she puts her hand on my chin, "I don't want you seeing him again." I nod my head, totally willing to never see Danny again for as long as I live.

  "He asked me if we were sleeping together." I say to her.

  She lets out a loud, dramatic laugh and shakes her head, "I'm not surprised. He knows we're sleeping together." She says confidently.

  "How do you know that?" I ask her. 2

  "For starters, he knows me. And secondly, your eyes tell a lot more than you think they do." She winks at me.

  Leah walks out of the room and I sigh and go over and flop down on her bed. "What do you do for work?" I yell out. 1

  She comes back into the room and walks to the end of the bed and looks at me, "why are you just now asking me this?" She laughs.

  She slowly climbs onto the bed and straddles me, putting her hands on my waist. "I just thought about it." I say and lay both my hands on her thighs.

  "Photo journalism is my main focus right now. That's why I travel so much." She explains to me, allowing her thumb to brush my bare skin.

  "So you take pictures of the places you visit?" I ask her.

  She nods her head and licks her lips. She does that a lot, I've noticed. "I want to-" she leans over me and holds my face while she kisses me. She does this multiple times and I start to smile under her lips. The kisses get more intense and then I hear something... someone... downstairs.

  "Leah? We're home!!" Her parents yell.

  I know she hears them, but she's not phased by it. She continues kissing me and I push her away. "Okay, stop. Your parents are here." I laugh.

  "Shh, I wanna kiss you."

  "I want you to kiss me, but you can kiss me later." I laugh.

  She smiles and climbs off of me and I follow her downstairs. This could get awkward... I haven't really seen her parents since Danny and I split and I am sure they have some questions.

  I enter the family room and her mom is shocked to see me. "Oh, Jennifer. Hi honey! I wasn't expecting you.." she says.

  I smile and she hugs me and kisses my head. "I came to see Leah." I explain my presence and she then looks at Leah.