The Poet's Heart

by Pooja Sharma

that I am beside,

  I am standing alone,

  Now I am done,

  Done with fitting in this world,

  I am done,

  Completely done,

  I am not untouchable,

  I didn't have a poor label,

  Oh when I was a child,

  I was just like you wild,

  Yet you let this racism,

  Had welcomed in this season,

  I lost everything now,

  Can't do it anymore now,

  I am a human too,

  I deserve affection too,

  Yeah,

  They hurt me,

  They burned me,

  They tricked me,

  They laughed,

  They bullied,

  They shoved me aside,

  They don't see that I am beside,

  I am standing alone,

  Now I am done,

  Done with fitting in this world,

  I am done,

  Completely done.

  I Am Not Alone

  Lights are bright,

  Getting past my soul,

  Overwhelmed by the site,

  Ready to hasp up my goal,

  Heard numerous voices,

  Making my heart dance,

  Returning songs of my choices,

  Hearing, they'd glance,

  Jumping around like in a trampoline,

  Shivered, knowing that I am being seen,

  Felt like I have everything,

  When only thing I do is sing,

  Have been so grateful,

  To stand here being soulful,

  Every piece of my bone,

  Making a wonderful tone,

  Dancing like I am all alone,

  Singing like everyone is gone,

  But, whenever my name blown,

  I knew I am not alone,

  Missed my home so bad,

  Tears dripping down my neck,

  Never let them see I was sad,

  Hide it, didn't let myself break,

  When I am on my route,

  I am surrounded by lights,

  Ignoring all the repute,

  Came over my frights,

  Jumping around like in a trampoline,

  Shivered, knowing that I am being seen,

  Felt like I have everything,

  When only thing I do is sing,

  Have been so grateful,

  To stand here being soulful,

  Every piece of my bone,

  Making a wonderful tone,

  Dancing like I am all alone,

  Singing like everyone is gone,

  But, whenever my name blown,

  I knew I am not alone,

  Yeah had been so grateful,

  For the life oh so meaningful,

  Every piece of my bone,

  Making a wonderful tone,

  Dancing like I am all alone,

  Singing like everyone is gone,

  But, whenever my name blown,

  I knew I am not alone,

  May be I wasn't meant to,

  But now I am making my dream come true,

  Jumping around like in a trampoline,

  Shivered, knowing that I am being seen,

  Felt like I have everything,

  When only thing I do is sing,

  Have been so grateful,

  To stand here being soulful,

  Every piece of my bone,

  Making a wonderful tone,

  Dancing like I am all alone,

  Singing like everyone is gone,

  But, whenever my name blown,

  I knew I am not alone.

  I Am Not Lonely Now

  I closed my eyes,

  I hid the lies,

  Ignored the calling,

  Heart started crying,

  Every beat whispers your name,

  No it isn't a game,

  There are more words,

  Yeah the unspoken words,

  The soul tied beneath,

  Knows every truth,

  Always kept denying it,

  Yeah I kept denying it,

  I was a stone once,

  With no one to glance,

  I was lonely once,

  With no more romance,

  Turned into flower,

  Sunshine in the shower,

  Felt the tremendous tow,

  I knew, I am not lonely now,

  When I saw the blow,

  Of your slow tow,

  I knew, I am not lonely now,

  Sighed so deeply,

  The emotion felt tricky,

  Never had the collision,

  Never had the vision,

  Enjoying the new wing,

  My heart is the being,

  Flying across the sky,

  Now how could I lie?

  The soul tied beneath,

  Knows every truth,

  Always kept denying it,

  Yeah I kept denying it,

  I was a stone once,

  With no one to glance,

  I was lonely once,

  With no more romance,

  Turned into flower,

  Sunshine in the shower,

  Felt the tremendous tow,

  I knew, I am not lonely now,

  When I saw the blow,

  Of your slow tow,

  I knew, I am not lonely now,

  Oh,

  How do I feel this way?

  Oh,

  Why do I feel this way?

  The soul tied beneath,

  Knows every truth,

  Always kept denying it,

  Yeah I kept denying it,

  I was a stone once,

  With no one to glance,

  I was lonely once,

  With no more romance,

  Turned into flower,

  Sunshine in the shower,

  Felt the tremendous tow,

  I knew, I am not lonely now,

  When I saw the blow,

  Of your slow tow,

  I knew, I am not lonely now.

  I Am Tired Of You

  Furious was my heart,

  Curious was the start,

  Mind declared a war,

  You just blew up my star,

  I thought we were done,

  I thought to you I was none,

  I thought many more things,

  Now can’t bear to think anything,

  You prove me wrong every time,

  You push me off of the cloud nine,

  Then you pull me up again,

  I don't know what you regain,

  Just tired of living like this,

  Tired of how you treat,

  Tired of crying like this,

  Tired of the unwanted heat,

  Tired of getting used up,

  Tired of the heartbreak,

  Tired of being tough,

  Oh tired of being awake,

  I am tired of the truth,

  I am tired of you,

  Had many ups and downs,

  But you were just another clown,

  Never gave up on you,

  Mistreat was the only fruit,

  Can't have the seed again,

  Can't either leave the train?

  Can't think of anything but you,

  Oh yes it’s the truth,

  You make me dance every time,

  You push me off of the cloud nine,

  Then you pull me up again,

  I don't know what you regain,

  Just tired of living like this,

  Tired of how you treat,

  Tired of crying like this,

  Tired of the unwanted heat,

  Tired of getting used up,

  Tired of the heartbreak,

  Tired of being tough,

  Oh tired of being awake,

  I am tired of the truth,

  I am tired of you,

  You made me smile before,

  Just to make me cry therefore,

  I jumped off every time,

  In the
end pull me up all the time,

  Just tired of living like this,

  Tired of how you treat,

  Tired of crying like this,

  Tired of the unwanted heat,

  Tired of getting used up,

  Tired of the heartbreak,

  Tired of being tough,

  Oh tired of being awake,

  I am tired of the truth,

  I am tired of you.

  I Hurt You

  Seeing you passing by,

  Heard your last good bye,

  Heart internally crushing,

  Palms went clenching,

  Restrained myself hard,

  Oh it's so very hard,

  Had urge to utter the truth,

  Fighting wasn't so smooth,

  Wanting to nod every time,

  Wanting to go all blind,

  Couldn't just do that anymore,

  I had to paint myself with a whore,

  I hurt you,

  I didn't mean to,

  I never intended to,

  Yet I hurt you,

  Yet I let go of you,

  Cause you are better without me,

  Yeah you are better,

  Without me,

  Had been very rude,

  Yeah didn't want to be rude,

  I started realizing the truth,

  The feelings wasn't the proof,

  Never trusted when I had to,

  But would you have trusted you too?

  Still heart fall real hard,

  Couldn't help it from the start,

  Wanting to nod every time,

  Wanting to go all blind,

  Couldn't just do that anymore,

  I had to paint myself with a whore,

  I hurt you,

  I didn't mean to,

  I never intended to,

  Yet I hurt you,

  Yet I let go of you,

  Cause you are better without me,

  Yeah you are better,

  Without me,

  Oh loved you more than before,

  Can't say it anymore,

  I desired for more,

  Can’t have you anymore,

  I hurt you,

  I didn't mean to,

  I never intended to,

  Yet I hurt you,

  Yet I let go of you,

  Cause you are better without me,

  Yeah you are better,

  Without me.

  I Regret All Lies

  Light flickered through curtains,

  Eyes still so swollen,

  Tears hasn't died yet,

  The voice I cannot trust,

  Saw two happy figures,

  One short and one bigger,

  Walking hand in hand,

  On the enormous land,

  Reminded me of someone,

  Oh I missed my figure,

  Reminded me if someone,

  Who was more than a father?

  A brother,

  Yeah,

  I miss the walk,

  I miss those rides,

  I miss the talk,

  I miss my guide,

  I miss the voice,

  I regret all lies,

  Yeah I regret all lies,

  Saw the frame on the stand,

  We were sitting on the land,

  Such a happy face he was,

  He was dead and I was the cause,

  I miss the rudeness,

  When I was vision-less,

  The scolded voice gave me way,

  Oh I still remember the day,

  I missed you by my side,

  Oh I missed my figure,

  Reminded me of my ride,

  Who was more than a father?

  A brother,

  Yeah,

  I miss the walk,

  I miss those rides,

  I miss the talk,

  I miss my guide,

  I miss the voice,

  I regret all lies,

  Yeah I regret all lies,

  The bond so pure,

  I was so sure,

  I missed the protection,

  Oh but I am the reason,

  Reminded me of the day,

  Oh I missed my figure,

  Reminded me of your last day,

  Who was more than a father?

  A brother,

  Yeah,

  I miss the walk,

  I miss those rides,

  I miss the talk,

  I miss my guide,

  I miss the voice,

  I regret all lies,

  Yeah I regret all lies.

  I Was A Girl

  Standing above the height,

  My fist was so tight,

  Breathing was up and down,

  But no voice from the town,

  Cried out loud,

  Dreams were full of clouds,

  Even life was bleeding in dark,

  There was no way of start,

  Restriction was their base,

  With no one to chase,

  Fight was their clothing,

  Whenever I was choosing,

  I was a girl,

  Conjured to kill,

  A desired thrill,

  By seeing me cry,

  Wished they could buy,

  The right of my sight,

  Before I die,

  Because I was a girl,

  That wasn’t their pearl,

  Just a girl,

  The flashes burned,

  Within skull made me torn,

  Put a step forward,

  And second afterward,

  The air was so fresh,

  Just hoped from the rest,

  Just someone to catch,

  But they stood there and watched,

  I ran from their base,

  With no one to chase,

  But my fight was now over,

  I was just tired,

  I was a girl,

  Conjured to kill,

  Desired to thrill,

  By seeing me cry,

  Wished they could buy,

  The right of my sight,

  Before I die,

  Because I was a girl,

  That wasn’t their pearl,

  Just a girl,

  Head touched the ground,

  The pain felt around,

  Smiled because they lost,

  Cried because my life was at cost,

  The pain wasn't so bad,

  I was now a free lad,

  Soul was my clothing,

  And now I was choosing,

  I was a girl,

  Conjured to kill,

  Desired to thrill,

  By seeing me cry,

  Wished they could buy,

  The right of my sight,

  Before I die,

  Because I was a girl,

  That wasn’t their pearl,

  Just a girl.

  I Would Be Alone

  Eyes so stern,

  Hands so firm,

  Words spilled out,

  I blacked out,

  Wasn't shocked enough,

  Wasn't so tough,

  Just so afraid of future,

  Just seeing everything so blur,

  Scared of my own self,

  Scared of our own shell,

  Scared that it won't work,

  That you would leave my truck

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  So afraid of my being,

  Afraid of what I was seeing,

  It won't be same,

  Oh it won't be the same,

  I know the love will fade away,

  Yeah I know the love,

  It will fade away,

  Yeah it will fade away,

  And I would be alone,

  Shook off my hands,

  I rolled my eyes,

  Can't go to your land,

  Forced to say good bye,

  Saw your shocked face,

  I quickly made a pace,

  Lied about wasn't ready yet,

  Cried because I was hurt,

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nbsp; Scared of my own self,

  Scared of our own shell,

  Scared that it won't work,

  That you would leave my truck,

  Scared of my being,

  Scared of what I was seeing,

  It won't be same,

  Oh it won't be the same,

  I know the love will fade away,

  Yeah I know the love,

  It will fade away,

  Yeah it will fade away,

  And I would be alone,

  Yeah,

  You were gone,

  Now I am alone,

  Yeah,

  It doesn't hurt the same,

  But it will hurt after our game,

  Scared of my own self,

  Scared of our own shell,

  Scared that it won't work,

  That you would leave my truck,

  Scared of my being,

  Scared of what I was seeing,

  It won't be same,

  Oh it won't be the same,

  I know the love will fade away,

  Yeah I know the love,

  It will fade away,

  Yeah it will fade away,

  And I would be alone.

  In The Dark

  Unfamiliar it was,

  Threatening the heart's bass,

  The feelings erupted,

  Making me startled,

  You came all along,

  You gave me my song,

  I shared my dark,

  I shared my dreams

  The love was just a gust,

  Gust of wind,

  But there's no trust,

  And now there is no wind,

  I was in the dark,

  Not anymore,

  A hand gripped me,

  Dragged me out,

  The light kissed me,

  I just poured out,

  It wasn't easy,

  Oh but now you are gone,

  You are busy,

  So I am glad for the song,

  Because I was in the dark,

  Not anymore,

  Though we never met,

  Yet you showed me the gate,

  The words ringing still,

  The heart yet goes still,

  But I just glad,

  That you became my lad,

  At least I am out right now,

  I can be happy somehow,

  The love was just a gust,

  Gust of wind,

  But there's no trust,

  And there now is no wind,

  I was in the dark,

  Not anymore,

  A hand gripped me,

  Dragged me out,

  The light kissed me,

  I just poured out,

  It wasn't easy,

  Oh but now you are gone,

  You are busy,

  So I am glad for the song,

  Because I was in the dark,

  Not anymore,

  Although I may never feel the same,

  Not even for any fame,

  Still I am in light,

  I won't have to fight,

  The love was just a gust,

  Gust of wind,

  But there's no trust,

  And there now is no wind,

  I was in the dark,

  Not anymore,

  A hand gripped me,

  Dragged me out,

  The light kissed me,

  I just poured out,

  It wasn't easy,

  Oh but now you are gone,

  You are busy,

  So I am glad for the song,

  Because I was in the dark,

  Not anymore.

  In The Frame

  Staring at the blank,

  Tears that I drank,

  Gulping in every thought,

  This is what you brought,

  Claimed for a place,

  I made my space,

  The sunken case you see,

  Now only made for thee,

  Can you describe?

  What did heart subscribe?

  This weird need,

  Wanting you to seed,

  Memories awakening,

  Suddenly realizing,

  Yeah, I can never be with you,

  Can never think of you,

  Just wanted to be in the frame,

  For lifelong on the night stand,

  Yeah wanting to be in the frame,

  Yeah in the frame,

  In the frame,

  Forever in the frame,

  With you,

  Still hurts as hell,

  Yet rings the bell,

  Of my poor heart,

  When your voice start,

  Yearns for the being,

  It is surrounded by the means,

  Hopes restrained for best,

  Was it my test?

  Wasn't ignored,

  Wasn't tortured,

  Just rejected,

  And accepted,

  As a loving friend,

  Is this the end?

  Yeah, I can never be with you,

  Can never think of you,

  Just wanted to be in the frame,

  For lifelong on the night stand,

  Yeah wanting to be in the frame,

  Yeah in the frame,

  In the frame,

  Forever in the frame,

  With you,

  I can never say your name,

  As it still hurts the same,

  Yet wanted to be in the frame,

  With you until the end,

  Having a tea,

  With a flying bee,

  Holding your hands,

  Walking in sand,

  Pictures I hide,

  But I realized,

  Yeah, I can never be with you,

  Can never think of you,

  Just wanted to be in the frame,

  For lifelong on the night stand,

  Yeah wanting to be in the frame,

  Yeah in the frame,

  In the frame,

  Forever in the frame,

  With you.

  Insane

  Everything was so dark,

  My legs stretched afar,

  Just to bring them back,

  Just the sleep I lack,

  Breathing is uneven,

  As my heart is driven,

  Towards a certain scenery,

  Being so passionate and creamy,

  Restless is my night,

  Blurry is my sight,

  Heart jumping up and down,

  Eyebrows in a frown,

  This is what you do,

  Without even a move,

  Thoughts clouding,

  Feelings scattering,

  Around driving,

  Me insane,

  Just hold me tight,

  Just be my delight,

  Because I might,

  Be insane,

  For you,

  Sweat dripping by,

  The wind passed by,

  Though it’s a thought,

  Just felt a real plot,

  The warmness I feel,

  Is so scary to deal,

  When I close my eyes,

  I see a familiar sight,

  Oh so restless I am,

  Oh so dreamy I am,

  Yet I am jumping

  Eyebrows again frowning,

  This is what you do,

  Without even a move,

  Thoughts clouding,

  Feelings scattering,

  Around driving,

  Me insane,

  Just hold me tight,

  Just be my delight,

  Because I might,

  Be insane,

  For you,

  Suddenly I stopped,

  Panting a lot,

  Turned to face the light,

  Clutched the pillow so tight,

  Why I am so restless?

  Why are you so heartless?

  Again heart is jumping,

  Still it is crying,

  For you,

  This is what y
ou do,

  Without even a move,

  Thoughts clouding,

  Feelings scattering,

  Around driving,

  Me insane,

  Just hold me tight,

  Just be my delight,

  Because I might,

  Be insane,

  For you.

  L

  Light.

  Love birds.

  Back to top

  Light

  A star with speed of light,

  Halted, being so ready for flight,

  Suddenly titled back,

  Saw darkness on her track,

  So scared she was,

  So trembled she was,

  She wanted to move,

  And she couldn't prove,

  Heard a voice so low,

  Telling her to let go,

  She was meant to be a star,

  They are