Breaking Me Softly (English Edition) (Fighting Hearts Book 1)

by Melody Adams

  I only hit on women that were open to quick sex without commitments. I did not need any complications. Fay was not only very young, but she obviously had issues and I’m just not the type of guy that gets involved with women that have problems. Fuck! I don‘t commit to any woman.

  BAM! BAM! BAM! I kept hitting the bag like I was hitting myself. God knows I deserved it for acting like such a pussy. BAM! BAM! BAM!

  „Now you are finally picking up some speed“, I heard Boris’s voice through my anger.

  I was sweating like a pig and my heart was racing by the time I was done with the bag. We moved the work out into the ring. Duncan was my sparring partner today. My fight was in four days and I was generally in great shape, if only there was not that thing with Fay. I tried to stop thinking about her as I was hitting Duncan, but since I was not as focused as I should have been he landed a good kick to my kidneys. I heard Boris’ angry words from far away as I tried to catch my breath. The pain brought on the rage I was missing and I threw myself onto Duncan, we ended on the floor just moments later and he ended up in a choke hold. Only our groans and panting were heard. Adrenalin was rushing through my body. I heard yelling but did not focus on who was talking or what was being said. I was not a fucking pussy. To hell with Fay! I was a killer! Hands grabbed my arms and more screams and footsteps were heard. I don’t know how many people were around me, but there were several, and they all pulled and tugged until I loosened my grip and fell breathless on my back like a turtle.

  „What is the matter with you? Dammit Viper, what the hell is going on with you?” I heard Boris’ voice. His face, along with those of four other fighters and trainers, were above mine.

  “He had a total black out”, Boris complained. “It’s been a long time, since I saw something like this.”

  “Duncan, are you okay?” I heard somebody ask.

  “Take him to the doctor to get checked out.”

  I slowly realized, what just happened. I lost control. If they had not pulled me off of Duncan, I would have killed him. Dammit! My skull was pounding and my blood rang unnaturally loud in my ears.

  “Fuck”, I heard myself mumble. “Fuck!”

  „Yeah, Fuck!“ Came Boris‘ angry voice. “Keep this kind of shit for Steel!”

  I closed my eyes and nodded. Yes, I would break Steel’s bones on Saturday. I would not fuck up the most important fight of my life. I had lost the title last year because Steel had managed to slip a doping concentrate into my water bottle. It had to be him or somebody acting on his behalf. He was the only one benefiting from my being disqualified, as he was ranking in second place. I had won the damn fight but then Steel insisted on a doping test and that was it. We could not prove the son of a bitch did it, but I would take every precaution this time to not give him a chance to fuck me over again. I would break his damn neck.

  “How was your first day?” I asked on our way home.

  “Wonderful”, replied Fay. “Mellie is really nice.”

  “Yes, she is a cutie”, I replied.

  I could see from the corner of my eyes that Fay glanced at me from the side. Was she jealous? And if so, why did it make me feel so … satisfied? I did not want her to be interested in me. She was taboo and perhaps it would be better if she knew that as well. Nevertheless there was this crazy side of me that wanted her to be interested enough in me to be jealous.

  “Did you …”, she started in a low voice. “I mean, did you and Mellie …?”

  Aha! Jealous!, I thought satisfied.

  “You want to know, if I fucked her?” I asked and gave her a quick look. She blushed and I smiled. “No! I never fucked her or Mona. They are not the kind of women I prefer.”

  “Wh… what kind of women ... do you prefer?” she asked and I was surprised that she had the courage to ask that question. Even though her shaky voice gave her away, this question was way over her head.

  “Uncomplicated women that want sex without commitment” I replied.

  She winced imperceptibly, but she said nothing. I had not expected it either. Surely she would disregard any thought of us being together now. She was not that kind of woman and we both knew it. Why did I feel so lousy all of a sudden? It was a good thing that I establish right from the beginning that there would never would be a “we”. I was not a man who was interested in a relationship. Honesty! That was something good! And yet I felt shitty like never before in my life.

  Fay

  You idiot! What were you thinking? You already knew, that he was a man that was only interested in quick sex and nothing more. You should be glad that he is so honest with you and obviously not interested in you. It is better this way! I told myself. But I could not deny the tightening of my chest when he said it: Uncomplicated women that want sex without commitment.

  I was neither uncomplicated nor did I want sex and for sure not commitment. I was broken, used and rotten. Dirty! There would never be a man or family for me. No kids, no house with a picket white fence and a swing in the front yard. I could be glad that I was about to stand on my own feet thanks to Viper. I had so much to thank him for. I had no right to be angry with him or disappointed just because he was the way he was. Despite his ideas of a relationship, he was a much better man than Martin ever could be. I doubted that Viper was capable of hurting a woman. He may be a tough fighter in the ring, but he has a good heart. He had saved me, put a roof over my head, gave me clothing, food and a job. No! Vincent Viper Mahony could not be compared to Martin at all!

  “Are you coming to my fight?” Viper interrupted my thoughts. “All XXL people are coming. There is even an after-fight party.”

  “Sure”, I replied and hated that my voice showed so much excitement. I wanted to sound cool, like it what no big deal for me but my heart was pounding and suddenly I could hardly wait. I never cared much for MMA, but now I wanted to see how this sexy guy next to me, half naked and sweating beat up another guy? I must have lost my mind!

  Chapter 4

  Viper

  I was so full of adrenalin that I was unable to sit still as Boris wrapped my hands. Today was not only the most important fight of my career, but Fay was sitting front row to watch me fight. I was sure I could take Steel without any problems. I just could not lose my concentration. The days without sex meant that I was literally about to explode. Boris tapped me on the shoulder.

  “Ready, my boy”, he said in his typical grouchy tone. “Now get up. Move! You look like you have ants up your pants.”

  Relieved I jumped up and jogged lightly up and down in the locker room. Duncan and Brian were besides Boris, in the room with me. Duncan did not hold a grudge because of my outburst. He knew that as in past that I could have blacked out here and there. Brian held out my water bottle. He had filled it up at home himself and had not let it out of his sight since. I took a few measured sips and poured some of the water over my face. Duncan massaged my shoulders while I was moving up and down. The door opened and Mellie came in.

  “Two minutes”, she announced and I nodded.

  Brian brought my dark green robe. It had a golden snake on the back and the hood had a golden rim. He helped me put the robe on and Boris tightened my belt while I took another few sips from the bottle before I returned it to Brian. Mellie had left the door open. My song played. Legions of Truth by Crystal Viper. Brian and Duncan started walking out and me and Boris walked behind. We climbed up the metal stairs to the auditorium. The venue was packed and the crowd was already calling out my came.

  “Viper! Viper! Viper!”

  “And here comes our contender, Vincent Vipeeeeer Mahooonyyyyyyyy!” the voice of the ring announcer called out.

  A few women were screaming things like: Have a child with me, Viper! Or: Show us your snake, Viper! We had reached the cage. The titleholder Steel had his entrance before me and was waiting for me in the octagon, but that did not bother my ego. The screams of my fans were more and louder than the calls from Steels side. Boris stepped into the cage after me while Brian a
nd Duncan took their seats in the front row. Once I was in the cage and Boris had taken off my robe, I allowed myself to take a look at the seat that Fay was sitting in. And there she was. Our eyes met and my heart beat faster.

  Fay

  I was so excited that I felt my heart was about to jump out of my chest. There already had been four fights, but I did not pay much attention to them. I was not here because I enjoyed watching fights, but because Viper was about to fight. I looked up when they announced his opponent. It was starting. In a moment Viper would be brought out of his dressing room and escorted to the ring, or rather the octagon, where he would face that nasty looking guy Steele. The cage that surrounded the octagon looked brutal. I knew there were barely any rules in MMA. Almost everything was permitted and this was an illegal underground fight. It would certainly be a tough fight. I had not seen the previous fights but had heard the crowd. They were yelling things like: Kill him! Put that pig down! and other gruesome demands. I tried to calm myself seeing that Viper was as tall and heavy as Steel and knowing this was not his first time in the cage. He knew what he was doing. Nevertheless my heart was beating so fast that I placed my hand over my heart when they played Viper’s music. I looked towards the corridor that the led through to the octagon. He walked directly behind Brian and Duncan, wearing a dark green robe but I could not see his face because the hood covered his face and he was looking down. He had a very specific way of moving, like a predator! Elegant and powerful.

  “And here comes our contender, Vincent Vipeeeeer Mahoooneyyyyyyyy!”

  The crowd had gone wild before, but now the venue was bursting. Women were screaming and made him unmistakable offers. Yes, no doubt Viper had plenty of willing women who would be more than happy to get laid by him. I suppressed the growing feeling of jealousy. Again I reminded myself that I had no right to Viper and that I did not want him anyways because I did not want any man. Despite that, I felt a tingling sensation between my thigh and my nipples perked up when Viper took off his robe as his muscles came into view. Suddenly he looked up and directly at me. Our eyes met and I felt a sensation in my groin. I felt confused realizing my pants were getting wet and my clitoris was starting to pulsate. It thought it must be the adrenalin in the air as I had seen Viper work out many times without such a reaction. I found him to be very attractive and had thought of him as I masturbated while in my bed. But getting wet just because he looked at me was totally crazy. I was still sitting motionless in my seat when the fight started. Both fighters charged each other right away. It was clear from the beginning that neither contender would give the other a moment to breathe. Viper as well as Steel were here to win and it seemed unlikely that either one of them would win because the other tapped out. Both were going for a knock out. I prayed that Viper would win. So far they looked equal. It seemed to me as though Viper was more controlled in his moves. The crowd went wild and was cheering for the fighters. Even Millie next to me was screaming on top of her lungs: ”Finish him, Viper!”

  Steel landed a terrible kick on Viper’s head and Viper stumbled for a moment, but he caught himself and ducked under the next kick and grabbed Steel’s torso. Both fighters went to the ground and Viper hit Steel’s head like he was possessed. I covered my mouth. My heart was beating like crazy.

  “You okay”, Mona asked next to me. “You look pale.”

  “I … am okay”, I replied without taking my eyes off the fight. Steel was able to get out of Viper’s grip and wrapped his legs around Viper’s neck. I could tell by Viper’s distorted face that he was in trouble and screamed. Mona took my hand and squeezed it. The referee leaned over the fighters and I prayed that Viper was able to get out of the choke hold. Both fighters slid and wrestled on the floor until Viper changed his angle and was able to lessen the pressure on his neck. His fist hit hard and in short successions onto Steel’s side until he seemed to be hurt enough to loosen his grip and Viper was able to get out of the chokehold. He rolled to the side and got on his knees to hit Steel’s head over and over. I wanted to close my eyes because of the violence, but I could not look away. Steel collapsed and the referee jumped between the two fighters. Viper got up and raised his arms. The room was like a melting pot. The crowd was going absolutely wild. Even Mellie and Mona had jumped up and were yelling Viper’s name. Then his eyes fell on me and his grin vanished. He looked a bit irritated. I barely noticed how they announced the winner and placed the belt around Viper’s hips.

  Viper

  The blood was rushing in my ear. I had done it! The title was mine and with the title came a lot of money. The crowd was freaking out when I raised my arms and basked in the glory of my fans. My eyes were looking for the one person that I had secretly fought for. When I found her, it felt like my heart would stop. She did not look like she was particularly happy that I had won this fantastic fight. She looked scared, yes, even shocked. I should have known. The brutality was not for a girl like her. My grin disappeared and I cursed myself for being affected this much. It should not matter what she thought of my fights. It was not like I wanted her to be my girlfriend. Fuck! There were enough women willing to go to bed with a champion. I would not let anything go to waste at the after party and finally release some of the pressure that was building up in my balls. I noticed they had placed the belt around my waist and I forced myself to take my eyes off Fay. I walked around the octagon with my arms raised and filled with pride as I enjoyed being celebrated. A few women lifted their shirts and showed me their tits. I blew them a kiss and they screamed like crazy. I laughed! That was my life! To hell with Fay, if she could not handle it!

  The ride over to the club, where the after party was taking place was short. I knew that Fay was supposed to ride in the car behind us with Mellie, Mona and Mona’s sister Kim, but I did not know if she was coming with us. I had to force myself to not turn around and look for the car.

  “That was a great fight”, Brian said excitedly.

  “Yes, you showed that son of a bitch”, Duncan agreed. “For a moment there you scared me, when the fucker had you in his grips.”

  “I knew you could do it”, said Boris and I gave him a smile. “Steel only has a chance when he is cheating. The guy lacks focus. If I were his coach I would …”

  “You are my fucking coach, not Steels”, I cut him off.

  Boris opened his mouth like he wanted to say something but the car stopped and I quickly reached for the door handle. I wanted to see if Fay was in the car behind us, or if she had changed her mind. My heart was pounding, as the limousine with the girls came to a stop behind mine. The tinted windows did not reveal anything. I held my breath involuntarily as the driver opened the door to let the girls out. Mellie came out first followed by Mona. My hands curled into fists and I strained my eyes to see better. Kim came out next and my pulse increased.

  Damn, get out of the car! I cursed inwardly. Finally I saw the brown curls and I took a deep breath as Fay climbed out of the limousine. She stretched slightly and lifted her head. Our eyes met and my heart started beating a few beats faster. A movement in my groin showed me that my dick was also happy to see her. Damn! Hastily I looked away and followed Brian and Duncan who were already approaching the club. We had rented the whole venue and only invited guests were allowed in. A lot of people were there already and I was greeted with thunderous cheers and congratulations. I waved smiling at the crowd and took a glass of champagne from a busty blonde. I lifted my glass to cheer and chugged it down.

  “Are you this quick in everything you do? Or do you also know how to enjoy yourself?” the blonde asked with a lewd smile.

  I leaned forward and whispered into her ear: “Oh, I can enjoy very well, sweetheart.”

  She giggled and rubbed her bust against me.

  From the corner of my eyes I saw the girls walk in. I put my arms around the blonde’s waist and nibbled playfully on her ear. She smelled of too much cheap perfume. It never bothered me before but now I compared her overwhelming smell with Fay’s fresh sce
nt. She also wore too much make up and I would have bet my balls that her tits were fake. But I had promised myself to blow off some steam and Fay considered me to be a brutal man that beats another guy into a pulp.

  “When are you done with your shift?” I asked, knowing that Fay was close enough to hear my question.

  “Whenever I want, Viper”, replied the blonde.

  “I get back to you later, sweetheart”, I said. “Later!”

  Fay

  The club was pretty full as we entered. My eyes wandered across the guests and honed in on Viper. He was standing right by a blonde who was balancing a tray with glasses on her arm. Her deep neckline revealed a view on her pronounced breasts and she wore heavy make-up. To my great disappointment, she was brushing against Viper with his arm around her as he whispered, “When are you done with your shift?”

  “Whenever I want, Viper”, she replied.

  “I get back to you later, sweetheart”, said Viper. “Later!”

  My heart ached in pain and I quickly looked away.

  “Don’t mind that”, said Mellie next to me. “She doesn’t mean anything to him. If you ask me, Viper is trying to make you jealous. He knew exactly that you were there.”

  “Why do you think he is interested in me?”, I mumbled without looking at her.

  “Because even a blind man can see how you guys drool over each other”, Mellie explained softly. “If only the two of you were not this damn stubborn!”

  I snorted.

  “You are seeing ghosts”, I said and left her. I did like Mellie very much, but at this moment I could not bear to be by her side. She had seen right through me. And if she could do it, did that mean that Viper could see it as well?