Silver Bullets

by Douglas Greene et al.

  The only time he paid hard cash was when he bought tap-shoes for Skye.

  He’d begun to teach us dance steps in the kitchen. “Shuffle,” he’d yell above the music, “kick ball-change, turn … come on girls, dance for Daddy.”

  * * *

  The next day Nathan didn’t want to go out. His friend came to the door wanting a kick-around but ended up playing on the computer instead. I didn’t say anything but I knew he was waiting for Skye.

  At the end of the day there was nothing I could do but make his favourite, shepherd’s pie, and read Harry Potter to him in bed. I could see his heart wasn’t in it.

  I wasn’t surprised — Skye had been taught unreliability by experts — but I was angry. She’d had a chance to show him that a woman could be as good as Batman and she’d blown it. All he had left was me and I was not the stuff of heroes. What had I done in the past nine years except to keep him warm, fed, healthy and honest? Also, I made him do his homework, which I think he found unforgivable. I thought I was giving him solid gold, because in the end, doing my homework and passing exams were the tools I used to dig myself out of a very deep hole. But how can that compare to the magic

  conferred upon a boy by ownership of coveted football boots? At his age he thought the right boots would transform his life and give him talents beyond belief. Magic boots for Nathan; dancing shoes for Skye.

  * * *

  Mr. Bo tried to teach us both to do the splits. Maybe, at eleven or twelve, I was already too stiff. Or maybe, deep down inside, I felt there was something creepy about doing the splits in the snow-white knickers and little short skirts that he insisted we wear to dance for him. Either way, I never managed to learn. But Skye did. She stretched like a spring and bounced like a ball. She wore ribbons in her crazy hair. Of course she got the dancing shoes.

  One evening he took us to the bar where Mum worked, put some money in the juke box and Skye showed off what she’d learnt. Mum was so impressed she put out a jam-jar for tips and it was soon full to overflowing.

  Now that I have a child of my own I can’t help wondering what on earth she was thinking. Maybe she looked at the tip jar and saw a wide-screen TV or a weekend away at a posh hotel with handsome Bo Barnes. Or was she just high on the free drinks? Once, she said to me, “Wanna know somethin’ , kid? If you’re a girl, all you ever got to sell is your youth. Make sure you get a better price for it than I did. Wish someone tol’ me that before I gave it all away.” Of course she wasn’t sober when she said that, but I don’t think sobriety had much to do with it; it was her best advice. No wonder I did my homework.

  * * *

  Skye showed up when Nathan had stopped waiting for her. “C’mon, Kid,” she said, “we’re going shopping.”

  “You’re smoking.” He was shocked.

  “So shoot me,” she said. “You have dirty hair.”

  “So shoot me.” He grinned his big crooked smile.

  “Needs an orthodontist,” she said. “I should take him back to L.A.”

  “Over my dead body,” I said. “Nathan, get in the shower. Skye,

  coffee in the kitchen. Now.”

  She wrinkled her still-pretty nose at my coffee. I said, “What’re you up to? What’s the scam?”

  “Can’t an Auntie take her nephew shopping?” She widened her innocent eyes at me. “‘Tis the season and all that malarkey.”

  “We haven’t seen each other in over fifteen years.”

  “So I missed you.”

  “No you didn’t. How did you find me?”

  “Were you hiding?” she asked. “How do you know what I missed?

  You’re my big sister, or have you forgotten?”

  “I wasn’t the one who swanned off to the States.”

  “No, you were the one who was jealous.”

  “I tried to protect you.”

  “From what? Attention, pretty clothes, guys with nice cars?” I said nothing because I didn’t know where to begin.

  She stuck her elbows on the table and leant forward with her chin jutting. “It all began with Bobby Barnes, didn’t it? You couldn’t stand me being his little star.”

  “He was thirty. You were nine.”

  “A girl doesn’t stay nine forever.”

  “He ended up in prison and we were sent to a home. He robbed us of our childhood, Skye.”

  “Some childhood.” She snorted. “Stuck in that squalid little apartment — with no TV or anything.”

  “And how did Mr. Bo change that? Did he stop Mum drinking? Did he go out to work so that she could look after us? Okay, he brought us a flat-screen telly, but it got repossessed like everything else.”

  “He gave us pretty clothes and shoes …”

  “He stole them. He taught us how to steal …”

  “But it was fun,” Skye cried. “He taught us how to dance too.

  You’re forgetting the good stuff.”

  “He taught you to dance. He taught me how to be a look-out for a pickpocket and a thief. You weren’t a dancer, Skye; you were there to distract the rabbits.”

  “Why’re you two quarrelling?” Nathan said from the doorway. “We’re sisters,” Skye said. “If you’re good I’ll tell you how a pirate

  came to rescue us from an evil wizard’s castle and how your mom didn’t want to go and nearly blew it for me.”

  “No you won’t,” I said.

  “Is it true?” He was as trusting as a puppy.

  “Do you really believe in wicked wizards and good pirates?” I asked. “Next you’ll be telling him there’s no Santa Claus or Tooth Fairy.”

  “I know there’s no tooth fairy,” he said. “I caught Mum putting a pound under my pillow and she pretended she’d just found it there, but she’s a rubbish liar.”

  “She is, isn’t she? Bet you took the cash anyway. Now let’s go shopping.”

  “I’m coming too,” I said, because I didn’t know my own sister and I was afraid she might have inherited Mr. Bo’s definition of buying shoes.

  “You’ll spoil it,” my loyal son complained. “The only thing she ever takes me shopping for is school uniform.”

  “What a bitch … sorry, witch.” Skye dragged us both out of the house with no conscience at all.

  A big black car, just a couple of feet short of being a limo, was waiting outside — plus a driver with a leather coat and no discernable neck.

  * * *

  Oddly, Mr. Bo was not sent down for anything serious like contributing to the delinquency of minors or his sick relationship with one of them. No, when he was caught it was for stealing booze from the back of the bar where Mum worked. Of course she was done for theft too, thus ensuring that we had no irresponsible adults in our lives, and forcing us to be taken into Care.

  By the time I was fifteen and Skye was thirteen we’d been living in Care for two and a half years. Foster parents weren’t keen on me because I didn’t want to split up from Skye, and foster mothers didn’t like Skye at all because she was precocious in so many ways.

  Crockerdown House, known for obvious reasons as Crack House by the locals, was a girls’ care home, and judging by the number of non-visits from social workers, doctors or advisors, and the frequency of real visits by the cops, it should’ve been called a No Care Home. No one checked to see if we went to school or if we came back. Self-harm and eating disorders went unnoticed. Drugs were commonplace. There was a sixty percent pregnancy rate.

  I was scared rigid and spent as much time as I could at school. Teachers thought I was keen — most unusual in that part of town — and they cherished me. After a while I became keen.

  Skye was the opposite.

  It was only when a strange man turned up at the school gates in a car with Skye sitting smug as you please on the back seat that I realised she’d stayed in touch with Mr. Bo while he was inside.

  I knew that she and some other, older, girls regularly went to the West End to boost gear from shops and I lived with my heart in my mouth, fearing she’d be ca
ught. She was never caught and she always had plenty of money. What I hadn’t been told was that she supplied an old friend of Mr. Bo’s with stolen goods which he sold in the market. This friend kept Mr. Bo in tobacco and all the other consumables that could be passed between friends on visiting day.

  “He’s coming out today,” she told me excitedly. “We’re going to meet him.”

  I looked at her in her tight jeans and the trashy silk top which would’ve cost a fortune if she’d actually bought it. I burst into tears.

  “We’re not going back to Crack House,” she said. “It’s over.”

  “What about school?” I wept. “What about my exams?” I was taking nine subjects and my teachers said I had a good chance in all of them.

  “We never have to go to bogging school again. We’re free. He’s taking us abroad.”

  “What about Mum?” Mum was still inside. She wasn’t just a thief; she was a thief who drank, and she was a bad mother who drank and thieved. Three strikes against her. Only one against Mr. Bo. Classic!

  “Oh, she’ll join us later,” Skye said vaguely, breathing mist onto the car window and drawing a heart.

  * * *

  “Is this your car?” Nathan asked the driver, impressed. “Huh?”

  “It’s mine,” Skye said, “for now.”

  “Will you have to give it back?” Nathan was sadly familiar with the concept of giving a favoured book or computer game back to the library.

  “Where are we going?” The last time she and I were in a car together was a disaster.

  “Crystal City. I heard it was the newest.”

  “It’s the best,” Nathan breathed. “We don’t go there.”

  “Why not?”

  I said, “It’s too expensive and too far away.”

  “I know, I know,” Skye said, “and you got a mortgage to pay and your tuition fees at the Open University. Studying to be a psychotherapist, aren’t you? And both your lives gonna stay on hold till you qualify and hang out your shingle. When’s that gonna be — 2050?”

  “How the hell do you know that?”

  “You said ‘hell’.”

  “You’d be surprised what I know. Some of us use technology for more than looking up difficult words.”

  “You’ve been spying on us.”

  “Cool,” Nathan said. “I want to be a spy when I grow up.”

  “You can be a spy now,” Skye said. “Don’t look back, just use this mirror and if you see a car following us, tell Wayne. Okay?” She handed him what looked like a solid gold compact.

  “What sort of car?”

  “Black Jeep,” no-neck, leather-clad Wayne said, “Licence plate begins Sierra, Charlie, Delta.”

  “That’s SCD to you, kid.”

  “Clever,” I said. “Have you got kids of your own?”

  “Do I look like a mother?”

  “No need to sound insulted. It’s not all bad.”

  “Coulda fooled me. Do you do all your shopping from Salvation Army counters?”

  “Bollocks,” I muttered, but not quietly enough. “You said b …”

  “Okay Nathan,” I said. “Haven’t you got an important job to do?”

  “Of course I looked you up,” Skye said. “How the hell else would I find you? You’re my big sister—why wouldn’t I want to? I didn’t know about the kid when I started. And I must say I’m surprised you felt ready to start breeding, given the mom we had. But I guess you were always kinda idealistic— always trying to right wrongs.”

  “No one’s ready,” I said. “Hah! Got caught, did ya?”

  That was an incident in my life that I didn’t want to share with Skye while Nathan’s ears were out on stalks.

  Crystal City is five enormous interlocking domes. It’s a triumph of consumer architecture and weather-proofing. You could spend your entire life—and savings—in there without breathing one molecule of fresh air.

  Wayne dropped us at the main entrance and Nathan, who can smell sports shoes from a distance of three and a half miles, led the way.

  Walking with Skye through a shopping centre was strange and familiar. We both looked around in the same way as we used to. Searching for good opportunities, I suppose — only nowadays all I was looking for were half-price sales.

  Skye bought football boots, flashy beyond Nathan’s wildest dreams. They had ten differently coloured inserts for designer stripes, extra studs and a tool kit. She threw in an England strip for nine-year-olds and paid for everything with a credit card in the name of Skye Rosetti. She caught me looking and said, “I had to marry a Rosetti for the Green Card. But I liked the name so I kept it.”

  I called on all my nerve and asked, “What happened to Mr. Bo?”

  “Oh look, shoes,” she cried and flung herself through the door of the fanciest, most minimal shoe shop I’d ever seen.

  “Do we have to?” Nathan whined. He wanted to change into his England strip.

  “Ungrateful little toad,” Skye said cheerfully. “Here kid, take your mom shopping.” She handed him a roll of twenty-pound notes.

  “Wow!” he said.

  “No,” I said. “Absolutely, no.”

  “Fuck off,” she said. “Have a good time. Meet me at the Food Court on the ground floor in an hour. Don’t be late. And kid? I want to see at least one strictly-for-fun gift for your mom. Don’t try to scoop it all — I know you guys.”

  “She said fu …”

  “Nathan,” I warned as we walked away, “Grown-ups say stuff. And don’t think we’re going to spend all that money. You don’t want your aunt to think you’re greedy, do you?”

  “I wouldn’t mind.”

  All kids are wanty — they can’t help it. But I love the way he’s shocked by swearing. I melt at his piety. He wouldn’t believe it if I told him what I was like at his age. And I was the goody-goody one who crawled away from a smashed-up childhood via the schoolyard. An hour later he had the hoodie jacket he’d wanted for months.

  He also bought a notebook and the complete range of metallic coloured gel pens. I chose the Best of Blondie CD for myself because for some reason I can’t listen to Blondie without wanting to dance. There was still a thick wedge of money to give back to Skye.

  She was ten minutes late, and when she turned up she was followed by Wayne who was carrying enough bags to fill my spare room from floor to ceiling.

  We sat in the octagon-shaped food court which had a carp pool and a fountain at its centre. Wayne took most of the bags back to the car.

  Sky said, “C’mon over here, kid, I got something else for you.”

  “Skye.” I held my hand up. “Stop. We have to talk about this. You’re putting me in a very awkward position.”

  “I knew you’d spoil it.” Nathan’s mutinous lower lip began to shake.

  Skye said, “Look at it this way, Sis — how many birthdays have I missed? How many …?”

  “Nine,” Nathan interrupted, “and nine plus nine Christmases make, um, eighteen.”

  “See how smart he is? He’s a good kid who goes to school and learns his times tables, and I got a lot of auntying to catch up with. Right, kid?”

  “Right.”

  “But I understand your mom’s point of view. She doesn’t want me to spoil you. Your mom likes to do things the hard way, see. And I don’t want to spoil you either ‘cos I think you’re perfect the way you are. So here’s what we’ll do. Do you have a cell phone?”

  “We call them mobiles over here,” Nathan said bossily. “Mum’s got one but it’s old and she says we can’t afford two.”

  “I can’t afford two sets of bills,” I said. “Skye, you would not be doing me a favour if you’re thinking of giving him one.” I put the roll of twenties we hadn’t spent into her hand. “You’ve been very kind, but rich relations can be too expensive.”

  She stared at the money in astonishment. Then she closed her hand over it and tucked it safely into her handbag. “Okay, okay. But I’ve got two phones and they have lots of cool a
pplications. Want to play a game, kid?”

  I watched them poring intently over the phones, two curly heads close enough to touch. Nathan’s love of technology has been obvious since he first tried to feed his cheese sandwich into the VCR slot, so he didn’t take long to master Skye’s phone. I kept my mouth shut, but I was proud of him.

  Suddenly I was content. I was drinking good coffee and eating a fresh Danish with my clever son and my unfamiliar sister. I was not counting pennies and rationing time. Worry went on holiday.

  “Can I go, Mum?” Nathan was tugging my sleeve, his eyes alive with fun.

  “What? Where?”

  “Just down the end there.” Skye pointed to the far end of the mall. “He’ll have my phone and be in touch at all times. You don’t need to worry.”

  “I’m Nathan Bond, secret agent.”

  “I don’t know,” I began, but exactly then Skye turned her face away from Nathan, towards me and I saw with dismay that she’d begun to cry. So I let him go.

  “Gimme a minute.” She blotted her eyes on her fur-trimmed cuff. “That’s a terrific kid you got there. I guess you musta done something right.”

  “What happened to you, Skye?”

  “Mr. Bo died a year ago. He was shot by some country cops in a convenience store raid. Stupid bastard. I wasn’t with him — hadn’t been for years — but we kept in touch. That’s when I started to look for you. I thought if he was dead, you could forgive me.”

  “Oh Skye.” I took her hand. Just then I heard my son’s voice say, “Nathan to HQ — I’m in position. Can you hear me?”

  She picked up her phone. “Loud and clear. Commence transmission. You remember how to do that?” She held the phone away from her ear and even in the crowded food court I heard the end of Nathan’s indignant squawk. She gave me a watery smile but her voice was steady.